You have no idea what happens after death, and you are incapable of bridging that gap, because what happens after death is so much more, and so vastly more in every way possible that you are currently in this world that you are, simply in a wink of an eye disappear – you are in the context of the universe, which are supposed to be equal with, you are equal to only one thought that you are having in your head… Listen to the full interview by Bernard Poolman
Breathe – ok, while listening to this interview, I was brought back to reality a lot more, in the sense of reality within and without, taking another look at life, a deep look. With the common sense presented within this interview, I simply cannot ignore the common sense and so the implications, and for me when something has an implication within common sense, I must investigate that implication and take what I see and apply it, make it real, LIVE the common sense practically and realistically. It sound easy, yet the mind is a fuckup/we are a fuckup, and what Bernard discussed proofs itself once again, we are fucked, unless we stand up as life/universe.
If I had to die today, something happens and I die. People will not give a fuck, I mean, people will possibly feel a bit “sad” and then “morn” for a few days, but before you know it – nothing really changed, I am simply one less human on earth. Everyone else goes on with their lives, surviving, making money, chasing dreams and all the crap the system mislead people into chasing, and stress about emotional and mental problems and family issues, relationship issues, sexual issues, drug and alcohol issues, addictions, habits, patterns, people will simply fall into “life” again and forget.
I can say this because this is my honest experience that I have had throughout time. When Bernard died, many people were sad, many cried, many felt a “loss” – Dozens of people wrote blogs of honoring Bernard and what he stood for and to honor that through their living/standing as he did. It did not take a lot of time and even such a commitment and honoring is lost, gone, as we can see throughout the years almost no one stood and lived as he did, even after writing blogs openly for all to see. I mention this point, because this point reveals a lot and just how fucked we are.
When I look at family members or friend who have died, they have all left my memory, my life, they are gone, I barely consider them ever, it’s over, it is gone, LIFE as we call this mess of a world we have accepted and allowed and so our MIDS as the fuckup we need to end, simply takes over and nothing matters, and we are back into our own SELF-INTERESTS and putting faces on, playing games, fucking around and consider nothing really except a single thought that pops into our heads and give that attention.
The point that came through for me within listening to this interview is – I have to care a fucking lot about myself as LIFE, as the UNIVERSE, end the thoughts, feelings and emotions and fucking get real with real implications of common sense.
The point that hit a nail for me is where Bernard says, we are supposed to stand equal as the universe (here consider that implications in fact in practicality, not as a feeling) and yet we only stand equal to a fucking thought, so when we die, that’s all we exist as, and like a fly, we will simply be smacked and removed, as all we existed as was a nuisance, a pest, something that only cares for itself, and so no relevance.
I write the way I do to keep it real for myself, real with myself, and so I can get to self-honesty, this process includes Self-forgiveness. My writings according to what came up for me listening to the interview is below.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to keep myself alive as a personality with a face that I present to the world outside of myself, as to uphold a face that “fits” in, where this face is only necessary within this system to a degree, yet selling myself out as LIFE in fact, not considering that when I DIE with eternity ahead of me, I will have fucked only myself through selling myself out to keep face, thus showing me who I have accepted and allowed myself to become and so exposing my dishonesty as who I accept and allow myself to be for the sake of self-interest.
I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that the faces I am paying, putting on now within this world is a reflection of who I have accepted and allowed myself to be/become over eons of time, and so to stop these faces and deception of SELF, I must face hard truths/realities of myself and this existence.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be trapped within this world design and so live a life where I trap myself within the games of this world design all for the sake of survival/fear, not considering that I will die, and so who the fuck am I then?
I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that as long as I stand as thoughts/feelings/emotions that I will not exist after death, as I can only be what I stand equal and one to, and thus I am not standing as LIFE/Universe and so I will simply be non-existent.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make the world system SO FUCKING IMPORTANT and my survival within it that I neglect myself and even abandon the fact and implications of LIFE itself as an eternal existence and so who I am as that in fact, and to rather make my MAIN focus on me standing and BIRTHING myself as life, instead of making money, surviving, caring only about my relationships, my emotions, feelings and thoughts that is limited and confined to a temporary system of enslavement.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT see and realize that if I am only surviving within this temporary system and making that my focus as my life mission, and so Not make it my purpose to first and foremost rebirth myself as life, then at DEATH I would have achieved nothing but for a system to continue to exist that abuse and for myself to then NOT exist.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make survival more important than re-birthing myself as life, thus not seeing, opening up the points of I can survive with the intention of making that survival mean something that matters, where I survive to be able to have an opportunity to rebirth myself and so birth the possibility for others to also rebirth and so as more people rebirth the more we are able and capable of implementing a new world system that can give ALL life an equal and one opportunity.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT consider that when I die I have NO fucking clue what is after death, as I have not rebirth myself as LIFE as one and equal, and so death exists for me, where I simply end, thus not seeing and realizing that re-birthing self as life here is to be the universe, in living or in death.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to JUSTIFY the FACES I play of that having GOOD intentions, that thee faces I play will LATER bear benefits to life, and so in the meantime I must sacrifice myself and give myself up – not seeing and realizing that no one gives a fuck, no matter how good I think I am, when I die, people won’t care, and so I am still with me, and I did noting real and concrete for myself, so then I am fucked and fucked everything else by playing faces and deception to deceive and “survive” with good intentions.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sell myself, my own rebirth as life out to a justification of survival, for the system that is here within the starting point of self-interest, playing games of deceptions with others to see who likes who and who will benefit who and in the end, end up with death where I am all alone, all by myself and everyone else now do not give a fuck anymore, so all for nothing but temporary experiences of thoughts/characters that end.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to continue living as a character within the ignorance that death will not come for me, as if I have all the time in the world and can play just a little longer and then later change, yet death is sudden and out of one’s control, and one has to stand always regardless.
I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that petty things I am participating within my life is the small things that keep myself from re-birthing.
I forgive myself that I have Not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that all the personal things such as entertainment, happiness, joy, purpose within this world system, goals of one’s own personal life only, and so on is that which keeps me occupied from focusing first and foremost on myself while living within this world.
I forgive myself that I have NOT seen and realize that re-birthing myself as life takes survival as an experience out of life, as I am already living, alive throughout eternity as the universe and so using the excuse of I must survive becomes an excuse and exposes it as just that, as one can survive yet does not have to fear it, or live in the stress of it, or fall in the trap of only focusing on that, as re-birthing mean one is HERE alive as Life for eternity.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to live as less than life through the participation within thoughts.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT care for myself within the consideration of death and so the implications of death and who I am within and as LIFE here and hereafter.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make my life and who I am about and around other people as if what they think of me, or believe of me, or perceive of me as something that is going to rebirth me as life, when in fact literally has nothing to do with it.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to CARE about what others think of me in the mislead idea that what others think of me define me and so will give me access to LIFE as eternity.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself within the false idea that hat others think of me will determine who I am, thus missing the point of I must rebirth myself as life as NO idea, no belief, or opinion and stand as eternity as who I am that stands as life as what is best for all life.
I forgive myself that I have NOT honored myself through standing as LIFE as who I am, and so dishonor life and myself through standing as characters/faces and fake smiles that will end at death and only contributed to abuse and nothing of actual value.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dishonor myself through giving into the fake smiles, fake characters as if they will open the gates of heaven to me, and so deceive everyone and play games with everyone within and from a point of self-interest to be in the “good books” to make it to heaven, yes the truth of such acts are evil in nature, dishonesty and deception, and f that I what lets people into heaven, then heaven is full of devils.
I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to see and realize the common sense implications of that when I die and there is NO god, then I am fucked, as I am then all alone, and who I am will determine everything, not some entity made up in the minds of humans.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make my “personal” and “petty” problems so fucking important that it consumes my life and swallows me into self-interest and so basically already make myself irrelevant and thus non-existent as all I care about is myself, my problems, how tired I am, how hard I work etc, and not give a second of my time to LIFE as who I am in fact.
I will end here for today. As a reminder this is my blog, my writings (my points) anything that you misinterpret or take the wrong way, or even act in ways from reading this blog, that’s your points, so take it, write self-forgiveness and end the thinking, get physical and real in breath. Thank you.
At Desteni we have since the beginning recommended for people to take on the 6 hours of sleep challenge. I myself have been sleeping for 6 hours every night for the past couple of years.
Here is the video below that I am referring to.
What the commander says about discipline equals Freedom is true. The same as the saying that goes, with great Freedom comes great responsibility (or I just made that one up) – But we need to have an ABILITY to Respond and not REACT to what is happening around us.
If we empower ourselves with discipline then we automatically enforce response/ability and so we then create a point within ourselves where we say “I am not a victim” I am in fact HERE and a Director, a director uses what is HERE and direct things, changes things, make things move/happen.
If you read the comment section in this video you will see many people calling out “MADNESS” due to the amount of time that is being proposed to sleep – In this Case Casey Neistat sleeps 5 hours approximately.
So, 5 hours can be a bit hard, I know, I took on the challenge of sleeping only 4 hours a night for 21 days, and even skipping on sleeping some nights, I pushed myself within many points and challenged and checked out these points for myself. I have found that 6 hours with a 16 hour working day is okay.
The work I do, is an all in one package – I live on a farm within a community, at the same time the community is my colleagues, and the farm is where I work from, I do at least 8 hours a day computer work and 8 hours I am outside (which means physical labor and moving things, getting things etc) – Like today I had to do a ton of phone calls and talk to a ton of people, I also had to do paper work for certain things, I also had to then get to our vegetable patches and take out weeds and start planting seeds. I also had to direct and manage other people during the course of the day. I also had to sit in and meet with people, talk and discuss movement.
Then, consider, since my work and home and everything is in one place – I am also all the time with my wife, my home, and my five year old son, there is no “going away” it is all moving and busy and active all the time, consistently till I put my head on my pillow at night. Not even mentioning the basics of living in this post here, like making breakfast, lunch, dinners, cleaning, and laundry and so on. (Which I leave out sometimes lol) and consider, since this is our setup, there is NO weekends, NO holidays, it is always continuous and the same flow.
The point I am getting to here is – what I had to learn and face the MOST within this point of sleep, discipline and thus response/ability that all go hand in hand was – MY inner world, my emotions, thoughts and feelings were the biggest challenge within all of this, especially with my life setup – it all becomes TOO much at times, like there is never “time for yourself” – Time away, time to just do nothing, except when I am asleep, so SLEEP did and can easily become a place to hide, to get away from, to not have to wake up and face MYSELF, my experiences, my thoughts, my back chat.
This is where the DESTENI process of writing (as I am doing here) within self-forgiveness has been my foundation and point of not JUST forcing myself into a certain idea of sleep/disciple – but to actually face why I “wanted/desired” sleep – what thoughts, feelings and emotions I was running from, what I was avoiding and so my inner change would accompany my outer change naturally.
Right now is a good example, I went to bed last night at 1am, I got up at 7am, right now it is twenty to eleven, I still need to finish this blog and post it and then share it around, so I will probably go to bed around 12, thus I can wake up at 6, I do not know yet, will see.
So, I am going to do self-forgiveness on resistances to taking on such a challenge of less sleep yet being very busy during the day, and see how I do it, how I take apart the beliefs that are pre prescribed and the opinions, the self-definitions, the IDEAS we have of ourselves and reality, and how through self-forgiveness we can actually remove the mental burdens that already make us fail, and to then have a REAL assessment of what is possible and what isn’t, not based on knowledge and information within our minds. We have to be real, we do not know what we are actually capable of until we remove brainwashing and pre-programming (that’s which we were TAUGHT from school, parents, culture, science, name it all). As always, it is up to you to do YOUR self-forgiveness on this point.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to the idea of only sleeping 5/6 hours a night and to still be productive all day.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT see and realize that the initial reaction to only sleeping 5/6 hours a night is based on a self-limiting idea/belief I have of myself, and so the reaction serves as a defense mechanism to keep in take the limited self-definition of who I believe I am.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into IMAGINATION and PROJECTION of what I might experience, and thus who I will be if I had to only sleep 5/6 hours a day, without first testing it out for myself in such a way where I walk it absolutely without pre-conceived ideas/believes about it.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to the idea of only sleeping 5/6 hours a night when I look at MY life, what I already do and go through on a daily basis, where I already feel exhausted at the end of the day, and so already give up and give into a reality/life that I already do not enjoy and so settle for that instead of pushing myself to change it, change who I am accepting and allowing myself to be within it all.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when hearing of others who have succeeded in only sleeping 5 hours a day and having a functional life that is stable, to go into comparison of where I immediately pace myself as having a more difficult life, a more different life than them, and so it is all unfair and they were simply lucky and I am unlucky, and so accept and allow ME to remain the same within a victim mentality, before even actually trying and testing what is really possible for myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear taking on my sleeping habit/comforts and to face a bit more of discomfort, even if it means I could create and actual comfortable life, and not just one that seems comfortable.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deny change for myself and my life through denying such a challenge based on reactions I have, believes I have, ideas I have.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear change, to fear what is required for me to change and to resist taking that step of actually testing something out for myself in real time, and so rather go into knowledge and information to justify and deny myself change.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am incapable of taking on such a challenge, that I am not worthy of such a challenge.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I only sleep 6 hours a night that I will die.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I had to take on the challenge of only sleeping 6 hours a night considering everything else going on in my life currently, that I will have a heart attack, that I will be too exhausted to enjoy myself, to live and eventually destroy my life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I had to change mt schedule, my sleeping patterns that other people, such as family members, children, partners will resist it, hate me for it and not like me for taking on such a challenge, and so deny myself the challenge and rather conform to the norm, which does not serve me either within how I’m experiencing myself and everyone else.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear starting such a challenge within the idea that I must succeed the first time, not seeing and realizing by taking on such a challenge, one will have actual real feedback based, which will be based on my position and location within this world and so I can accordingly adjust to what is best for me and so for all to be practical and real, yet change, moving forward.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be controlled by what science and doctors have TAUGHT me and my parents about sleep and so wired my mind to believe it to be real and so wired my body to function as I believe, and so seeing this challenge as being against logic/science – yet I have not actually tested it for myself in fact to see what is real for me and what isn’t.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed an IMAGE of failure, or misery, of depletion to come before me s I think about taking on this challenge, and so already doom myself to an image in my mind of what this challenge will be like, not seeing and realizing that such an image that comes before me come from me as who I am currently, not who I will be and thus this challenge will challenge that image I hold of myself within me to be no more, if I give it a real living chance.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear who I might be in such a challenge.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to hold onto the reason, the WHY I am doing this for long enough to push through – thus a gift within this is that one’s why might not be a real reason, and thus ones why must change till it is unchangeable, till it is a reason as a way that is that of LIFE, rebirth, of self not accepting and allowing any self-abuse or false images of self, to remove brainwashing and mind control instilled within self over years, since birth.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear challenging my beliefs, ideas and opinions about myself/reality through taking on a challenge of sleeping only 6 hours a night.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the worst of me coming out taking on such a challenge.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the worst of others coming out if the worst of me comes out within taking on such a challenge, and thus fearing the hidden existing parts to show their faces, and so not seeing and realizing that these parts already exist and are in play, simply in secret, and thus to call them out through a challenge one can face them, clear the air in a directive way, instead of it coming out in surprised moments that causes harm unexpectedly.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear change.
I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that if I cannot take on a small challenge of change, then I cannot expect of myself to want to change my life as a BIG part of change either.
I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that it is within the details of things that the bigger things are made of, and thus If I truly want change within my life, all life, then I must be equally willing to face change first in the details.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see this challenge as a military challenge where I have to be hard on myself, harsh on myself and others, instead of seeing and realizing that it can be a gentle challenge, one of understanding and support, if this is the approach made in agreement.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make this challenge about becoming/being MORE than who I am, instead of seeing and realizing that this challenge is to remove who I believe I am NOT so that the expression of me as LIFE can simply walk through and be here as a true individual as who I am, and thus NOT to make it about becoming more, or that one is less currently, rather than one is ready to express SELF s self’s already existing potential that has been suppressed and denied.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I take on the 6 hours’ sleep challenge, that my life must still function exactly the same, and thus missing the point of change, and so I see and realize that taking on this challenge I am also taking on the challenge of changing things in my reality in a practical functional best for all manner and so stop habits and patterns that are abusive, self-harming or inductive of abuse towards others.
I commit myself to when and as I take on this challenge to be understanding of myself and others and so not to fall for the emotional reactions that come up and to act on them impulsively and to use the lack of sleep as a reason/justification for behaviors/manners.
I commit myself to BREATH and to stop the thoughts, feelings and emotions from directing my day when I take on this challenge and to stick to my plan (discipline = this is the pan) and keep things real, practical and harmonious for all within the transition/changes.
I commit myself to care and be gentle with myself taking on this challenge and so not to create more emotional problems/turmoil’s but to support myself, assist myself, give to myself as a way of telling myself – I am doing this.
I commit myself to when and as I see I want to give up, to see and realize what I am falling back into, to thus STOP to not go back to what I know, but rather focus on changing the challenge to be more in alignment with what is currently practical and so build it up,,, to keep the movement forward to what is best for all as myself.
I commit myself to do this FOR me within the understanding that who I am currently isn’t y true individual expression as life, but rather a suppressed and denied self, and so I do this for me to be my true individual expression to be the best for me and thus automatically be the best for all equally, as I see and realize that the suppressed and denied me isn’t helping me or anyone and holding onto this me isn’t serving life.
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