I commit myself to write everyday within my journey to Life
blog and to breathe and slow down and to see each and every letter I type, so
that I can stop programming myself within spelling wrong and correct myself the
first time, and to slow down and not just write any word that pops up or passes
me by but to actually expand myself within my vocabulary through looking at
what words to place next.
I commit myself to when and as I see that I am within the
experience of rushing my writing to stop and to slow down and to breathe, to
start typing slow and to get the first words out and to bring myself HERE and
out of the paranoia of writing.
I commit myself to when and as I see that I am not focused on
my writing to see what it is that I am accepting and allowing within myself as
the thoughts/feelings/emotions and back chat to exist within and as me, and to
see why I have them and what will be the result of accepting and allowing
myself to be directed by them, as I see and realize that following the
experience within me will result in the same time loop that I have created many
years ago, and that change cannot come, as change is something I must actually
live and not just intent.
I commit myself to when and as I see that I am typing without
being aware of what I am typing, to stop and to breathe and to slow down, to
not go into the hope of changing, and to actually focus on my changing as I am
doing it at the moment.
I commit myself to when and as I see that I am judging
myself on making mistakes when and as I am focused and working on change and
correction, to stop and to breathe and to not judge myself as I realize that I have
for many years lived NO correction and that the automation within mistakes has
become accepted as my physical and thus I must and will still make mistakes
only now I will see them as I am slowing down and thus I will be able to
correct them.
I commit myself to when and as I see that I am getting angry
or making myself angry with myself for making a mistake to stop and to breathe,
as I see and realize that making myself angry or getting angry is me attempting
to use the anger as saying, it’s okay I got angry which means I do care but don’t
really care about it as a way to justify my actions that I haven’t taken self-responsibility
for, and thus it is simply a point of self-compromise and self-sabotage and not
working for me or anyone else and thus anger is really useless when it is for self-interest.
I commit myself to focus on myself and my writing when and
as I am writing and to stop the excuses and justification that I use as reasons
to not to have to take self-responsibility for myself and the actual physical
steps that is required.
I commit myself to take the actual physical steps that is
required of me to correct myself and to take self-responsibility for myself and
what I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as and to change to create
myself and to reach self-perfection within what is best for all life.