Day 224 – The Apocalypse Battle of who is right and who is Wrong 21/12/12

I remember how I used to fight with my friends way back in 2006 about the world ending in 2012, I even made bets with them that they will be wrong and that the world will end, I had all these theories that made so much sense, I had evidence that back me up on the internet – such as videos and experts giving photos of stuff and math’s and reasoning.

I had no reason to doubt myself and that I was right, I felt anxious and fearful for my friends that they can be so ignorant and not see what I am saying, because someone else is saying it as well and there is proof, I used to talk to my friends about how the world will end in 2012.12.01 I had so many stories that I told them, they were mixed up but I somehow made sense of it all and put it together how I saw with reason in my mind how it will be possible.

It all started with Reptilians, my dad used to share with me information he red about reptilians and how the reptilians created man and how we were used for collecting gold so that the reptilians can fix their planet, something about the atmosphere and that their planet comes by every 3600 years, as they are on a different orbit.

I immediately felt inferior as I saw these massive reptile species that created us, they must have awesome technology to do what they did, I was I was also told that their planet that will pass again soon will have devastating effects on earth, even kill everything on earth as their planets magnetic field will pull our planet, and there was the theory that the reptilians will come back and kill out billions of people and take the planet for themselves and enslave the rest of the human race for their own purposes.

There was also the theory that the reptilians (aliens) will come and take some humans with them on their planet, and on this planet humans can grow older and live longer and explore space and do awesome stuff, but then there was also the theory that other alien races will come and save a view of the human race from the reptilians and these few chosen people must be “enlightened” only, be worthy.

Then there was the spiritual side to all of this – that the world will not just end in 2012-12-21 but that there will be a portal that will open or a dimensional shift happening on earth, and only the enlightened or people with high vibrations will be saved as these people will be able to go through to the next dimensional level while those that cant will simply die with the earth.

There was also Jesus and that he might come, and that the stuff in the Bible will come to life and only 144 000 people will be chosen to live while even the dead will rise to burn in hell or go to heaven, and that Satan and Jesus will fight in the skies with their demons and angels in the biggest battle earth has ever seen, and then Jesus/god will slain the devil and send him to hell, and that of course I have to be a good person to be one of the chosen ones to live.

Then there was the other one, the world will go into another Ice age and the poles will shift and Billions of people will die due to this as extremely low temperatures will occur everywhere on earth suddenly that will freeze the air immediately and kill anything that breathes, and that in this shift on those that have been smart enough to know how to survive will survive.

I was filled up with fear, I started preparing myself mentally and physically in my reality for any and all of these options that the world can end.

I started crating myself as the survivor character, I was spiritual, I was physically strong and ready, I was in a higher vibration, I knew how to apparently fight massive reptilian aliens and I red books on how to survive in the wild and how to make fire – I got knives and back packs and cross bows, I mentally pumped myself up, I was checking what foods I will store up for myself I started taking to my friends and they laughed, I went more into it all just to have that odd chance of telling them I told you so.

I started applying meditation, I applied for karate classes, I red up on aliens and spaceships, I watched a lot of videos on the internet to check how far is nibiru, how is global warming doing and what’s happening to the ice in the world. I really started obsessing with everything, all in the name of fear of death.
It became a game.

To be Continued.

Day 189 – Postponing listening to Eqafe Interviews.

I have been wanting to get all the newest Eqafe Products on my phone as interviews to listen to while I work or while I am doing stuff inside that it repetitive and do not require my full attention.
So every day I start my day and I go through my day without even considering the point till late at night AGAIN. (again is almost like my name Gian)

This has been going on for a couple of weeks now and I really want to get to the interviews and start listening to them, I have to, they are of the utmost importance within this reality and within understanding what is here and what I am working with in specificity to deprogram myself and rebirth myself as LIFE one and equal within understanding the mechanics of it all.

Because I know thought my own practical living that every single time I have listened to an interview I could say – Fuck that was super assisting and supporting, so why postpone and compromise?? When I know it is awesome every time like the lids of my eyes has been opened and I see.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to postpone getting the latest Eqafe Products on my phone and listening to them due to me “apparently being too busy to take a few minutes to do this, and to within this say/backchat to myself I will definitely do it tomorrow and to within this never get to it as I say the same tomorrow.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid the obvious Pattern hat I am following that is not within the best interest of all as myself and only compromising myself and thus everyone/thing I am in contact with and in the end the entire universe.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use excuses for not breathing and doing it instantly in the moment that the point is here and to get it over with and move forward within my process instead of stalling and compromising myself and in the end create a mountain out of something that is so small.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use outside influences as excuses and reasons for not doing it as I have the time in the moment that I considered it, or to leave myself an alarm somewhere to do it once I am in a practical position to apply myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to tell myself it is useless to get the Interviews on my phone and to listen to the interviews while I work or do things that does not require me to interact with people much and to say – People will only disturb me while I am trying to focus on the interviews and to within this one point postpone and compromise myself from getting the Eqafe interviews such as the Quantum Mind and Animal interviews that is quite recent to listen to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to listen to my mind as limitation to what is possible for me and what is not and to within that act on the limitations and to then confirm the limitations within my own self belief of it and make it real, not seeing and realizing that within the practical application of the physical it is/was more than possible for me to apply myself within getting the interviews on my phone and start listening to them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify not getting the interviews on my Phone in the moment that I can because of back chat points that I have accepted and allowed to drive me/ Mind control me through my acceptance and allowance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to brainwash myself with reasons and justifications I make up within my mind all by myself of why I cannot get the Eqafe interviews on my phone right now and start listening to them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Use the limitation of Time to reason and justify why I cannot get the interviews on my phone and start listening to them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist/postpone getting the Eqafe interviews that I have been craving to listen to for so long now - within validating one thought in my mind “where I see myself already listening to them and “getting all the new info and staying up to date and informed and as I am doing this, let’s say out in the field, someone comes and bothers me as they want something from me or need me and I get upset or angry because now I have lost my focus on what was said and I lose all the info” and to within this one thought that I have attached a negative emotion to - as how I might experience myself and as wasting time if I get interrupted not take action and start somewhere.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Only want to listen to certain interviews and only get certain interviews within the belief that I do not need the other ones, seeing and realizing how I am limiting myself within separating myself from and as the other interviews and what they can teach me and show me to walk my process much more effective and specific in stability.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT give myself the time that I have to give myself daily to actually support and assist myself within getting and listening to the Eqafe interviews daily so that I can support and assist myself and others as myself one and equal to bring about a new world that is best for all life as I rebirth myself in detail and specificity as life one and equal and to live the change practically.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself postponing getting the newest interviews on my phone to stop and breathe and slow down and to question the postponement within self honesty and to see if the point is self interest or best for all life and to check what is the back chat and what is the thoughts and the emotions/feelings that is within me controlling me from moving myself and directing myself as that which is best for all Life in all ways.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself compromising myself within postponing myself and my process and thus the process of all of LIFE to change this life through not getting the latest Eqafe Interviews that is of the utmost importance this life to hear - as it is from the portal that is nowhere else on earth - that can this LIFE support and assist us to see what is here in ALL dimensions so that we can take self-responsibility for all dimensions and to see the mechanics of how everything work so that we can rebirth ourselves as LIFE one and equal and bring about a world that is best for all life as we understand LIFE as ourselves and to do this within not postponing one point as simple as this and to move myself within self movement and not thoughts/feelings/emotions as they are all signs on brainwashing/mind control a the organic robot.

Day 146 – Living Commitments – Day 17 of 21 Thought are NOT real!!

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that thoughts are not real as the physical shows that when I am thirsty, there is no need for any thought to motivate me to go and drink – it is a simple physical movements of self that will take me to some place where I can drink, and thus through this physical fact of the body needs water, I will in my need for water find Physical ways to get water for myself as a means of being practical in and as the physical and that doing this has no need for any thought, and thus I will through this basic need learn, in and as the physical to be expressive such as finding physical ways to transport water or get water to my home where I can drink water when I am thirsty and that if I have a family to provide with water that I will find Physical practical ways to get water to my family/community as it is a fact of life and a basic need for ALL, and that I do not decide this for anyone through the mind as thoughts/thinking/feelings/emotions as it is already decided though and as the physical that all need water, thus I realize thoughts are only created through past memories as experiences that I had in relation to such a physical fact as needing water and where there was no water to drink and the body responded to the thirst and I created a memory of such event that I made an experience of and thus connected emotions such as fear of not getting water and dying of thirst, and through this I have now instead of moving myself as breathe as the physical to remain practical in getting water to drink, I have now within this fear, started to move myself to get water which is a experience based motivation as an emotional experience (negative) which leads to me becoming “irrational” in finding water and storing water only for myself and keeping water that is here for all equally only for myself and away from the animals/plants/fish and other humans in the fear of being thirsty and dying of thirst, seeing and realizing that this is how people within the current money system have been motivated through physical events that occured in their lives that led to memory creation that had certain emotional experiences attached to them. and these emotions became the motivation points of moving self in fear and thus manifesting and creating that which you fear as we can see the available drinking watr in the world is becoming less and less and thus some have and some do not because thoughts were followed instead of Physical practical points one and equal as all that is here where all equally need water and that no thought needs to decide that as it is a fact. Really simple.

Thus it is best for all LIFE if all have fresh drinking water – and no man has to decide this, everyone one arth can do the simple basic math that all need water and then through the math you will see how we are supposed to live so that all have water equally which means changing the whole monetary system that is existence here currently and the way we are living and WHO we are as Beings need to change in fact, so that all can have water.

And thus we have created a Website Equal Money.org that is where we are doing the math that is here – it isn’t math we are making up, it is math evident in LIFE as how all LIFE must function together as one living being to function effectively and not have consequences of abuse and destruction and creating hell on earth for all. And on the equal money system forums/Wiki we are applying the math and seeing what and how we can correct it all with what is here currently as a starter (capitalism) and then once equal money system is in place on how we can Effectively in ALL areas of LIFE apply the math of life so that we can live in oneness and equality as LIFE where we live in such a way that live on earth can continue for eternity – only once the math is applied correctly can life continue for eternity and that will be able to be seen in the math and if the math is correct or not.

Thus we must return to breathe and to this one Dimension we ALL share all the time as EARTH and to focus on this one dimension that we all can in fact confirm is here and that is real as we all can touch it and see it, and smell it and hear it, and where we all share the same breathe.

Time to return to breathe of LIFE.

To be continued with Self Forgiveness.

Day 118 – Being Skinny – The Machine Within Part 4.

Continuing from Day 117 that is a follow up from Day 116 and Day 115 where I take Quotes from the Day 115 Blog and apply Self Forgiveness on each point.

Quote 3: “I have made the skinny “problem” a big problem, I actually made it my mission to gain weight and to do this before I reach the middle ages because I do not want to look like a skinny boy all my life, never getting that “full body” look – interesting how I first talk about the physical problem but then it ends up being all about “looks” again”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get possessed by the Idea/self-belief/opinions/self-judgments of the mind as energy and to within this possession live it out as my “LIFE” mission to gain weight at all costs, even if it means abusing my body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse my body physically as who I am as the flesh in the pursuit of happiness that I am following according to pictures in my mind that isn’t even based on the actual physical reality of all things here as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear remaining skinny even when I am in my middle ages. and within and as this “thought”- seeing myself being old and skinny And that I have wasted my Life away within the pursuit of gaining weight and living in regret and never lived life, to rush myself in great fear/anxiety/stress to gain weight before then, not realizing and seeing that I have already wasted six years of my Life only trying to gain weight and muscles and a different body look/appearance according to pictures in my mind and that in this rush I lose track of time as I exist in the mind as energy, and to realize that before I know it I will be in my middle ages still skinny still chasing, and within this actually manifesting my fear through my actions.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that being skinny (not anorexic) isn’t wrong and inst unhealthy, it is but how my body is designed through DNA I inherited from my parents and that I have no real choice to change it, yet I do have the point of making a decision within myself to stop the chase and to stop the mission and to except myself as I am here in and as the physical after I have tried everything I can to change it practically and to live my life here in and as the physical one and equal and to use my body with what I have to do what is best for all life in all ways in all possible practical ways.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to be patient with myself and to want to rush myself and how I grow and how my body is designed and to within this rushing I am compromising and actually changing the direction my body is growing according to the signals I give my body.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that if I tell myself every day I am skinny and that if I do this for years and already have, that I am giving my body the signals that I am skinny and thus I will remain skinny no matter how much I work out or eat as that which I am telling myself is what I create myself as.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that participating in the mind as that which gives electrical signals to my body and organs that I am daily through my own self judgements/beliefs/ideas/opinions constantly giving the signal of I am skinny and thus it will counter act what I do as eating a lot or working out because The mind will simply tell my metabolism I am skinny and thus it must burn all fat that comes in to keep me skinny. Also realizing that going into the polarity point of now wanting to tell myself I am fat everyday will not work as the fear that motivates it is still based on fear of being skinny and thus the message remains the same to the body, realizing it is to stop all self judgments/beliefs/ideas/opinions and fear and to stop the participation in the mind as this will stop all conscious/sub-conscious/un-conscious signals the body is receiving and the body will not be under constant attack as the electrical signals the mind is sending out and the body as me as who I am can grow or not within and as the physical as the physical expression here as Life one and equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make everything about me about how I LOOK – realizing that this is completely fucking around with the body as the physical as the body isn’t designed to look good or bad, as the body is designed to function in oneness and equality within and as the physical here as LIFE. And so realizing that as long as I give the body electrical Bombing sessions of how the body must look through forcing and reflecting pictures in my mind onto all my cells the whole time, the cells that has a specific function within the body will not be confused As the cells are receiving messages from the mind that does not comply with what its practical function is and thus the cells will be compromised and eventually cause harm to the body such as cancer – realizing that if I continue to tell my body anything else other than what they do that they are open for malfunctioning and bearing consequences.

It is like telling a banana through electrical impulses to become a apple because it looks better, what will happen? It will obviously have physical dysfunctions and who knows what else might come out of it.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that all that I require to give my body is BREATH as that is all they require from my head to function, and that anything else such as the mind with multibillions of dimensions sending millions of more signals to the body will compromise the body and how the body functions and LIMIT the body completely within its true actual physical expression as LIFE.

To be Continued.