Self-forgiveness.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe that discipline is something easy and that it should just come
naturally to me, seeing and realizing that discipline in its design requires discipline
to live discipline, a constant practice and pushing oneself in and as the
physical, moving and directing self within reality to start and to finish and
to be consistent, to not let any wants/desires be a distraction or any mood or
thought/feeling/emotion drive one elsewhere, but to remain disciplined to push
through till it is done, if it is building a cupboard, painting a wall,
starting a business, daily work, doing dishes or cleaning ones room.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
define myself as incapable of self-discipline, discipline within breathing and
being the director of my life in each breathe and directing what needs to be
done within common sense and practicality and not as the wants/desires of the
mind as energy as distractions/temptations to sabotage myself and my direct
real time living/participation in and as the physical as matter as that which
matters.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
project discipline as something that will always come as something that I must
struggle through and breathe through and push through, seeing and realizing that
living and applying myself as
self-discipline as discipline in each breathe and actually living the
correction of and as discipline will be something new for me in the beginning,
but over time as within all other things in my past that has come to who I am
now without any effort, so will discipline become who I am as a living word, as
it will simply be who I am and thus determine what I do and no effort, no
pushing/struggling or resistance will be here, thus I see and realize that I
must make peace with the process of creating myself within the word discipline
and that it will be a process of Physical change within space and time and that
in space and time it will become effortless as it will be who I have
created/defined myself as a living word within the principles of oneness and
equality as that which is best for all life, where discipline is not a
thought/feeling/emotion based action but a physical practical common sense
physical living as me in fact.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear
falling and making mistakes within re-defining the word discipline for myself
and correcting myself according to this new definition and that it might turn
out wring, seeing and realizing that when and as I follow Physical common sense
and practicality as the principal of oneness and equality within what’s best
for all life and stick to that, that what I re-define my word as within that
and live that that I cannot go wrong and only improve and correct myself along
the way – seeing and realizing that only the mind will create doubt and fear as
to hold me back from changing and from actually taking self-responsibility for myself
and how and who I am within the physical as a participant within the words I
live and how it effect my daily life and the lives of others and inevitably the
world and the earth as a whole and that the mind will attempt to keep me locked
in a cycle of thought/feeling/emotion just for the sake of energy where I am
chained to my current definition of the word discipline which has no
definition really, and no direction, and thus I see and realize that I stick to
the plan, disciPLAN and I follow through using and utilizing the tools of
Desteni of BREATHING, writing and applying self-forgiveness and being honest
with myself in each moment and to push myself within this process of
re-birthing myself as LIFE as the living words so that a new life that is best
for all can be birthed by example - living example.
To be continued.
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