Day 204 – Self judgment and Aggression

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that it is necessary for me to judge myself as a way of punishing myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use self judgment as a way of making myself feel bad about myself so that I can feel good about myself again later.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize than when and as I judge myself for everything I do that I will get frustrated at myself and never change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I judge myself that I am actually ANGRY at myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within judging myself only create anger within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that judging myself does NOT help anything or anyone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I judge myself ro anything happening within my world or within me that I am only motivating anger and thus aggression.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I judge myself within doing something or learning something new that when I try it again I will try and do everything I can to avoid the self judgment, and when and as I point does not work out I judge myself again and thus built up anger towards myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that aggression is a byproduct of when I have judged myself within something over a long period of time and the judgment only kept coming and never saw any change – not seeing and realizing that judging myself in the first place is what isn’t allowing any change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that aggression/anger is always towards self and that when and as I want to take the aggression out on someone else that I am blaming them for ME not changing or judging myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that aggression is when I have JUDGED myself consistently over and over and as I judge myself I only make myself angry at myself within the belief that is justifies why I judge myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that aggression within me and within my behavior is a manifestation of feeling powerless to change – not seeing and realizing that every time I judge myself I tell myself I can’t change and thus the judgment is the point that creates the illusion that I am powerless.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself – not seeing and realizing that self judgment is always brainwashing self and only limiting self to self’s own judgment as if the judgments in my mind about myself is valid and real and must be true lol.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that all and any self judgment is only the mind limiting the physical from moving and change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that aggression/anger towards myself or others is always about myself as it is a experience within me that I created through placing and validating judgments from and as the mind as who I am, when it in fact isn’t who I am as the physical breathing here stable.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself being angry or within an aggressive mood to stop within the realization that somewhere I judged myself that it has come to a point of accumulating on a physical level where I feel powerless to change as I have confirmed within my own self judgment that I can’t change LOL. See and realizing the stupidity of this.

I commit myself to when and as I Judge myself for anything or anyone to stop and realize that I m placing limitation onto myself as knowledge and information that will make me feel like I am un able to change and thus turn into aggression. Seeing and realizing that the key to change is to investigate the judgment and to stop it.

Day 203 – believing is must be personal and fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that everything must be personal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that when I talk to another being that I must talk to them from the starting point of being personal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take everything personal that is happening to me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I feel and make everything something that is happening to me that I am taking and making it personal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that the statement “happening to me” is a statement of taking it personal and making it personal not seeing and realizing that I create what happens to me in my life and thus it isn’t personal it is to take self responsibility and correct self.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that when someone speaks to me no matter what it is about that it must be personal because the person is speaking to me, seeing and realizing that the me I am referring to is thus a character and that when someone is speaking to “me” as who I have defined myself as that it isn’t me but a character that is always in defense of itself to ensure its existence as energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that as a baby there was no personal till I had a name and everything I was taught or that was done was attached to my name and I labeled myself as all of it and made it all personal, seeing and realizing that it isn’t necessary as it only created survival and fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that when and as I am within a conflict situation where I am a participant that I must make it personal, instead of seeing and realizing that when I make it personal I lose sight of reality as the physical and what the real point is as I then tend to only defend to attack and keep the energy going never getting to a resolve that is one and equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that if I want to make a point that it has to be personal or the person will not see the point, seeing and realizing that this only creates energy and thus a battle of Ego’s that will never be humble to stop and stand one and equal as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that making and taking thing personal is the only way to resolve them and take them on.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that personal is not within the best interest of all life and only exist to serve self interest and the word “personal” indicates clearly.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself making a point within my day that comes up personal to, stop and breathe and to focus on the physical and the universe and to within the certain situation deal with it as it is in actual reality, within the realization that when things are taken personal everything narrows down to making it personal and not the real issue at hand anymore.

I commit myself to stop living as a personal being and to rebirth myself as life one and equal as all life that is not personal but life and thus live what is best for all life in all ways and to end the living of the consumerism product of personal.

I commit myself to stop the pattern of always first making it personal and to instead focus on breathing and remaining here as the physical to deal with the physical in one dimension and not as personal as beliefs opinions back chat mind that is many many dimensions to deal with while attempting to deal with the actual physical situation, seeing and realizing it is only self compromise ad that this creates fear and anxiety as self always only fear losing the personal or getting attacked personally and being hurt personally as everything is made personal instead of what is best for all life in all ways.

Day 202 - watching a movie and after effects.

Day 202 - watching a movie and after effects.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have conversations within my mind with myself about a certain scene’s from movies.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to entertain myself within my mind through re-enacting scenes from movies after I watched the movie where I would pretend to be a character and how I would have played the role.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I play and re-enact scenes from movies in my mind within my head within conversations with myself that I am actually brainwashing myself and creating a character for myself that only feeds the ego.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I entertain myself within having conversations within my mind about a certain scene from a movie that I have connected something of myself to the story as a character and that I have placed value within such a character and to live this out in the real world, not seeing and realizing that I am mind fucking myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make a shit load of noise within my mind when I entertain myself within conversations I have with myself about a certain movie scene where I take the character I “liked” the most and make him even better in my mind – as a way to programmed the characteristics of the fictional character as myself through re-enacting as the character and to take on certain traits, no seeing and realizing that I do not know what other characteristics I am taking on such as a killer, a rapist or a abuser and that one day as I walk in the street and suddenly kill someone I will wonder why I did it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to re-enact as a character from movies certain scenes as a way of programming and brainwashing myself to take on points of and as that character that I have separated myself from as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when I play out scenes and characters from movies after watching it within my mind that I must look at why I am doing it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I see a character within a movie that I “like” because the character had confidence or good looks or courage or strength or he is smart, that I am within acting out trying and attempting to brainwash myself to be the same, when in fact I am only re-enforcing myself to be separate of it as I am doing it all in the mind in another reality, not seeing and realizing that if what I see in another character that I like I can simply look at myself physically and where I need correction within myself as who I am one and equal and not within separation of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fuel my mind within entertaining the characters I see in movies that I like through constantly playing out scenes and to within this distract myself from reality and what is here and lose focus and in the end mind fuck myself when I come back to reality and realize that what I played out in my mind was me attempting to be more than reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attempt to be more then reality through entertaining characters from movies within my mind, and to within this create more and more self judgment of myself as I will always feel less than the pictures and conversations I make up in my mind in reality and feel that I am less then and separate from that.

I commit myself to when and as I am watching a movie to not create connection with the characters within the movies and to instead breathe and stop any and all energy movement not to brainwash myself and mind fuck myself.

I commit myself to when and as I am done watching a movie to sit for a second or two and to take a deep breath and breathe and to not entertain the mind as delusions and creating mind fucks for myself.

I commit myself to when and as I am talking within my mind already and playing out characters and scenes to stop through taking a breather and realizing it is not real and I am fucking with myself and distracting me from reality and what is here.

I commit myself to when and as I am within my mind participating in characters and playing out movie scenes to stop and question what I am doing, and to realize it is mind control and brainwashing happening within me, and to investigate what it is that is happening in me and to stop through writing and applying self forgiveness to stop all separation and judgments.

Day 201 – I need to have a Laugh.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I am anxious seek a good old laugh to suppress the anxiety instead of looking at why I am anxious and to write about the point to see how I am creating and participating within the creation of the anxiety so that I can stop creating anxiety and breathe here stable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within my mind as thoughts/feelings/emotions as energy, not seeing and realizing that when I participate within any form of energy creation within my mind that has effects on my body that I will accumulate anxiety.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I am seeking a laugh that I am seeking to run away from what is here as me within the moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress anxiety with laughter.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the polarity game of polarity as negative (emotions) and positive (feelings) as to feel that I am moving forward, not seeing and realizing that all I am doing is going in circles.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I have been using laughing as a drug to give me a high when I feel low, and as all drugs it wears off and then requires the next hit.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be addicted to laughing to deal with situations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to instead of breathing and deal with the situations at hand through laughing instead of breathing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I am laughing within situation that I am suppressing the actual experience and thus not able to deal with it real time within breathing and moving through the point to not be controlled by the experience and instead re-program myself as the physical to deal with the situation effectively.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek comfort within laughing, not seeing and realizing that within seeking and getting comfort when and as I laugh that I am only confirming to myself that I cannot handle the situations and that I must always experience anxiety.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I can stop the polarity game through breathing and re-programming myself as the physical where there is no experience needed to deal with situations but to simply breathe.

I commit myself to when and as I am dealing with a situation to stop the physical action of laughing and to instead breathe and see for myself who I am and what is the real experience that I am within, and to within that breathe through the experience and stabilize myself here as the physical as breath.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself already laughing to stop and to breathe within the realization that I am laughing in separation of a point instead of standing one and equal as the situation within real time as the physical here, as I see and realize that the anxiety or the laughing is from the mind that is not here but within an alternate reality of thoughts/feelings/emotions not seen by anyone but me and to take self-responsibility through applying self-forgiveness and stop.

Day 200 – Making Money the Church Way – commitments.

I commit myself to show that - to want to change the world by oneself is EGO and impossible and only an attempt to feel special and unique and thus not wanting to change the world in fact, as the world is a GROUP and thus one and equal we must change the world as a group supporting each other within consistency and to be reliable.

I commit myself to show that to change the world as a group we must use what is already here in terms of systems that has effective ways of moving as groups, and to use these systems and re-align them to be that which is best for all life such as the system that the churches use around the world to make money within the context of the group and not the message/religion.

I commit myself to show that only MONEY is in fact the only way we can change the world as the world is governed and moved by money and nothing else.

I commit myself to show that as a group we here at Desteni and everyone that joins us will make a change this lifetime if all that comes apply what the churches have been applying for thousands of years and have proven for thousands of years that their system works within making a shit load of money and to even take over the world, where each individual contributes but only 10% a month of what they have – and so not really making a difference on the individual but as a group where all do the same the money will be made which will be used to move and direct one and equal within and as this world to a place that is bets for all life till no money is required to live anymore.

I commit myself to give as I would like to receive and to let go of all fear, realizing that the fear is showing me I am existent within self interest and not making decisions on what is best for all life.

I commit myself to chow that as long as the group does not contribute equally and consistently that the group will over time create the consequences of not moving or going anywhere and that the principal we as the groups stand for will never come to life, and to show that the group self in creating this through fear and holding back within giving.

I commit myself to show that once the group supports the group within giving that the group will grow and start to move, but until then nothing can happen.

I commit myself to give all I can to the group as money that I know is money I am holding onto out of fear after setting out my practical budget first each month and to sustain myself first and to do this regardless of who else is, as this will be seen and to others will do the same and that the money I am giving can become less as more do as I do.

I commit myself to show that everyone always has money to give away as long as everyone that is here can be here and any fear/reaction to this point is justification and self interest.

I commit myself to show that Christianity is such a success because even the poorest of the poor will give anything they have for what they truly belief in, and that Desteni will not make it unless the group realizes that desteni/EMS is the actual in fact only solution this life and that because no one is doing this yet out of self will/movement is because there is self interest fear and still to much comfort and thus no real change and consideration of the rest of life suffering every second.belief in what you do!! trust it completely in every moment and we will be unstoppable.

I commit myself to show/inform/educate people that change can only happen if we stand one and equal to and as the current system that is here within making money to the maximum/optimum and that anything less is ego and compromise and only showing that the current system of abuse that is destroying life has more dedication more discipline and more trust in this system of abuse then those claiming to stand for LIFE and best for all, and to show it is fucking unacceptable and so I start with myself as the example as I walk to make money through getting a job and standing one and equal as the system and to dedicate and commit a percentage of my money to that which is bets for all life no matter what while the opportunity is here and I am not in the gutters yet as millions of others are facing yearly due to the economic collapses and job cuts.

I commit myself to show that there is no excuse.JOIN us, walk with - us and see how we are doing this. breaking the self imposed limitations of what is possible to change this world to a place that is BEST for ll LIFE

Day 199 – Christianity shows the way to money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that as we live in a world that is driven/built on/by money and where money has the power that the only way we can change anything is obviously with money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that without money we as a group cannot do anything and will always just be in the same position till we eventually run out of time and end.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that Money is what the elite has that makes them able to decide on what happens in the world, and thus it is obvious that if we as a group has money we can start moving equally and make decisions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to postpone and resist out of pure fear to share/give as I would like to receive my money within what is best for all life as supporting the solution as the equal money system and Desteni .

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that in this LIFE I will lose all my money and everything I have within the way the world is heading, thus I can decide to either lose my money through supporting a new way of life so that when I lose my money a new system will be born that supports me from birth till death and thus no money is required, or I can hold onto my money and lose it within the system taking/ripping everything from me and cause suffering and abuse to me and LIFE, seeing and realizing that the fear is a lack of in fact understanding the real situation we are all in.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that money is the key and walking as a group is the only way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rather spend my money on shit that I do not really need then giving it away to a life that is best for all life within the belief that it is my money, which is obviously indicating that I do not know anything about money and how it works as money belongs to the banks and I am always with every note I have in debt to the banks and thus as long as I have money to hold onto I am a slave to them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Not see and realize that as a group money will not be a problem to accumulate IF everyone as the group contributes and sticks to it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that if I do not do my part as an equal within standing in absolute trust that what I am standing as and thus have no problem with supporting it always consistently, that I will place pressure on those that do and they have to do more, seeing and realizing that the more people stand in support the less pressure and easy it becomes for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not making it this life within changing the world as and when it seems like we are running out of money to move.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be driven by fear instead of self movement within the understanding of what I am doing within my movement and thus the movement will be stable and consistent.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that how the CHURCH has successfully taken over the world was not because of rich people putting all their money together – it was because BILLIONS of people put little by little together where it all goes to the same point and thus has no effect on the individuals - as the group is supporting equally consistently, and thus this is how we will change the world and the only way we can change the world as - a group, using what is already here that worked and still working to have success this life time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that the reason Christianity has taken over the world and has over two billion followers and that the church makes a shit load of money (billions) is because the people actually belief in what they stand for and will without hesitation support what they stand for with money every Sunday throwing their 10% in even if in reality in fact it is all bullshit , thus seeing and realizing that if I am not willing to do the same for what I stand for in all ways within absolute trust as this is the solution as it is in fact the only solution that ever existed as the Desteni message and equal money system , then I have to seriously reflect onto myself and correct the point and see why I am not standing equal and one with the system to change the system.

To be continued.

Day 198 – The End of the world Wish coming true Part 6.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I have to end the world as it exist now that is not within the best interest of all life within myself in ALL of it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project the wanting and wishing of the destruction of Myself as the world system exist as abuse onto the world as to not to have to face myself and to change myself as I see that I am actually trying/attempting to remain in my comfort zone as to not having to face myself through whishing the world to end instead.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I have to STOP and END and bring Destruction of the world systems as it currently exist within me as self interest and the accepted and allowed human nature and to first CHANGE who I am to that which is best for all life as a living example to be able to as the change as the NEW way of LIFE as who I am in FACT walk and breathe and so change the world by example and that there is no excuse and justification and thus as I walk as the new way of life that is within the best interest of all life in all ways in fact there is no stopping of bring about a world/life that is bets for all life, as I bring destruction within myself of the current way of life that only abuses I will have no fear of change and I will have no opinions and beliefs and ideas and therefore I can in and as stability change what is here without any sentiment, as I realize that anything from and as the mind of the current system design as the world is all based on self interest and fear and not what is best for all life as life and only a limitation and enslavement of life I will be able to speak with absolute certainty and integrity as I know in fact what I stand for is best for all life and therefore there is no hesitation or fear as it is what it is and no argument is required as what i stand as and for is a fact as me and not just knowledge and information that is of the current world system that defends money and self interest in all ways.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that as I am wishing for the destruction of the current world so that all the abuse can end that I am taking the easy way out which will have consequences as a time loop where I will face this life again and again and again and it will never end till I end it within me and create a new way of life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that to bring an end to the world does not always mean that there has to be destruction, seeing and realizing that as I end and bring about destruction to all that is not best for all life within and as me I will change and as I change the world will change and so a new world can be made instead without suffering.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that the world can only change through destruction and suffering, not seeing and realizing that within that belief I am in fact creating it as such, not seeing and realizing that it is simply a matter of changing the belief and thus changing the outcome, as I see and realize that who I am determines what I do and what I do determines what I create one and equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I participate within the mind as self destruction that that is what I create within the world, seeing and realizing that the self destruction currently is that of the MIND bringing destruction onto the physical body, when and as It is all in reverse where the mind must be self destructed through de-constructing the mind to understand the mind and through understanding the mind one will see and realize it is limited and abusive only and as one understand one will immediately stop participating within the mind and thus stop the destruction of self – and start with the de-constructing of self and re-birthing self as life one and equal, and as such create a new world one and equal as the living example in fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that wishing for the end of the world within s destructive manner is part of the capitalistic system of how it keeps people within a state of FEAR and depression and survival mode where the human becomes useless in the sense of believing they are powerless, not seeing and realizing that the change starts with changing who you are as that which created this world as it exist currently in the first place to who you are as that which is best for all life in all ways as life and so create a new world.

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To be continued