Porn and Masturbation - A POOR nature

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A Perspective on Porn and Masturbation

It all starts with self-judgement, the path to watching porn and masturbating to it. Then it leads into addiction, possibly. There is nothing wrong with masturbation, if it is pure and clear, NO images, no thoughts. Yet, to get to that, and to end the abuse of porn I am going to share some perspective and insights.

Porn isn’t about you just sitting down, or standing, or laying and watching images and videos or others having intercourse. Porn is how you SEE yourself within yourself, within your mind, as the self-judgements you have of yourself, of your physical FORM, your body and how you define and value yourself based on IMAGES as the FORM of your body.

You see, when you watch porn you are doing something strange, you are taking YOU as who you believe yourself to be and placing yourself in your mind in the scenario of the porn you are watching, this self that you are projecting can either be a negative or positive self, it does not matter, the self you are placing of yourself in the scenario of watching porn is thus self-judgement.

The point of watching porn becomes about generating energy, a feeling or emotion, a HIGH within your mind, again it does not matter if it is positive or negative, the mind thrives off energy and mining the body of it’s resources (the physical substance of self) to create an experience, this experience is always about integrating and confirming ones own self-judgments, does not matter if it is positive or negative, as long as there is a confirmation of THIS IS WHO I AM.

Now, playing with the sounding and word PORN, we can see it comes already from when we were BORN, and the quality of this world/life is that of POOR(N), this poor life quality isn’t referring to actual poverty of which 3,5 billion people suffer from in this world, this poor quality is that of the human, which is JUDGEMENT, we are born into a world that ensured and enhances judgement towards one another on a consistent bases daily.

The judgements we have towards ourselves and one another is PICTURE based. It starts with our parents who was influenced and judged by their parents, and so on, where PARENTS will define and judge their children based on their physical form (their genetics).

We all know for a fact that our parents judged us, they would say things like you have a pretty face, you are beautiful, you are unique, you are fat, you are overweight, you need to lose some weight, you need to eat more, you need to do something better with your hair, the men are going to love you, the girls are going to fall at your feet, you are such a sweet person. You must dress better, you must get a tan – I mean, the comments and input on our physical appearances and our physical FORM from our parents/family members, then society since we were born is NON-STOP.

Later on in life, we find ourselves with a voice of immense self-judgment running rampant in our heads, this voice blabbers as our parents, our family members and society on and on inside ourselves, constantly judging ourselves and others, always VALUING the FORMS/BODIES we see around us, who is sexy and who is ugly, always using ourselves as a reference of self-judgement.  

Thus we become walking PORN producers.

Why do I say that? Why do we become walking porn producers? Why did our parents care about our looks? Why did our parents and family members and society JUDGE us and still do based on our physical forms/bodies? Because when you are born, you have no clue what this world is about. Yet our parents already knew, it is all about SEX and MONEY, you need to be sexy/hot to get a partner, or make money to get sex/children/family, to be secure and you need to be able to get a JOB, so our parents start early on preparing us by making sure we KNOW our place, based on how we LOOK, do we have pretty eyes? A sexy jawline? A good-looking ass? Big boobs or small boobs? Our parents made sure we know our strengths and weaknesses of our genetic bodies given to us by them (for which we had no choice of), through constantly judging us and defining us, dressing us up, placing images onto us and making our physical FORM given to us by genetic, VERY personal, as if it defines who we are.

NOW. Here is the dark side of how it is all done in MOST cases, hidden, secretively, very manipulatively, our parents and society will not come up to us as children and tell us straight up, this world is fucked up, you MUST succeed in SEX and MONEY, because that is what rules this world, because that is admitting to your children that this world is not as great, it is ruled by sex and money, what a wonderful world. So it will be done through parents/family and society HINTING, commenting, and SHOWING you images over and over, mom will say, you look so pretty in that dress, or ugg that is an ugly dress, or wow you look amazing in that shirt, or you need to lose some weight, or the guys will see you as a slut – I am going to leave this part to you to look at your life and all the comments your dad or mom or uncle or aunt or other people have ever thrown at you, then go further, LOOK at the magazines, TV, movies, I mean it is a consistent impulsing system of creating and valuing the FORM/BODY of the human as an IMAGE/sexual object, and all of this mostly happens to you and is impulsed to you by the age of 7, most of it. Thus, it is all in the sub-conscious mind, and forgotten as thoughts, by the time it is in the sub-conscious, it is you now living it, thus by the time you turn thirteen, the teenager stage, you start really bringing it all out in many different ways.

 

So, this POOR that PORN is exposing is a form of LACKING – thus why do you watch PORN? Why go there? Because you believe you are LACKING!! That is what this system impulses and also actually exist as, as it is always survival for 90% of humanity, no abundance, and thus the need to make everyone a sex object for money, or money objects for sex, either way, that is the symbolism for the porn industry, absolute abuse, which we are living as ourselves in our own minds towards ourselves and others, by simply walking in the park, or walking around a mall. We are constantly porn producers in our minds towards each other.

We abuse each other every day through walking around and JUDGING ourselves first and foremost as either pretty or ugly and all the other ways we do this to ourselves, in all our own manners (this part is again for you to look at), or in-between, and thus doing so onto others consistently, and we do it through the cause of SEX, because we want to find a partner, and thus money and security, why else would anyone judge their own appearance? It always leads to sex, or money. Just what the porn industry all about in a very direct way, and thus also exposes the abuse we all do to ourselves and each other.

So, each time you are about to abuse yourself through watching porn (because now you know it is from a form of LACKING) and thus by watching and masturbating to porn, all you are doing is confirming and compounding and impulsing, I AM LACKING, and thus telling yourself I can not change, I am doomed to this life, I am doomed to my situation, I am too ugly, or I am too sexy, I can not do this, I want to keep doing this, either way, no matter if positive or negative, it is feeding the same system of lacking, THIS WORLD and how we define and value and place ourselves within ourselves and thus this world. And when we feel and keep this believe of I am lacking alive in ourselves, we are much more likely to accept and allow abuse in our lives and this world, because a person with a value system constantly validating the LACK of self, will not care too much about others. Because you do not care for yourself.

Why do you think child pornography is so extensive? Why is abusive porn so extensive? Why is there porn of all kinds of abusive things existent in this world? It is because people will watch porn, search for that specific porn they FEEL they can connect to, just to confirm to themselves, YES I am lacking, I am missing something, and all you have to do to stop this abuse is, forgive yourself and change your own self-definition to that of LIFE, your own value not based on images/looks and money, stop child sex trafficking, stop the abuse inside yourself that you have accepted and allowed as JUDGEMENT towards yourself and others, and end sexual abuse n this world starting with yourself, once we all value ourselves as LIFE, not as images, we can stand together for a new system that values LIFE.

You might think you are GAINING something watching and masturbating to porn, a release maybe? But this is not the case.

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16 Days of no Coffee – answering some questions and sharing

Today is the 16^th day of not drinking Coffee. 

Why? 

I will start with the WHY because every time I say I stopped drinking coffee people seem to freak out and make it as if I am stupid for doing so, or as if I am weak for being able to stop drinking coffee, almost as if I decided not to be part of a cult and take part in this cults rituals anymore and now the cult is kind of turning on me as a previous member. 

So, let me say why in many dimensions of the question. 

I stopped because I am walking a process of purifying myself within and through self-forgiveness in writing self-forgiveness and taking self-responsibility for what exist here as me, yet I have seen and realized that I must also at the same time purify my outer, what I do and participate within as my habits, patterns and addictions. 

Because I have come to realize that drinking coffee isn’t MY decision anymore, it has become a decision that was being made for me, this is obviously a problem. 

It is a Problem because it has become habitual, thus controlling my behaviors, my habits and even forming them all according to coffee. Thus coffee became my master and I the slave. This has placed a massive restriction on my movement, flexibility on a daily basis, like driving on the road and finding there are unnecessary bumps/humps in the road to slow down the car from moving, and eventually causing damage to the car, consuming more fuel, all the stopping or slowing down and going, drinking coffee became exhausting and at times compromised me and my body where coffee would overwrite drinking water or having a meal. 

I would generally drink 6 cups a day and on some days I would even push it to 12. This has been so for YEARS and I would sometimes joke and say, I am 70% water and literally see drinking coffee as me fueling up, filling up. This has exposed my addiction that I judged as normal and okay. 

When I look at the money spend on coffee at home and the amount of precious water consumed for making coffee, not to mention the milk and electronics and electricity on a daily basis multiple times, the addiction did not just harm me but in the end it is having a consequence on reality – Imagine billions of people doing this daily all around the world. 

Now, coffee isn’t bad, it can be enjoyed daily, I would say one or two cups as a support for the body in times that it is required, like a medicine, but at the rate I have been consuming it and seeing and knowing how others also do it, it is an overdose for all of us humans, not to mention how much each and every person is spending when they go out on their coffees and their chinos and all the other types of coffees. 

I once asked a lady that works at Seattle which specializes in coffees – almost like a Star Bucks, how much milk they use daily for making all the peoples coffees and other orders that is coffee, and she replied, the most has been 600 Liters a day. This was but one shop making coffee of the dozens in the same area I know of. I asked this because the coffee usage was obviously a LOT, but I was curious about the milk, so I realized I also had a milk addiction with my coffee. 

I also know about the coffee industry and the abuse that is taking place there with the people actually working in the fields, harvesting the great beans that we grind up and then drink away and piss out, not to mention the abuse of the earth and the soil, the amount of land and natural habitats that had to be destroyed and most probably that are being destroyed right now to keep up with our demands for coffee. The earth is truly losing. 

Back to self – I am re-birthing myself, and I have stopped many addictions over the years, and I find myself stuck with a few, and these few are truly over powering my daily living to a certain degree. I was only able to see to what degree it was once I stopped and pushed through the initial pain of stopping which I experienced. 

The extent to which this one particular addiction was in control of my life, my daily movement and living is something that I would not be able to place in words as I experienced the Freedom after day three for others, but I can say, it was as if a chain has been loosened from my leg and I could more freely direct and move myself within space time. 

This is but the more daily experience, not to mention the bodily changes. I started feeling a lot more stable, grounded and I was less high on energy but had more energy that was moving at a practical pace instead of like a racing car. 

Day 1 – on day 1 when I stopped I went through the initial I want one, just one more for today, maybe tomorrow it will be better and then I can stop fully, but I breathed and stopped that thought and experience, to not lead myself into temptation and deceive myself, as I have faced this multiple times and I know it never works for me, so I had to go full out and embrace whatever comes my way and to trust that it will NOT be for ever, and so I walked with that trust that it will not be forever, simply breathe and move myself. I drank a lot more water and ate quite a bit more and different foods, which in return supported my body a lot more than having a quick coffee. I had MASSIVE headaches and did not talk about them at all on day one but simply breathed. I also did not talk about quitting coffee with anyone till I knew I have lived it and pushed through, thus on day three I was clear and spoke out. 

Day 2 – This was the worst, I went to bed the previous night with a headache and slept with it and woke up with it and so I worked as usual all day in the sun with laborious work with this massive headache. After the day was over with work, I decided to get some support with this massive headache, and thus I took one headache pill. Within 15min the headache was gone and I felt amazing, this allowed me to have a great sleep that night and then I woke up Feeling refreshed and coffee free.

I started smelling coffee more and noticing the smell in the house from others making a pot, my body had a natural reaction on a physical level of feeling repelled to it.  This supported me even further. For the next couple of days I had a small moment of a headache every now and then, but drank some water or some juice and then it was all good. 

On day 15 I took a small cup of coffee out of curiosity what it would be like to have some now. I took a few sips and I did not enjoy it at all, it was bitter and not as I remembered it LOL. So this I found interesting, I drank the entire small cup (100ml cup) and then I felt disgusted in my body by the coffee. Five minutes later I started noticing my entire body was vibrating and mostly in my solar plexus area, this I focused on to see what was happening, it was as if I just injected adrenaline into my veins and I started experiencing a physical anxiety within me.  I did not enjoy this experience as I felt more disconnected with my body and not grounded, I got easily more triggered. Within this I also noticed how I was abusing my body by not being able to be in tune with my body and what’s going on with my body to being on this adrenaline rush. 

This has been my journey thus far, and still continuing with no coffee, there is no set limit or amount of time that I will not be drinking coffee. Maybe forever, maybe I will have a cup every now and then in the future. 

Thanks for reading and enjoy.