Day 211 – I always have a frown part 6

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my frown as a character defense system towards other human being to dominate or intimidate them, seeing and realizing that this is a character in fear creating more fear and so only create a world of fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I have a frown for any other purpose then a physical point that I am within the mind participating within secret thoughts that has physical intension onto others that is part of a delusional game based on my own fears/insecurities.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Judge every frown I have.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my frown as something being wrong with me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my frown as a weakness I have.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my frown as being to much.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I frown to much that I will get wrinkles on my forehead.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I fear the wrinkles I will get on my forehead from frowning so much because it will reveal what is going on within me, as wrinkles on the forehead will reveal a grumpy old man that is always reacting and defending himself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist becoming an old grumpy man with wrinkles on my forehead that will always seem like I repelling people away from me, seeing and realizing that this is the physical manifestation of my fear of others hurting me and harming me and thus as the frown character I will manifest in the flesh such characteristics where the mind solidify in the flesh as that which I constant repeat over and over within my mind that has effects on the body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my body as a weapon to be used by the mind and to create consequences within and as my body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that what I participate within my mind as secret thoughts/feelings/emotions will one and equal manifest as the flesh and so within my reality as manifestations of my actions and what I give attention to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to immediately judge my frown as being something of the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attach a negative energetic emotion to frowning.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attach the emotion of being bad to when I frown.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a belief out of the idea of frowning and that i am now never allowed to frown, seeing and realizing that this is limitation as the physical body within also expressing myself with physical communication as that which is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the frown as a way to prevent others from being intimate with me as I fear being vulnerable and open with them about the real issue and what is going on within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the frown as a way to hide from what is truly here as me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I frown that I decide what the frown is about within awareness in and as breathe and so I can see when it is me frowning or the mind as secret and fighting for my fears.

To be continued.

Day 210 - I always have a frown Part 5

I am now looking at another dimension of the frown, this is the judgment point I noticed when I look at something, I actually just now noticed it as I was watching a series on the TV.

As I was watching the people and how they are and what they say and all of it, I notice the frown, why am I frowning when it there is no physical reason for frowning, the light isn’t that bright, there is no sun out, the TV screen is far away so why the frown, what is behind the frown.

I see this frown is Judgment, when I look at others/things in separation of myself as where I have placed myself as more or that for some reason I would have done everything different then the characters in the story, I am better, so the frown within judgment is of self-righteousness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize the automatic physical actions and what I have imprinted within them as the mind as thoughts/feelings/emotions and when I participate within the physical action of frowning I activate a entire character that plays out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I frown without me being the direct movement of the frown as me in awareness that I am instead moving as a pre=programmed robot, and thus I need to investigate what I programmed within myself as my body within and as the physical and why and how to remove all brainwashing and mind control and to return myself to life as breathe.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I frown while watching TV to frown at what I am seeing in separation of myself as being more than the characters in the movie, seeing and realizing that this is how I am supporting my own character instead and attempting to strengthen my character as being better and more through judging others, as the frown is like frowning down onto others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept and allow the automation of the frown which activates the automation of the thoughts/backchat that I have programmed into the frown not seeing and realizing that I am creating separation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when I frown that there is an actual change within me and that I have to question this change and why it is happening.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an angry character out of frowning, seeing and realizing that every time I frown I have a set judgment within me towards everything as being angry or grumpy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that my automatic frown of judgment is a implication of attacking others and making things personal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that I have to make things personal within this reality to be able to get a response from others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place a frown on my face with all it entails as the content behind it within the belief that this is the only way I can make an impact on others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realise that I am a tyrant when and as I frown upon others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others as less then myself and to within this judgment motivate and generate anger within me that I have given physical characteristics such as frowning, so that when I frown I can show I am angry at someone according to my own self-proclaimed judgments within my head of illusions and separation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider the physical as what Is actually physically happening to my body when I frown, as frowning uses energy from and as the body to have the expression which the mind can use to generate itself within thoughts/feelings/emotions and harvest the body for energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that the automatic frowning is part of who I am and that it can never change, seeing and realizing that I have proven to myself that I can stop a frown and that whatever justification I had rendered irrelevant and was exposed as a lie through simply breathing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I watch TV or other people or anything within my reality to be self-righteous within my mind as separating myself for all others where I place myself as better and more and to within this judgment in my mind make myself angry at others for how I judge them to be and to within this have a constant frown as I see and realize that once I go into that set of mind or the mind in general and frown that from there on it is a roller-coaster unless I pull the plug as the energy supply to the mind and STOP the mind and breathe and to not participate within this bullshit as it only creates separation which is Fear based and thus more fear nd more anxiety and more stress and more shit I am not even yet aware of for myself.

To be continued

Day 209 – I always have a frown Part 4.

Day – 206 – I always have a frown Part  1
 Day – 207 – I always have a frown Part 2
 Day - 208 I always have a frown Part 3

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I frown go into a state of dominance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect dominance to a frown on my forehead, looking though.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect looking though as having a frown on my forehead as being dominating.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attempt to dominate others in the fear of them dominating me through placing a frown on my face that seems as if I am though and intimidating.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to frown when and as I feel threatened and insecure within my reality and other beings, believing that the frown will intimidate others and so repel them, not seeing and realizing that the frown could also start conflict and even lead to harmful situations as I do not know what exist within others in that moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make myself a threat to others through frowning as a way to dominate to hide my insecurities and fears and to impose an idea of myself as being though and that I will fight for my insecurities, seeing and realizing that I only manifest my insecurities as to come to life through participating within the from that influences others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the frown to hide what I actually experience inside as a mask showing the exact opposite, making it obvious what I am hiding and thus only validating it and making it real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I frown and there is not physical reason to frown such as the sun blinding my eyes or reflections that I am within the mind participating within thoughts/feelings/emotions and back chat (internal conversations).

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I eyes are sensitive to light and thus causes me to frown more that it is the physical reality calling me to be here breathing out of the mind, as my eyes and what I see is focused in the true darkness as the mind as seeing only my thoughts feelings and emotions instead of what is here in fact as the physical where the mind is even less than a fart.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to provoke anger/fear within others through what I am imposing onto others within my frown, not seeing and realizing that consequences of my actions real time and what it in fact is as I am within the mind where I always win and always get to the top, seeing and realizing that the other person is the same within his mind and thus I am only setting myself up for abuse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to stimulate abuse within my reality through imposing fear and discomfort and stress onto others in my reality through always having a frown at them and towards them which is implying it is personal = showing the other being that there is back chat conversations going on in my mind about them which is deceptive and abuse and thus can only lead to harm of myself and others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I am not breathing when and as I am frowning with no physical reason.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the excuse and justification of my eyes are sensitive to light as to why I am frowning as a means to not to have to look at myself and what is actually causing the frowning as the darkness within me in my mind as all thoughts/feelings/emotions which is always in separation of the physical and delusional and about others.

To be continued.

Day – 208 – I always have a frown Part 3

Day – 206 – I always have a frown Part  1
Day – 207 – I always have a frown Part 2

Today I had the opportunity to see my frown come out, I was waiting at a university for people who were writing exams for more than an hour outside, I was basically standing around with lots of people moving and out and also standing around.

While I was standing there breathing and practicing standing straight I did want to sit down a few times, there was no benches, it is really weird though, so as I was standing around and all the people around me was looking at me and being really busy in their own conversations, I did not have anyone to talk with, it was just me and myself.

Within standing I could see what thoughts came up, and what back chat and judgments and in the same process how my body changes while all of this is happening.

This is when I noticed the frown, I was standing outside and I was getting comfortable with everyone around me, and everyone around me was getting comfortable with me, but every now and again someone new would come into this comfort zone where everyone else has already familiarized themselves with each other and has established a green light (safety) there is no one being a threat.

But this new person that came in every now and again was first immediately seen as a threat – the threat was that will this person disturb the peace and safety everyone else has established, so as the person enters the area I have a frown, I am intimidating and testing the other person to check if I win and if he gives in to me being the Alfa there, am I the dominant one here that will stay dominant and keep the peace and safety.

Maybe we have to fight this out - lol

But this frown does not work, because now the other person also feels he has to frown and put on this mask of being though and dominant and an alpha, so he has to intimidate back, this only creates friction and conflict, so I realized this quite quickly and I lifted up my eye brows.

As I lifted my eye brown the entire personality/characters that was activated within the frown also stopped, I breathed and I focused on breathing and to not go into the automatic frown.

As I did this and I eyes opened and I could see reality again and not just my fear/insecurities within the mind I could see what is real and what not, so as I did this I saw the other guy started yawning, he probably yawned for 15 minutes every 10 seconds, this was quite interesting to see, because before all this I was his attention and he was my attention and there was tension and competition and as I stop, suddenly the Mind does not know what to do.

Because as I relaxed everyone else around me relaxed.

So here opened up a few pointers on the frown and to actually see it in action.

To be continued.

Day 207 – I always have a frown part 2

Continuation of I always have a frown Part 1

Ok so I am now investigating the frown on my face that I always have right between my eyebrows pulling down.

I can see within the frown that it has become a personality trait of the entire personality of who I have accepted and allowed myself to be – this frown that I have designed gives me a serious look, so why do I want a serious look for my personality – the answer is obvious, to protect and defend my personality.

I see within the frown when I have it or when it is “up” so to say that I have created it through out my life as a certain “look” that I wanted to present to people, this look is like imposing an idea of myself onto others – the frown gives a front to others to not see me inside that I am trying to avoid and do not want others to see.

It is the whole polarity point of showing/giving forth something on the outside while I am experiencing something else as the opposite within the inside, specifically in relation to self judgments, judging myself as weak and not Mature or basically any insecurities, the frown repels people and intimidate to not enter my zone to not enter my space because the frown is saying I have my defenses up and if you push my buttons I will defend myself.

It is a simple point such as frowning that holds so many point within it when and as I frown, this frown basically is the trigger point for an entire personality – it holds specific mind sets and thought patterns with fears and feelings and emotions.

Since the frown holds so many points within it (dimensions) I will take it back to working with one dimension which is here – focusing on what is here when and as I frown in the moment and what is here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I frown that I access a character of and as my entire personality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept and allow the frown as normal and as something that I can not help from happening.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I access the from and simply accept it as normal and part of who I am that I am accepting and allowing all the dimensions that come with it, instead of stopping the physical act of frowning and thus stopping the entire play out of it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to frown when and as I judge something in separation of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I frown that I access a state of mind where I judge others/things and myself and thus put up my defenses as a frown.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I fear someone or something to frown/access a personality character that I have created as the serious guy that is mature and able to handle things.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I feel threatened by others to access the frown as a way to look intimidating and serious to not be attacked or abused by the other.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to frown whenever I feel that I am not mature enough in the presence of others to put on a face that imposes so that I will not be questioned in the area of being mature as I give the idea forth that I am mature.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect having a frown and looking serious as being mature.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to access a frown when and as I am within a state of mind where I am thinking or in thought to put up a defense as to not be questioned to what I am doing within and as my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I am frowning that I am looking within my mind and seeing with my mind instead of having clear open eyes that see direct here as the physical one and equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let the frowning happen automatically without me even realizing it and questioning why am I frowning what is here is it really the sun or a practical point or am I participating within the mind as energy as a personality hiding.

To be continued.

Day 206 – I always have a frown

I always have a frown on my face – I mean I have tried everything to not frown, I have sat down and breathed and then I would take a picture and there it is, that frown that is always here right between my eye brows.

What is in the frown? – I see the frown is me always being serious, serious indicating me always thinking and contemplating about something – and seeing that the frown is also in relation to not being able to relaxing, as I can’t relax the frown or get it away.

I have tried relaxing my face one muscle/part at a time and when I get to my eye brows and I relax my frown it is gone and my face feels open, my head feels clear and bam one second later the frown is back.

I see this is a physical integration in relation to participating – where I have made my participation serious and that I mean it and that I am doing it and I am going to get it done or I am focused and all these things that I have physically imprinted into this expression of frowning by my eye brows.

While doing all those things I see how it is done from the starting point of being stressed or tense – thus after years of doing this relaxing this frown is quite impossible as it automatically jumps back, it feels like I am in capable of relaxing it without forcing them up the whole time.

So here I am now looking at a pattern, this pattern has come a long way – I have created this physical expression within points I have identified myself as Who I am, and within this the frown ahs become a part of Who I am physically integrated.

The first point I am going to look at here is the Fear of relaxing within anything I do, to be relaxed. And then I will look into why I fear being relaxed within everything I do. What motivates this point, because the frown is quite intimidating and makes me look tough as well.

I can see quite a few points coming here – the other point I see I also experience within frowning is that I have sensitive eyes to Light – like being outside in the sun, I frown ALL the time while others around me are not frowning, when I drive the car sometimes my eyes are almost literally closed – that’s how much I frown from the light reflections or just general light.

Why has my eyes become so sensitive to light and why is it in relation to the frown once again.
I will investigate these points in blogs to come.
To be continued.

Day 205 – Me against myself in Rebirthing myself as Life.

How is it that within my process of re-birthing myself I am against myself within this process to not change yet I am doing, it does not make sense, obviously this is where I look at what I am Stopping within and as me that does not want to end – The Mind, so here I am doing self forgiveness on this point and debunking a bit on the points.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight myself within separating myself from myself as the one responsible for who I have accepted and allowed myself to be as the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within seperating myself as and from the mind beleif that everything happening within me is happening to me, not seeing and realizing that it is me doing it all to myself as I have accepted and allowed the mind to dominate over the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try and attempt to work with myself within re-birthing myself as the physical one and equal through separating who I have become as the mind from myself, seeing and realizing that I give away my power to work and change myself in fact when I try and hide what is here and to in awareness walk through and breathe and re-birth.

I am here to change – that is the decision I make, yet the change is so hard – Only to discover that within wanting to change and changing I am actually fighting myself from changing and the way is so cunning and deceptive. Best to breathe and walk physically as breathe to see what is real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be against myself within my process of re-birthing myself through believing that the mind is real and that what ever is going on in my mind is valid.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be against myself to change through validating and giving value to the mind as thoughts/feelings/emotions and backchat that is always voting for limitation of the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as the window of opportunity is here for change to instead of walking through the change and change as myself in and as breathe validate the minds reasoning and justifications and instead limit myself and miss the window of opportunity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only accept and allow myself to remain within who I know myself to be and to not push through as breathe to change in and as the physical, seeing and realizing how the mind will go into resistance when and as the point of physical change is here as it is not within my pre-programming and so the mind will fight change with resistance to keep the physical all to itself so that it can harvest energy for itself to continue its existence within self interest as limitation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that it is to much effort to walk the physical change when and as the window of opportunity is here, seeing and realizing that this is the mind fighting and defending its limitation and not to change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that when and as the window of opportunity is here for me to change that I will or might within taking the step to change have to do more work or responsibility, seeing and realizing that this is the mind defending limitation and to keep me enslaved to the mind as energy and to not rebirth myself as the flesh as the physical as life one and equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into Reactions of the mind where I feel that if I change within and as the physical that I will e doing more than others as a point of fairness, seeing and realizing that this is the mind fighting and defending my limitations to not change and take self responsibility.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that the mind will use physical space and time reasoning to justify all point of change and why it will be impossible to change to keep me as the physical enslaved to the mind as limitations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that the mind will use fear to keep me fighting myself to not change and rather remain limited and living in the mind so that the mind as energy can continue within the belief that the mind will live forever when in fact at death it is the physical that continue as life one and equal and the mind simply evaporates and ends.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as the point of change is here where I have to walk the change as breathe to Belief and validate the mind and to within that start fighting within myself and so within my world, seeing and realizing that I have to keep breathing and not give attention to the mind and not to give into the reasoning and justification as temptation that will always seem valid when in fact it isn’t at all as I have proven to myself in the past that when I walk the change all reason and justification of the mind is was in fact a lie.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that the mind will use the one thing that will always seem right not to change - the self interest as it will be un-noticeable to self as it is who I am still existing as.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that when and as I experience resistance that is must be real and that I must defend the resistance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I react within and as myself towards my physical reality and participating within my reality to belief that the reaction must mean something and that I must act on it within defending the reacting seeing and realizing that it is the mind defending limitation and self interest as energy to not to change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use apparent physical facts to not to have to move or do certain things within my world such as the weather and circumstances and time and space and all these things that the mind can take and manipulate to look so real and fool the actual fact of the physical and to limit me and keep me enslaved to the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I am the one giving the mind full access to do all of this as I am the one that decides.

I commit myself to when and as I have the window of opportunity to change to breathe and to not give any validation to what ever the mind is giving me to why I can not do it or should do it that is within self interest and not best for all life and to instead see in real time and space what is actually real through moving myself in fact and doing it and changing and to move myself as breathe.

I commit myself to when and as I react or resist a point to within the realization that it is the mind trying and attempting to stop me from change to go there and to see what is real and what is not within what is best for all life and to debunk myself as the mind and to rebirth myself as life as the physical one and equal within movement as the physical as breathe.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself giving and participating within the mind defending my limitations and fighting myself to not change to within the realization that I am actually fighting myself to change which makes no sense to stop and use some common sense and to physically move myself - breathe and to stop the mind and stop myself from fighting myself and say till here no further I walk the change one ad equal as the physical.