Day 431 – Just another Happy new Year's Blog for 2014

Everyday about 3.4 million blogs is written and blogged, here is one of them for this day.

When I say may all our creations become real, I am not saying it in a positive and good way, I am saying it so that we can stop and take a good look at what those words mean for 2014 and beyond. as that which we are creating on a daily bases in a silent agreement as a whole, through our direct or indirect participation, both requires our acceptance and allowance to exit and be here – I mean the news and the radio and the Internet and everything existing on earth – of which we can all agree is mostly negative shit while we all try and pretend we are so positive and always good and happy.

War is still on going and it has only worsened, when will there NOT be war on earth, it’s like the one thing we ALL do not want to exist and yet it’s not happening, war just isn’t ending, it is like this tiresome thing that always just continues to exist – and war is growing like a Cancer, it is spreading into all parts of this one body we all share called earth, just look around how many countries are now at war and how many has been devastated and destroyed and turned to waste land and we are the cancer because war exist only through the human species, but we are also the cure if we are willing to look at the problems and find solutions together as one as equals.

Poverty: I can say the exact same thing here, Poverty is something NONE of us want for ourselves or others, it is something none of us want to exist here on our planet, YET after decades, after thousands of years we still have poverty, we haven’t evolved to be better at all – STILL up to 30 000 children under the age of five die DAILY of starvation/poverty, Poverty is getting worse and worse, these days well educated and people with degrees are seen homeless and not finding a single job for themselves, we are losing it.

Environment – we are destroying the earth by the seconds in masses, we are moving at a great and consistent pace within destroying the forest’s and the ocean and all other parts of the world, Fuck even deserts, we humans are really persistent in what we do, we make sure we destroy every pat of earth just so that we can at least say we were thorough, for such small and almost none existent species as ourselves when compared to the earth itself, we are still the ones destroying our own planet, as if it is our goal to do so and as if there is a prize for us at the end of it all.

What’s going to happen in 2014 that is New – a BIG nothing, nothing new is going to happen, we are a ball of Ice rolling down a mountain of ice, its going one direction and the snow ball is just getting bigger and it’s going to reach the bottom with a very big Smash, maybe that will be when something has changed, but then it will not be for what is best for all and what we all actually would like, it will be everything that is Shit and evil that existed this year just more and bigger of it all.

People have been saying for hundreds of years Happy new year, yet there is no new year, it’s just another next day with everything else moving the exact same way as before, maybe its different for kids as they are almost leaving school and going into higher grades, YET the Jobs in this world is getting lesser and lesser and money is getting lesser and lesser, so do people want this new and bright and promising year coming? I for one would not call it anything so it seems that it is as if it is a new beginning.

If each year was a new beginning, then each year we all would start over with No debt existing for anyone and all wars would stop and all poverty would be eradicated and all environmental damage and destruction would be reversed and everything would be formatted and reset and restarted and then we can call it a new year, otherwise it’s just another day of everything existing the exact same way and another way for people to make lots of money on this special new year’s day.

Catching my drift?? Its keeping it simple and real.

So – I suggest that for ALL who have ears and who can hear and those with eyes who can see, to make ti your goal this year to investigate and support and join and vote for the LIG (living Income Guaranteed) and let us all create a new way of life, a path for us all that’s better and best.

Day 430 - Is this Possible - Standing as all Characters Part 3

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When and as I see myself separating myself from other characters that are here in this world as the humans through judgments, I stop I breathe and I stand stable within breathing and do not accept or allow any judgment within me that is of separation from another.

When and as I see myself accessing the “belief” or the automated pattern where I “belief” that I have to judge other people as their characters in a good/bad manner in order to feel save and to only protect my own self-interest – I STOP, I breathe, I see and realize that it is but only a Belief and a Pattern that I have automated to protect only my own self-interest, and that within this I am separating myself from the other being and thus creating “fear” within myself that is unnecessary and only sabotaging myself and the other person.

When and as I see that I am within the Pattern as the Behaviors and the thoughts/back-chat within me where I am attacking/judging another in a good or bad way just to protect my won fears/self-interest, I stop I breathe and I rather direct myself and what I give attention to, to myself and my breathing and me being here as the Physical in practicality and learning to know thyself as another.

When and as I see myself judging myself as the characters that I have accepted and allowed myself to become/exist as in a good/bad relationship just so that I can judge another characters/people to feel good/bad about myself as a way to fuel the energy that I am addicted to as the patterns that I have constructed for myself as endless cycles of doing the same thing over and over again just to have the same energy feelings/emotions just so that I can feel I am surviving and living and protecting myself as the patterns of separation that I have created for myself I stop and I breathe and I direct myself out of this endless cycle of self-abuse and “broken record” living, and to move myself to rather stop the separation within myself and to stand and walk in another’s shoes as my own and or walk my own shoes first to understand myself and how I created myself so that I can walk a solution and become the living example for myself as that which is best for all life in full understanding of all the mechanics that is here as creation as myself.

When and as I see myself being in judgment while helping or attempting to help another – I stop and I breathe, I realize the consequences of my actions as all actions and words I speak in the attempt of helping another person will be contaminated by my secret judgment and thus not be helping but rather creating problems, as I see and realize that I am helping another through seeing them and their situation as separate from myself and not standing in their shoes as them as myself in that moment and helping them as I would have helped myself in such a situation.

When and as I see that I am in fearsof another – thus fearsng standing in their shoes in fact in the moment in separation coming from a belief of that I am different and that I would not have done the same if I was that person – I stop and I breathe and I allow myself to really Talk or communicate with the other being or to be here in breathe listening unconditionally and to place myself in their shoes and to see for myself in fact if I were in their shoes what I would have done and how they have done what they are doing or did and to check myself the truth and to only then give an answer or direction to them as myself and not in separation as judgments that come from self-interested characters that’s only in it to protect themselves and their own energy sources from/as the mind.

Day 429 – Is this Possible – Standing as all Characters Part 2

Continuing from - Day 428 - Is this Possible, Standing as all Characters Part 1

Clarification – when I say walk in anothers shoes, I am not saying go and actually do things, like if you walk in the shoes of a murdered without judgment, it does not mean go and murder someone just to walk in their shoes, see we humans have this ability that isn’t about feelings or emotions or imagination or mind basically, this ability is where we are all in fact ONE, and thus we can as ourselves within ourselves place ourselves with and as another to see their life and creations as ourselves – because we are all in the end the exact same in how we function and create characters and live them, it is to walk each process of each character within self to see the creation process and to understand it and to stand one and equal to all characters – this is where one can stand as all characters and not be in fear of characters and then take it further – walk as each character the process of self-forgiveness and self-change to be that which is best for all life and to be life – and thus one find’s as yourself the solution and takes a position of authority – so there is no excuses and a clarity for all existing characters on how to change as you are the example, and this will lead to where one will find many characters require a System change to give them the opportunity to change. This understanding within self and all will be motivation enough to why Living Income Guaranteed is a Must.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from all other characters that are here in this world as the people.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as judgment as the point of separation of what is here as all characters that exist as the humans here on earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Belief that I as the Character that I exist as have to judge all other characters in a Good/bad relationship in order to feel save and to only protect my own self-interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge all other characters as Good/Bad just to protect my own self-interest as the character that I exist as.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Judge myself and my Character(s) that I exist as in a good/bad relationship and to within this judge all other characters to feel good/bad about myself as a way of keeping myself in check within my own self judgment and the judgment of others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT consider walking in another person’s shoes unconditionally in fact through taking off my shoes for a moment and to fully understand another as myself so that I can stand as the Problem and the solution in clarity in fact as that what is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when I am helping or attempting to help or support another being while being in judgment of that person and their character that I cannot help them but instead all I can/am doing is making decisions based on the judgments I have within my mind towards/about the other person instead of the actual problem and thus the solution.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be ignorant to the message of “walking in another’s shoes” as a point of judgment which reflects the ignorance of actually in fact understanding the implication and the practical application of such statement and to walk it practically in fact in each breathe/moment.

I forgive myself that have accepted and allowed myself to fear stepping out of my own shoes, out of the comfort of my own shoes and to step into another’s shoes in fact as myself and to walk, as the fear is of what I might find and what I have to admit and realize for myself and that what I have judged and believed was/is always just a lie and not real and the abuse that exist within that and all I have done thus far through the separation, thus seeing and realizing I must walk in the shoes of another to understand myself as them and to within this not place any judgment of good or bad, but to do so within the principle of what’s best for all life being my guide.
To be continued.

Day 428 – Is this Possible, Standing as all Characters Part 1

Why do I fear a murderer or a rapist or a gangster or a gym buff or a weird looking person standing on the corner of the street, or a homeless guy? Why do I fear these characters?

It is simple, to first realize that it is all only characters – as a character is someone that plays a certain role in a movie/film or a performance, and we are currently living in a show called capitalism, and capitalism requires characters to play certain roles so that capitalism can be capitalism.

If the People/Characters that exist today did not exist the show called capitalism could not have been possible, each and every role of each and every character is specific and simply a creation from the system/environment.

The characters are each unique and special within how they were created since birth, the character that is built and designed how to act/speak/move and then what to do is all formed and trained how to act accordingly to the input from the environment and thus the memory implants, the characters aren’t the being that was born, it is literally an actor playing its role, unaware that it’s a role and calling if Life, this is simply how life is.

So why do I fear these characters? I myself am a character, so as my character I must play the roles that I have learned since I was a child and then the roles I have assigned myself through what was taught to me as a child, so all other characters are obviously acting with me in this BIG play we call life, only the things we act out are REAL based on fictional creations in our minds, that’s one scary point, so the other point is, as my character I am not allowed to ever BREAK character, otherwise I will lose my job, I will get fired from my role and who knows where I will end up.

So standing in the shoes of others as their characters is breaking character, I am stepping out of my acting shoes and standing in someone else’s acting shoes. Which goes against the script I got from those that have gone before me!

So I always stay in my shoes and rather judge all the other characters and separate myself from all the other characters just so that I can keep my character, through judging all the other characters I am defining my character as everything I don’t want to be judged as as what I judged others as, because I see the evil within me through the act of judging and thus fear this act of evil to be done onto me, it’s like I fear judging myself the same way I judge others, how ridiculous, because apparently at the end of the show we call life, there will be a reward for the best character, this reward comes in many forms as many different parts of life assume it will be after death and claim it as truth.

So I am facing a few characters and will be facing a lot more coming, many I have never even met yet, because each character is circumstantial in a way.

Its like when I was sixteen and I went with a friend to a petrol station and he introduced me to this Nigerian guy that is his drug dealer, this was a mean motherfucker, I was shit scared of him, he was massive with BIG muscles and he had lots of chains and gold rings and tooth and a sidearm on him, in the open, this guy had the whole Character of gangster and that he has been in some shit I have never even thought of, who Knows, I feared this character and till today I fear anyone that might resemble such character, yet why do I fear him?

I never took the time to place myself in this characters shoe and to walk in his shoes and see for myself, I immediately went into first Judging and thus separating and thus creating fear.

Same with once I stopped drinking alcohol, everyone else drinking alcohol is scary, yes I was that character before, I played that role a few times, I fucked up badly with this character, yet Now I suddenly am faced with these characters in my life and I don’t know what to do, I still fear them, they are unpredictable and drunk/possessed.

This reveals to me that even when I was that character I never investigated myself as the character even, I even separated myself from the characters that I played, and now I have to revisit these characters and face myself as the character and stop the fear/separation within me, stopping the judgments.

Journey to be continued.

Day 427 – Mornings, evenings and Night time

A pattern that I have noticed within myself and my day that is of limitation is where I have this weird belief that there are specific things that are best to do ONLY in the morning and then there are things that’s Best to do ONLY in the evenings and then there are things that I can only do at nights, which leads to me not doing a lot of things – Because it’s not the right time, I am not in the right mood – which means I have created Moods for each time such as the morning/evening/night – and this is working against me instead of me working with what’s here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit what I can do dependent on the time of day and to within this have created a mood for each time of the day that will be the justification of why I am doing certain things or not.
When and as I see myself NOT doing something just because its something I have judged as doing at night when it is still morning and thus postponing, I stop, I breathe and I push myself to move from this point/pattern of self-limitation and to do it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to determine what I do dependent on the MOOD I am in that I have created and connected to the time of the day and to within this NOT move myself and get things done.

When and as I see myself being in a mood at a certain time of day – I stop, I breathe, I realize that the mood isn’t real but only a belief that I have created of how I must be experiencing myself dependent on the certain time of day, and to within this realization stop the mood and move myself within practicality and the physical as what’s here to do and get done.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect a lazy mood of not doing anything till I have done small things first and then go bigger as a way of “waking up and to only then in the afternoon get to bigger things and then at night get to the things I resist doing, seeing and realizing that this is the justification I use for postponing what’s needed to be done according to the time Construct connected with moods as self-limitation/sabotage.

When and as I see myself going into the pattern of “I must first wake up by doing small things before I get to the bigger things and then the things I resist doing” I stop and I breathe – I realize it’s just a justification and not real and just to postpone the resistance of doing what’s needed to be done, I move myself to do what’s needed to be done though going there.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use TIME and the time of day as an excuse/justification for why I am not doing certain things within the belief that if I do the things that needs to be done at this time of the day I will not be doing it effectively or just half way and that it’s not worth it, seeing and realizing that this is also a justification for not Being here in my body breathing but instead in my mind thinking and creating problems/reasons for why I am not moving myself, seeing and realizing that this is also a lack of self-commitment within my daily responsibilities.

When and as I see myself using time and the time of the day as an excuse/justification for why I am not doing certain things – I stop – I breathe I realize it’s a self-limitation that I have constructed and played out as a pattern to a point where I belief its real, and I forgive myself and move myself within forgiveness to stop the pattern and to move forward in my life.

When and as I see myself Using the excuse/justification based on the belief that if I do something a certain time of the day I will not be as effective as later on or in a different time – I stop, I breathe I realize that it is not real and only a self-created limitation within my participation in my world and so I push myself to prove to myself that I am not the limitation.

Day 426 – Be silent this conversation isn’t for you.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to “just” be silent when and as people are speaking in a conversation with the Belief dwelling within me that I can’t take part and that what I have to say isn’t of importance and I will just not be able to have an Intellectual participation with them.

When and as I see myself seeing a point that others might need to look at or see within a conversation happening and I decide within myself to NOT speak and just be silent from the belief that I will just sound stupid and not meet their intellectual standard of communication – I stop, I breathe and I check myself what I want to say and I give to myself in the moment the chance to speak and to voice the common sense or perspective within me from and as the starting point of clarity within me first.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to distance myself from conversations through being “just” silent as a a way so that when the conversation goes Bad or does not meet end’s I can have the Justification for myself at least I was silent and did not say anything as to wash my hands off from the outcome either way.

When and as I see I am in the pattern of just sitting in a conversation and leaving the conversation up to the other people to have and to communicate and thus indirectly making it ONLY the other peoples responsibility of what’s being discussed and thus the outcomes, I stop, I breathe and I realize that either way I am responsible in all conversations I am in if I am speaking or not as I am a witness and thus a direct/indirect participant and that being silent when I know I have something to say within clarity and common sense and yet keep quiet I am in fact responsible for that outcome as I had the key to a different one yet kept quit due to some mental self-belief and Idea I have about myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place myself in a Lesser position in relation to other when there is a conversation happening or a meeting as a deliberate way just not to feel responsible and thus taking responsibility and to take on the character of being silent and just Judging and pointing fingers in my own mind at those who are actually participating and taking a stand.

When and as I see myself just sitting and being silent and judging and pointing fingers at those who are within the conversation taking a stand as a position to be a speaker/representative for a moment as a perspective – I stop, I breathe and I’d look at what it is I am judging and pointing fingers at within those doing the speaking as those will/are the points that I am holding within me as the fears/reasons for why I have taken on the position of inferiority and thus the silent character to not speak and strand equally and being a participant of the direct outcome of the words/actions where its directed to what’s best for all in common sense.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that before I can speak/talk about anything that I require to have a point of authority as knowledge and information within me to be able to speak, I stop and I realize that within such an approach I will wait forever and it will take forever to obtain such a point of knowledge and information to be able to partake, and thus it’s a mental Block that isolates me in a prison of fear/anxiety of being lesser than or inferior , and thus I can rely on myself and what’s here as the common sense as the ability to learn naturally in the moment within actually taking part and not just accept the outsider waiting to someday becoming superior to only then built the courage to learn.

When and as I see myself stuck within the belief of myself of that I do not have the current knowledge and information to take part in this conversation that might even determine the future of my life or the life on earth and thus I can’t say anything and must just be SILENT like a kid not allowed to talk with adults and adult things even though they talk about everything that includes you, I stop, I breathe – I push myself to speak and to be like WATER to be flexible to learn in the moment and to use and utilize what I learn within common sense and what’s best for all life as the common grounds that we are all living on, and to not be limited by the moment and to go beyond my own self-belief and to push myself beyond any belief and remain here in breathe.

Day 425 – I am breaking a habit tonight

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Justify not doing my responsibilities through saying I was/am too busy without even taking the time to consider my time and my priorities and to see if I really am busy or not or if it’s all just here in the mind at the moment.

When and as I see myself wanting to justify why I haven’t been doing my responsibilities through saying I am too busy – I stop, I breathe and I take a moment o consider myself here in the moment and what I am doing and what I have planned to do and to actually check and see if I am too busy or not and to then move and direct myself accordingly.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be occupied with the mind and to keep myself busy with the mind within thinking and planning and worrying and building fear and anxiety and back chat and to miss out on the real time I have here to do things and to then claim I was busy, seeing and realizing that being busy in the mind isn’t being busy, it is a distractions from what is here that needs to get done.

When and as I see myself Believing that I am busy where I am only busy within thought/mind I stop, I breathe and I look at what I am busy with, am I creating limitation as energy/mind as the fears/worrying or am I actually busy using my body and my hands and my words and all that is here that matters and actually doing something real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use casual things that I do as a way of keeping me busy through repeating doing them over and over such as having a coffee or quickly checking up on something or watching one episode casually to much or talking to other people casually too much and to use this as a way of saying I was busy as an excuse for me to get to actual things that require to get done.

When and as I see myself doing something that is seen as casual “to much” as a way of distractions for myself and to have a justification/reason for why I did not attend my responsibilities – I stop, I breathe and I get my ass out of the Casual routine before I become a casualty of my own self sabotaging patterns and to move myself to do what’s needed to be done.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to tell myself “just this one more” before I get to my responsibilities as a way of repeating the same pattern over again such as having another coffee/drink/food etc and to postpone getting to the duties because I have created an Idea of getting to them and that they are difficult things to do while these small minute patterns are easy and better and thus lose all my time that I had through repeating the small easy patterns over and over and not getting to the realness of the other duties, and thus the Idea of the other duties grow bigger and bigger in my head and thus I get stuck in the small patterns more and more and never really seeing what’s real or not anymore, and that the only way out in the end is to simply move myself to see/find out for myself the reality.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself repeating the small patterns over and over where I will do small minded things like having three coffees in a row and talk small pity things with others that’s useless, or spend my time just sitting on the stoop as If I just came from working hard and I am resting as a way/reason for why I am sitting there and not moving myself to do things that matter and that’s is of moving forward, I STOP, I BREATHE and I stand up from the pattern and I go to that point of resistance and I push myself to breathe and do it, and to stop wasting time where I keep myself busy with mind/minute things and to actually do things that matter and that’s best for all.

Day 424 - The Little Patterns

I have been exploring my daily life for a couple of years now, this means that I have been exploring myself and who I am within my daily life, this means that for the past six years I have been seeing and investigating my own patterns, because the patterns are what we live/do, what I have been living and doing. And the patterns are the outflow of who I am as the physical living.

This is why I am investigating and exploring patterns within my daily living, to see who I am, as that who I have accepted and allowed myself to be/become as the living flesh as the words I speak and live.

I have within using and utilizing the Desteni material and the tools that are given changed and altered many of my own patterns, the positive ones – or should I say the seemingly positive ones and the negative ones. And I have taken on many of my major/big patterns that I thought was unchangeable before I ever came to Desteni and started investigating and applying the tools for myself over many years and actually living it, actually applying it and to actually see the real physical effects that are measurable by myself and by others.

Now here I have after six years discovered one small point, this point is quite significant when I actually look at it, in all the many years that I have been investigating myself and changing or stopping or alternating patterns I have still many – these many are the ones I could not see, or did not want to see, and they are small patterns, small things I do, the way I type, the way I walk, the way I breath, the way I hold my hands in certain conversations or how I suddenly speak or make remarks, and this is interesting because they are hard to notice, I say hard because I have accepted and allowed it all as Normal – Plus my entire environment has also accepted and allowed it.

So here I am looking at the patterns/points of what is it that I am not looking at or seeing or keeping alive as patterns simply because my environment hasn’t given me yet feedback on them.

And why is it okay for me to live these patterns that my environment has not given me feedback on, do I require my environment to change who I am – yes it definitely has an effect, yet I am always the one who accepts and allows it, I am the one self-responsible for who I am and the patterns that I become as a living being as what I do in each moment in the details of patterns, because those details are also patterns within the pattern that supports all other patterns and parts of me and thus my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Ignore the small patterns that I participate within during my day.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ignore the small patterns within my day as not being important.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the small patterns as being small patterns, instead of seeing them as patterns and that requires me to self-investigate these patterns.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify not looking/investigating some patterns because I have defined them as being small.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not investigate some patterns just because they come up once in a while on some days and thus see them as small and that they do not need to be investigated and corrected through making them small in my head.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist looking at patterns that I have defined and judged as being small and not important.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see it as a waste of time and energy to look/investigate patterns that I have defined in my head as small and not important.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be self-righteousness about why I am not investigating/looking into the small patterns that occur daily or sometimes.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see it as acceptable to not look at patterns that I have gotten comfortable with around other people.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the patterns that I have defined as small as Normal just because I can get away with participating within them around other people and no one says anything.

When and as I see myself as shoving a pattern aside just because I have defined it with my own judgment as a small patter, I stop – I breathe and I slow down, I give myself the moment to see what the pattern is in and as the Physical here and not through the mind as my thoughts/feelings/emotions within my limited perspective on it and to not judge/define it as small or big but to rather see it as a patterns that needs to be taken self-responsibility for.

I commit myself to write out all my patterns for myself and to not shove it away as small or big and to give myself the time to do self-forgiveness if not possible in the moment and to then self-correct and re align myself as what’s best for all as myself within and as the physical.

When and as I see myself Judging a Pattern I stop, I breathe I stop the judgment and the thinking process of judging/justifying and I see what’s physically here and what the pattern physically support, if it is either best for all or not.

When and as I see myself NOT wanting to face a small pattern just because of how I have defined/judged the pattern as small and thus resist it, I stop, I breathe and I push myself to correct myself within the pattern not matter how small and to see what is here and thus take self-responsibility.

When and as I see that I am within a “small” pattern that I have accepted as Normal just because others do not give me feedback and thus I continue playing it out, even though I know it’s not supportive or best for all – I stop, I breathe and I focus on supporting myself in Breathe and to correct myself to stand within my own correction that is in alignment with what’s best for all life as myself for myself and to not rely on others to give me feedback but to be self-honest with myself and to trust myself.

Day 423 - Father to Be Part 3 commitments

Continueing from Day 422 - Father and my Baby Part 2

When and as I see that I am anticipating the birth date of my baby, I stop, I breathe and I focus here on the moment, as I see and realize that anticipation practically has no purpose but to make me jumpy and stressful and thus influencing my actions/words and thoughts which then has an equal and one influence on everything I do in the meantime and thus when the moment comes when it comes I will not be effective or direct within the situation, seeing and realizing that what’s best for all and thus me Is to breathe and let go of any and all experiences as thoughts/feelings/emotions.

I commit myself to remain practical, within giving myself a practical script to stand and live by when and as the moment arrives that the baby is ready to come, and to script this practical moment within common sense and to then let go of the Idea/Belief/opinions about the moment in the future as a projection and to bring my focus back here.

When and as I see that I am resisting to say “my baby” I stop and I breathe and I let go of the energy as a negative experience as my own self judgment to saying those words and I breathe and say the words My baby within the starting point of remaining practical as the words are simply referring to my baby, the being that I am responsible for, and thus not possess as I made it up in my mind.

When and as I see that I am finding it unbelievable that I have a baby – I stop, I breathe – seeing and realizing that it isn’t a matter of belief or changing my belief about the facts in my head of me having a baby, as facts are facts and thus I must bring myself out of Belief as the mind and BREATH and be here within and as the Physical, focusing on what is here as the physical as me here with a baby.

When and as I see that I am participating within my mind within a belief of me being a father – I stop, I breathe and I forgive myself for making it a matter of belief instead of seeing that it’s a matter of fact and that’s what matters.

Thus committing myself to write and explore the moment where I am within a belief of myself of being a father and why and how I have created the belief and why I am participating within such limitation instead of breathing and being here as the living principle of what’s best for all life.

When and as I see that I am engaging within a system of beliefs within myself of myself or from the world as to what it means or must mean to be a father – I stop, I breathe – seeing and realizing that what the system or what I have been taught about what a father must be and that has formed my belief/disbelief of myself about becoming a father isn’t effective or best for all life, as this system Belief of what a father must be has never produced children that becomes the adults that produces the world as it is currently as a world that Is heaven on earth not what’s best for all life, and thus making this belief of what a father must be according to the system that many are attempting to live up to Void and invalid and must be forgiven and a new way of fatherhood must be given as a solution to what’s best for all life.

When and as I see that I am within the fear of being a bad father – I stop, I breathe and I focus on what is here as physical reality and how to direct the physical reality to that which is best for all life within the guiding principles of Love thy neighbor as thy self and do onto another as you would like to be done onto, instead of blindly following a system of good and bad which produces a system of good and bad instead of equality and oneness that is best for all Life.

Day 422 – Father and My Baby Part 2

continuing from Day 421 - Father to be SOON Part 1

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Anticipate the date of Birth for my Baby.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist saying my baby, seeing and realizing that I have a judgment towards saying my baby as a possession.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect a negative experience to the word possession and to add the word possession to the sentence “my baby” – seeing and realizing that it is My baby as I am responsible for the baby and eventually raising the baby to become a Adult that will be his own being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to find it funny to say the words “my Baby”, seeing and realizing that saying the words “my baby” and finding it funny is because of the belief I have created for myself as a teenager where I saw that I would only have a baby at a much older age and now that I have a baby at this younger age it is unbelievable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to find it “unbelievable” that I am going to be a father and have a baby – seeing and realizing that I only find it unbelievable because of a Belief that I have created about myself in my mind in relation to being a father.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a Belief of myself that I am unable to be a father and now that the point is here with me being a father and having a baby I stand within the point of disbelief of my own self-created belief, seeing and realizing that all beliefs must be deleted and that I must focus on what is here, no matter what the belief is that I have about myself – I stop and I breathe, I focus on reality and common sense and practicality within walking and living and breathing the principle of what’s best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have created a Belief of myself in relation to being a father and to within this in opposite create disbelief within myself as well within being a father.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Fear that I will not be a good father, thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being a bad father.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that to be a father is a Good/bad relationship, seeing and realizing that being a father within its natural definition of the word is simply a reference to a man/being who has created a baby/child/being with another and thus is responsible for this being/child/baby till the baby/child/being stands on its own and lives his/her own life within the principles and teaching that the father has passed on through being a Living example of what’s best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to complicate the word Father and what it must mean within the eyes of others, instead of keeping it simple and real within what’s here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Judge myself as being a father – seeing and realizing that this judgment is the Judgment that I have placed onto others who has been father or become fathers and within my secret mind, and now that I am to be a father the Judgment is placed upon myself, as I have done onto another I am doing onto myself.

to be continued. 

Day 421 – SOON to be a Father - Part 1

 

2 - 4 weeks to go...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create pre occupational ideas/beliefs of what it might be being a father to a child.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Belief that what my relationship was as a child towards my father was right or wrong.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my child hood with my father/mother relationship as good or bad.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to look at my childhood and see what is practical and what is not, what is best for all life and what isn’t and to accordingly use within common sense what’s best for all within raising my child, to learn from the past and to change, and to not run away or hide or resist.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try/attempt to use my childhood within raising my child, seeing and realizing that this is simply repeating the past and creating a copy of my past onto the child’s life, instead of breathing and LIVING here within common sense and practicality so that my child can live his life and not my past.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to access past memories/experiences of my childhood and project it within my child future as a point of FEAR, seeing and realizing how I not have already predetermined my relationship with my child as a projected memory where I already see how I will instead live or do things that is in avoidance to what I have experienced or seen or done in the past, seeing and realizing that this is exactly what my parents did and their parents and yet it never works as this is how the sins of the fathers work, as its creating separation instead of understanding and thus self-forgiveness and correction within what’s best for all life as the living principle.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT slow down and check myself in each moment and what is here moving within me, so that I can see if I am clear and moving in breathe in the present as Life or am I moving as the mind as thoughts/feelings/emotions as the baggage of the past and thus smudging the past and tainting the future with the past and thus recreating the past instead of moving forward.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that where there is fear there is where I am making the mistake of moving, instead of breathing and self-forgiving the fear and moving in clarity as breathe here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT see and realize that fear is the past made bigger and more then what the past was and then placing that in the present moment as a total delusion of reality when in fact it’s NOT so/here and what is here is completely simple.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Belief that my past as my thoughts/feelings/emotions that comes from memories that comes from moments that I created experiences within myself within certain moments and that I have defined myself as those moments/experiences/memories/thoughts/feelings/emotions has any value or anything valid within them as to how to raise my child and what’s best for all life.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to simply trust myself as the physical as common sense and practicality as living what’s best for all life in each moment within my integrity as Who I AM, and to trust me as the Physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Belief that any thoughts/feelings/emotions within me of the mind as memories has any value to them as what has been done to me by those that has gone before me within placing value in the past as memories through stories that has been told within raising me, and that this is valuable within raising my child, seeing and realizing that within such teachings one is only teaching the child how to chain oneself to the past and to live in the past instead of being present and breathing here.

To be continued.

Next on more specific points and SCS.

Day 420 - I am Belief Part 8

Day 419 – I am Belief. 

When and as I see that I am accessing a belief system within myself that I have about myself or towards myself – I stop – I breathe and I slow down, I check myself and why I am within the certain belief system of myself and why I am living as this belief/limitation and to correct myself within the realization that NO belief is ever real or valid, as I see and realize that any and all Beliefs are Lies made up in the mind.

When and as I see myself Living a Belief that I have created about myself or the world/others – I stop - I breathe, I check myself if I am here living in and as the physical as that which is real and measurable or if I am in the mind as Thoughts/feelings/emotions/back-chat that is not serving me or life to be the potential I can be as Life one and equal – as I see and realize that the Beliefs I have of myself the world/others is but only Knowledge and Information that I have made up or gotten and have accepted and allowed Knowledge and information to be real – Instead I see and realize that it is within each breathe as the Physical that I will see what’s here and real and thus no knowledge and information required to add to what’s already here as the Physical.

When and as I see myself Finding it hard to stop a belief because I have created a Belief of what is to be expected after stopping a Belief – I stop – I breathe, I slow myself down and I focus on my breathing and what’s here in the moment as the physical, using my smell, my sight, my touch and my hearing and my Physical presence as me to get real to Be LIFE instead of a Be LIEF.

When and as I see myself living/acting in accordance towards something that I belief of myself towards something that I am accepting and allowing to move me as a response to create disbelief or to create the belief as real, I stop, I breathe, I bring myself back here in each breathe each moment and focus on what I am doing and see/realize what’s real.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am creating beliefs about myself in my mind to stop and to breathe and to check why am I creating a belief about myself as a Image or Likeness within my mind – to sit down to write it out and to expose the belief system of limitation and to not accept and allow myself to be anything less or more then what’s here as the Physical within self-perfection.

To Be Continued.