Day 566 - Blame, Be Lame, be I may Lame, May I be Lame

After reading A widows Journey to life blog – Day 686 - http://awidowsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2016/03/day-686-revisiting-blame-realizing.html I decided to take a look at the word BLAME for myself.

Blame – this is quite a Big word for a small word, I find that this word has not been in my vocabulary much, in terms of looking at myself and this reality. I find that when I see this word it has become a LIVING as who I am – I will for instance not say – I blame you, you are to blame, they are to blame, I will use different words and speak sentences that becomes BLAME towards someone or something, and even worse, I actually then behave and act BLAME – but I never say the word Blame, speaking it.

Dictionary definition
1.
assign responsibility for a fault or wrong.
1.
responsibility for a fault or wrong.

Those are two simple definition, one is giving blame and the other is taking Blame.
My word Play with Breaking it up and sounding.

Blame
Be Lame
Be Lame Me
Be lame am me
be I may Lame,
May I be Lame

OK so before I get into it – this word I find is a System word, meaning it shows a System/construct – but I do not find within it a sounding or wording that can be lived from it as a correction, as a word that I can or want to implement to LIVE, as it is literally just lame to blame, so I will deconstruct this word so that I can Identify within my speaking and behavior where I am living the word blame and to then correct myself from there within implementing a new word to live, thus changing my speaking and thus my behavior/patterns/habits.

Blame refers to the past, we can’t really blame something or someone for things that hasn’t yet happened, so the first question is, why do we want to BLAME? Is it to be Lame, to dis-empower ourselves, because the word Lame in itself exist and has a specific meaning.

1. Lame: 1.
make (a person or animal) lame.
"somebody lamed him with a stone"

So through Blaming are we throwing stones at ourselves? When we believe within blaming that we are somehow empowering ourselves, because all I can see one gets from Blaming is, is to sound good, sound right, sound reasonable, sound just, have Logic – all those points are required to blame – yet when we do that we totally dis-empower ourselves and do not even slightly look at ourselves, in fact, we create a specific Veil that forms around us when in the process of Blaming that even the people that are being blamed seem like the Blamer is on the right side. which is what a Blamer wants, they do nt want to be show how they are responsible equally and created the cause and the effect that led to blaming.

BUT – what does blaming expose about a person or self? When you blame the fact is you need a lot of evidence to proof your blaming, so when I or you come forth with BLAMING it only reveals something about myself or yourself, that we sat on the side and we watch everything happening in front of us and we did absolutely nothing and expected those who are doing something to do exactly what we wanted, yet never stood up to participate, which shows one thing, the Blamer is only speaking up when it is to late, and thus the blamer, self NEVER acted or did anything to prevent, starting with themselves, and thus when a person is Blaming, they are speaking from an Observer perspective who wanted something specific for themselves but wanted others to do it, then it didn’t happen, so here the blamer become someone that only exist as knowledge and information that as that point in time when blaming takes place, all the knowledge and information is useless, because it was needed before the blaming started not afterwards.

I am covering a lot of dimensions, I can see there are many levels of blaming on how to cover this word, so I am placing it in general, where I can take this information to my own relationship I have with myself, with others, with the world and see the creation of Blaming and how it is actually showing the LAMENESS – to be lame, and to be lame can either be since Birth (which we all are, because of brainwashing and how we are educated) or if we have the brains we simply decide to Lame ourselves and place responsibility on others, so we are essentially throwing stones at ourselves to not be able to move/direct/speak common sense within self-honesty in the moments when it is needed and to not let it become BLAME = too late.

So the correction is Self-responsibility and to not make the focus OTHERS but self-First always as the correction – I will place a Video Link in here of a Hangout I did on Self-responsibility.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NIYOSyIKedo
 

Day 402 – Discipline and self-discipline Part 4

Day 399 - Discipline Part 1
Day 400 - Discipline Part 2
Day 401 - Discipline Part 3

When and as I see that I am moving/directing my breath in a way that isn’t effective and supportive, I stop and breathe, I commit myself to check my discipline in the moment within directing my breathe effectively and constructive, through checking what is my plan in the moment, what is it that I am busy with and doing, what can I do, I lay out the plan for myself and to then follow through/execute the plan till it is done, as that is my discipline.

When and as I wake up I commit myself to discipline myself to make my first moment in the morning a breath and not a thought or thoughts, and when and as I see that I start with a thought I stop and I breathe, seeing and realizing that self-discipline starts within what I accept and allowed within me and that outside of me as who I am determines what I do how I move/direct me in each moment.

I commit myself to check myself and if I am planning things to do and to give myself direction, instead of waiting for myself to simply fall into doing random stuff that comes up.

When and as I see myself doing random stuff that is of the old pattern of how I spend my time, I stop and I breathe and I give myself a plan, this id the plan, the discipline and I follow the plan and I do not accept any thoughts/feelings/emotions to move/direct me in any other way and thus to use breathing to correct the old pattern that I have designed and created as a system within me through not following automations and to be self-disciplined within moving myself within the plan.

I see and realize that sticking to the plan must be within practical considerations and common sense – where common sense is that I can have a plan and I can be disciplined within the plan and be self-disciplined within following the plan, but when and as another point arises within my day that takes priority over my current plan, then common sense is to redirect myself within a new plan to get the new point done, as this is the plan in the moment and thus I see and realize that I must be flexible within my breath and to move within consideration of all that is here. As self-discipline is to direct each moment within each breathe and to make a plan in each breathe/moment that is new and to not hold onto the old and the past to determine each moment.

When and as I see myself creating a point of self-interest within being disciplined where my discipline becomes a point of not considering all that is here and only my own goals and my own time and my own things that I can/want/need to do, I stop and I breathe and I focus on self-discipline within breathing, as the plan within breathing is to be HERE at all times as the physical, as the physical changes and has ways of changing plans and thus I must be like water within the physical, moving and directing myself according to what is here as breathe as the ultimate self-discipline which guides me within being disciplines within all other areas where there is no mind, no energy no reactions/fears/limitation and me as the physical as life stands and thus accordingly be self-disciplined. 

I see and realize that self-discipline is the key to discipline – as there is the discipline to start something and to finish it then the self-discipline is to when and as the plan is interrupted or short cut then I must be able to be flexible and to be disciplined within stopping what I am doing and to change the plan in a single moment with no reactions/fear and to then follow through on the new plan and to still come back to the old plan and finish that, yet the self-discipline as breathing will be the consistent within who I am and how I move/direct myself and reality when and as reality may/can/will change sometimes as I am not the only being here on earth or the only influence here on this PLANet and thus self-discipline is the key where I move/direct/live within a principal, where the principal of doing what is best for all life in all ways is my Plan in each breathe.

Day 401 – Discipline Part 3

Day 399 – Discipline Part 1

Day 400 – Discipline Part 2

Self-forgiveness. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that discipline is something easy and that it should just come naturally to me, seeing and realizing that discipline in its design requires discipline to live discipline, a constant practice and pushing oneself in and as the physical, moving and directing self within reality to start and to finish and to be consistent, to not let any wants/desires be a distraction or any mood or thought/feeling/emotion drive one elsewhere, but to remain disciplined to push through till it is done, if it is building a cupboard, painting a wall, starting a business, daily work, doing dishes or cleaning ones room. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as incapable of self-discipline, discipline within breathing and being the director of my life in each breathe and directing what needs to be done within common sense and practicality and not as the wants/desires of the mind as energy as distractions/temptations to sabotage myself and my direct real time living/participation in and as the physical as matter as that which matters.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project discipline as something that will always come as something that I must struggle through and breathe through and push through, seeing and realizing that living and applying myself  as self-discipline as discipline in each breathe and actually living the correction of and as discipline will be something new for me in the beginning, but over time as within all other things in my past that has come to who I am now without any effort, so will discipline become who I am as a living word, as it will simply be who I am and thus determine what I do and no effort, no pushing/struggling or resistance will be here, thus I see and realize that I must make peace with the process of creating myself within the word discipline and that it will be a process of Physical change within space and time and that in space and time it will become effortless as it will be who I have created/defined myself as a living word within the principles of oneness and equality as that which is best for all life, where discipline is not a thought/feeling/emotion based action but a physical practical common sense physical living as me in fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear falling and making mistakes within re-defining the word discipline for myself and correcting myself according to this new definition and that it might turn out wring, seeing and realizing that when and as I follow Physical common sense and practicality as the principal of oneness and equality within what’s best for all life and stick to that, that what I re-define my word as within that and live that that I cannot go wrong and only improve and correct myself along the way – seeing and realizing that only the mind will create doubt and fear as to hold me back from changing and from actually taking self-responsibility for myself and how and who I am within the physical as a participant within the words I live and how it effect my daily life and the lives of others and inevitably the world and the earth as a whole and that the mind will attempt to keep me locked in a cycle of thought/feeling/emotion just for the sake of energy where I am chained to my current definition of the word discipline which has no definition really, and no direction, and thus I see and realize that I stick to the plan, disciPLAN and I follow through using and utilizing the tools of Desteni of BREATHING, writing and applying self-forgiveness and being honest with myself in each moment and to push myself within this process of re-birthing myself as LIFE as the living words so that a new life that is best for all can be birthed by example - living example.

To be continued.