Day 481 – From Relationship to Agreement Part 2

Read Part 1 of this Blog Day 480 to get a full perspective and what I am sharing.

Where I left off “This is where I am now going to start explaining my character that I had and how I took on this point within the types of relationships I built and created for the one purpose.
To be continued.”

Also, to get a perspective on some of the points I am talking about, watch the movie LOVE ROSIE 2014, showing how it starts as a lifelong friendship and ends literally with sex and bow after years of fucking around finally committing, because there was simply no more options, to have a stable sex life and money.

So it is really no secret, it is really nothing new, we are self-interested human beings, we enjoy using other humans for our own purposes. We color it up in all kinds of ways, it always looks so genuine and real when others are with us, yet underneath it all, it is about sex and/or money.

This is what I realized at a young age, when I was sixteen, I saw the games the older kids were playing, and what adults were playing, I saw how all the games work people play with each other.

I knew at that age and within that stage of my life I was really curious about what is real sex? I have seen porn already, I have seen others relationships and my friends telling me all their stories, and I really got curious.

I started investigating what is it that makes people tic, what is it that gets girls to have sex with guys, and what guys want and expect from girls.

Since I had a nice big group of friends, we were about 7 guys and 7 girls always hanging together in high school. I got really comfortable with all the girls in the group. We always joked and laughed and we always enjoyed each other’s company.

But I knew that the girls was there to get the acceptance of the guys and the guys allowed it to get something sexual from the girls, perhaps not directly, sometimes yes, and other times girls attract more girls.

So Money at this stage wasn’t an issue, we had parents, so all we did all the time was looking for sexual things, through the people we socialize with and the friends we bond with the best.

Let me also just mention how I am using the word friend within these blog posts – anyone you meet becomes a friend first and then from there on it is decided something else of the same, see why friends after school disappear! Because either you already scored, or nothing happened and possibly never will (sexual). So what’s the use of the person after a few years after school. Money wise you are still secure, so no need to look at those friends, unless they still benefit you in some way such as money, and your money gives you sex.

I started asking weird question to the girls, no one else in my group or the other groups has even thought about simply asking girl’s questions and getting answers, we always believed we have to play a game, keep it secret and expose it in a polite way that doesn’t seem so evil and self-interested, make it look like caring and LOVE (coming to the love point later, it’s a home run point, score with that card!!)

I started asking girl’s what is it that turns them on about guys, I got really strange answers back, always a giggle and a weird look and then I kept on pressing the question, I manipulated through looking and sounding innocent to get them to want to teach me, so first lesson learned, girls like to teach boys things. Always sound innocent and like you have no clue, even if the truth is you have no clue, use that to manipulate to get something.

I got my answers, girls are attracted to HOT guys from magazines, which you will not find in your current environment, girls are attracted to older men, who has money and is well dressed, because it shows security, girls are attracted to men who LOOKS like men lol, and so many more other answers, these are but example.

I asked question like, do girls masturbate? This was a though one, but at least two girl’s in the entire group admitted it, when the rest was denying it, and I asked if it is a regular thing or just a once in a while, turns out they masturbate to every guy that they find handsome, like in a fantasy, in other words porn.

I had two close female friends (of which both relationships ended with something sexual (not sex though)) – as it was my intention and that’s why I kept them so close and had such a strong “friendship” bond with them, it always turns out weird as it started out with manipulating. And just a fantasy, those friendships are now lost. Because they have no more purpose.

I used my friends in the group to decipher women and sex , I used my female friends to see what it is that makes them go all crazy, and what is the motivations behind it, this led to a great deal of research for me for myself, I have knowledge and information now to play the game. Most men probably learn this through doing it, I prepared beforehand. Because I was insecure and afraid.

So the character I took on was the Romantic player/bad boy – this is the character that girl’s seemed to be most attractive to, a mysterious guy that does bad boy things yet when you meet him it is as if he is this gentle friendly caring guy, always something mysterious, missing, and the only way to find out what that is, well to get involved in my life.

Now I am specifically saying character, because it isn’t real, it is pretending for the purpose of sex, but this pretending has to be made real, so I actually became a bad boy, doing all the things good students don’t do, smoke, drink, dress tough but in style, hang out at all the cool places, and have a shit load of friends to look popular, which was hard work but it pays off.

So my key in getting sex was to befriend girl’s quickly, become a friend first, and then from there on take it further, the most easiest was long term friends but not the most frequent (those you got at parties and all kinds of hanging out places), friends from the past, but they were usually used for practice purposes, and the one real friend that you liked since kinder garden, that one you save for last, once you have already done all your testing and destroying of other people’s lives. Because at an older age you have to now consider a permanent sexual life and stability with money, with one partner, and this is where old friends can always be a good option once all the other ones don’t work out.

And in modern days it was so much easier, we had cellphones and computers, we had chat sites and we had/have cameras everywhere, so you can meet someone once and learn to know them more through the new technology, how much better to deceive and to pretend, and then meet in person where the real stuff happens. it isn’t real because it is basically two Idea/opinions coming together and now the energy has to be released that was created in suspense over a period of time just chatting and promising and selling each other to each other.

This is where I played my game the best.. With technology. And in real life even better, chats sites became like practicing grounds, the messages the pictures and all kinds of things to deliberately create energy within each other to have an outcome of sex.

There were a few simple things that gets a girl hooked on a guy. I took these things into consideration daily all the time.

1. Come forth as mysterious, it works like a bomb.

2. Pretend to be a bad boy but at the same time a good guy, girl’s just like excitement. And you must be both, stability and excitement, what a deal.

3. Be different than the other guys, I deliberately always made my hair black (it works) and I always made it stand crazy, like I got out of bed but somehow made it perfect, I was the only guy making a lot of jokes, good jokes, get a girl to laugh and feel like she is enjoying herself with you all the time, even though you know it is pretending, but I pretended all the way till there was something coming from it and then the pretense wear off and you have two real people sitting with each other, what now? now things are getting real and this si where relationships then go side ways in comparison of how it started.

4. And then the other one, always Listen, no matter what, listen, girls love it when a guy listens.

5. Make really good remarks on the girl that makes her stand out above all other girls, even though it’s all lies, and even if they are true, it is being said for the purpose of getting sex, either way.

6. Make sure you have a story to tell the girls, like you kissed them in your dreams, it means you as the guy are dreaming about them, thus the girl feels special and wanted and like its magical, having such stories and telling them as real or even if they were real is a killer, girls will jump a guy just for that.

7. Promise… a lot of promises, good future promises, make the future bright and how it revolves around the girl and how your future already includes her no matter what, or how it has been including her, since you were young you have done everything for her she just never knew. Tell these lie and be this dishonest and manipulative and you will get far with your one goal. But the consequences are far greater.

8. And here is the killer game, pretend or ignore a girl, but always be a friend to her, always be there for her, always make it seem like you are just a friend, she will start falling in love with you secretly and develop this over a period of time, while you as the guy just sit by and wait. It will come out one day and whala. Goal achieved.( it takes two to tango)

These are but mentioning a few still, there are many ways form a guy’s side, and hopefully showing girls something too.

Girls are not innocent in any of this, take that into consideration, they know it and they know it’s easier for them, because girls know a guy just wants sex, so before they give sex they want to hear a lot of things, or get a lot of things, then they give sex, unless it’s a secure women, a confident women, they can jump any guy and satisfy the moment – one night stands, yet that’s not real confidence, it is a form of hiding and suppressing, releasing self-judgments and energy by going to extremes, fear of commitment and so forth, which then is just the opposite of confidence actually.

To be continued, next blog I will share more on how all of this led to the greatest shame and regrets I have ever experienced and how facing myself and what I have done within playing the games revealed a different side to life, as an agreement with myself and another

Day 480 - from Relationship to Agreement Part 1

It is about time I share this part of my process, the part where I share about my Agreement. I haven’t really shared much about myself in relation to my Agreement and my partner and what I have faced within the agreement, in detail and with context.

After seven years of walking an Agreement /relationship (it isn’t a relationship, but I am saying to give reference for those not familiar with what this definition of Agreement means) I can for myself and for many others out there suggest, an agreement is the way forward, not relationships as we know It now.

If you want success and If you want to live in a house where there is stability and where the house isn’t divided between itself, then this is the way. I will within the following blogs which will follow in parts, share with the reader a long journey that is still being walked today.

To share this journey and the evidence of what works, I first need to share some of the past, not to compare the two, but to see the change that has happened, and how important it is to change the way we perceive many aspects of current relationships just so that we can see why they have not been successful and why the world is the way it is.

Remember, all relationships in the world affect the world, unhappy families, happy families, stable families, deceiving families, pretending families, I mean we have them all, and they make up the earth, Millions of them.

This is why what I am about to write about is so important and to be read and taken in with NO mind, I don’t want to hear about have an open mind, the mind is the first problem, it is the only problem we have, the mind is us, it is our tool, yet we have made it our master, then the first problem is us actually, the mind is but our creation and we love its energy/addictions, I will come to this later.

What I am about to write isn’t new, it isn’t news, it isn’t uncommon, it isn’t the best material out there, it is literally what everyone knows, just no one wants to admit it, and even if people admit it, they either enjoy it or they deny it., like if people admit it they will go ahead and play the game as players, if they deny it they will play the game as the majority of the population.

Our lives revolve around Money and Sex, simple as that – we are all born into a world where we need money unfortunately, and we live in a world where sex is unfortunately abused to extreme levels, so none of our first impressions on earth are healthy, I mean the reason for me being here isn’t because it was planned, I am here because of someone’s else’s desire for sex, and because there was money to raise me, I am here today typing this blog.

Men are driven by sex, women tend to be driven my seeking acceptance/validation and thus getting that through sex, not all are driven by the same points, that’s why it seems so different, but it all had the same one point in common.

Sex and money aren’t bad, neither are they good, it is what we make of literally, yet this isn’t truly understood, in fact I didn’t understand this at all, I have always been inspired by random events to decide my live, I have in the past relied on random events to decide for me what I must accept and allow in my life as relationships.

Take this for example: I am/was a 16 year old boy going to school every day like the rest, I do not yet have any care in the world for money as my parents are taking care of that, so once one of the equations of life as Sex and Money is removed – then obviously only the other is left, in this case it is sex. So as a sixteen year old I am obsessed with sex, just like every other person in school, we are all basically sex bombs waiting to explode.

But society does not allow it as we are all under age and not responsible yet, but we have been ready for years before the age of sixteen, so some are holding it till they are eighteen and some are holding it in till they are married, most are doing it way before the “appropriate” time, and this isn’t uncommon between humanity, we are all aware of it because we did it, we were there, we saw it and did it.

Now with a bunch of horny kids walking around ins school keeping it cool and burning inside, we keep everything to ourselves, because how we experience ourselves inside ourselves wanting/desiring sex seems like it is only us, everyone else are quite and focusing on school stuff, not saying anything, except boys, we boys like to “joke” and hint a lot, it is what we do as boys/men (programming).

Now, how at this age, between thirteen and eighteen can a kid in school get sex? Well there are MANY opportunities, just play the game called relationships, not relationships as in two people being together, that’s one dimensions, I mean relationships as in the people you know, or simply the people that are around you, get to know them, get to talk and get to become friends or connected in some way, this then forms a “bond” – this bond can remain as friends, it can go into friends with benefits, it can go into one night stands, and it can go into a relationship, but it’s always the people from your home place.

And we all know we do all these things and efforts with the intention for sex, no secret about it, yet we pretend about it, we are just friends, we are just connecting as human beings, we are just connecting because we enjoy people, but unfortunately, we have just one thing at this age and stage of our lives on our minds, which is sex and we are now also realizing that only within relationships can we get the best sex, because then you have another person that is there all the time, no more effort needed, and sex is available. Otherwise you got to go out and play the other games.

So now we start deceiving ourselves to make the game more real, to make the pretending look like it is real, we don’t want the other person to know that we only want sex, because what will that tell them about me, or tell me about them? It will mean we are then self-interest fuckers only after our own desires and interest and don’t actually care.

So we put on many different characters to hide the sex desire, we hide the lust, we hide the urge that has been kept in for so many years, which isn’t real, it is actually just the mind, and as we know our minds can change any time so nothing makes it real, yet our lives, society and everything around us is making money off selling sex, so we are bombarded by it, we are talking about it, we are thinking about it we are talking to ourselves about it, we are fantasizing about it, we are watching porn, we are making porn, we just have sex around us all day all the time, and we can only get the real thing and find out how it is for real if we can get another person to agree to having sex with us, so how do we do this?

We get a relationship, once again, not talking here about the just two people together kind of relationship, all kinds of weird relationships existing, and we now want to achieve with these relationships, one simple thing, to get another person to agree to have sex with us..

This is where I am now going to start explaining my character that I had and how I took on this point within the types of relationships I built and created for the one purpose.
To be continued.

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