Day 318 - Reactive Character, Road to success Part 4



The Reactive Character, This Character is around during my day a lot, mostly all my actions/behaviors come from that of reacting.

Fear Dimension
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I react, to Fear that I will be abused.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I react, to fear that I am now going to do something I won’t like.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I react, to fear that I will have to obey someone I don’t like.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I react, to fear what the person will say.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I react, Fear that what is about to happen is about me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I react, to fear that I will be involved.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I react, to fear what might be coming.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I react, to fear the worst within me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I react, to fear that I will
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I react to Fear what will happen afterwards.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I react to fear that I will have to pretend now

thought Dimension
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a thought of seeing a picture in my head where I am doing something I do not like.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have thoughts of seeing others looking for me in a picture of the past just to use me for their interests.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I will be used by someone just for their interest and that I will be the slave within doing so.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have the thoughts of “seining someone being lazy and asking me to do something for them instead”
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have the thought of doing the same shit as yesterday again.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have the thoughts of seeing myself never getting to my own stuff and just being occupied with doing other peoples shit.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have the thoughts of unfairness where I will see in my head how I will be doing a lot and the rest as many will do almost nothing and still just ask me to do more and more.

Imagination Dimension
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the imagination to imagine how I am doing what I belief I am supposed to do in opposite of what is being asked of me to do all ay.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use imagination to create “perfect scenarios in my head of how I believe things should be.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use Imagination to create Fairness as situations pictures, voices, moving pictures in my head that is always to convince and proof to me that there is unfairness.

Internal conversations/Back-chat/voices
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have back chat of “what the fuck do you want today” within and as me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have back chat of “don’t ask me to do you shit again” to exist within and as me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have internal conversations within my head about others such as “ you are a lazy person, just look at what you do all day and still you have the guts to ask me to do more, wtf” to exist within and as me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have back chat of “what the fuck do you want now, I need to starts working on what I am here for not your personal shit” to exist within and as me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have the back chat of “fuck you I am doing what I want” to exist within and as me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let the back chat of “ Why are you asking ME’ exist within and as me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have the back chat of “ I am busy, don’t ask me shit” to exist within and as me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let the back chat of “it’s not my job, do it yourself” exist within and as me.

Reaction Dimension
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use Anger when and as I react.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to validate the anger when and as I react through using it.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the emotion of anger as an energetic experience to exists within and as me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel powerlessness within me when I react.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the powerlessness experience as a reason to react in anger.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the experience of feeling that I am gaining power when and as I react to justify why me reacting it the right thing to do.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use what I experience within myself as reasons and excuses to react to have the secret outcome as my 3wnats/needs/desires to come true.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Not see and realize that any attempt within reacting is to have a want/need/desire to be fulfilled which is based on self-interest which thus makes the reaction not valid and anything the reaction is about not true lol.

Behavior Dimension
Before.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be tense within my body in the expectation’s I have for the day.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that the behavior I am as before any reaction is the built up of the reaction as it is a polarity game and thus I need to be breathing and not creating shit.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I am relaxed I built up tensions of for when maybe the relaxing might end, and thus my behavior starts to change to where I will act certain ways to avoid being asked to do anything or say anything.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that the reacting character sits and creates the conversations in my head.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to walk around thinking and making things up in my head.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Pretend that I am busy and doing stuff when I am really not having to do anything.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into avoiding things and people.

After. When reacting.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I react to get physically stronger and stand more forward and in a almost fighting mode.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I react and I am possessed that I will tend to go far and walk and move more and try and get away from people just to not to have to do anything.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pretend to be busy when and as I react towards someone.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be annoyed.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be angry when I react, to manipulate. Showing it isn’t real or valid already lol.
To be continued.

Day 317 – Road To success – the Road inwards Part 2

Day 317 – Road To success – the Road inwards Part 2

Ok so from my last Blog I have gotten a view pointer to look at, first of all I will look at these points the Desteni Way, the way of taking self-responsibility for who I am.

This is what is in my way, now first let me make it clear, when I say it is in my way I am not saying it from a point of separation or like it is a Pest or like I have to now simply chuck that which is in my way aside, that is still separation.

When there is separation, there is fear – So I am taking this on to stand one and equal to that which is “in my way”, so that I can change from that, because standing one and equal means it is and will always be part of us and thus never have any control or power over self, because we are it, we decide.

So as the Who I am I can here look at the Personality that I have created myself as, as energy and then within the personality there are many characters that make up this personality.

Taking on each character point is the way to go, one part at a time.

Characters.
Funny Character.
Tired Character.
Reactive Character.
Obedient Character.
Approval Character.
Insecure Character.
Resistance Character.
Hiding Character
Slave Character.
Smiling Character
Frowning Character.
Kind Character
Friendly Character
Mean Character.
Lazy Character.

Ok those are a few of the characters, I can see that each character is connected to a specific word, as I the living words I am.

I will within this road to success take on each character. It will be to learn to know they self truly so that I can be true to myself.

First Character I will take on will be the reactive Character as that is the one I face the most, I will walk this character and the rest here within the following structure laid below as it was given within Heavens Journey to Life Day 162 Character Dimensions – Introduction.

Fear Dimension
Thought Dimension
Imagination Dimension
Internal conversations/Back-chat/voices
Reaction Dimension
Behaviour Dimension

To be Continued.





Day 316 – Road To success – Comfort Zone Part 1



A couple of weeks ago I went to a Training course in being a salesman. At this training we discussed a couple of points that is Vital within being a excellent salesmen.

The guy that was training us wasn’t necessarily training us, he was just giving us all the information and within giving the information he gave expressions to express how it can be done, he talked very confident and he was very sure of himself and he did not have any comfort zone.

So what I am going to talk about the Comfort Zone point. Because this guy said the most important thing there is within being a excellent salesmen is to step beyond our own comfort zones.

This I already knew, I learned this from Desteni and within my process and walking my process points.

But hearing this from a Trainer and that it is the most important point was like getting the information from another point of view, so I now bring both sides together, the Desteni Side and the System Side.
First I would like to add why not many people aren’t successful, and this is also what the training guy said, Because NO one ever steps outside of their own comfort zones, this is because we are controlled by fear, and as Desteni has shown me through my own investigation of the material, Fear is a creation only possible when we participate within consciousness as the Mind.

Because as long as we have a mind we have what we call “personal” which is a Personality, and as we all know personalities are Only limitation because we have to have certain things that we LIKE and Dislike to define the personalities, thus we have limitations to what we can do.

Personalities are created through past experiences that then become memories and eventually our thought patterns and what we think about, and what we talk about and what we fear and not fear and like and dislike, so we are defined by experiences (by the past) and thus we accordingly create personalities.

And each and every personality as a consciousness has a comfort zone, this comfort zone keeps the personality in check, in place it constantly defines the personality and thus, when people are asked to step outside of their comfort zones it is usually excused by saying, its not in y personality to do that.
Well obviously it isn’t, because we are consciously thinking about the fears and the insecurities and all the things that we don’t like.

Back to the training day, on this training day the guy asked someone to volunteer, before he even told us what we are volunteering for, I placed my hand in the air as I knew I was resisting going there and thus fearing leaving the comfort zone, I was picked and I was asked to stand in front of the “class”. Everyone else was saying: how can you put your hand up without even knowing what’s happening, how can you volunteer if you don’t even know what you have to do. I said, this is stepping out of my comfort zone.

I did not know the people there, we were all strangers at the same table, I was given “thing” to sell, I did not know what the thing was yet I had to sell it, I was given one minute to sell it.

So here within this test I failed, because the trainer wanted to make a point, he said that we Must step outside of our comfort zone, but if we do not have confidence within ourselves then stepping out of the comfort zone is useless.

As it was proven, I may have stepped out of my comfort zone, but I did not know what I was selling at all, I had no knowledge or information to apply practically once I step out, so I instead was faced with doubt and uncertainly that creates insecurities.

So back to the Desteni message and how to step out of the comfort zone as I have found it through testing it for myself.

Stepping out of the comfort zone is and will always be stepping into the unknown, but then the unknown will become known obviously.

So it isn’t to look for zones that is comfortable, because then we will never find it, we must be comfortable with ourselves as who we are, this means that we as who we are can comfortable be in any zone, because there is peace of mind, peace of mind being no mind, no consciousness as Limitation, it is being with ourselves here as the physical breathing, moving and directing.

I can write the philosophy and the theory, but the question is always How do I practically Live this, how to I go about and practice it.

I use that day at the training as a reference to how I can do it, for instance if I want to sell something, I know that selling a product will be going into the unknown as I haven’t done it before, I know that I will be leaving my comfort zone, as my personality has never had to do that, go there, so I never had t push or face fears or insecurities.

So from the training day I have seen, that I know when I will enter a unknown zone, when I will have to leave my comfort zone, and then I know as I am selling a product I can only do one thing, Give to myself all the practical tools that is and will be required to Direct and move myself effectively within the unknown zone, not from a point of fear, fear cannot be the moving foundation.

So if I know I am going to sell a car, the I know the tools I can give myself is Knowledge and information on the cars, that is knowledge and information that I can PRACTICALLY apply, not useless bullshit knowledge and information that just hangs around, and then I am prepared.

Because the unknown zone will be talking to ALL kinds of customers that want to know what ever they want to know, they want to discuss weird things maybe or not, or they want to know details that I never considered to include within having to know.

So here I how I have applied leaving my comfort zone – when I see a customer, I go to them no matter what I things/belief/fear because I know that is my personality wanting to keep me in the comfort zone, so I step out, I have read about the cars I have informed me and I even take the pamphlets with sometimes.

And what do you know, I say hi and they say Hi and then they ask me questions, it isn’t included in what I red about the cars or in the pamphlets or anywhere I could have gotten hold of it, so here I can have a reflecting moment on what I need to know, what I need to change and get informed on.

And so the more and more I step out of my comfort zone the more and more I learn, and I get confidence, sometime I lose confidence because I can’t answer anything, I use that not as a negative or a positive, I use it as practical feedback.

And this I keep doing, if I never stepped out of the comfort zone I would have never learned, I would have never known what was required or what I need to do, I would have sit and waited in the office and waiting till it comes to me, which is quite impossible.

So the can be taken to all areas of life, in practical meaningful ways, not stupid Nonsensical ways, what we do must be common sense and practical and best for all life, don’t go jumping off a cliff just because you believe that is leaving the comfort zone, that is called stupidity.

To be continued.

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