Day 66 – The Personality Suit Part 1

Everyday since I can remember, I have been known as a certain personality, everyone knows me as this personality.

But from when i can not remember as a very young baby/child I was known as a child/baby, this was not my personality YET, it was still in development. 

So observing these two points I can see that there are two me’s,  one as the personality and the one that long forgotten, I can not remember me before the personality because that ‘me’ wasn't based on memory or the mind, this is still a observation stage for me and not yet an actual self realization

So this shows clearly that I am not my personality, but that my personality was developed and wrapped around ‘me’ and then I become my personality, split into two. 

I am now seeing that I exist as the personality, yet inside the personality, underneath there is me, I do not know me as I have shunned me away for the fake me as the personality, because only the fake me can/could survive in this world, that is why I created a fake me, and I have forgotten the actual real me before memory and thoughts, the me I can not remember as memory.

Self forgiveness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that the personality as me currently is real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget how I i created my own personality and suited myself up with the personality and that I have worn the personality for so long that I have forgotten me and do not even know anymore that I am underneath the personality suit.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to diminish me as life and that I have given my personality value over life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide behind personalities to not to have to face what I have accepted and allowed myself to become and this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide behind my own self created personality as if the personality is real, realizing that the personality was created by someone else that is me to begin with proving the personality isnt real and that there is a me not self created yet.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give that which isnt real more value than life than me.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that the person behind the personality is proof that the personality isnt real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the personality to not take self responsibility for what I have accepted and allowed to manifest as consequences within my world and the whole world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget that I created the personality out of fear and self interest to justify what I have created in and as this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the personality, realizing that I am the creator of all my personalities.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately hide the fact from myself that I put on different personalities around different people and to still belief that the personality is real, not realizing that an actual being must be in charge of deciding what personality to use when.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I give power to the mind as personalities I am giving the mind power over me to control me and to move me and to direct me and thus I realize that when I give such authority to the mind that is driven by energy I am willingly giving permission for abuse and consequences as the mind will use the body to fuel its energies according to the personality design and what it likes.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge personalities as bad.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge personalities as good. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create personalities out of self created beliefs about myself and that I require such personalities to survive or hide fear within this world, 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create multiple personalities for myself for each and every person I know and a personality for all event/scenarios to hide and to feel save, not trusting myself as breathe as the physical through identifying myself as past experiences and creating it as part of personalities, realizing that I do not have ti identify myself with past experiences as memories as I determine who I am in each and every breathe.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create multiple personalities though self judgment of myself within certain areas/things in my life to hide the insecurities and self judgments, never actually facing them and standing up as them one and equal, creating a burden for myself instead of seeing all the points coming up as opportunities to change and expand myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that I must have personalities to survive within this world never giving myself a chance as who I am, realizing that who I am is still to be determined by me as I have completely neglected me through continuously bombarding myself with personalities to survive the whole time in a world system that is not best for all life. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear letting go of personalities.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that as it took time to create all personalities so it will take time to take them out with writing and self forgiveness and self corrective living in each and every breathe as self purification in self honesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that I am not responsible for the way I am as existing as many personalities, realizing only I have given permission for them to exist as me and thus it is who I am currently as the Mind as energy and thus I have to take self responsibility and stop me as personalities as the kind and birth myself one and equal in and as the physical.

To be continued.

Day 65 - insecure body to practicality Part 5

Day 65 - insecure body to practicality Part 5

This is a continuation of Day 64 - insecure body to practicality Part 4

Legs

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define legs and how they look as to how capable they are within and as the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define how big/small my legs are as to how much and what I am capable of doing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that size is always better when it is bigger.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that when I apply myself within and as the physical within practicality and what is bets for all life that my body will develop practically and as well functioning as breathe.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that skinny legs means I am weak and not capable of doing certain things, realizing that I have not trained my body within and as breathe to move and direct myself according to the physical in actuality but instead as the mind as Ideas/beliefs/opinions as a picture and what a picture should be capable of not based on actuality within and as the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I push the body to built in size through using supplements and other substances that forces the body to gain size and strength that I will only compromise my body in future consequences as that which comes quick goes quick and thus I realize it is to built my body "naturally within and as the physical one breathe at a time within consistency within training my body not from the mind but within and as the physical and how it actually functions one and equal as a trust worthy body in space and time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that the more muscular my legs LOOK the  stronger they must be.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that the skinnier my legs are the weaker they must be.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire picture legs instead of actual real functioning legs within and as the physical.

Ass

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the tighter my ass is the better I am at sex.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define a tight ass as a sex tool/indication.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define a fat ass as lazy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define a skinny ass as weak.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that my ass is a ass to be used for all practical purposes of the functioning of the body such as taking a shit, sitting down etc.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define having a tight ass as someone that is fit.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself within and as my own mind created ideas/beliefs/opinions of what a certain ass means as a picture presentation, and thus judge and place judgment onto others and myself as the evil within this world where pictures are placed above life.

I commit myself to show that the human has created a picture out of the human physical body and lost touch with the physical and how the physical actually functions in and as the physical one and equal where the body functions not as a picture.

I commit myself to expose that the size of muscles and how big or small the body is has nothing to do whit the body being capable to express itself in and as the physical and that only the mind places limitations on the body as beliefs/ideas/opinions and thus one lives out the beliefs/ideas/opinions as pictures instead of actually seeing for self what the body can do in and as breathe.

I commit myself to show and expose that all body building is only ego and not real.

I commit myself to show and expose that all men seeking to look big and strong has more fear as they seek to hide behind false images and abusing the body for it.

I commit myself to show and expose that the whole Idea of the body must look a certain way to be healthy and strong is all a design on consumerism for the elite to make people fer that they are not healthy if they do not look like a certain picture and to make billions of fearful people that the elite has created insecure and inFEARior to the pictures.

I commit myself to show and expose that everyone that has a IMAGE problem only has it due to brainwashing and mind control through the media in all its forms where people are made to feel less than that pictures, and that the idea was imprinted into each one that the image only matters and that it must be all you are concerned about, never discovering the actuality of the physical body being applied within what is best for all life as life one and equal in each breath.

I commit myself to show and expose that all muscle building ideas people have in their heads are only based on a money making industry and really has no value as life as that which actually matters.

I will show and expose that the human race have become moving pictures like on TV and in the movies and thus become costumed with the idea of how they must look, and thus no one ahs ever really opened their eyes to see the physical and to actually life one and equal as the physical in their own bodies.

I commit myself t5op show that as children there is no Image comparison between children and that this is only educated into the child as brainwashing the child into and as the sins of the fathers and that image Idea/beliefs comes from the parents and the first seven years of a child's life.

I commit myself to show and expose that children are conditioned by the parents desire to have beautiful children and only beautiful according to their OWN beliefs/ideas/opinions of beauty and thus brainwash and place judgment onto the child and thus pressuring the child to look the way the parents portray them or not and thus creating children and adults that is/are only concerned their whole life about how they look everyday trying to achieve a image and likeness of teh parents and the media never expression themselves unconditionally as the physical as they did as children.

Day 64 - insecure body to practicality part 4

 

Arms.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the practicality of my arms within their size.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my arms as weak/strong determining how big they are.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to not realize the actual practical function of arms within and as this physical reality one and equal through only seeing my arms as a picture presentation to show off in how they look or hide.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my arm size a certain way and within a certain limit of being able to do only a certain things within my own self limited definition based on a picture idea of the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that the size of my arms determine what I am capable of doing and expressing myself within the physical one and equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit my arms to only be a expression of resembling strength and male ego as a picture.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to function and move within this reality according to what I have limited my arms to be capable of doing in relation to the belief I have placed in the size of my arms as the limit for expression of my arms.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my arms according to the size they are and to place a limitation on my arms of it being to big/small and that my arms are according to the judgment only capable of doing certain things within a belief within my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect how my arms look like to what they are capable of within and as the physical as a expression of the physical one and equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that my arms are weapons and the bigger they are the stronger my weapons are.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit my arms to only be seen as weapons as a picture to imprint fear and authority within/onto others to not fuck with me as I fear the most through as it is visible within my actions of wanting my arms to be the bigger weapons as I have more fear and thus need more protection.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a picture out of my body through building my muscles in my arms to a certain size to be seen as lethal weapons by other to not fuck with me, realizing tat I am only within this behavior accepting and allowing my fear to exist a me as I validate it as real through the very actions I take to create weapons out of them to create inferiority and terror within others towards me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to validate my fear as being real through creating weapons of fear out of my arm to impose a picture of myself as being dangerous and strong onto other so that I do not have to face my fear but instead create more fear within this world and others towards me and this world instead of stopping and using my arm to care for others and to help others and to built a world that is best for all where no one has to ever fear another again.

Shoulders.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the physicality of my shoulders as being a symbol of strength

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a picture out of my shoulders and how they look as to present a picture of myself as being tough and strong.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define strength/weakness within how big and broad my shoulders are.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define how big and broad my shoulders are to what I am capable of doing and not doing within and as the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define big shoulders as strong and as someone working hard, realizing that the hardest working people on earth are those in poverty and slavery and yet they are underweight and thus showing that the physical and how it looks has nothing to do with what it is capable of doing and that the picture presentation of the mind is only limiting and enslaving self as the body to ideas and beliefs of self as the physical through pictures.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a belief within my mind that how my shoulders look like as muscular/buff determines what I can do with my body as my shoulders.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself as my body to only be capable within how it looks as a picture.

Chest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that the bigger my chaste is the more of a man I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the size of my chest as being a man or not.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the size of my chest as being a man or not.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define how big/small my chest is as how much strength I have.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define what a man is by the size of a man’s chest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my strength by the size of my chest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that the bigger/smaller my chest is the more I am capable or not capable of doing certain physical activities.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my chest as inferior to other males chests and thus that I am not a man until I have the same size chest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that males with bigger chests are more capable within applying and expressing themselves with and as their physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place the judgment/limitation onto my through believing that the size of my chest determines who I am within and as my body as my expression as all one and equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that the bigger my chest is the more satisfied I will be with myself, realizing that Who I am as the man wanting a bigger chest to only then be satisfied with myself will not change as I tried to change who I am within what I do instead of realizing what I do doesn’t determine who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that I will have more self trust when I have/achieve a bigger chest, realizing it is only me achieving a bigger ego as the starting point was to not change self but to rather change others Idea/picture belief of me through presentation and impose..

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create myself as my body as a picture within and as the physical, limiting myself as the actuality of the physical and how it functions within all areas as I only care about the picture.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as a picture instead as the physical as who I am as life one and equal.

Stomach.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define stomach muscles as the ultimate picture Idea a male can have to look good and have great sex as a picture.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define a having a six pack as strength.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define having a six pack as being able to have great sex.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define having a six pack as being healthy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowing myself to belief that having a six pack gives me godly powers in bed and as a picture idea of being able to have good sex.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire a six pack to create the ultimate picture out of myself to attract the females towards my picture and to not focus on who I am as the insecure fearful guy that needs a six pack to not fear and feel insecure.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define strength by how my six pack looks like, realizing the two has nothing in common as the one is actuality and the other only a picture presentation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as notable/capable of applying myself effectively within and as the physical because of how my six pack looks like.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself within what I am capable of doing within and as the physical as my body as a expression of me on how my six pack LOOKS like.

I forgive myself that I have not realized that how my body/six pack looks like has nothing to do within my effectiveness within and as the physical as the actual function of the body as me one and equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that having a six pack will solve my problems of being insecure and fearful and not trusting myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that having a six pack is a blessing and thus I must be strong and a real man, realizing that how the six pack looks like has nothing to do with what one as the body can do within and as the physical one and equal.

I forgive myself that I have not realize having a six pack or not does not determine who I am, but I determine who I am and thus who I am as the body one and equal does not care about Image/looks as creating the body into a picture that will fade away, but to rebirth myself as the physical one and equal as each and every sell as all atoms as the substance of life.

To be continued on Legs, Ass, Back. Part 5