Day 147 – Living Commitments – Day 18 of 21 - False Image and Likeness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get angry when I find it hard to breathe through experiences or to stop thoughts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as a thought come up within me, to judge myself for having a thought.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as being un-able to stop a small insignificant thing such as a thought.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the thought as bad.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to form a certain opinion about the thought that come up within me, connecting a negative or positive energy to the thought.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Judge the thought that comes up within me, either as negative or positive - dependant on the opinion I have given it, and to then accordingly punish myself for having the thought through having back chat within myself about the thought.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a conversation with myself after I have/had a thought coming up within me only provoking more thoughts and irrational thoughts through the fear of having thoughts, as I have judged thoughts as being something to fear as they may be dirty or ugly or disgusting and as the thoughts that come up within me does not always fit the Iage and idea I have about myself and thus when and as thoughts come up within me which I do not know what they will be, I fear what they will be, because I know what exist within me and the thoughts will only show me to me as what I accept and allow to exist within me and this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the thoughts within me as I know they are within me and only me, as they are my thoughts, knowing that they are always evil and not what is best for all life, knowing that they can still come up within me because they are the parts I hide of me from others in secret in my mind, and that the image and likeness I present to the world is threatened by the thoughts that come up within me as it will expose that who I give myself forth to be isnt who I am in secret.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that the thoughts that come up within me, I can only fear them as long as I have a certain belief about myself, and that the thoughts which is evil will expose and show to me that the belief I have of myself is a Lie and that the thoughts is also a lie and that my whole life has been a lie and that I must n fact re-birth all of me as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to present a certain image to people around me of me being a perfect person while I have evil thoughts that come to me in sudden un-predictable moments and that I will only react to the thoughts if I have false I am of myself that is threatened by the thoughts as it will expose me for who I truly am as the evil in this world.



I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to be completely self honest with myself about who I am and what exist within me, and that I have hidden who I am and in return presented an image and likeness to the world that is the opposite of that which i hide, thus making it obvious what I am hiding.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that the reason I react to the thoughts coming up within me is because I have suppressed the thoughts and HID them away from others in secret, and every time the thought pops up I go into fear and anxiety and stress about it as I fear the thoughts will be exposed and ALL of the world will know who I am in my dirty mind while I give forth a complete false image of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that as long as I have something to hide I will always be subject to what I hide, and live in complete limitation as the fear/anxiety/stress that I create for myself in the attempt to always hide the secret mind, instead of realizing that I must take self responsibility for me and only means what I accept and allow within the space within myself and to stop all abuse and to forgive myself and not hide and bottle it all up, as I can see that the self hatred/frustration/anger is growing as I keep suppressing and only building up the hate more and more towards myself and never breathing but only constantly grabbing thoughts in fear of them being exposed and squeezing them into a bottle (me) and putting a lid on them as if they do not exist.

To be continued.

Day 146 – Living Commitments – Day 17 of 21 Thought are NOT real!!

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that thoughts are not real as the physical shows that when I am thirsty, there is no need for any thought to motivate me to go and drink – it is a simple physical movements of self that will take me to some place where I can drink, and thus through this physical fact of the body needs water, I will in my need for water find Physical ways to get water for myself as a means of being practical in and as the physical and that doing this has no need for any thought, and thus I will through this basic need learn, in and as the physical to be expressive such as finding physical ways to transport water or get water to my home where I can drink water when I am thirsty and that if I have a family to provide with water that I will find Physical practical ways to get water to my family/community as it is a fact of life and a basic need for ALL, and that I do not decide this for anyone through the mind as thoughts/thinking/feelings/emotions as it is already decided though and as the physical that all need water, thus I realize thoughts are only created through past memories as experiences that I had in relation to such a physical fact as needing water and where there was no water to drink and the body responded to the thirst and I created a memory of such event that I made an experience of and thus connected emotions such as fear of not getting water and dying of thirst, and through this I have now instead of moving myself as breathe as the physical to remain practical in getting water to drink, I have now within this fear, started to move myself to get water which is a experience based motivation as an emotional experience (negative) which leads to me becoming “irrational” in finding water and storing water only for myself and keeping water that is here for all equally only for myself and away from the animals/plants/fish and other humans in the fear of being thirsty and dying of thirst, seeing and realizing that this is how people within the current money system have been motivated through physical events that occured in their lives that led to memory creation that had certain emotional experiences attached to them. and these emotions became the motivation points of moving self in fear and thus manifesting and creating that which you fear as we can see the available drinking watr in the world is becoming less and less and thus some have and some do not because thoughts were followed instead of Physical practical points one and equal as all that is here where all equally need water and that no thought needs to decide that as it is a fact. Really simple.

Thus it is best for all LIFE if all have fresh drinking water – and no man has to decide this, everyone one arth can do the simple basic math that all need water and then through the math you will see how we are supposed to live so that all have water equally which means changing the whole monetary system that is existence here currently and the way we are living and WHO we are as Beings need to change in fact, so that all can have water.

And thus we have created a Website Equal Money.org that is where we are doing the math that is here – it isn’t math we are making up, it is math evident in LIFE as how all LIFE must function together as one living being to function effectively and not have consequences of abuse and destruction and creating hell on earth for all. And on the equal money system forums/Wiki we are applying the math and seeing what and how we can correct it all with what is here currently as a starter (capitalism) and then once equal money system is in place on how we can Effectively in ALL areas of LIFE apply the math of life so that we can live in oneness and equality as LIFE where we live in such a way that live on earth can continue for eternity – only once the math is applied correctly can life continue for eternity and that will be able to be seen in the math and if the math is correct or not.

Thus we must return to breathe and to this one Dimension we ALL share all the time as EARTH and to focus on this one dimension that we all can in fact confirm is here and that is real as we all can touch it and see it, and smell it and hear it, and where we all share the same breathe.

Time to return to breathe of LIFE.

To be continued with Self Forgiveness.

Day 145 – Living Commitments – Day 16 of 21 – The trick.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that the trick is to breathe when And as I am within a certain a experience that I believe I cannot get out of.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that the trick is to Breathe and to be consistent with breathe, realizing that when and as I “forget” to breathe in awareness I give way for the mind to play and “mind control” me as I am not as the breathe here physically moving and directing myself, but being directed by the mind as thoughts/feelings/emotions that lead to me creating experiences that I trap myself within.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that when and as I breathe in awareness IN and OUT as Me as the Physical that the breathe Fills up the space within me and that there is then no Space for the mind as Thoughts/feelings/emotions and thus I am here in awareness instead of in a state of Mind control where I give Thoughts/feelings/emotions the space within me as “entities” to take me as the Flesh/Body and control me for its self interest/purposes and thus leaving me with the experiences as the after math where I am trapped within unless I breathe.

I forgive myself that I have accepted And allowed myself to to not see and realize that all experiences is created by me through my acceptances and allowances within me and what I participate within, like giving a demon (energy) permission to take the body and fuck around and to belief that it is me, yet who I am is the Flesh/Body one and equal as all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fall for the trap of believing that anything of the mind is me, when in fact the real actual evidence as my breath always show me that I am here as the physical, rendering all inner experiences False and a lie to myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to to be an automated machine that simple go into thought/feelings/emotions without any question and to belief they are real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I am programmed from childhood that thoughts/feelings/emotions are normal through the observations I made of those that has gone before me, and that I was never educated on what they are and how they are created and where they come from, but to simple accept and allow the input as an organic robot, seeing and realizing that when and as I breathe I give me back to myself here as the breathe as the flesh as Who I am and to stop being a brainwashed mind controlled robot and to actually start living in consideration of LIFE as that which is best for all Life as the physical as the one dimension we all share in fact and can be validated by all on earth as being here in fact.

I commit myself to show that when and as one Breathe in awareness IN and Out that thought isn’t possible and that thinking becomes a struggle as the mind isn’t granted space within self to take control of self and to move the flesh around like a zombie dependent on the input of thoughts/feeling/emotions.

I commit myself to Practice Breath in awareness till I am the breathe as LIFE one and equal as the physical as that which is best for all life.

I commit myself to show that Breathing in Living and that living is possible without he mind as everything learned actually happens on a physical level and not the mind, as the mind is but a storeAGE place for everything undirected within the human as a outflow of a lack of proper education on what Life is.

Day 144 – Living Commitments – Day 15 of 21 – Drowning in experiences continued 2.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that any and all experiences WITHIN me is me lying to myself, no matter what the experie4nce is, as the truth is here as the physical and thus anything else that is going on inside me is not the truth and thus a LIE.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that ALL experiences within me is a lie as the experience is always different from reality as the truth as that which is here.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to live as the truth as BREATH as that which is in fact keeping me alive and breathing and that any and all experiences within me that does NOT keep me alive in fact is thus me lying to myself as ay and all experiences within me had NO relevance to life at all within that which in fact gives life and sustains life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fall for the LIE of the mind and all experiences within and as me, drowning myself in the LIES – as the Lies always only take me away from the truth as the physical and keep me distracted in the mind/lie where I drown myself in the thoughts/experiences believing that it must be life, yet the physical proof is that Breathe/breathing is life as that is what is keeping me alive and giving me life, and not any experience.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see the obvious that everything within the mind is a LIE trying to repeat itself everyday as thoughts/feelings/emotions trying to be real – not seeing and realizing that within participating in any internal reality as the LIE am denying the truth as that which is here in fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that experiences is that which keep me alive – not seeing the obvious that at death Breathe shows the truth as the breath leaves the body and the body dies and not an experience, as the experience only generates a temporary experience in the hope to be real, while the breath is real all ways as life, thus it is to rebirth myself as the breath as that which is real as LIFE through stopping the participation in the LIE/Mind and to live in the truth/physical as LIFE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that the LIE in its obvious way of existence is the truth while the actual truth is that which is in fact always here as the physical has been judged and neglected as a LIE as this is exactly what corporations want people to think so that people can become perfect consumer zombies always seeking an energetic fulfillment through products/entertainment etc.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself in thoughts/feelings/emotions to remind myself that I am participating in a lie, in a reality separate from the reality here as the physical as the truth of Who I Am as Life, and to within this realize that I am not my internal experiences or thoughts and to instead breathe and bring myself back to reality.

I commit myself to show that The mind is a lie, as the mind is constantly in multi alternate realities created through past experiences/memories while there is ONE reality here that we all share and can confirm to be here in fact as our very breathe, and that the physical reality is the truth as Who I/We are.

I commit myself to show that all experiences is temporary as it is energy based and not real, but a lie to myself in contradiction to what is actually in fact here as reality as the physical and that as long as all humans participate in the LIE as the Mind as Multi alternate realities we will never be able to to solve the problems on earth as all humans as in fact only zombies walking in the flesh while their minds is somewhere else and consuming the flesh to fulfill the experiences they desire/want in their lies/mind that ends up destroying the earth and only causing harm and destruction as no one can see what we are doing to this ONE reality we all share as the truth because they are consumed as the consumers they are by alternate realities in their mind, blinded with lies from the truth that is right here as the very breathe I/we breathe and share.

Day 143 – Living Commitments – Day 15 of 21 – Drowning in experience Continued.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that what I experience is real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that what I experience must be real within justifying it through the back chat if “Well I am experiencing this feeling/emotion therefore it must probably be real” – not seeing and realizing that in that moment the back chat is making it seem real and thus I experience it as real where it has physical outflows in my day where I physically participate according to the experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the back chat of “Well I am experiencing this Feeling/emotion therefore it must be real” to exist within and as me as a justification for why I am creating the experience as real.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that what I experience within me as energy from the mind created through participating in thoughts and back chat is only an energetic experience within me that took physical energy from my body as the real energy and turned it into illusionary energy that I then belief must have some purpose/reason and thus I must follow the experience – not seeing and realizing the obvious that I created it with the reason/purpose in it through my back chat and thoughts I had and thus it isn’t special or meaning anything in fact, I created it so from illusions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create experiences for myself through participating within the mind as thoughts and back chat and to then “forget: how I created it with the thoughts and back chat and to after forgetting follow the experience as if it came from somewhere else and that it must mean something, only to find out in the end that I created it after the consequences has played out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to value experience either good or bad above the physical reality as that which is real and valid, not seeing and realizing that when I valid something that isn’t real but only within the mind as illusions and energy and I attempt to follow and participate within it, in the physical and manifesting and illusion within that which is real I have no idea what I am doing and what the actual consequential outflows will be of my actions, as the world is the example/result of these every actions being applied everyday by all humans.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that it is impossible to stop energetic experiences within me through breathing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that I am subject to the experiences I have within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only always give into energetic experiences I have within me and to never give myself the chance of breathing through them instead and to free myself from the chains of the experience so that I Breathe freely where I am not directed by energy but instead direct myself as self will/movement as life as that which is best for all life in all ways.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react and fear all experiences I have within me – within the reaction being of “oh no not this experience again” – not seeing and realizing that within that I have already allowed the experience to direct and control me, instead of breathing and not giving any space for any energetic movement within me as I occupy all of me as myself as breathe.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to move through live without nay integrity and self will accepting and allowing everything to influence me and to make me experience something to what I am them enslaved to and limited to as the experience and thus only giving myself the option of following experiences and never living life as myself as life as that which is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to walk around without any direction in my life, within the fear of life and thus only allowing everything around me to direct me instead of me Breathing and being here as WHO I decide I am in each breath so that I stand as life and cannot be moved by any outside forces through my permission, as my permission is already me giving myself permission to stand as Life and to always life that which is best for all life with no alternatives.

To be continued

Day 142 – Living Commitments – Day 14 of 21 – Drowing in experiences.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I a emotional to belief that the emotion is permanent till it go away by itself in time, not realizing that I can instead BREATHE and not participate within the emotional experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from what I experience as something happening to me, not seeing and realizing that I am the creator of the experience as I am experiencing it only within myself, thus I can stop it, realizing the tool of breathing is how I earth myself HERE with what is real as the physical and not internal experiences of the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I am within an energetic experience where I feel like I just can not stop the experience, to not test it for myself physically and breathe and to not even consider breathing as I am in fear of the experience I am having which only creates the experience more, thus seeing and realizing that when and as I am within an energetic experience to slow down and to stop all judgment of the experience and to breathe instead of giving into the experience as being real. As breath will proof what is real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to to when and as I am filed with fear to belief that the fear will always be here in these scenarios, realizing that in that moment I am already creating and manifesting all future scenarios within the already expected experience of fear, instead of Breathing and re – programming myself in BREATHE – realizing that my bodies cells renew every three seconds, and thus I have every three seconds to renew myself in each breath as my entire body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within the understanding that my body at a cellular level is basically new everyday and yet I keep on copying and creating the old over and over onto the new as it is set in stone, which is a lie as the body clearly shows the cells die and renew every few seconds and thus isnt set in stone, and thus re-programming self IN breathe as life as the physical is possible in each breath on what I decide Who I am.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that the physical evidence is here as the flesh/body and the breathe that the past is constantly re-created by me and my participation within each and every thought I have onto the new, instead of giving myself self forgiveness in each breathe where I am walking new in each breathe.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that everyday and all the experiences I have everyday will simply be here and the same till I die, not seeing and realizing that within that belief I have already created every single day I might still be alive to be so, as I have accepted and allowed it as my entire beingness to be so and thus not doing anything real to change it as Who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I decide who I am in each breathe through what I accept and allow.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief it is impossible to change something that I have been living for almost all my life, such as fear/anxiety/stress within certain situations and that because it has always been like that it must always continue like that – typical sheep programming.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to drown myself in the past within the belief that everything from the past must always be the same again in the future and thus always living in a gloomy amnious way of life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT breathe and instead to give into memories of the past and project them into the future as already set in stone things that will happen and how I have to already experience myself when those things happen, realizing that I am deliberately already creating it as such, not giving myself the opportunity to instead breathe and be here in a new moment of change and re-birth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Fear that tomorrow will just be the same as yesterday, and that I will just have all the same thoughts again, where I can not stop them, and where I will have the same reaction again towards the same situations again and that I will do this and that the same again and my day will end the same way again, not seeing and realizing that I am within participating in thoughts/memories and future projections of those things creating it in my whole beingness, and within this LIMIT myself and trap myself in a life of habit and patterns that isnt best for all Life and only in support of the mind enslavement.

To be Continued.

Day 141 – Living Commitments – Day 13 of 21 – commenting faster than breathe.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I am commenting to rush the commenting in the fear of missing the reactive response I have in my mind that I wnat to place, not seeing and realizing that the comment is based on a reaction in the first place and thus it is based on self interest as the ego and not within common sense as that which is best for all life, which is done within breathe and consideration of all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to peoples comments and their words of abuse and self interest as the ego, and to within this reaction do the same to be spiteful, not seeing and realizing that the response I make as the comment from the reaction cannot and will not support or assist the other being as myself and only fuel the energy/possession and create more resistance.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that when and as I react to others comments and words, that I wasn’t breathing effectively and thus the reaction is an opportunity for me to see and be aware of me being/participating within the mind as energy and that I must stop and take a moment to consider my participation and what the cause/effect is and if it is best for all life or not, and that my comment must be a comment that was/is done in breathe where there is no energy movement, so that the comment I make stand as the physical as common sense and what is best for all life and not as an energy movement that supports the mind consciousness system as that which created/create the world the way it is currently as a battle ground for self interest as Ego.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in separation of others words/comments and to within that make myself better than them, instead of standing in their shoes and to support and assist them as myself into common sense and that which is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see/take others words as personal and as an attack and to within this react and immediately go into defense mode where I attack back, only to keep things as they are instead of change, as that which is best for all life in all ways as common sense as that which is best for all life in all ways.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I take things personal That I am within the mind as my own internal reality as the only place it is possible to take things personal as everything in the mind is always about self, seeing and realizing that when and as I breathe and that I am here in awareness as the physical where everything is here and not in a limited space as the mind, nothing can be taken personal because there is not person, instead LIFE is here.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that when and as I react to another words/comments that I am in separation of those words/comments and not here walking my process as all words of all being equally and to breathe and direct all words/comments as myself back to life within common sense and that which is best for all life in all ways.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I react to others comments/words that I am giving away my ability to respond responsible and to make my comment/words as effective as possible to support myself and others as myself to a point of common ground within common sense that is best for all life in all ways, but to instead through the reaction only have access to the knowledge and information that is stored within the energy reaction to respond with, that is totally limited and abusive as it only stimulate conflict and egos to defend themselves as energy.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself react to others words/comments to stop and to breathe and to not respond immediately, to first bring myself back to breathe where I am clear of all energy movement and to then only look at the words/comments and to respond (not react) responsible within considering all points and words before use so that my words do not carry energy/ego but life and that which is best for all life to end the abuse on earth.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself react to someone’s words/comments to stop and breathe and to take into consideration that the reaction is only possible if I am not breathing, and to first focus on my breathe and delete all energy.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself react to others comments/words to apply self forgiveness on the words/comments and to stand in their shoes within full understanding so that I can respond equally as that which is best for all life in support of all life in all ways.

Day 140 – Living Commitment – Day 12 of 21. Sit down and breathe.

When I sit down.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when I sit down immediately go into thoughts/thinking.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that when I sit down it is natural to go into thoughts and thinking.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect sitting down to “I must think”, instead of simply breathing, not realizing that as soon as I think or participate within thoughts I start creating things that isn’t here and that only fucks with my day.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Automatically go into thoughts and thinking when I sit down, within the belief that I must be thinking and having thoughts when I sit down just to show that I am “busy” and not simply relaxing and doing nothing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that when I sit down I must keep myself busy and distracted within the mind as thoughts/thinking otherwise I might seem like I am just relaxing and not doing anything but breathing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see “just breathing” as not being productive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that when I sit down I must have thoughts and think about shit in order to be/continue being productive, seeing and realizing that this is a creation or Consumerism where we are taught that we must always be productive and not simply live as breathing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that the only products” I get out of thinking and having thoughts are stress/fear/anxiety/tiredness/projections/desires and everything else that leads to me believing I must go do something after I sat down and spend money and be a good robot consumer as I was brainwashed to be as if it is the only way I can exist in this life.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that the thoughts I have in my mind and the typical thinking methods I have is exactly the same as a TV or Radio, and that it is constantly only motivating me to be a consumer in all parts of Capitalism, never realizing that I am here as Breathe always moving and talking and being busy as if that is the meaning of life.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that TV and Radio is inventions of the human as the mind as thoughts/thinking and that the TV and radio and all other media is but a manifestation of the mind, thus whenever I am sitting down or relaxing I am never really relaxing or stopping stress of fear I am simply creating it through the process of thinking and participating in thoughts as they are always from the past and projected into the future sending the body within the thinking/thought process back and forth in time putting the body under heaps of stress/anxiety causing all kinds of diseases and so create a world that is but on big disease for all.

I commit myself to when and as I sit down to breathe without any judgment of what is right or wrong but to simply breathe for myself here.

I commit myself to when and as I sit down to breathe and not be influenced by my environment to start thinking and back chatting and having thoughts, as I understand that it would simply proof to me I am a automatic robot if I do start thinking and having thought and back chat through environmental influences – thus confirming that I am simply a program that responds to input and thus being programmed by the environment.

I commit myself to when as and as I sit down to BREATH and not participate in thoughts/thinking as habit and as a automated thing, as I realize that only brainwashed and mind controlled people and machines have automated settings.

I commit myself to stop the TV and all forms of media within my head to stop the disease that the world has become and to rebirth myself as life as breathe as the physical so that I can be the cure that spreads as LIFE that is best for all LIFE.

Day 139 – Living Commitments – Day 11 of 21.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my own thoughts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I create each and every thought I have.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to victimize myself to the thoughts I have as if they are happening to me, seeing and realizing that within this I am giving away my power to stop the thoughts as me as the creator.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that all thoughts I have come from me.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that all thoughts is for the past, as they come from memories stored in the flesh in space and time and that I have accepted and allowed to consume my life and to keep me in the past and re-creating the past as I project them in my eyes in the present and the future, only ever seeing the past.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that every time I have a thought it is the past that I am projecting within me as a False image of reality and thus when I follow the thought I will end up only repeating the past, because my mind took the past and made it seem a bit better and thus I follow it only to find out it’s the same in reality and thus only always creating the past and thus Abusing myself and LIFE here on earth as I never learn and change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust thoughts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that thoughts are not real and cannot be trusted at all as they exist as an energetic experience within my mind and as a illusion re-presentation of reality and thus it cannot be trusted one bit as reality is obviously HERE and not in the MIND.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to FOOLISHLY belief that I can move and direct myself through using the mind that is energy based and that can change and will change every single second, where as the PHYSICAL is HERE and can be trusted with being here as it is stable and REAL and not energy based as the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust something such as the mind, not considering that within the mind anyone can make up ANYTHING they want anytime about anything, yet with this considered as being possible in the mind we still follow this same thing (the Mind) within making LIFE changing decisions, not seeing and realizing that it can and will change (the decision) anytime as the mind is energy based, based on how you feel and what information has been put into you, and because we belief that mind is who we are we accept and allow the energy to move and direct us like ROBOTS getting a quick upload on the mission, instead of being here Physically where no energy decides but breath and common sense always based on what is real as the physical that isn’t limited or enslaved to any form of energy such as thoughts/feelings/emotions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I have given all power to the mind as thoughts, as soon as I have a thought I immediately without question accept and allow it to decide for me how I will feel – either good or bad and then to actually direct my life according to that, how ridiculous it that – no free choice and no self will.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that as long as Humans give power to the mind as thoughts/feelings/emotions all abuse on earth will continue till life as we know it ends, as thoughts/feelings/emotions are the things that all EVIL has in common, as it does not matter if you are a lover or a rapist – both consist out of the same mixture of thoughts/feelings/emotions and thus as long as we accept and allow one though/feeling/emotion to exist we are accepting and allowing all of them to exist – RAPE/MURDER/CRUELTY name them all.

I commit myself to show that if all human being has to stop their mind and STOP thoughts and feeling and emotions – all abuse on earth will end, as everything we currently do is based on how we thing and feel – thus if people simple breathe and LIVE here in the physical as LIFE then there is no EVIL as evil only come from the mind where there is Secret.

Day 138 – Living commitments – Day 10 of 21.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that thoughts are not real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that thoughts are “reality” taken and placed within the mind as an illusion version of the mind, never showing the true face of what is really here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to follow thoughts just because they seem more appealing to me, just like a bug that goes to the light only to find out it is a Bug killing machine.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to value thoughts more than actual reality and to within this always following the “dream” within my mind and never really see what is going on here on earth as this reality, as I constantly take the past and project it within thought, as thoughts i parts of reality that is made different within the mind and place it over the future as a projection, always living in the past and the future and never being here present in fact in awareness and thus only living a lie that leads to the consequences we are faced with, where reality as earth is neglected and abused and on its way to destruction because of us not being able to see it due to the blinding of living as thoughts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fall for “false” images and to neglect the real Image here as the physical reality just because the false images look better and more appealing, not seeing and realizing that the false images as thoughts can only look appealing because of what has/is being accepted and allowed to manifest in the flesh on earth through our participation in the mind as thoughts, and thus we are the cause and the effect of all that is here that we Fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to follow thoughts and the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear facing reality without thoughts as I understand that without thoughts to distract me and to present false images to me I will only see truth as that which is here in and as the physical and will have no choice but to take self responsibility.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the truth as what is here as the physical as this reality though hiding and covering the truth up with thoughts and illusions of the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide and cower behind thoughts in the fear of what I know is here as this physical reality as that which we have accepted and allowed to manifest and that I must take self responsibility if I stop all thoughts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that if I stop thoughts that I will be faced with reality as myself as who I am, and that breath is the one point as the physical I can support myself with and stabilize myself with to walk and to change what is here as myself as all life one and equal.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that I use thoughts to hide truth and that the only truth that is here is what is being denied, as the only thing that is being denied is this physical reality as the evidence is visible in Life as we know it here on earth as total abuse of LIFE.

I commit myself to when as I see myself within thoughts to stop and breathe and to realize that it is a mechanism I have created to hide the reality of life as the truth as that which is here because I have made what is in my mind as more and better, and to realize that as long as I participate within thoughts I will only exist as the illusion of thoughts and the continuation of the Abuse will lead to the end of life as we know it, and thus it is within the best interest of all Life as ME to stop thoughts and take immediate self responsibility in and as the physical as the truth – and that I can only take self responsibility if I can see the truth and that is to stop all thoughts and wipe my EYE balls cleaned and see what is here, and to BREATH instead of thought and to birth myself as breathe as life here in and as the physical one and equal and to bring about a world that IS best for all life.

Day 137 – Living Commitments – Day 9 of 21. – raised to Trust the Mind

Day 137 – Living Commitments – Day 9 of 21. – raised to Trust the Mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a failure when and as I find myself not breathing but instead thinking and participating within the mind.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to instead of judging myself as a failure to instead immediately as the correction breathe.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to instead of realizing the mistake and to correct myself immediately effectively to judge myself and to within the judgment go into the back chat of - it is now to late I have already fallen” and to within this give the mind permission to continue and fucking with my day, realizing that I am the creator of this and thus in a single breathe I can stop and stop fucking with myself and Forgive myself and move on.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into feeling hopelessness when I find myself within the mind thinking and talking to myself, within the belief that I will never be able to stop the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give the experience of feeling hopelessness power and validation through not breathing and to participate within it, realizing that this is how I am creating it and manifesting it and that it takes a single breath at a time and stop.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that I am a victim to all experiences I have of the mind that has physical impact on the body, realizing that I can stop through breathe.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make myself subject to any or all experiences I have of and as the mind that has physical manifestations in my body as my body such as moods, feeling drained of energy, tiredness, headaches and more. And to belief that as I am experiencing the physical effects of the mind on the body I am to late and breath cannot save me, realizing that it is exactly what will help, simply breathing and being here and stopping the mind feeding the systems that had physical outflows on the body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget the simplicity of the solutions to stopping the mind as breathe – realizing that I have not yet realized breathe as myself and that I also have not yet fully grasp/understand the mind and what and how the mind functions and the consequential outflows of the mind on the body, thus I allow and accept the mind to run wild and free as a form of Trust.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to TRUST the mind and whatever the mind throws at me and whatever the body is experiencing as the mind,.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I have in space and time placed all my trust in the mind and not the breathe as life, thus I will as a “natural” thing turn to the mind in trust, instead of breathe as that which in fact gives me life as the breathe, not seeing and realizing that the trust I place in my MIND that I have developed through many Blind years as to not having any understanding of what and how the mind functions, thus the trust is blind, even if the mind led me off cliffs and into fires, as it was all I knew.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Trust something simply because It is all I know as having the knowledge and information as it, but not in fact how it works and what it is in fact, thus the knowing isn’t really knowing but only a matter of being used to it, even if I have to follow it to the end of the world because it is all I built my trust on, a trust that is based in fear and self interest as the cause and the effect of the current world we life in as the living hell for all in the debts of money.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I have placed all my trust in the mind yet I do not even understand the mind or how it works and manifests in this reality and yet I belief it and everything it throws at me, seeing and realizing that I must re-evaluate my trust within myself as Breathe where I decide and direct and not some thoughts or form of back chatting and having conversations with myself or even where feelings or emotions make decisions for me, this is not acceptable as it is in fact not trust worthy at all as I am not the one directing and moving myself but being directed and moved by the mind.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself predicating in the mind as thoughts or even where I have followed them a bit to not judge myself or to create any energetic experience about it, but to instead forgive myself and to give to myself a in breathe and an out breath and a re-birth in the moment and to continue walking as that which is best for all life.

I commit myself to when and as I see/find myself within the mind to instead of thinking about it and what I just did, to Breathe.

Day 136 – Living Commitments – Day 8 of 21 – Conversations with myself.

This is a continuation of Day 135 Day 7 of 21.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to generate positive and or negative experiences within myself through internal conversations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Justify the world and how Life currently is as Abuse of life within internal conversations with myself – where there is no real feedback but only me always winning and being right, never allowing myself to actually face reality and taking self responsibility for and as the physical as Who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to gossip and judge others within my mind within internal conversations so that I may always feel better/good about myself, not seeing the evil I am doing onto others and myself as there is never any feedback that is real, but only me talking to myself as multiple characters that I designed in childhood to always only fight for me and win, even when it is at the cost of LIFE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Glorify myself within my mind through having internal conversations with myself where I will only praise myself and make myself feel good through constantly Re-playing conversations from the past in my mind of memories in different/modified ways to create the energetic experience I seek that I have identified myself with and as being alive – not seeing and realizing that this is an outflow from a past memory where I was glorified or made special by those that has gone before me and that I experienced myself a certain way and now I constantly seek this experience through creating conversations with myself in my mind that is similar, creating the past over and over the present, never moving on or seeing what is really here as LIFE as I trap myself within these energetic experiences I seek and create myself.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that all internal conversations is but past memories that I have connected with certain energetic experiences that I have liked or hated, and when and as the conversations start within my mind where I re-create the experiences I am simply reliving the past and trapping myself within the past and to within this Identify myself as these past experiences – never realizing myself as the physical.

I commit myself to when and as I see/find myself within talking to myself or having internal conversations with myself, to stop and to ask myself, why am I doing this?, what si the energetic experience I am feeding/creating and why? And to within that realize that it is completely useless and not necessary as I am here breathing and able to move myself physically in breathe and to write and self forgive myself for trapping myself within such conversations that I have with myself and to re-birth myself as LIFE and to not continue on as the past as memories and experiences that just keep repeating and repeating, realizing that this is how the world is in the state it is now, from the past always being re-lived/created in the present and people trapping themselves within the mind as these conversations within the belief that they carry meaning just because they have some sort of energy experience.

Day 135 – Living Commitments – Day 7 of 21 – conversations with myself.

Day 7 of 21 – conversations with myself - It is a trans – it takes over without me even knowing it, when I realize it is to late – I am talking to myself in my head about really weird stuff – how a movie should have ended, what I would have done instead of... such random distractions within the mind. Literally the conversations of multiple characters, each character consist out of one opinion and each opinion has to have their say – yet it is only me talking to myself. Keeping me pre-occupied within my mind, a personal prison so that I may never see the light of day and what the fuck is really going on in this world.

how did I create such a prison for myself -

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to the “interesting” CONversations I have within my mind to such an extend that I actually created multiple characters each with a different opinion and view point, so that they may play a TV show in my mind about basically anything.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that this is a side effect/out-flow of when I was a child, and my parents would tell me to go sit somewhere and be quite, and to within such events where I was Suppressed and handled as being a “problem” for adults for just being here in this world, as I was always asked to sit still and be quite as the Adults are talking, and to within this find an escape within my mind, as a way to not to have to face the reality of things – where I now have created characters from each and every situation where this happened. and then where they talk to each other and give opinions to each other on the matter at hand and to entertain each other.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that the Internal conversations I have created was/is a outflow of how I was raised, where as a child I was not allowed to talk back or stand up to my parents within their actions, or I would be smacked or yelled at, and through this I have created characters as my parents as voices in my head, where I now can within my mind talk back to them and say what I wanted to say just to give myself a sense of release from the anger/powerlessness I experienced as not having any free speech, and within and through this, I have created multiple characters for all characters in my physical reality within my mind where I entertain myself with these characters and say to them what I wanted to say, where I always WIN and feel good about it, seeking the opposite experience of what I actually experienced when it happened, and through this Never taking self responsibility for this reality as I always belief/believed I solved the problems in my head because I felt better, yet nothing substantial or physical ever changed and so the sins of the fathers continue of a society of oppression and suppression and where mental instability is created within the child and and does create mental disorders that has physical outbreaks and that is harming life.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to question why/how I have created and accepted and allowed internal conversations as normal, realizing as I have never questioned this I have never seen the actual problem and thus only continued living the lie, where I “make Belief” in my mind that I am solving problems within having conversations with myself, yet physically not living anything, as I know that the conversations in my head is always only about me winning and me being right and thus not valid within the actual solution to actually talk about the points. Thus I realize the solution is to stop the internal conversations and to Breathe and to bring myself back to the physical reality with actual real physical communication to that I can see the actual real solutions as Myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to drift off into my mind into the secret internal conversations I have with myself. without even noticing myself slipping into the mind, only to discover myself in deep conversations with myself, where I - as a character talk to myself as another character so that I may always WIN, realizing that I have created this within myself because I know that if and when I have to physically communicate such points with others I will not always win and feel good, because I will receive actual real feed back – thus I see and realize that I have connected actual real physical feedback as a point to avoid/fear as I always only got punished in the past as a child, for speaking up or simply being a child making noise as a expression of sound and that it was made to be BAD and an annoyance and a interference with the adults life’s, and that I must instead keep my sounds/questions/common sense and conversations in my mind - where I am save and wont be abused, realizing that this also gave the perfect environment for evil to grow in secret as the conversations was only heard by me.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that the internal conversations/thoughts/secret-mind is an outflow of the parenting and the education and the environment that a child is brought up in, as it is not within support of life where all life is equal but within a society where the mind as Beliefs/opinions/ideas/judgments as the tree of Good and Evil rules over the physical as the tree of LIFE, and thus only create And manifest children through physical programming such as abuse/shouting/hitting and completely molding a child into a certain way the parents have of life. as their religions/cultures/beliefs/ideas/opinions etc - and to thus live in the mind. As reality was/is constricted by those that has gone before and thus limited and enslavement to the sins of the fathers.

To Be Continued...