Day 45 - Reversed Comparison - weird logic.

I have noticed during my day within participating in activities where there are others that there is competition, the competition that I am talking about isn't what you would expect, it is like a secret competition yet visible in reactions/behavior, where each individual is constantly comparing what they are doing with others, but the competition is to see who does the least work, either self or the other.

From my own experience I notice that I will be doing work, I will be busy with my daily task, and I will do what needs to be done to finish it, here comes the big BUT, But when someone else comes along and ask me to help them with something else, or to do something else for them, there is a reaction a EGO - the mind/energy.

I react because I now have to do "more" than what the others are doing due to my own comparisons and back chat in my mind, I will have back chat like, why don't you ask that person, why do I have to do it, why don't you do it yourself, it is so small do you really need my help, and so the EGO will see and try and find any way possible to not have to do this "EXTRA" work and fighting for its own limitation and to keep the physical enslaved as energy so that the physical can not stand up as life as a limitless expression in each breathe to do onto another as you would do onto yourself.

Does this have to do with us all being Rotten children, that we need something to motivate us to do things, do we have to get rewards for doing things and extra rewards for doing more.

It is really limited in all its ways to self - it is mind enslavement.

It is a constant comparison GAME - we each will do what needs to be done but not more, because we look at others, we see what they do and accordingly we become little self righteousness  cunts so to say - we become reactive and judgmental, this isn't fair, this is unfair, why me, whea whea whea, like little babies.

And we all do this, we all believe we are so special and important and that our life's are so busy and already full of things to do, we can not help each other, we can not do something else for someone else, it is so fucking unfair to help someone else, look at what they are doing, look at them being lazy, why aren't you asking them for help, why me, why me, why me.

This is all part of the ROTTEN CHILD SYNDROME - imagine our world exist only out of people with this syndrome. We are in big shit.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare what I do to what others are doing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare what I do as being more than what others are doing, and so I create the judgment/believe that what i am doing is already a lot of work in comparison to what others are doing, and so create the unfair point when I am asked for help to do "more work" then others (out of my own created believe) and that it is unfair and so accept and allow my own limitation, realizing that all of this only happened in the mind, when I look at the physical and take the mind and all the comparison and all the back chat out, I see that there is more than enough time to help others and that I have created and manifested my world as to busy through compromise and deliberate in my actions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be in a constant "game"of seeing where I can do the least work, realizing that I have created this game as a power play over others as to show them that I am busy and that if I help them that I will want to receive a rewards as I have sacrificed my "important/limited time" to help them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react when someone else asks me for help, realizing within the reaction there is a accepted and allowed limitation, and that I have to be strict with myself to break the accepted and allowed limitation and to move beyond the mind created limitation and do what is asked of me, so that I may realize what is real and what is not and to rebirth myself as that which is real within and as the physical one and equal as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself with others in my environment to see who is doing what and how much so that I can create reactions within me towards other when they ask me for help as to that I am busy "more than others" and that asking me for my time to help them or to do something more is unfair and asking something "BIG"of me and thus I would want a reward for my help, realizing that this is only a clear indication for myself that I have the "rotten child syndrome" where I am a slave to energy and the mind in complete limitation of expressing myself as who I am within and as the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create "my time" as more valuable than others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to value others time as being less than mine, realizing we are all here in this world within the same time and that with working together we are supporting and assisting each other to make the most of the time we have here as o create what is best for all life this life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight and defend my own limitations within the point of comparison and what I am capable of doing and what not, realizing that I can only fight for my own limitations if I am not aware of my own limitations as I exist within the mind that is energy based and thus rely/need energy to move and can not see anything beyond that but its own limitation, instead of breathing and being here in and as the physical as who I am as life one and equal, doing onto another as I would like to be done onto within the realization that only within the mind that exist within a limited bubble in your head can and will defend for its own limitation, as it is all the mind knows, thus to rebirth self within and as the physical where there are no walls limiting self movement to help others and do onto another as you would do onto yourself within the principal of what is best for all life is possible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that comparison is normal behavior, realizing that comparison is a manifestation as a infestation within the current way the world is designed and accepted and allowed to exist as where we all compare to win and receive rewards, as this is what capitalism is based on, winners and losers, realizing that this isnt normal behavior but a accepted and allowed behavior as who we decide to be.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that comparison is justifiable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that comparison is limitation as a judgment of self within the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that comparing myself to what others are NOT doing to what I AM doing and to react on that as if it is righteous and just when the time comes and I am asked to do more and I say no, not realizing that I am limiting myself and enslaving myself to the mind as energy as polarity of the mind - not allowing any self growth as WHO I AM as life in and as the physical one and equal here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others and what they do in comparison to what I do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself in comparison to what others do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge what I do as always being good and right and more in comparison to what others do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge what others do as always being less than, not enough in comparison to what I do, realizing it is all about WHO I AM, and not what others do, as who I am determines what I do, thus realizing that my actions and reactions is a indicator as to who I have accepted and allowed myself to be, thus I can not see t and change within the understanding that I am only defending my own limitations and enslaving myself within and as the Mind as limitation, thus it is to stop the mind and to breath self into and as the physical one and equal as life.

I commit myself to stop the Rotten child syndrome as who I have accepted and allowed myself to become and exist as one and equal to, and to through writing and self forgiveness stop the mind as enslavement and limitation and to rebirth myself through living the self forgiveness into and as the physical one and equal as life.

I commit myself to expose the Rotten Child syndrome that exist within each one of us as the reward system within this world as capitalism and to show that it is the cause of current parenting and that children isnt thought any real values or Principals of self honor or self respect that is based on LIFE within what is best for all life in all ways and that the Rotten child syndrome is the opposite of the message of Jesus as do onto another as you would like to be done onto you.

I commit myself to show/educate myself and others that we need a new system a system that is not based on reward bt on principal as oneness and equality as that which is best for all life in all ways and that this system is the EqualMoney System and that self forgiveness and self honesty is the key to re-birthing self as life as shown by Desteni how to use the tools.

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Day 44 - death and Dying in multiple ways

Dying multiple ways

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying in a sword fight.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear bleeding to death from a huge cut wound.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying from being beaten up heavily.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying from internal injuries from being beaten up.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying from a car hit.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying while having sex.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying in fire.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying of having no food to eat.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying of having no water.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying of having no money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying in the cold outside having no homes.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to die because someone stole all my money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying because of a fight over money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying from being hanged.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying from falling down a high building and splashing on the floor.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying of a disease.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying from using construction tools and making a mistake such as cutting my own leg off or someone drilling into my head.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying from an accident that was preventable yet it happened.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowing myself to fear dying from my own mistakes.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself from dying from drug a drug overdose.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying from someone kidnapping me to kill me to use my body parts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying at the hands of a loved one.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying from a spider bite.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying of fasting.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying from a snake bite.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying from an animal attack.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear from dying by being killed by humans in some torturous way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying in a war.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being killed by a cop in a revolution.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being killed by being stoned to death.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying of old age.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying from drowning in water.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying from chocking on an objects.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying from being strangled.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying from a a gun shot straight in the head.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying from a gun shot in the heart and bleeding to death.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying from a hear attack.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying from cancer.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying from being eaten by a monster.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being raped to death.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying all alone, realizing that I will always die alone with myself, thus it is who I am within death that will determine after death, am I life or the mind as self interest as energy as consciousness that will end as it will have not more physical body to feed off.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying from being axed to death.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying, realizing that within the fear of death, it is an indication to where I am not self honest, where I am existing as ego, as energy as the mind, and not standing as life one and equal, as death is the one thing that can not be avoided this life, no matter how it happens, it is who you are that matters, are you life one and equal or the mind as an energy entity as a personality that will end at death, as the physical remain here one and equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying as the mind as a personality as self interest, realizing that it is inevitable that the mind will die at death, as only the physical can continue as life as the same substance, thus I realize it is to rebirth myself as life one and equal and that before then death is not preferred.

I forgive myself that I have not realized that fear of death is only showing me where I am still existing in separation as the mind as personality a something that I can apparently lose, fear of loss, realizing that within standing one and equal as life as who I am death is a part of me as life yet to be realized because who I am as life is certain and that at death I will not change.

I commit myself to expose that all fear is of the mind within self interest and that all fear is only created through the mind and that fear exist where the human has separated themselves from all life as life a the physical and that fear is a representation of the mind existing within a limited time as energy as the mind knows it will end at death.

I commit myself to stop all fear as the minds creation to keep self enslaved within the mind to feed the mind with energy as fear of death is a clear indication to the mind that the mind will end.

I commit myself to show that The message of Desteni is the only message that humans has this life till death to rebirth self as life one and equal.

I commit myself to educate myself and to ask for help to realize myself as life this life before death, so that when death comes i know who I am as life one and equal and thus no change.

I commit myself to spread the message of Desteni and to show that for all to make it this life as standing one and equal as life, help is needed, as we are not aware of life and only exist within the mind as fear and limitation, and to show that self forgiveness is the tool to set oneself free from all accepted and allowed limitations as the mind as energy as the personality/ego, and to rebirth self as life as a group is the only way possible as we all need to be shown what is here as we can not see it ourselves even within our own self proclaimed awareness.

Day 43 - bully - a creation of love.

Day 43 - bully - a creation of love.

Bullies do love you, they love to bully you, they love to hate you, they love to hurt you, they love to come to you and give you their attention, bullies are big balls of love.

A bully does what he love's to do - he bullies you.

I mean if everyone has the right to love and their choice to express their love anyway they can, then the bully is on the right path! or is love evil then?

Obviously bullies got this love from someone else, it always starts at home, a bully isnt someone that only physically abuse others, bullies exist in all types of bullying, the emotion bully, the mental bully, the friendly bully, the dominating bully, the friendship bully, the I love you bully, there are many and they are in all of us, in some way or another we are all bullies,

A bully is simply someone that is doing what has been done onto them in the name of love.

Why in the name of love, because parents say they love you as a child yet they will beat you down, they will suppress your expression, they will scream at you, they will deceive you, they will say trust me when they do the opposite, they lie a lot, they pretend, they force you to do things, they say do this do that, stop it, shut up, sit still, be nice, show some respect, I wish I never had you, you were a mistake, if there are more than one kid in the house they always have a favorite and you can clearly see it yet they say they love you both, and much more. and you can see bullies do the same thing then onto others. shut up, give me your money, beat you up, scream at you, etc.

So how confusing all of this is, now imagine being a kid between the age of newborn till seven, and all this is happening to you as you are learning and being educated, it is the perfect mixture to create bullies and abusers with love.

Obviously it is not to blame parents as they could only teach you what they knew, it is called the sins of the fathers. It is to realized that the current way of life isnt best for all life and definitely not for you or the new generations of children entering this world. Is it sick, it is madness, it is evil, we all accept and allow parents to teach children what they know as if it their right of free choice even if no one is educated on how life works, how the human works, even if it creates deceitful abusive humans as one is called the bully.

I was a bully since the age of 5 as I can remember till now, the bullying has not stopped but simply changed its way, how I bully in subtle ways, people will call me a nice guy and a good guy and they will see me as having a great friend, yet this is part of how my bullying has evolved to the evil it is in all of us currently, we all do this the same way, some prefer to remain out of the closet bullies, bullying is in everything, telling someone you love them in a relationship and yet you screams and yell and call each other names and blame and judge and have secret thoughts and being spiteful towards teacher, that is bullying.

Love (evol) creates the biggest bullies hidden in plain sight.

I forgive myself that I have not realized that love is the creator of bullies, as this is a direct reflection within the whole as life here on earth and how fucked up life on earth is.

I forgive myself that I have not seen and realized that love is the source of all accepted and allowed bullying in this world.

I forgive myself that I have not realized that a bully is created through some and or any form of love and that it started within the first seven years of childhood within the family.

I forgive myself that I have not realized that bullies are simply the outcome of some form of input within the child within the child's first seven years within how the child was educated through the environment and the parents and anyone else that had an influence on the child's life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react and resist to accept and allowing myself to see and realize that love creates all evil as the world is a clear in your face reflection of who we are as apparent loving beings while everything is being fucked up in the name of love.

I forgive myself that I have not realized that through claiming to love someone and doing the opposite is being a bully, realizing that within saying I love you trust is implied and through the actions of not trusting each other after claiming love for each other through fighting, screaming, blaming, being spiteful, rejection, anger, hate, judging, and physically abusing each other we are bullying each other.

I forgive myself that I have not realized that bullies are people that will do anything the can to win and to gain the energy feeling/emotion they want to feel better about themselves, realizing that this makes a bully no different from someone that is in love, as both are out to get their fix of energy at any cost.

I forgive myself that I have not realized that the love for a loved one is no different from the love a bully has for bullying others, realizing it is the same energetic feeling/emotion that feeds the mind consciousness system that supports the enslavement of man within limitation as energy, being a slave to energy instead of breathing here with no energy movement where one can direct self in each breath in clarity as life as that which is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have not realized that a bully is simply a person that is addicted to as a energy feeling/emotion which is received through others reactions feelings/emotions - realizing this is not different than how love works, as I can see that love is simply bullying candy coated as it is based on self interest to fulfill self own insecurities and to feel better about self.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that loving someone is the same as bullying someone for their energy, as both are about getting what self wants to feel better about self and to feel accepted either through someones approval as love to abuse them for it, or through force as being a bully, yet the same outcome.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to  to see and realize that all bullying starts at home and that with in the home as a family that loves one another as trust it is seen okay to bully each other openly because of the candy coat called love.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that bullies are people that only physically abuse others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that bullies are simply people doing what they love to do as it was done onto them within a game of energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge bullies as being bad and wrong, yet I could not see my own behaviors within being a bully in other areas of life such as relationship, animals, plants, earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to call others bullies yet not willing to look at myself and where in my life I am a bully.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to look into my life and how I was created through my acceptance and allowance as a bully and equally to see and understand how others have been created as bullies, as this requires me to look within my first seven years of life within the family.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from bullies only to not look at myself and where I am a bully within my life and take self responsibility.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge bullies.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself form bullies as apparently being more and better, not realizing that within the act of separating myself form bullies I am a bully within accepting and allowing them to be bullies and to remain in their own suffering.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to stop bullying in the world without first looking at myself and stopping the bully within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself as the creator of bullying being a bully.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself as the creator of bullying/bullies with in what I accept and allow within me an so with in the world to manifest as a system based on abuse and self interest that only seeks to fulfill self interest at all cost as a feeling energy.

I commit myself to expose love as the creator of bullies as it is within plain sight within what is reflected within the world as all evil, where the human is bullying self/each other and earth for all natural resources to fulfill a addiction to energy as feelings/emotions within and as the mind

I commit myself to show that love is the greatest bully, as love is accepting and allowing the world to exist the way it is currently existing with billions suffering and where nature is abused and being destroyed in the name of love as a energy feeling of the mind consciousness system that support self interest and enslavement of man.

I commit myself to expose love for the bully that it is through showing that love only gives permission to abuse and deceive as a bully's love to hate/abuse/hurt/gain energy and dominance over others only to fulfill a energy feeling/emotion of the mind.