218 – The Heat of on the Farm P2.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to “feel” hot as an experience of myself as who I am when it is hot, seeing and realizing that who I am, become and become when it is hot influences the heat in multiple dimension as the mind and the physical instead of being here as the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get irritated when and as I experience myself as hot.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel tired when it is hot.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as it is hot inside or outside of the house to not breathe but instead go into an Idea/belief f that the heat must influence me as how I experience myself as who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that who I am as the experience I have when and as it is hot to be real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel powerless within my physical body when it is hot outside and my body feels heavy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel heavy when and as it is hot, seeing and realizing that the heavy feeling is me walking within the ideas and beliefs I have in relation to the heat I am experiencing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that the sun is natural and my body as the physical one and equal as the sun is designed to be able to handle the sun quite effectively with me functioning and thus any other experience is mind, making the sun a burden.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I have made the sun within my mind a burden, seeing and realizing that within the idea/belief that I have created within and as my mind as the sun being burden I have made my body a burden equal and one as the sun as the physical where I function slow and heavy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make the sun and my body within the sun/heat a burden – seeing and realizing that I have actually made the physical reality a burden within my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I make the physical a burden within my mind that I am compromising myself and sabotaging myself where the physical then actually becomes a burden as a experience within me, seeing and realizing that this is not really so but a mind fuck.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I have separated myself as the physical as the sun as the heat as my body within the sun and heat and thus within this separation through the mind I have limited myself and given away my actual physical potential as breathing and working and moving one and e4qual as the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that the sun is harmful.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the words of others in the past to create and shape the perception I have of the sun for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself others fears of the sun and the heat to be mine and to within this live it as such.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief others in the past when and as they told me that the sun is harmful and will give me cancer, seeing and realizing how this created the resistance within me to be out in the sun.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make the heat out in the sun the problem to justify my fear that I have for the sun and that I might get cancer in the sun.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make it a fact within my mind as beliefs and ideas passed on from those that has gone before me that the sun is a cancer giving thing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my common sense away to the trust I have placed within those that has gone before me about what they told me about the sun as being harmful because it gives cancer and not seeing for myself within questioning everything that the sun has always been here for billions of years and yet cancer i so new within modern society and now it is all blamed on the sun.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist going out and working in the sun in the heat within the belief that something bad can happen to me in the heat.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that my veins will pop in the heat.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not drink enough water when and as I am out in the heat sweating, seeing and realizing how this takes down the bodies support system to function as it is designed to in heat and in the sun by at least 50% as I have proven to myself before that I can work twice as hard and longer in any heat conditions and sun when and as I have been consistent within drinking a supportive amount of water consistently over time.

To be continued.

Day 217 – The Heat of the Sun on the Farm

During my Day here on Desteni Farm there are times that it is really hot, the heat I am talking about isn’t always necessarily the Sun rays that is burning on my skin, I am talking about Humidity and a pressurized heat in the air that always seem to make me tired and that I do not want to move and work.
So that is what I experience physically, within this I also have mental shit coming up such as reactions and feeling irritated and with all of that back chat.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist the heat when and as it is hot temperatures.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist the heat outside within the belief that when and as it is hot that I will suffer outside.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear suffering in the heat outside when and as I have to get work done.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see it as punishment when and as I have to work outside in the heat.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that when I am a bit out of my comfort zone that I am suffering.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I do not have a clue what suffering is, seeing and realizing that I have been living in my comfort zone in fear of seeing what is behind the comfort.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I have created a comfort zone for myself through my habits and patterns, seeing and realizing that this comfort zone is my limitation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think about the heat and how I do not want to experience myself as being uncomfortable when and as it is hot, seeing and realizing that when I think about it I am making it so for my body as I constantly give my body the signals of what I am supposed to experience as discomfort.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my body signals that is from my mind as a interpretation of the physical reality that is based on ideas/beliefs that is not real and yet place these conditions onto my body through thinking and having thoughts and back chat existent within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself as my body through giving the mind permission to place conditions onto my body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief my mind when I tell myself in my mind that the heat is going to be BAD, seeing and realizing that when and as I tell myself that I will experience that, instead of breathing and seeing what is here as the physical with no mind interpretations effecting anything.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I experience the heat as more than the heat itself such as being irritated or tired to within that experience belief it must be real what I am experiencing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get irritated from the heat during the day.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I get irritated from the heat as I have given the “experience within me about the heat more power than me here as the physical breathing.

To be continued.

Day 216 – Zombies, the Human Consumers P3

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be brainwashed by Zombie movies that the human can never be the cause of the world ending or being the cause of hell breaking out on earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that hell is already here and we as the human race are Zombies walking around everyday not even noticing the shit we accept and allow to exist within our world that we all share.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that even in this time and age where information is available to all who can hear and see what is going on no one is doing anything to stop or change this world to a better place even when a solution is given such as the Equal money system and Desteni – people do not give a shit, and that this is even worse than Zombies.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that the humans have been made Zombies through their own acceptances and allowances within the current world system to everyday just repeat the same shit over and over to make money which is consuming the flesh of the earth for it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that the humans are the dead and walking around as the proof is within what we as the human race accept and allow on this earth to exist within all parts of life as who we are and that through the physical evidence I can see that we are like Zombies not caring at all.

I commit myself to when and as I get distracted by Zombie movies as being evil and the only possible way that earth can be destroyed to stop and breathe and to realize that I am distracting myself from taking self responsibility for what I am accepting and allowing within and as me and so within this world that is already pure evil as the evidence is already and have been here as the bruises and scars on earth from the human.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself as more than or better than a Zombie to stop and breathe within the realization that I am doing so as a way to not look at myself and where In my life I am in fcat doing the same things within my patterns and behaviors that is that of a consumer, consuming LIFE as the physical to only feed the mind temporarily.

I commit myself to show that Zombies that is projected within movies is the part that all Humans play as the Consumers of earth destroying our only planet for the sake of consuming to stay alive in our minds instead of as our bodies that is always alive anyway and to sell ourselves short for this temporary energy experience just to feel alive for a moment as the mind as energy.

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Day 215 – Walking dead Zombies P2



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that we as the human race are Zombies.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and Realize that we as the Human race are Zombies consuming the Living shit out of our planet and all life here for our own self interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that we as the human race are just like zombies, we do not give a shit about Life and will not stop at or for anything as long as we can consume.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that we as the human race are just like Zombies – we move around every day in the same way for one thing, MONEY

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that the only difference between Humans and Zombies is that Zombies consume Flesh that is still fresh and the human consumes the entire earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that to belief Zombies are evil and monsters and that humans are good and deserve to survive that I am not self honestly looking at the Human race and what we are doing and how we are living on the planet in the totality of it all and what we are doing to Earth in fact and that it is pure evil.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that Zombie movies are a creation of the human and that in itself is only showing the human what is existent here as us.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I watch zombie movies to react towards the zombies as being scary and evil and that the human will never be like that, seeing and realizing that this is only a Hope I have within me that if the world has to go to shit that the human will not be PURE evil.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that the world is in fact already more scary then it can ever be even if Zombies take over the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that the human race is more evil then zombies, as the Human does not simply kill and eat, but Rape/torture/abuse/bully and many more things.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to out of fear for zombies miss-placed my focus and intention within my participation in this world from this fear on outside forces that can destroy our planet and life as we know it, instead of focusing on myself doing it right now in the moment within simply breathing as that which I exist as and accept and allow within myself and so within this world.

To be continued.

Day 214 – Will Zombies bring an end to the world?



Will Zombies bring an end to the world, well first let us look at what is Zombies, Zombies are people that got some virus, they get a very high fever and then they basically lose their minds and then they turn into walking dead humans that seek to consume and destroy what they can for flesh of the living so that they can live longer I guess.
So yes – Zombies will bring an end to the world, when I watch zombie movies all I see is Humans without entertainment doing what we do at the basic level of every day, we Consume the earth as the living flesh, and we just continue doing this every day, no one give a fuck about the world and the earth in anything they do. As long as we can consume it.

So we make zombie movies and how scary it will be if there had to be zombies that will bring an end to the world as we know it, and then how a few always attempt to survive.

The point that is missed is that Zombies within these movies aren’t different from the people trying to survive, the zombies go about their days walking around looking for food and they will do anything they can to get this food, the humans surviving also want food and will do anything they can to get it, the difference is, the zombies actually knows how to work in a group, the living humans always still even in the situation they are in will fight each other and kill each other and cheat on each other and have all these fucking emotional bullshit added, but at the bigger scale the zombies are simply more to the point.

We have to stop entertaining ourselves with all the ideas that the world will end with other outside forces that we can apparently not be responsible for and we have to start focusing on ourselves to see that we are the only ones that will bring an end to our planet and life as we know it.

We try and portray in movies and series’ that the Human is so GOOD and kind hearted and that we have a inherent right to life and that we are incapable of destroying our own planet and that will never be the cause of it, only a meteorite or a random even that is big or zombies or aliens will be the causes to destroy our planet and the human race.

Yet it is all quite literally in reverse, we do this because we know we are the evil fuckers doing the deeds, unfortunately most if not all people watching the movies or series actually belief that they are then not the cause, it is perfect brainwashing in a prefect disguise called entertainment, it always seems to innocent.

To be continue with self forgiveness.

Day 213 – The Final frown Part 8.

I always have a frown Part 1
I always have a frown Part 2
I always have a frown Part 3
I always have a frown Part 4
I always have a frown Part 5
I always have a frown Part 6
I always have a frown Part 7

 I commit myself to when and as I see myself frowning to not judge the frown and to attach a positive or negative energy to it, but to instead question myself and why I am frowning.

I commit myself to when I question myself to why I am frowning to within self-honesty look at the point within common sense and to walk myself out of the mind pattern within and as breathing and to see what is here without judgment as the physical and to stop the mind from moving and directing my world.

I commit myself to when and as I frown to check myself if I am breathing or am I following brainwashing and mind control.

I commit myself to when and as I notice that I am frowning and was un successful of stopping the from in the first place to not judge myself and to instead breathe and forgive myself and correct myself.

I commit myself to when and as I frown and I cannot stop or breathe through the continues frown coming up to sit down and to write it out and see how I have created myself and why and what does this frown hold within it as the past and to through self-forgiveness set the past free so that I can life every breathe as a new life.

I commit myself to when and as I frown to check myself that I am aware of the frown in every moment as me and that the frown isn’t simply happening to me.

I commit myself to show that what I/people accept and allow as normal isn’t always normal as who we are currently is but a creation of brainwashing and mind control where the physical has been used to store the brainwashing and the mind control within out behaviours and patterns that we live as, as energy as the mind.

I commit myself to show through my own self investigation of all my physical behaviours and patterns that the human is indeed programmed and conditioned to the mind as energy and that we are enslaved by these behaviour’s and patterns that is so easily justified and given reasons as being natural and part of human nature when in fact it isn’t and simply how we are programmed by those that has gone before us.

I commit myself to educate myself through using the tools given to my by Desteni and the Desteni I process to remove all patterns and physical behavior that is mind enslavement as energy that keeps the human limited in self -interest and destroying all life for it and to set myself free as breath as life and to equally support and assist others as myself so that we can bring about a world that is Best for all life and end the consequences of self-interest as the mind and stop all abuse for all life one and equal through establishing the Equal Money System.

Day 212 – I always have a frown and Tiredness Part 7

Frowning at night – when it is late and I am tired I frown, the frown is when I “feel” tired, yet I have now discovered through my writing that the frown is most of the time “mind” – this mean that if the frown isn’t for any practical reason such as the sun or reflections into the eyes or from rain or anything physical having a physical cross-reference, I can see that the frown I have at night is surely from the mind as a believe/idea/opinion I have within my mind that is forcing the condition of frowning onto my face which then triggers the body into the believe/opinion/idea of that is must be tired due to the time and the day as being night.

And that I am not breathing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I access the believes/ideas/opinions within my mind about what time it is in relation to being night that that I access the physical condition of frowning which then makes my eyes tired and tells my body I must be tired, seeing and realizing that this is not real but simply a belief/idea opinion playing out as being real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I frown I get more tired but when I open my eyes I am here and breathing as I can only keep my eyes open through breathing and thus showing me that I wasn’t breathing and rather giving into the mind as limitation and conditioning.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I give permission ot the mind to fuck around with me through believes/ideas/opinions I have constructed and created within my past according to how I was raised to how life should be through not breathing and being here within and as the physical in real time as reality as breathe.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate myself to be tired through frowning.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself into making myself believe that I must be tired as I am frowning, using the frown as a reason as a self created evidence to use to excuse the excuse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blindly accept and allow conditions within and as the physical such as frowning as being valid reasons to why I am tired without questioning it and investigating it for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not breathe and rather give into the physical condition of frowning as being to attempting to not follow.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want/need/desire to give into the temptation of frowning and making myself tired.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want/need/desire to give into the temptation of frowning to have a reason a look a physical evidence that I must be tired as an excuse to go sleep.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want/need/desire to give into the temptation of frowning and forcing myself into the condition of being tired so that I can have physical evidence that is self created that I must sleep as a way to get away from reality and to just forget what is here and what requires my attention.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that me as the mind as energy want/need and desire for me as the physical as that which is real to be limited and to remain within limitation and social engineering as the believes/ideas/opinions to stop me from self realization and to stop the enslavement of energy and limitation as me as the mind and will always want to only achieve energy results as limitation for the sake of experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that all it takes is me breathing here in awareness and suddenly the frown lifts and the tiredness is also gone and thus it proves that the frown wasn’t real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be tempted to give into the frown and to activate the tiredness as it is the easy way to go, rather then breathing and disciplining myself as life one and equal here as the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see ways of having to frown upon such as the time and the belief that it is late and that I muse be tired.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give the mind more power then the physical as life, seeing and realizing that it is only with the physical that I can give power to the mind, which implies that the mind actually have no real power as the physical is always required, either me breathing and standing as the physical or me suppressing and diminishing myself as the physical through allowing the mind to take control in the persuite of energy

to be continued. 

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