Day 100 – beyond my own self belief, one Hundred days of writing,


One hundred days of writing in the 7 year Journey to Life, It feels/seems like I started a month ago only, yet it has been a bit more than three months of writing Blogs everyday within the seven Year Journey to Life – see the facebook page where we all that is/are writing the blogs share it and read each other’s blogs and how we walk as a group yet as individuals to birth ourselves as life to take on all characters and all patterns that is not Best for all Life in all ways and to show/proof that human nature is simply part of the current system we live in making it so, and that through the writing and applying what we write practically living it we can/have stopped patterns and changed to live what is best for all life in all ways and so as each one starts their Journey to life blogs and write and share and removing all brainwashing and mind control and enslavement we will so one man/women at a time change the world for ever to a place that is best for all life.

What have I learned within my one hundred blogs that I have written thus far?

I have learned that I can write everyday and be consistent within it – whereas before in my life I have never thought of myself to even be able to write even one blog, never mind two, and this character I had of (“ME writing a blog, lol that is for losers”) as a belief/idea/judgment I had/kept of myself was so due to programming of that is just in your nature Gian (me) to never be able to sit down and write and actually post the blog on the internet for all to see/read and share/learn/support/assist self/others, and that I can never change it, yet here I am and I proved that I can change it through the writing of self forgiveness of deconstructing the Characters/patterns of complete and utter self limitation and enslavement.

I have learned that I can sit down for an hour or three and I can start a blog and I can actually take one Character/pattern and write it out for myself and apply SF on the character and pattern and that I can lay it out for myself in front of my own eyes and see that what I am living and what I belief to be real is in fact just so because I make it so due to beliefs/ideas/opinions/judgment and that it all comes from memory and past experiences that I have identified myself with/as and thus created myself as that and so lived it as if it is all that I can be, yet here I am, I proofed this one point to myself, that I can change a Pattern, that I can through walking the correction after writing it out for myself stop the self limitation/abuse of the patterns that is not best for all or even for my own development as a complete human being that can achieve my full potential and that I can in the place of that pattern live a correction that I lay out for myself within self commitments and thus through living it in and as the physical – the same way I created all the other patterns/characters – create and manifest what is best for all life, thus this being me as Who Idecide who I am as LIFE as the physical one and equal as all LIFE.

I also learned that there is a extremely long road ahead for humans on earth as I am seeing myself being here at my one hundredth blog, Yet it is possible, change is possible as I have seen within changing one pattern thus far, writing my blog every day. And that it is necessary that ALL who can hear this message start the Journey to Life blog writing daily, to see and investigate what we are doing and to see in common sense and self honesty what is necessary for REAL actual change that can last eternally, as this is a must for human nature to change – and as I have seen it is possible.

I have also learned over the past three months – as this is a really cool point for me within writing my daily blogs in the journey to life blogs that writing everyday in self forgiveness and writing is the greatest self support and assistance I can give myself within stabilizing myself, you know when you have a mind full of all the crap thoughts, the nasty thoughts, the anger thoughts the constant thinking that just does not want to stop, you know the nights you cannot fall asleep because you are thinking and so busy in your mind the whole time, and then it starts to get to you, well writing it out in self forgiveness if releasing yourself of that, giving you back to yourself and, and after a while you will see your mind becoming more and more quite, still thoughts, still things coming up, but it is at a level where I can handle it with breathing and not letting it take over my day and my life and so the journey shows that what is in the mind isn’t real as I/we can simply stop it. Thus what remains here in and as the physical is the reality – real that we have to take self responsibility for as a group each individual at a time.

What I have also learned is that as a group writing and self forgiving ourselves we will change the world as WHO WE ARE, because who I am determines what I do, it simply is that way, you have to be someone living a certain principle to secondly do what you do, you cannot do something without first making a decision within you as who you are, thus we must change who we are to that which is best for all life in all ways and so we will create a world that is BEST for all life in all ways, why would we want anything less than the best for ourselves and all other life, when all life has the best there can be we are living the best life possible. Unlike the current system that is simply our own doom.

I ask that all that come into contact with this blog or the vlog that is made on it, to join the Journey to life Blogs, and write everyday for a new world that is best for all life in self forgiveness and commitments, you will never be ready till you do it. So doing it starts when you do it lol.

Otherwise waiting becomes your master and you will be victim to all that you allow to happen, yet at the same time the creator of what happens as the waiting allows it, time is limited, yet we have time, lets use each breathe and make each breath actually in fact COUNT, do not waist your breathe.

Join the forums and the equal money website, become the change you want – a BEST and better world in fact for yourself and all life. 



Day 99 – Moving Myself Moving the World Part 5 commitments


I commit myself to when and as I see myself participating within thoughts/back chat/feelings/emotions to instead of allowing them to roam free and to continue on through my direct participation in them, to stop within myself and to instead allow myself to breathe and to let go and to self forgive myself for the thoughts/back chat/feelings/emotions and to not judge myself but to instead allow myself to let the thoughts/feelings/emotions and back chat flow through me like a filter and to let them be purified within and as breathe so that/to bring myself here where I already am in fact to the physical reality and to remain here, so that I may realize that who I am as the physical is real as it is evident and that all thoughts/feeling/emotions are but only part of the brainwashing and pre-programming that was placed to keep me enslaved to to never wake up from the LIE I am living in and as the mind as pictures and memories as the false gods imposing themselves onto the physical that leads to what is here currently on earth as literal hell for most life, for all animals/plants/humans and the earth itself – as we wonder and give into thought/feelings/emotions/back chat I/we are zombies for the system as the system uses what we have as our switches as our thoughts/feelings/emotions to simply switch me/us to buy and to consume and to only seek out own happiness that will make the few on top make billions and live in their own little heavens while earth burns down around them/us, and to realize that as long as I give thoughts/feeling and emotions permission and validation as being real and as if the experiences they give me as real, that I am literally a perfect consumer that is/was perfectly brainwashed to be controlled and that I can stop through breathing and through self forgiveness and through writing and thus.

I commit myself to when and as I find myself lost in my own thoughts/feelings/emotions/back chat to stop and to give to myself the time to sit down to take out a book and a pen or to turn on my PC and to not be directed through thoughts/feelings/emotions and to write and to set myself free and to bring myself back here as  breathe as all that is here in oneness and equality and to actually SEE with REAL eyes the physical and what I/we are/have done to earth and the physical so that I can take and move myself to move the world to a place that is best for all life in all ways, as this I see I will honor myself and respect myself, as I will be able to say I have taken selfresponsABLEty for myself and life with my own free self movement and that I was/am not directed through/by any energy such as thoughts/feelings/emotions/back chat.

I commit myself to when and as I see/find myself trapped within my own experience that I created for myself with my own mind as thoughts/feelings/emotions/back chat to stop within myself and to breathe and to not continue the conversations and the experience as if it is set in stone that this is how I must experience myself and to say/justify that I have already gone into it, thus I can not do anything about it, realizing that within continuing that little voice telling me that. is what isn’t making it stop and thus I as the physical body as the physical as all that is here must simply breathe, and not the mind.. and be here and to let the thoughts/feelings/emotions flow through me as a filter so that I may instead of judging myself and giving myself to the mind as a brainwashed zombie, to instead purify that which is within me that I give permission as the breathe back to life through me to not separate myself from what is here instead  to stand one and equal as that which is here where I am the directive principal as that which is best for all life.

I commit myself to when and as I see/find myself in a moment being directed by energy as/of the mind as thoughts/feelings/emotions/back chat to stop and realize that I am being mind controlled as I understand that all thoughts/feelings/emotions/back chat is of the past as memory/experiences and thus when as as I follow thoughts/feelings/emotions/back-chat that I am simply following past memories/experiences that is the same as repeating history over and over showing to me that I have not yet developed actual self will and free choice as breathe, as breath is not determined by any energy and thus requires actual self movement and self direct to move myself and thus as I move as breathe in each breath I move as the physical one and equal and thus I move as the world as all that is here that is real, as that which is already here is that which is real and so I commit myself to write and to forgive myself and to set myself free from all energy and mind possessions and to forgive the past that I have programmed and that was programmed into me as the living flesh that I am, where I as the living flesh currently have created and manifested patterns/habits that keeps me locked into the energetic time-loops of consciousness that is not best for all life and thus I must walk in the flesh the corrections as my writing and my self forgiveness is my support and my anchor that I create for myself to walk this process of birthing myself as life one and equal as that which is best for all life.

Day 98 – Moving myself Moving the World Part 4.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I see things that needs to be done within practicality in my world and within what is best for all life to create the thought fo seeing myself doing it and already experiencing myself in the current moment as I project how I belief/judge how I will experience myself and to then create the back chat of – “I do not want to experience myself that way” – “I would rather go watch something or sit outside” – thus seeing and realizing that through participating within the mind as thoughts as energy that I actually create an experience within me of something that still has to come where as in the current moment I have no idea of how I will in fact experience myself, and so I see and realize that to project how I belief/judge how I will experience myself in the future in things to come is me already making it so, setting it is stone for myself while in fact it is just of the mind and not real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself according to my own judgments/beliefs of things and thus I belief according to my judgment that I can only experience myself in that certain way within that event as I judged it, not seeing and realizing that it is my judgment that is making it so, thus I have the power to not judge at all and to instead breathe and to when/if the moment comes I will be here in and as the physical with no self imposed self created experiences of energy that only limits me in all ways, either through being emotional or full of fear and anxiety stress and or the opposites, as both are energy and polarities it is best to not feed one or the other as they require each other to exist as energy and thus breathing as no energy is the solution to real freedom and no self created limitations of the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I participate within thoughts of the the future/past to go into the thoughts and give them validation as if they have the power to determine what I will do and not do, instead of realizing that I create the thoughts and thus I can stop and breathe and remain here one and equal as the physical moving myself as the physical where no energy/mind that is limited to its own information decide for me what I can and can not do but to instead use the physical as the true mind to show me what is here to be done and how within the principal of what is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into resistance of moving myself when and as a thought comes up that presents me with a picture of something else I could be doing such as taking a nap or going to the mall or the beach and to then judge what is here to do as that which is best for all life as less than and as something that isnt “fun” to do, thus I realize this is only possible through the process of brainwashing that has happened in child hood years and even still now, where I was programmed and taught that going to the beach or the mall or having a nap is fun and that anything else will thus not be fun and to have connected fun with an energy feeling/emotional connection that I will activate when I have the thought and to posses me and then go into a state of resistance to do what isnt judged as fun. Seeing and realizing that if I simply remove the energy connection that I have towards the fun stuff and remove the energy connection I have created towards the not fun stuff that all that will remain here is me moving myself physically, realizing that this is true freedom as there is no mind/feelings/emotions keeping me limited and only possible to do a few tings, but now as the physical I cna do all things as I am not limited by any thought/feeling/emotion.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge doing what is best for all life as something that I have to do, realizing that as long as I see it as something I have to do. I have not yet dealt with myself and my own self honesty and common sense where I do see that doing what is best for all life is in fact the only way I should ever live and thus it must not be a have to but a way of life as WHO I AM as life, one and equal in all ways.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fall for the system and the pictures and colors the system throws at me just like sweets, they look good, they taste good and thus I belief they must be good, till the research is done and we find out that is is actually broccoli that is good and sweets as a man made thing of many chemicals etc mixed together thus not made but mutilated (thus it is man) that causes a lot of shit for the body. And so it is to look at what I have made sweets in my mind within what I belief I like and rather be doing and to see the truth of it and the starting point of it all, and then to re evaluate myself and where I stand and what is really here as the physical in support of the physical reality one and equal as me.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that when and as I move myself as WHO I AM, that I am in fact as WHO I AM moving the world within everything I do and say in fact as all is connected in all ways.

To be continued.

Day 97 – Moving myself moving the world. Part 3


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I see I have to “stand UP and Move myself’ to go into the though of “seeing myself doing it later anyway” and so have the back chat of – ‘ I can sit a bit longer, I will get to it later anyways” – “ there is still a lot of time for me to move myself I may sit a little bit more” and to then go into the energetic experience of feeling relaxed and content with myself when in fact it is me justifying laziness and the judgment of me having to move myself, thus I see and realize that as I participate within the thought of when I Know/realize I have to start moving myself that I am compromising me as who I am as the living expression of life as doing what is best for all life in all ways and to then once I have given the thoughts/back-chat permission to define who I am and what I do to trap myself in the energetic experience I deceived myself with as being okay – and to then later on run out of time and not having enough time to do all the things/responsibilities I have to do, and so go into more thoughts and back catch to justify it as being okay and that tomorrow is another day – not seeing and realizing that if/when I do not move myself when I know I have to and leave things to compound and get more for the next day I will literally trap myself within the overwhelming of things to do that I deliberately created myself, as I realize within the common sense that if I do not what needs to be done today that it will not remain the same amount of stuff to do the next day, it will be today's stuff and tomorrows stuff all together.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that I create and manifest my own consequences though participating in just ONE thought that leads to many outflows that I accept and allow deliberate, realizing that nothing happens by coincidence or by being someone else fault. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take on the character of me not moving myself as a reason/justification of I deserve to rest, this is my treat, I will treat myself to rest just a bit more and then my treat for tomorrow will be to suffer and give up more and to have to much shit to do, lol realizing that my treat in fact will be to do everything in the time given to me till it is done and to then, the time that is left to use it to rest or watch a movie, and this way to practically distribute my time with no thoughts/back-chat involved, only the consideration of the physical reality that is best for all life and where no thoughts is thus needed as it is a physical decision mathematically calculated as 1+1=2.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I see/realize that I must get up within myself and move myself” to distract myself with other things around me such as quickly getting something to drink while I am not thirsty but only for the idea and to then tell myself I will just finish this cup and then go do what needs to be done, not realizing that I do not know what will happen or how things will change from this moment till the next, and thus quickly drinking something just for the sake of giving myself more time within a “reason” to not do anything yet that I will within accepting and allowing such pattern to play out and where I have given the character within the pattern permission to play its role of “avoiding what needs to be done as much as possible” that more things will suddenly pop up so inconveniently that I need to do, such as taking a pee and then to get something to chew on and then to just quickly get some fresh air outside and then just to quickly check what is on TV and  before I know, time has gone by and I never got to  what needs to be done, leaving me with regret and feeling as if I now have to rush and get things done, while I had all the time in the world but before instead chose to use it on doing nothing relevant – seeing and realizing that Who I am has not been a self commitment to myself as life as doing what is best for all life but instead still based on the mind as energy movement within and as how I feel/think, realizing that this is limiting me and enslaving me to the patterns and characters that I have created instead of setting myself free to be able to freely chose to do what is best for all life in all ways as who I ma as LIFE in all ways and through moving myself as actual real self directive deliberate decisions I make in each breathe as what is best for all life that I am deleting such characters and patterns and walking through the limitations and mind enslavement and to birth myself as life as self movement and to move myself as all that is here one and equal. 

To be continued.

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