I commit myself to write everyday within my journey to Life blog and to breathe and slow down and to see each and every letter I type, so that I can stop programming myself within spelling wrong and correct myself the first time, and to slow down and not just write any word that pops up or passes me by but to actually expand myself within my vocabulary through looking at what words to place next.
I commit myself to when and as I see that I am within the experience of rushing my writing to stop and to slow down and to breathe, to start typing slow and to get the first words out and to bring myself HERE and out of the paranoia of writing.
I commit myself to when and as I see that I am not focused on my writing to see what it is that I am accepting and allowing within myself as the thoughts/feelings/emotions and back chat to exist within and as me, and to see why I have them and what will be the result of accepting and allowing myself to be directed by them, as I see and realize that following the experience within me will result in the same time loop that I have created many years ago, and that change cannot come, as change is something I must actually live and not just intent.
I commit myself to when and as I see that I am typing without being aware of what I am typing, to stop and to breathe and to slow down, to not go into the hope of changing, and to actually focus on my changing as I am doing it at the moment.
I commit myself to when and as I see that I am judging myself on making mistakes when and as I am focused and working on change and correction, to stop and to breathe and to not judge myself as I realize that I have for many years lived NO correction and that the automation within mistakes has become accepted as my physical and thus I must and will still make mistakes only now I will see them as I am slowing down and thus I will be able to correct them.
I commit myself to when and as I see that I am getting angry or making myself angry with myself for making a mistake to stop and to breathe, as I see and realize that making myself angry or getting angry is me attempting to use the anger as saying, it’s okay I got angry which means I do care but don’t really care about it as a way to justify my actions that I haven’t taken self-responsibility for, and thus it is simply a point of self-compromise and self-sabotage and not working for me or anyone else and thus anger is really useless when it is for self-interest.
I commit myself to focus on myself and my writing when and as I am writing and to stop the excuses and justification that I use as reasons to not to have to take self-responsibility for myself and the actual physical steps that is required.
I commit myself to take the actual physical steps that is required of me to correct myself and to take self-responsibility for myself and what I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as and to change to create myself and to reach self-perfection within what is best for all life.