Fear the Unknown Day 290 Part 6



Continuing from:
Day 285 - Fear Part 1
Day 286 - Fear Part 2
Day 287 - Fear Part 3
Day 288 - Fear Part 4
Day 289 - Fear Part 5

Fear of the next step.
I have to expand on this fear point a bit more, I have always been willing to do anything that needs to be done, yet when I start what I do I tend to fear going to the next step, so its easy starting and learning the basics and the points that is needed, but the next step of applying it for real is where I fear going as it seems scary and as if no matter how much I practiced or trained I am not ready, this is obviously the fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I start something new to fear going all the way in theory and in practice within the belief of myself that I am not ready.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I will never be ready and that the fear will always be here as long as I do not walk through the fear and into the unknown to see what is here for real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear going into the unknown because I belief that I must know what is in the unknown lol.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the unknown.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create exaggerated ideas/believes of the unknown as a way to scare myself off to not go there.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to scare myself of the unknown as a way to not to have to change myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create fear within myself through participating within the mind as thought projections of what I fear might happen or how it may go, seeing and realizing that it is all made up and not real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that moment of pushing through the fear and to change to follow through on the new path.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make myself little and less then the moment of change when and as it presents itself here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to validate the fear in the moment of change instead of validating myself as being capable and to handle the moment as breathe.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself and to instead trust the fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
Fear of

Fear Part 5 scared of women - Day 289


Continuing from:
Day 285 - Fear Part 1
Day 286 - Fear Part 2
Day 287 - Fear Part 3
Day 288 - Fear Part 4

I fear looking stupid in the eyes of women/female.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear looking Stupid in the eyes of women.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make my life all about what females think of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I am not accepted in the eyes of females that I will be abused by them as the being bitchy and mean towards me and gossip about me making people dislike me and making life harder.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Fear gossip about me happening behind my back.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being abused verbally by females as being nasty and mean towards me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project childhood experiences with females onto all females and to within this life and act in fear towards with females.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if females do not like me that I am Less of a man and that something must be wrong with me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear females.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear myself and how to be as the right way to be around females and that it is and will always be the wrong way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in fear around females seeing and realizing how this is a danger where I make myself small and little around women that creates a inferior character of myself that in its polarity generates hate and anger towards females that is not best for all and thus I see and realize that I must stop this Mind fuck bullshit and breathe and see here as the physical one and equal and to stop my own self judgments and gossip in my head about myself and to not project it onto women as if it is theirs and to live here one and equal with and as them in breathe.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being confident around women.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being disliked by females.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to the feedback I get from females as either positive or negative and to accordingly live and act to either get more positive energy or to live in a way as to prevent myself from experiencing the negative even if it means compromising myself and my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that MY FEAR is the cause and the creating point of what I fear and try to avoid, thus I see and realize I must built self integrity where I stand within myself as who I am and to not place that false responsibility on others such as females where I make it a open point for blame and resentment that leads to back chat and even to consequences if the energy experience isnt stopped and taken responsibility for as myself as being the only one responsible.

I fear that I am not good enough.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Fear not being Good enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the general feeling experience of myself that I am not good enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that the general Feeling/emotion I experience of myself as not being good enough is acceptable and normal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that I will never be good enough slave to the system to make good enough money to live a good enough life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to settle for a good enough life with a good enough paycheck with me not being good enough as the reason for it to be good enough, seeing and realizing how this is my limitation point, my point of never achieving and going big and making lots of money and changing my life situation to a point where I can change ALL life with what I have as a support within the Equal Money system and to bring about a world that isnt Good enough But that I BEST for ALL. Seeing and realizing that I must start with myself to achieve the BEST I can for myself to Bring it to ALL equally with what I achieve through Stopping the self judgment and identification of myself as not being Good enough as this judgment is what I accept and allow within myself to always only settle for just good enough.


Fear of fear Part 4 Day 288


Continuation of
Day 285 Fear Part 1
Day 286 Fear Part 2
Day 287 Fear Part 3

I fear that I will never become fearless.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Fear that I will never be Fearless.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Fear being less then Fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Judge Fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Fear that I will have to live with fear forever.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a negative experience for myself every time I experience Fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear letting go of fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Fear standing one and equal as my fears.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear facing myself as the fears I have created as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Fear standing up and facing my fear, like walking through a desert storm as me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Fear not stopping my fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear fear itself and that it exist within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Fear the idea that fear exist within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I create and I accept and allow the fear within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I am the creator of my fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Fear creating fear and tow within this create fear, seeing and realizing that Breathing and not participating within thoughts/feelings/emotions as reactions and back chat is the prevention of me not creating fear and to instead direct my life and my world practically within what is best for all as myself.

I fear not ever getting specific.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Fear that I will never be able to get specific.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that People simply GET specific, not seeing and realizing the actual work and effort put into getting/being specific.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I create the fear of not ever being/getting specific in what I do or say or work on is because when I do those things I do not give to myself the time to be specific and just rush everything.

I fear being specific.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Fear being specific.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the responsibility that comes with being able to be specific and that I have to live up to it as a point that can stand the test of time to be an example for others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being an example to myself first because that will proof all my fear to be wrong and not valid and that everything I have ever done was deliberate self compromise and creating limitations for myself as reasons and excuses and justifications to protect self interest.

Fear Part 3 - Failure - Day 287



Continueing from
Day 285 Fear Part 1
Day 286 Fear Part 2

I fear failing.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear failing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear failure.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that if I am a failure that I will be useless forever.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that the failure point exist within me from a system that is designed on winners and losers and that the winners have money and the losers don't and the winners can have food and the losers don't, seeing and realizing that I fear being a failure and not making it within the system as having money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear failing as not having money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear failing a job and not having money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear failing when I haven't even given myself a change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief in a system of chance as Luck.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to depend on luck and if I will fail or not.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give myself a choice of maybe or maybe not.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live by chance instead of using the chance and making it happen.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that the system I live in currently is a system of chance and that when I have the chance to do something that I must take the chance and not fear it but use it to the fullest to change the system to remove luck and chance and failures and achievers as haves and have not's where all live is equally supported within all needs taken care of within an equal money system that is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing the chance I have within the fear of failing, instead seeing and realizing that I have the chance and thus failing is a choice that I make if I fear it, and thus I must stop the fear and use the chance without fear but to express myself as it and to change the chance to a chance for everyone at life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear failing myself at the chance I have.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear repeating the past where I had chances and Luck and just chucked it away for my own self created limitations as the beliefs and ideas I had about myself as being a loser.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear failing within the belief that I am stupid and cant make the best of any chance I have.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the believes I have of myself is limitations I have set for myself in my mind and to not learn and get thing that are new, instead I let go of this belief and I give t myself a new slate to begin with to able myself to learn and to change.
To be continued.

Day 286 Fear Part 2



Continuing from Day 285 Fear Part 1

Fear of not being confident enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being confident within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear showing confidence in myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I show confidence in myself that I will be looked down upon.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look down on others that show confidence to make myself feel better about myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Fear that I can never have actual confidence within myself and that it will always just be a pretending game.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a false confidence as a likeness of myself as a image in my head of myself, instead of seeing and realizing that the real confidence of myself lies within me as Who I am within and as the physical as my movement and words and knowing myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that i will never be able to actually change as who I am and have always been, seeing and realizing that this is the consequences of holding on to memories of the past and judging and defining myself according to those memories, instead of letting go and breathing and being here in the present where I am a present to myself in each moment as breathe as who I am in self confidence, defining myself as breathe as life one and equal to what is here within self honesty always living and doing what is best for all life.

Fear of not being able to remember people’s names.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Fear forgetting people’s names and that they will find it offensive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel offended when and as someone forgets my name.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel stupid and not important when and as someone does not remember my name.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attach a emotional connection towards the idea of someone remembering my name as being important and worth remembering.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being regarded as just another person with a name and that my name can be forgotten as the rest, seeing and realizing that I thus fear forgetting other people’s names as I actually only fear them forgetting mine.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I forget someone’s name that it will be seen as a insult toward them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel insulted when someone forgets my name.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that the moment I fear NOT remembering someone name that the fear interrupts me as awareness as remembering and thus the fear takes over and the name leaves my head and I forget, seeing and realizing that the fear itself is what makes me not remember.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rely on memories instead of self trusting here as all that is here always.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that memory is more reliable then awareness in the present.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Doubt my Instant ability ti integrate and learn in the moment breathing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear trusting myself instantly to “remember” to here and be here and get it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that it is impossible to learn instantly.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that I con only be my past as my memories.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that instant understanding is a process of training, seeing and realizing how that it actually giving power to the mind and to control what I am capable of or not, seeing and realizing that the physical in full self trust learns instantly in the moment and that there is no fear, as fear if always in self interest and when I learn in fear I learn in the fear of LOSS and thus as memory where it will get lost in between all memories, instead of realizing that everything is always HERE as me as the physical and thus I can simply access everything here breathing Trusting and moving and living.

Fear of not meeting people’s needs.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not meeting other people’s needs that they ask of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if someone asks something of me and that whatever I do will not meet their needs from me and thus be disappointed and find me useless.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make myself a need pleaser.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself within what I can actually do through narrowing myself to only please the needs instead of expressing myself as who I am within what is asked and required.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to stress myself out through only wanting to please the needs of others as a point of rushing to please the need, instead of taking time to make the need a deed worth its time within and as a expression of myself as who I am instead of doing it towards/for someone else to do it as myself for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself within only wanting to please others needs as a point of fear, moving myself within fear and anxiety and stress and to overwhelm myself with tasks and things, instead of looking at what is here practically to work within each breathe and to do what I can in each moment to the best of what is here in each moment to achieve a expression of myself that isn’t limited within pleasing but within getting it done effectively and bets as possible.

Fear Part 1 Day 285



This is General Fear points I have during my Day at work, at home when I am with myself, I start with the first one that came up.

Fear of being seen as stupid.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Fear to be seen as stupid.
Fear of Forgetting and then having to ask again and again to get it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being seen as stupid when and as I forget things and have to ask again and again till I remember or get it.

Fear of not hearing the first time and having to ask again and again and then getting on the peoples nerves.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to be seen as stupid when and as I do Not hear what the people say the first time and have to ask them again and again, like I am making them having to talk more.

Fear of getting on someone’s bad side.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to FEAR getting on someone’s bad side through seeming to be stupid.
Fear of irritating People with questions or not hearing and requesting of them to be more specific.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Fear Irritating people when and as I ask them to be more clear and specific on what they have already told me, as if my stupidity is to blame for it.

Fear of not having answers when someone ask me something and then seen as useless.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having answers for people and to be seen as useless to them

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel useless when and as I do not have answers for people.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must automatically have answers for everything with the knowledge already.

Fear of being seen as useless.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being seen as useless withn what I do physically.

Fear of not being of any use.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being seen as not being of any use.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as being Shit and useless

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as shit.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe myself as the mind that I am shit with all the shit self judgments I have towards myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold myself back through judging myself as being shit and useless and stupid and not worthy and as not capable and to actually live that as myself as if it is real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I am the one and only one holding myself back.

Fear of being seen as not doing anything and thus a waste of time and money.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I am wasting someone’s time and thus their money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within this fear over work myself instead of breathing and moving within effectiveness and what needs to be done and not to create extra things to do to seem busy and not as if I am wasting time and money,

Fear of being a waste of time
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being a waist of time as not learning something, not getting something within the belief that I am stupid and that I am thus not able to use time as the rest.

Fear of upsetting someone when I am not equally busy.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that If I am not busy or seem to be busy that I will upset someone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I am not busy with something even if I make it up that I will upset someone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear upsetting someone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consume my day and my learning process with the fear of upsetting someone.

Fear of taking other peoples time to learn new things.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I will take away other peoples time to ask for help or tips to learn something new.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear using my own time teaching showing someone else something new.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I fear using others time as I am unwilling to give my own time due to the back chat I have about time that I now limit myself on as to be able to do.

Fear of trusting myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear trusting myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that it is necessary for me to fear my own trust in myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that it isnt appropriate to trust myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that I need approval and acceptance from others to trust myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that I need to be smart before I can trust myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I trust myself that others will be jealous of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be jealous of others that trust themselves.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that trusting myself will mean I have to live up to it as a character that takes effort and energy, seeing and realizing that self trust is me breathing and moving myself within self honesty.
To be Continued.

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