Day 601 - My Eqafe Hangout Day 4 of 21

For tonight, I have an Eqafe Hangout that I participated in, I will post the link here.

Please, take an Hour to watch somthign different than the usual series, or movie that the system provides, also take a look at the Interview we are talking about here in the hangout.

The Quantum time illusion - https://eqafe.com/p/reptilians-the-quantum-time-illusion-part-11

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the MIND is MINE and that I can be a MINE that mines my own physical body as much as I want to, not realizing and seeing that what I accept and allow within me, I am also accepting and allowing within this world, and If I can not even stop myself then how can I expect myself to stop what is being done on a global scale and change this world to a place that is Best for all life, as heaven on earth, as my actual true desire that I have denied myself since I was a child, but suppressed it and gave into living as a Mind Zombie only consuming life.

Day 554 - Self-Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give attention to everything about me that is wrong and sinful except me that is LIFE one and equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be of SIN, even though I wasn’t born in sin, and to have given all my attention and focus throughout my life to the sins, and to within giving sin all of my attention I have limited and created myself according to sin, an imperfect human.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek out the positive within life, where I see and realize that the positive I seek out in life is only confirming the negative within me, the sinful me, so I see and I realize that if I am seeking anything positive as an energy then I am seeing to make up for something within me that I have judged myself as being bad/negative as sin.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself a stupid.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as physically inferior to others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as useless.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as immature.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as all my fears.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as my big good looking smile.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for my great personality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for being a good person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a person with good intentions.
 
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a person with courage.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself a s responsible person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a respectable person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a unique person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself a as good partner in relationships.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a good citizen.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a perfect son to my parents.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as a special human being in the eyes of others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a product of this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a stubborn person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as an egoistic person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as incompetent.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a personality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself according to this world I live in.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself according to my name and what has been attached to my name as “me”.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the flesh that I walk and breathe in.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as an animal activist and lover.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a world changer.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as lazy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a sex addict.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge sex.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as alcohol.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as drugs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as eating.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as people.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for enjoying food.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge food as enjoyment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge water.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as water as just being here
and that I do not need to drink it nessasarely, there are other things to drink.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as healthy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as unhealthy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge LIFE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place life in a judgment of my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the fear of LIFE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as separate from and of LIFE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge self-forgiveness in all possible ways, not positive or negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the LAW of nature.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as THE law of the system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Judge the legal system of the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge judgments.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as limitation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as not having limitations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a father.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a parent to a child.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a partner to another human being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a family guy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as family.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a good family guy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a bad family member.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a good father.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a bad father.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a bad member of the community.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a good member of the community.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as music.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as good music.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as good or bad music.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge bad music.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge music as me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as all that is here as the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the mind consciousness systems.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the conscious mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the sub-conscious mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the unconscious mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as not yet understanding the science of life one and equal as how the physical functions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the separation that I exist as still within this life from and of life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for not standing one and equal in fact with all life YET.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the bad or good decisions I have made in life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the decisions I make in life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as poverty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as starvation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the cruel and evil shit that exist within this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as my breathing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as war.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as racism.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as crime.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as inhumane acts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as spirituality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as god.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than god/LIFE/universe.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as religion.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as love and light.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as peace.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as my penis.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as vaginas.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as separate from what is HERE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as better than others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as possessions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as my internal reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as my parents.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as my siblings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as my skin color.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as my nose.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as my hair.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as nature.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as gossiping.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as gangsters.

I Forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as corruption.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as insecurities.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as other peoples actions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as all forms upon the face of the earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as all the materialistic things that the mind has created within this world as distractions and entertainment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as all entertainment that exit.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as all the feelings and emotions and thoughts that come up within entertainment within this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as all desire that exist within all humans and within this world as materialistic designs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself AS a control freak.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a nagging person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a needy person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a restless person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a stable person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a person who can be trusted.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as someone that can be trusted.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a person that cannot be trusted.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as someone that must be respected

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as someone that respects others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as someone that has honour.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as someone that honors others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as someone that is reliable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as someone that can be relied on.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as someone that can rely on others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as inferior to others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as superior to others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as inferior to life and the creations of the world that exist here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as being superior to other life forms within this world.

To be Continued.

Day 402 – Discipline and self-discipline Part 4

Day 399 - Discipline Part 1
Day 400 - Discipline Part 2
Day 401 - Discipline Part 3

When and as I see that I am moving/directing my breath in a way that isn’t effective and supportive, I stop and breathe, I commit myself to check my discipline in the moment within directing my breathe effectively and constructive, through checking what is my plan in the moment, what is it that I am busy with and doing, what can I do, I lay out the plan for myself and to then follow through/execute the plan till it is done, as that is my discipline.

When and as I wake up I commit myself to discipline myself to make my first moment in the morning a breath and not a thought or thoughts, and when and as I see that I start with a thought I stop and I breathe, seeing and realizing that self-discipline starts within what I accept and allowed within me and that outside of me as who I am determines what I do how I move/direct me in each moment.

I commit myself to check myself and if I am planning things to do and to give myself direction, instead of waiting for myself to simply fall into doing random stuff that comes up.

When and as I see myself doing random stuff that is of the old pattern of how I spend my time, I stop and I breathe and I give myself a plan, this id the plan, the discipline and I follow the plan and I do not accept any thoughts/feelings/emotions to move/direct me in any other way and thus to use breathing to correct the old pattern that I have designed and created as a system within me through not following automations and to be self-disciplined within moving myself within the plan.

I see and realize that sticking to the plan must be within practical considerations and common sense – where common sense is that I can have a plan and I can be disciplined within the plan and be self-disciplined within following the plan, but when and as another point arises within my day that takes priority over my current plan, then common sense is to redirect myself within a new plan to get the new point done, as this is the plan in the moment and thus I see and realize that I must be flexible within my breath and to move within consideration of all that is here. As self-discipline is to direct each moment within each breathe and to make a plan in each breathe/moment that is new and to not hold onto the old and the past to determine each moment.

When and as I see myself creating a point of self-interest within being disciplined where my discipline becomes a point of not considering all that is here and only my own goals and my own time and my own things that I can/want/need to do, I stop and I breathe and I focus on self-discipline within breathing, as the plan within breathing is to be HERE at all times as the physical, as the physical changes and has ways of changing plans and thus I must be like water within the physical, moving and directing myself according to what is here as breathe as the ultimate self-discipline which guides me within being disciplines within all other areas where there is no mind, no energy no reactions/fears/limitation and me as the physical as life stands and thus accordingly be self-disciplined. 

I see and realize that self-discipline is the key to discipline – as there is the discipline to start something and to finish it then the self-discipline is to when and as the plan is interrupted or short cut then I must be able to be flexible and to be disciplined within stopping what I am doing and to change the plan in a single moment with no reactions/fear and to then follow through on the new plan and to still come back to the old plan and finish that, yet the self-discipline as breathing will be the consistent within who I am and how I move/direct myself and reality when and as reality may/can/will change sometimes as I am not the only being here on earth or the only influence here on this PLANet and thus self-discipline is the key where I move/direct/live within a principal, where the principal of doing what is best for all life in all ways is my Plan in each breathe.

Day 401 – Discipline Part 3

Day 399 – Discipline Part 1

Day 400 – Discipline Part 2

Self-forgiveness. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that discipline is something easy and that it should just come naturally to me, seeing and realizing that discipline in its design requires discipline to live discipline, a constant practice and pushing oneself in and as the physical, moving and directing self within reality to start and to finish and to be consistent, to not let any wants/desires be a distraction or any mood or thought/feeling/emotion drive one elsewhere, but to remain disciplined to push through till it is done, if it is building a cupboard, painting a wall, starting a business, daily work, doing dishes or cleaning ones room. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as incapable of self-discipline, discipline within breathing and being the director of my life in each breathe and directing what needs to be done within common sense and practicality and not as the wants/desires of the mind as energy as distractions/temptations to sabotage myself and my direct real time living/participation in and as the physical as matter as that which matters.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project discipline as something that will always come as something that I must struggle through and breathe through and push through, seeing and realizing that living and applying myself  as self-discipline as discipline in each breathe and actually living the correction of and as discipline will be something new for me in the beginning, but over time as within all other things in my past that has come to who I am now without any effort, so will discipline become who I am as a living word, as it will simply be who I am and thus determine what I do and no effort, no pushing/struggling or resistance will be here, thus I see and realize that I must make peace with the process of creating myself within the word discipline and that it will be a process of Physical change within space and time and that in space and time it will become effortless as it will be who I have created/defined myself as a living word within the principles of oneness and equality as that which is best for all life, where discipline is not a thought/feeling/emotion based action but a physical practical common sense physical living as me in fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear falling and making mistakes within re-defining the word discipline for myself and correcting myself according to this new definition and that it might turn out wring, seeing and realizing that when and as I follow Physical common sense and practicality as the principal of oneness and equality within what’s best for all life and stick to that, that what I re-define my word as within that and live that that I cannot go wrong and only improve and correct myself along the way – seeing and realizing that only the mind will create doubt and fear as to hold me back from changing and from actually taking self-responsibility for myself and how and who I am within the physical as a participant within the words I live and how it effect my daily life and the lives of others and inevitably the world and the earth as a whole and that the mind will attempt to keep me locked in a cycle of thought/feeling/emotion just for the sake of energy where I am chained to my current definition of the word discipline which has no definition really, and no direction, and thus I see and realize that I stick to the plan, disciPLAN and I follow through using and utilizing the tools of Desteni of BREATHING, writing and applying self-forgiveness and being honest with myself in each moment and to push myself within this process of re-birthing myself as LIFE as the living words so that a new life that is best for all can be birthed by example - living example.

To be continued.