At Desteni we have since the beginning recommended for people to take on the 6 hours of sleep challenge. I myself have been sleeping for 6 hours every night for the past couple of years.
Here is the video below that I am referring to.
What the commander says about discipline equals Freedom is true. The same as the saying that goes, with great Freedom comes great responsibility (or I just made that one up) – But we need to have an ABILITY to Respond and not REACT to what is happening around us.
If we empower ourselves with discipline then we automatically enforce response/ability and so we then create a point within ourselves where we say “I am not a victim” I am in fact HERE and a Director, a director uses what is HERE and direct things, changes things, make things move/happen.
If you read the comment section in this video you will see many people calling out “MADNESS” due to the amount of time that is being proposed to sleep – In this Case Casey Neistat sleeps 5 hours approximately.
So, 5 hours can be a bit hard, I know, I took on the challenge of sleeping only 4 hours a night for 21 days, and even skipping on sleeping some nights, I pushed myself within many points and challenged and checked out these points for myself. I have found that 6 hours with a 16 hour working day is okay.
The work I do, is an all in one package – I live on a farm within a community, at the same time the community is my colleagues, and the farm is where I work from, I do at least 8 hours a day computer work and 8 hours I am outside (which means physical labor and moving things, getting things etc) – Like today I had to do a ton of phone calls and talk to a ton of people, I also had to do paper work for certain things, I also had to then get to our vegetable patches and take out weeds and start planting seeds. I also had to direct and manage other people during the course of the day. I also had to sit in and meet with people, talk and discuss movement.
Then, consider, since my work and home and everything is in one place – I am also all the time with my wife, my home, and my five year old son, there is no “going away” it is all moving and busy and active all the time, consistently till I put my head on my pillow at night. Not even mentioning the basics of living in this post here, like making breakfast, lunch, dinners, cleaning, and laundry and so on. (Which I leave out sometimes lol) and consider, since this is our setup, there is NO weekends, NO holidays, it is always continuous and the same flow.
The point I am getting to here is – what I had to learn and face the MOST within this point of sleep, discipline and thus response/ability that all go hand in hand was – MY inner world, my emotions, thoughts and feelings were the biggest challenge within all of this, especially with my life setup – it all becomes TOO much at times, like there is never “time for yourself” – Time away, time to just do nothing, except when I am asleep, so SLEEP did and can easily become a place to hide, to get away from, to not have to wake up and face MYSELF, my experiences, my thoughts, my back chat.
This is where the DESTENI process of writing (as I am doing here) within self-forgiveness has been my foundation and point of not JUST forcing myself into a certain idea of sleep/disciple – but to actually face why I “wanted/desired” sleep – what thoughts, feelings and emotions I was running from, what I was avoiding and so my inner change would accompany my outer change naturally.
Right now is a good example, I went to bed last night at 1am, I got up at 7am, right now it is twenty to eleven, I still need to finish this blog and post it and then share it around, so I will probably go to bed around 12, thus I can wake up at 6, I do not know yet, will see.
So, I am going to do self-forgiveness on resistances to taking on such a challenge of less sleep yet being very busy during the day, and see how I do it, how I take apart the beliefs that are pre prescribed and the opinions, the self-definitions, the IDEAS we have of ourselves and reality, and how through self-forgiveness we can actually remove the mental burdens that already make us fail, and to then have a REAL assessment of what is possible and what isn’t, not based on knowledge and information within our minds. We have to be real, we do not know what we are actually capable of until we remove brainwashing and pre-programming (that’s which we were TAUGHT from school, parents, culture, science, name it all). As always, it is up to you to do YOUR self-forgiveness on this point.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to the idea of only sleeping 5/6 hours a night and to still be productive all day.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT see and realize that the initial reaction to only sleeping 5/6 hours a night is based on a self-limiting idea/belief I have of myself, and so the reaction serves as a defense mechanism to keep in take the limited self-definition of who I believe I am.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into IMAGINATION and PROJECTION of what I might experience, and thus who I will be if I had to only sleep 5/6 hours a day, without first testing it out for myself in such a way where I walk it absolutely without pre-conceived ideas/believes about it.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to the idea of only sleeping 5/6 hours a night when I look at MY life, what I already do and go through on a daily basis, where I already feel exhausted at the end of the day, and so already give up and give into a reality/life that I already do not enjoy and so settle for that instead of pushing myself to change it, change who I am accepting and allowing myself to be within it all.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when hearing of others who have succeeded in only sleeping 5 hours a day and having a functional life that is stable, to go into comparison of where I immediately pace myself as having a more difficult life, a more different life than them, and so it is all unfair and they were simply lucky and I am unlucky, and so accept and allow ME to remain the same within a victim mentality, before even actually trying and testing what is really possible for myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear taking on my sleeping habit/comforts and to face a bit more of discomfort, even if it means I could create and actual comfortable life, and not just one that seems comfortable.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deny change for myself and my life through denying such a challenge based on reactions I have, believes I have, ideas I have.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear change, to fear what is required for me to change and to resist taking that step of actually testing something out for myself in real time, and so rather go into knowledge and information to justify and deny myself change.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am incapable of taking on such a challenge, that I am not worthy of such a challenge.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I only sleep 6 hours a night that I will die.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I had to take on the challenge of only sleeping 6 hours a night considering everything else going on in my life currently, that I will have a heart attack, that I will be too exhausted to enjoy myself, to live and eventually destroy my life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I had to change mt schedule, my sleeping patterns that other people, such as family members, children, partners will resist it, hate me for it and not like me for taking on such a challenge, and so deny myself the challenge and rather conform to the norm, which does not serve me either within how I’m experiencing myself and everyone else.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear starting such a challenge within the idea that I must succeed the first time, not seeing and realizing by taking on such a challenge, one will have actual real feedback based, which will be based on my position and location within this world and so I can accordingly adjust to what is best for me and so for all to be practical and real, yet change, moving forward.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be controlled by what science and doctors have TAUGHT me and my parents about sleep and so wired my mind to believe it to be real and so wired my body to function as I believe, and so seeing this challenge as being against logic/science – yet I have not actually tested it for myself in fact to see what is real for me and what isn’t.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed an IMAGE of failure, or misery, of depletion to come before me s I think about taking on this challenge, and so already doom myself to an image in my mind of what this challenge will be like, not seeing and realizing that such an image that comes before me come from me as who I am currently, not who I will be and thus this challenge will challenge that image I hold of myself within me to be no more, if I give it a real living chance.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear who I might be in such a challenge.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to hold onto the reason, the WHY I am doing this for long enough to push through – thus a gift within this is that one’s why might not be a real reason, and thus ones why must change till it is unchangeable, till it is a reason as a way that is that of LIFE, rebirth, of self not accepting and allowing any self-abuse or false images of self, to remove brainwashing and mind control instilled within self over years, since birth.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear challenging my beliefs, ideas and opinions about myself/reality through taking on a challenge of sleeping only 6 hours a night.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the worst of me coming out taking on such a challenge.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the worst of others coming out if the worst of me comes out within taking on such a challenge, and thus fearing the hidden existing parts to show their faces, and so not seeing and realizing that these parts already exist and are in play, simply in secret, and thus to call them out through a challenge one can face them, clear the air in a directive way, instead of it coming out in surprised moments that causes harm unexpectedly.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear change.
I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that if I cannot take on a small challenge of change, then I cannot expect of myself to want to change my life as a BIG part of change either.
I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that it is within the details of things that the bigger things are made of, and thus If I truly want change within my life, all life, then I must be equally willing to face change first in the details.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see this challenge as a military challenge where I have to be hard on myself, harsh on myself and others, instead of seeing and realizing that it can be a gentle challenge, one of understanding and support, if this is the approach made in agreement.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make this challenge about becoming/being MORE than who I am, instead of seeing and realizing that this challenge is to remove who I believe I am NOT so that the expression of me as LIFE can simply walk through and be here as a true individual as who I am, and thus NOT to make it about becoming more, or that one is less currently, rather than one is ready to express SELF s self’s already existing potential that has been suppressed and denied.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I take on the 6 hours’ sleep challenge, that my life must still function exactly the same, and thus missing the point of change, and so I see and realize that taking on this challenge I am also taking on the challenge of changing things in my reality in a practical functional best for all manner and so stop habits and patterns that are abusive, self-harming or inductive of abuse towards others.
I commit myself to when and as I take on this challenge to be understanding of myself and others and so not to fall for the emotional reactions that come up and to act on them impulsively and to use the lack of sleep as a reason/justification for behaviors/manners.
I commit myself to BREATH and to stop the thoughts, feelings and emotions from directing my day when I take on this challenge and to stick to my plan (discipline = this is the pan) and keep things real, practical and harmonious for all within the transition/changes.
I commit myself to care and be gentle with myself taking on this challenge and so not to create more emotional problems/turmoil’s but to support myself, assist myself, give to myself as a way of telling myself – I am doing this.
I commit myself to when and as I see I want to give up, to see and realize what I am falling back into, to thus STOP to not go back to what I know, but rather focus on changing the challenge to be more in alignment with what is currently practical and so build it up,,, to keep the movement forward to what is best for all as myself.
I commit myself to do this FOR me within the understanding that who I am currently isn’t y true individual expression as life, but rather a suppressed and denied self, and so I do this for me to be my true individual expression to be the best for me and thus automatically be the best for all equally, as I see and realize that the suppressed and denied me isn’t helping me or anyone and holding onto this me isn’t serving life.
Standing for what is best for all.
The universe is all in alignment – except the human being with their multi-dimensional mind, where they can make themselves believe to be any character, and be all none the wiser that it is all absolute bullshit.
Billions of years of abuse that has occurred on earth and on other planets – There is a lot of work to be done, if you are ready to take responsibility – cool. Obviously if you are not an equal individual by the time you die – you will not be continuing your journey. Only as equals can god exist.
We are eradicating from existence forevermore all those that “need to be more” and that claim themselves to be more for ever more. You claim you are more, or have some form of superiority – This is your end.
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Here is the full interview below, Above I took pointers from the recording of Bernard Poolman speaking. As usual, I will write and take on what came up within me while listening to this speech and write self-forgiveness.
Many points came up for me listening to this interview – what stood out for me was when Bernard brought up the words of “need to be more” – It struck a chord within me, multiple memories coming up in a single moment, almost as if they are flashing by me in high speed creating one memory – one setting – the setting is that of me since I was very young, always wanting to be more than ME/Myself – and so also more than others. I was never okay with ordinary, simple and basic – and just being ME, expressing as an absolute individual within equality.
Everything always became about competition, energy, win or lose, beat the other person down, or out smart them, out win them and through your shining of “moreness” beat them down – that apparent shine of superiority that within its presence itself abuse others and place them as less than, beat others for you, put them down for you to always feel safe and secure (well, at least that was the Idea) – spiteful and sneaky methods of being more and why – why? Because of insecurity, immense self-judgement, and a ton of fear.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am more than life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am more than others.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am more than my fellow man/women.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that through acting different from others that I am more than others.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I “think” and “assume” that I think and assume different form others that I am more than others.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe ad trust my back chat that tells me I am better and thus more than others and to follow through on such possessions speaking to me in my head sounding like me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that if my body within my judgement and the judgments of others look and are better than others that it makes me more than others.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I have an opinion that others agree with and that I agree with in my mind that it makes me more than those that do not agree.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my language and culture and the country that I am in makes me more than others, those that are different.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am more than others based on the thoughts and words that I can have and speak and articulate.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am more than others simply because f who I think I am in my own mind as ego.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to delude and fool myself with the idea that one can be more than another or anything else in this existence/universe as all is one and equal in fact as substance, and so to condemn another through ones judgement of separation one is condemning self.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is possible to be more than another as LIFE as equals, and so through that belief take on a position of god and placing others as slaves or servants/followers and thus enslaving self as a lie that needs to be kept alive through the abuse of others.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the belief within me that I am never enough, and so always threatened.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not enough, that I was made and born less than who I am.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as not enough.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to value myself as less than others, and so create competition within myself towards others where I seek to be more than who I am to be “equal” or more than others, and so sell myself out to competition and a life of winning and losing.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold within myself an idea/image f myself that is always less than who I am, and so create a polarity image within me of who I believe I should be, where this polarity image is a character of Hollywood, of religion, or fiction, of imagination where it is always superior in all ways to keep this image and likeness out of reach from me, and so enslave and trap myself within a race that can never be won.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to chase something of myself that is more” than who I am here, and so denying who I am and my own unique individual expression that can be Best for all life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to chase characters and ideas of the imagination of who I should be as something/someone more than who I am here in each breath, and so create a negative polarity design within me in relation to myself where I always experience myself as negative, and so always in the pursuit of happiness, of anything that can make me feel better, even when this pursuit of happiness is to take on characters of superiority and bring other down, break others, win over others, just to feel good.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must neglect who I am here as breath and rather chase an idea as a projected image of me as the “more” and “superior” version of me, and so always punish myself for when I feel I have failed to live that idea of more, in the small or big things.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to others within the mind set of more or less, who is more than me, who am I more than, who is less, who am I less than, and so construct and design my relationships within my reality where I will participate only with those that I feel I am superior over, who I can win over, with whom I can play out my “more” characters with and feel good about myself, and thus never allow for my own absolute individuality as who I am here to come through within what is best for all life.
I forgive myself that I have NOT seen and realized that judging others is a form of saying everyone must be like me, everyone must be the same, everyone must be placed into a box within my mind where everyone makes sense and so everyone must give up their individuality and conform to the form of my judgement or else they will be punished through my “challenges” and fail and be proven to be less than me, and so I am more, as judgement is a form of mental illness where the personality that is at play is that of superiority and thus dominance and control.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself To NOT see and realize that any and all reactions I have towards others within who they are and what they express is a form of superiority, seeking control and conforming from others as a way to make the reactions go away through making others change, instead of seeing and realizing the fact that the reactions are inherently within me/self and the seed of that cannot be found outside of one and so will keep growing till all life is abused, controlled and destroyed and self will only then realize it is within self as there will be nothing remaining to blame.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to let go of wanting/desiring to be more than who I am here.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deny me/myself here.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deny myself the gift or simplicity, equality, oneness and direct expression as who I am as an absolute individual – no thoughts, back chat, judgement, simply direct here expression as who I am, not an idea, image, imaginary me, a Hollywood character imposing.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create much inner conflict and turmoil about who I am through always fighting with two beings within me, who I am here and the idea of who I should be, and so always lose, fall and end up giving up.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to GIVE all and every thought, feeling and emotion an opportunity within me to express themselves, but never breath here as life one and equal, as I have judged breath and living as breath as not being more, enough.
I commit myself to embrace me here as direct expression, to stop and breath each time a false image/god appears in my mind as some fucking projection of myself as who I should be, to drop that shit, to breath and express within what is best for all life, which is me stopping the mind first and foremost.
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