Day 197 – The End of The World;d Wish Part 5.


Day 193 - The End of the World Wish
Day 194 - The End of the World Wish Part 2
Day 195 - The End of the World wish Part 3
Day 196 - The End of the world Wish Part 4

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that my Wish is coming true, seeing and realizing that it is coming true because I gave up and did not stand within real change as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wish the end of the world upon earth within the belief that it does not matter if I wish it or not, the world will never end, Not seeing and realizing that the world as we know it is coming to an end, My wish will come true.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that every-time I wish the world to end – That I m in that moment not taking self responsibility to in fact change the world and to just leave everything in the hands of the few to do as they please, which makes my wish coming to life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within speaking and living words of destruction instead of words of LIFE and brings about a world that is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that every time I wish within myself for the world to end I am justifying why I can not change the world to a place that is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I wish for the world to end that I am within that statement only giving away my responsibility to what is here and to within that instead of changing – continuing with my habits/patterns of self destruction and abuse that leads and causes the destruction on earth – thus creating and manifesting the end of the world, where it did not have to be as such but rather the other way as a solution and living it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I wish for the end of the world that I am only justifying why I am not stopping the abuse myself within myself and so the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify why I do not want to change a certain point within me that is self destructive and abuse through wishing the end of the world upon life on earth as we know it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make only the world the problem and wishing the world as the problem would end just so that I do not have to look at myself directly as the problem.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wish for the end of the world where others end the world as we know it through bombing the shit our of earth or a meteorite hitting earth just so that I can say – Look I could not do anything, seeing and realizing that every-time i said I wish the world would end I could have instead made a solution and lived it. And thus no excuse at all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wish for the end of the world as a quick solution to my own self interest of not wanting to deal with the consequences the human race have created here on earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wish for the end of the world just because I am to lazy to do anything to bring about real change in fact and thus seeking the easy way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want/desire for the end of the world just because I want to avoid having to physical move myself and direct myself to practically be the solution to life one and equal to the fuckup here and fix it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wish for the end of the world as a way to not have to face my fears in reality and that a bomb or meteorite rather kill me instantly not seeing and realizing that I will always be with me and have to always face myself and LIFE and there is no running away.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that for me to change the world I require my friends to agree with me first, not seeing and realizing that needless of them agreeing or not the fuckup is here and worsening and time can not be wasted and thus I must move me anyway within the best interest of all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that for me to change the world as a group that I require people that is within my environment, not seeing and realizing that there is a huge thing called the internet through which information can move faster and clearer and thus change can move and people from all over the world can come together and walk as a group gathering the money required to change the world to the Equal Money System that is Best for all Life.

To be Continued.

Day 196 – End the World Wish Part 4

Day 195 - The End of the World wish Part 3

I Forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wish destruction as the end of the world upon earth from the start point of me actually just giving up within changing the world as I could see that the human is Evil.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within seeing what is here on earth as the humans creation of pure evil and then wanting to change the world but but failed as I did not have any alternatives as solutions to give to people but only the problems to then Give up on myself and instead go into the polarity experience of I do not give a fuck and wishing the world would rather go to shit, seeing and realizing that all that was/is required of me is to sit with myself and to Find actual real solutions that is within the best interest of all life as that is the only way of a real solution and to then give the problem and the solution one and equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I go into wishing that the world must just end that I am the one actually only wanting myself to end as I have given up on myself to change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Blame the world for not changing when I am the one that must first in fact change to be the example that change is possible as the human nature and thus the world wide change is possible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire for the world to END so that I do not have to take full responsibility for what is here and to deal with it and fix it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as other reject my proposal of changing the world even after giving them the full blown facts of what is here and what is required of the human race as a group to change before life as we know it ends to feel like I am powerless to do anything.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wish for the end of the world as we know it as the human life to take the easy way out of what we as a group has have is accepting and allowing to exist on earth as hell.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that rich people will not hear the message and change to that which is best for all life because they will not give up their money for heaven on earth equally for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that all the abuse here on earth is human made and thus it is up to the human to change the system and to be the change in fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want all humans to rather die just so that I do not have to deal with them, seeing and realizing that it is only me not wanting to deal with myself first as who i am and within such a point of blame wish the end of the world upon all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that as long as there is any want/desire for the world to end as we know life to be here that I can not be effective within my application of change as I secretly tell myself it is okay if we do not make it because the world will end then and that should solve everything, not seeing and realizing that then we will have to wait for the next cycle till we are here at the exact same point again till we stop and take self responsibility for our actions and living words as who we are and to move forward and not back wards as a life that is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want the world to end just so that I do not have to face myself and what I have created here on earth, seeing and realizing how I wish the destruction onto everyone just because I fear taking full self responsibility, thus i see and realize that no matter what it is always about who I am, is it best for all life or not and either way I will direct myself accordingly and change will come either way, thus I decide here and now to stand for that which is best for all life and I start with myself

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Day 195 – The End of the World Wish Part 3



Day 193 - The End of the World Wish
Day 194 - The End of the World Wish Part 2

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as people do not Agree with me changing the world to belief that they must have some other insight about the world that I do not have and to within this doubt myself within what I can SEE is here on earth and that it does In fact need to change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to doubt myself when and as I tell people that we need to change and to change the world in fact or it will be too late and to within this doubt not be seen as serious as the doubt shows, thus I see and realize that when and as I doubt a point I am talking about that I am not clear and thus it will have side effects.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that I can talk and convince other people that the world doe need changing through using clever words instead of using common sense and self honesty within what is here in fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be influenced by others opinions about why the world should not change, seeing and realizing that opinions has no value or actual meaning at all in relation to what is here physically in fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give opinions value from others as if the opinion might just be right, seeing and realizing that it is showing me that I haven’t seen the problem that we face and that requires change in fact yet, as facts will always be right and does not need opinions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I talk to people about why the world must change and why the human must change to feel like I am making it up and that I have to convince them, not seeing and realizing that it feels like I am making it up because it isn’t programmed within society to be the change to the problems in the world as we all have placed and given responsibility through eons of time to some authority out there.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Feel that I am doing something wrong towards others when I suggest they must change and that the world must change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I speak to others about change and the human change to feel that it is up to them to decide if they want to or not, seeing and realizing that within this I am leaving the Desteni of the earth within the hands of choice within a society where all choice has been programmed to always be self interest and never what is best for all life, thus within me communicating from the starting point of “you have the choice to decide” I am already in fact saying to the other person remain as you are and do not change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give choice within my words to others on why the human must change and so life on earth not seeing and realizing that there is no fucking choice when it comes to saving your planet and all life on it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Give up within myself when and as I communicate with others on why the world and the human nature must change because within my communication I always seem to fail on getting the common sense through and that there is no choice and the change must happen this life, seeing and realizing that this is indicating to me that i am not yet living full change as who I am as what is best for all life and thus my words cannot be that of what I stand for and am only trying to say what is supposed to be said.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as other disagree with me on that the world and the human must change to belief that now I cannot do anything anymore, not seeing and realizing I gave them choice somewhere within my words.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Give up on myself when no one agrees that change is required and to within that give up on Life as myself and to go into polarity of wishing for the destruction of Life as myself, and to within this become numb to wanting to do anything and simply dismiss any solution from here on.

To be continued.

Day 194 – The End of the world Wish - Part 2.



Day 194 – The End of the world Wish - Part 2.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up on myself when and as I see other people do not care about what is happening to their own planet.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that others will spontaneously agree with me to change the world to a better place for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be influenced by others and how they react towards me wanting to change the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react when and as people disagree with me when and as I say lets change the world to a place that is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to crush and destroy my common sense of the fact that we must change to change the world just to satisfy other peoples disagreeing towards me so that I can instead be accepted again.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that when and as I share my realizations with others of having to change the world that they will simply agree.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wish for other people to simply agree within changing the world to a place that is best for all life, not considering that everyone that has the power and the ears to hear currently to change the world are also the once that leads good life's and thus have no reason to change unless they are effected or suffer first.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I propose a idea such as lets change the world to a place that is best for all life that the people listening to me do not see the problem YET because they are hearing me and thus they are having a good life, as those that are suffering and that would gladly anytime change the world with me are in poverty and unable to do anything.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get angry at others for responding in a senseless way towards me when and as I propose a new way of life that is best for all life, judging them as “evil”. Not seeing and realizing that I am separating myself from them as myself as what is here and that requires direction to change as what has been accepted and allowed through eons of time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that if I suddenly feel like changing the world everyone else will to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to move myself as a feeling of “wanting” to change the world instead of directing myself effectively one and equal within what is here as the physical in self movement to in fact change bring about change as the entire world system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that when and as I suggest to others that we MUST change the world based on the facts that I have found for myself that those who I am telling it about haven't or may not have seen it and thus are completely unaware of the scale of the situation and thus I look like a maniac, instead of educating everyone first as I educated myself one and equal within also giving equal and one solutions to the problems.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that mostly everyone here on earth that is able and capable and that has the resources such as money to change the world will not want to as they have the resources and do not require change and thus it is my responsibility to educate myself effectively through walking my process of change and to thus be the example that stand to show what is here and that requires to be done.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to make myself feel stupid when and as I am rejected by those around me for saying lets change the world as if saying that makes me sound crazy and small, not seeing and realizing that it is only showing me to what extent we are fuck actually.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear others never ever hearing me and that the world will be fucked anyway through a shit load of destruction and abuse and suffering just because no one wants to hear me and to within this give up on myself, not seeing and realizing that within giving up on myself I wasn't standing clearly within myself as what I was saying as common sense and thus no one was taking me seriously as the fear was showing and all could see it.
To be continued.

Day 193 – The End of the World Wish.

























Since I was a teenager and I was aware of the world and how fucked up everything in this world is, such as the wars and poverty and especially the cruelty and abuse towards Animals and the oceans and the forests and in general Planet earth. I always had a wish that everything will just come to an end.

Everything coming to an end means that the human must die instantly and leave the earth to herself with all the animals and plants to live here, because they are obviously not the problem or any danger to life here, it is literally JUST the Human, the thing that I am.

I used to sit in my room or while driving in the car and think and imagine a meteorite hitting earth and killing all the humans, this can obviously not work because then the animals would also die, so I would think about what can kill the human and not harm anything else – I thought about Bombs that can be used that only kill humans, but what made the most sense was for a goal like this to work - a virus, but there is always a cure and the population on earth is only getting more with humans, even with all the diseases.

Every-time I turned on the T.V and the news was on all I would see was abuse and still today the same, only it has gotten WAY worse, and when I read the newspapers all I see is crime, murder, rape and animal cruelty and MONEY problems everywhere and abuse and people raping dogs and sheep and horses and torturing animals for their pleasures.

I got really really angry within all of this, I joined a few groups such as Green peace, and I tried doing things in my environment to help such as cleaning all the fields from the human rubbish and separating human trash into categories so it can be reused/recycled and I signed petitions and I did competitions for naming whales to save the whales and stuff like that.

BUT it was never enough, the shit just got worse and worse, I would read things that I never thought of existing on the Planet I live on and share with all others – How the fuck can we all sit by and let things happen the way they do?

I used to get drunk and just burst open and talk to everyone about what I have been keeping in, about how fucked up life is and how the abuse is getting worse and that we must all do something – I remember when I did this all the friends that was there were standing around me looking Cool and distancing themselves from me, as if what I was saying was weird or not normal – I said lets fucking do something to stop what is happening on OUR planet and that was weird and not normal.

No one ever replied or gave me an opinion or and idea in relation to YES lets change the world, it was always against me, each and every-time, as if I was doing something terrible – How dare you want to change the world.

This was before I was with Desteni and the equal money system, so I did not have any direction to give either, but still.

So after all these events I started also giving up and just not give a shit, my wish to change the world started changing into something dark – a wish for chaos and turmoil and suffering and for a world in darkness, I mean if no one is going to, or can change the world than I might as-well fuck it up faster to get it over with – this was me going into the polarity and giving up on myself and feeling powerless.
I became half senseless and emotionless.feeling-less, I started wishing death upon everyone and I wished it would be a long one, because everyone is asking for it within their behavior and attitudes. No one is fucking willing to change to change their Life style for the sake of their own planet.

I used to sit in my room and have thoughts about how I would survive the end of the world days, because I wished upon everyone else destruction I obviously wished upon myself to Live, because I somehow in my mind confidence me that I was special and that I deserved to live where others do not,

Obviously I wasn't considering their lives and maybe they went through the same, but that wasn't the main concern, I never started with myself and to set an example that it is in fact possible to change and to live it as who I am as a life that is best for all Life, and here I am with Desteni and Equal Money System – now I have to remove the past as a me in memories (me more lies memorizing myself) as I am currently still living as the past as what I have accepted and allowed and trained myself to always giving up, falling, feeling I can not do this, it is to big. No one else wants to, and to stop those patterns and Stand absolutely in every breathe.

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Day 192 – Anger Misplaced Towards Animals Final.

Day 192 – Anger Misplaced Towards Animals Final.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I work with animals that it is me that has to work with the animal and in return through my actions the animals will see that I am trust worthy and thus work together with me, or lets rather say Learn the human way, because animals do not know the Human way of doing things when we expect animals to just get it, instead of being patient showing the animal the intention through consistency and stability within, thus getting angry and frustrated and giving up basically does not work and the animal will pick it up and thus friction will be created.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I am helping an animal to not be HERE in and as every touch as the physical but instead to try and help the animal from what I think I must do based on ideas and beliefs instead of the physical that is already here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get frustrated when and as I am trying to force the Human way of taking care of the animal and the animal does not co-operate, not considering the animal and that I am the more intelligent being and thus I must in humbleness adjust myself to care for the animal one and equal and not the other way, as is has proven not to work and only create anger within me because I am trying to force something un-natural onto the animal just to get the job over with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I work with animals I must be here in and as breathe as to not impose or create separation but to work together in oneness and equality, seeing and realizing that the oneness and equality we share as me and the animal is the physical in fact, as we both can confirm it and see it and touch it and smell it, and thus trying to do things from the mind which the animal does not see and can not confirm will only confuse and harm the animal as I will do things from the mind within the idea/belief that the animal should just get it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when I get angry at animals it is me projecting my own anger of who I am within the moment towards the animal that is creating separation and thus not working and because it does not work then I get angry at myself as I am aware of what is going on within me and do not want to be self honest about it and rather take it out on the animal.

I commit myself to when and as I am working with animals to breathe and to be here in and as breathe and to practice this with no Back chat and not Ideas/beliefs and not fear.

I commit myself to when and as I work with animals to breathe and to focus on my touch one and equal here as the animal and to not have any energy movement within me as I do work with the animal to not compromise and harm the animals or myself.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself getting angry within myself to breathe within the realization that the anger is ALL me and not the animal and that I am responsible for the anger within me, and to STOP the anger and forgive myself, to focus on breathing and my touch and to support and assist myself and the animal equal and one.

I commit myself to stop myself from projecting any energy I experience within me towards animals within the realization that I am the only one possible to create any energetic experience within me as my thoughts/feelings/emotions and that animals do not have such amazing powers to control and do things as such to me, and to within in this stop me from harming/abusing another life form equal and one as me as I take Full self responsibility for what I accept and allow within me and so my actions that follow as a result of who I am.

Day 191 – Anger Misplaced towards Animals Part 2

Day 191 – Anger Misplaced towards Animals Part 2
This is the Self forgiveness from Part 1 – Anger Misplaced towards Animals.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to approach dealing with animals within a desired way of how I want things to go that is of the mind, not considering the real actuality of the physical within dealing with the animal practically and within total consideration of the animals and where the animal comes from and how they are in their beingness and to accordingly move and direct myself practically one and equal as the animal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Expect immediate co-operation and teamwork that makes it easy for ME, not considering the animal and standing within the animals “shoes” only considering how I want to feel as positive when I work with the animal, seeing and realizing that this is a setup for abuse as I will react and get angry when and as I feel my expectations inst met with the animal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to approach animals within the mind Idea of that the animal must be grateful that I am helping them and therefore the animal must submit and obey me within me doing them a favor, not seeing and realizing that the fact that the animal requires my help in the first place must show me that there is a problem within this world and that nature and the animals aren't supported and thus need human intervention and that the human is inf act the cause of their need for us to help them. Thus I am in dept to the animal and not the other way around.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be self righteous within the belief that the animal is in debt to me for helping the animal, not seeing and realizing that the animal has not concept of what ever I have going on in my mind as back chat and thoughts towards helping and thus does not care and so I am the only one creating and causing harm/abuse within trying to impose my mind ideas/beliefs I have onto the animal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a religion out of myself where I praise myself to helping animals and caring for them and that I am willing to give up my time and to give effort to care for them and to within this religion like all and any other religion where something isnt working according to the religion attack and harm, within this case it is when the birdie isnt co-operating within the confined Ideas/beliefs I have of myself as the animal lover being able to work with animals easily and thus it isnt being easy and so get angry at the birdie for showing me my religion of myself is False and a lie.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get irritated with animals when their behavior changes towards me and to take it personal and as if it about me, not seeing and realizing that the animals does not give a fuck if it is me or someone else, but that the animal is simply showing me something, and thus communicating on a physical lever while I am existing in my limited mind bubble and thus can not see what is shown to me and so I react and get angry and want to take it out on the animal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that the anger I have towards the animal is always and only within and as me and thus it is only me being angry at myself as the experience is within me and I created it within participating within and as the mind as thoughts/feelings/emotions that is not visible to anyone else but me, and so I can only react toward my own thoughts and get angry at me and thus directing the anger towards something/someone outside of me is self-dishonesty and abusive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I am trying/attempting to help an animal get angry as soon as It is required of me to give more time and more effort and more of me and it does not work and to want to take the anger out on the animals as if they are being deliberate, not seeing and realizing that my attempts was and is but only of the mind and thus not a directive approach but rather compromising myself and the animal based on ideas and belief on what I am allowed to do and not, to help the animal, thus I see and realize that instead of me going directly to force feeding I was first trying to praise the religion of myself where I belief I have a special ability to make animals work with me and so compromise and create energy when the religion isnt getting its energy boost and thus get angry at the animal for not validating my religion of myself.

To be continued.

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