Day 582 - That Block when you havent Blogged in a while - Response to MatterFreemans Blog post

Please read Matti Freeman's blog of which this blog is a response here - http://www.matterfreeman.com/2016/06/day-319-that-block-when-you-havent.html

Thank you Matti for this Blog, as I have had this Block for a while as well, and I know many others have this block as well, just no one ever pushes to unblock themselves, and I can see this for myself as myself.

Those that want to blog can not, those that has the time to blog simply does not - this is the world working in reverse, as those that has already taken their space and time within this reality to be active and live, to walk the talk, does not have the time to blog consistently, those that requires blogging to unblock themselves are not doing so because of the very point they need to walk to become active, to take responsibility, to become self-honest within themselves.

I haven't blogged in a while, even though I stand by very specific principles that I live and implement daily, the very reason I have this blog, and no other reason is for myself, to rebirth myself, to change myself, this blog is for ME as all life, yet there is no activity, there is no movement. perhaps every now and then. this raises question to reasons towards and of myself, no other. Perhaps because I saw it as ONLY being for me, I could simply toss it aside like it meant nothing, thus I never included all LIFE s me and making that me stance within writing, me as my journey as LIFE.

After reading Matti's Blog, I saw a few things, I wasn't blogging because I was being Lazy, or because I wasn't busy, I was in fact very busy - so busy with so many things that blogging didn't come up during my days very much. I would see others blog and I would read their blogs and I would share their blogs, but not all, and still share them within principle of spreading the message, the support and assistance.

So - what is the BLOCK as Matti described within his blog regarding blogging?

The block that I have found within myself isn't just one block point, there are many, my mind has made so many fears as reasons to why I am not blogging, or reasons as justification, my mind had made so much out of it that blogging is simply not an options, so how did this come to this?

See, the point of this Blogging within the 7 year Journey to Life is very specific, it is a BLOG that is public, or some set it to private depending on their work but yet allow others to see it, like being invited, see EVERYONE can blog, even if these blogs are just posted on the Desteni forums etc, there is always a way, there is No excuse. where these blogs can be under a different name even if public - as the point is UNIVERSAL process, as each person with Desteni walk their journey, their journey is very very specific, and this is within the understanding that there are 7 Billion people in this world that walk similar journeys, and thus through sharing and walking these journeys in public, others can find support and assistance within this current system we are all fucked within and move the world within support and assistance much faster through the beautiful thing called the internet, besides our daily living and activities in ONLY our current environments, which is extremely limited in comparison - I mean, how did I get to where I am? through the internet. and everyone else I now know with Desteni? through the internet. 

Thus living the principle of oneness and equality for all - through sharing, giving, supporting, assistance, reaching out to the world through our personal Journeys - this is a pretty awesome way, as our process/journeys being shared over the internet in support and assistance can prevent a lof of harm, to self and even others. Because we write our Blogs within principle, with the tools we have been using and implementing of self forgiveness, problem and solution, giving corrective statements to apply.

imagine a person is going through a mind possession and wants to stab someone, but instead finds a blog on the internet of someone else that walked the same point, and through this the person does not do this but instead take self responsibility, or at least reach out for support and assistance. the blog isn't limited to its possible reach, it isn't limited to ONLY the people a person knows within their current environment, it is actually considering everyone writing a blog.

So How did I lose first of all Myself and this simple point of living and walking blogging within principle of whats Best for all life? how did I come up with SOO many reasons and excuses and justification to NOT blog? how did I make and create such a "valid" limitation to blogging within my reality that it has become impossible and even accepted as a valid reason for all others that walk with me this journey? why has my brothers not been my keepers? have I deceived and manipulated myself so much that even they fell for it? the reason and excuse?

I have taken the time tonight to check myself to find the most Valid reasons for me to not do blogging in any way what so ever online, with considering my life and time/space, and there is none but only fears and excuses and seeking self-interest - I am the BLOCK in me blogging for the sake of self interest. does not matter if I was a rich man that had to protect my image and keep my blogging a secret from everyone I know, If I was seriously self honest and am, I would have and WILL find a way to stand as the point of walking my journey, sharing my journey and reaching others with my journey to move along this process we as Humanity is all walking to either create heaven on earth or to destroy t, and I know and see, that me not writing unconditionally and to FIND a way to keep writing no matter what my physical reality as survival is demanding of me to NOT do, because I am passionate about what I do and will even start an underground blogging society to make sure earth and life on earth is getting the support and assistance on how to live corrections, take self-responsibility, develop self-honesty and to live whats best for all life as that is exactly what ISN'T here on earth, so why would I stop blogging and Block myself? did my personal survival become independent from the survival of earth? and moving the earth process as each and every individual that is ME, then self-interest has surely conned me to make up my actions as beautiful pictures and ideas to justify my actions of why I am "focusing" now more on just my life and self-development, Blogging within principle is independent from that, a person WILL find a way to do so regardless. there are ways, and I found that I simply didn't care to find that way - this is because self-interest has got self interested in something else than LIFE.

I am grateful for Matti's Blog, it really gave me the moment to really check the points within myself. and I am finding scary shit of how the mind works and has worked me - such a simple point of blogging, taken for granted, of almost 100 7 YEARS Journey to Life Blogs that started out, but only about 20 remain active. I commit myself to check myself everyday on this point with Brutal self-honesty.

To be continued with Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective statements

Day 568 - Principle Living

We all need a fundamental source or basis in this world to live from/accordingly, it is the reason why there are so many religions, sects, cults, groups in this world, each one gives a person a fundamental basis/source that they can live from/by, to give purpose and reason to life. 

The problem is that all the Principles that people are living by currently in this world is in separation from this world, they are all based on polarity designs, good and evil, right and wrong, and this life and the afterlife. This kind of Principle living isn't sustainable and it has proven throughout thousands of years to be so, all the wars and destruction, all the conflict between all the different groups, because who is right and who is wrong? a consistent polarity game takes place. 

So I am here today to Introduce a new Principle Living, a way that everyone can follow and live by and that will not collide with any other, it will not create conflict or discord, because this new way of Principle living includes all life, and if we all can adopt such a principle to live by here on earth, earth will truly become something that we can not imagine yet. 

The Principle is simple - Do what is Best for all LIFE, this implies a lot, but if we truly consider these words "do what is Best for all life" in each and every moment of our day to day living, we will see that No one is right or wrong, we remove the polarity design within this world, and we get down to practical living, this principle does not require us to be in our heads or create believes, it requires us to in each and every moment consider what am I doing/living? is it best for all life or not, simple, it isn't about others, it isn't about life or death, it is about being right here considering all LIFE as yourself, changing yourself within such a principle and removing the ego, then as you change yourself to live this new Principle you will start seeing how you change and thus everyone around you. 

This requires a person to truly let go of their old Habits, patterns, addictions, because they all have been created within self-interest, you see this Principle isn't about being a Good guy, this principle isn't about doing the right thing out of fear, this principle is about doing onto others that you would like to be done onto, love thy neighbor as thy self, give as you would like to receive, you see it i all about YOU and who you are. 

within living this Principle, one will come to understand that there is a Law that guides the Universe - this law is designed within oneness and equality - oneness and equality can not be separated, they are one and equal, and the universe moves in accordance with this law, which means that what we stand one with we are equal with - thus is we stand one with Separation and fear and self-interest/survival then that is what we create equally within this world, as we all can see in this world, all the war, destruction, poverty, animal abuse, environmental disaster etc. 

So if we adopt the new Principle of Doing what is best for all life in each breath/moment living this Principle as a self-empowerment change, as a self-growth process, a re-birthing process we will in time stand ONE and EQUAL with what is bets for all life, and thus as within so without we will create a world that is Bets for all, isn't that what we all really want? 

How do we go from who we are now to living this new principle of doing/living what is best for all life? it is definitely a process, a long one, one that we all must walk to end the abuse and suffering WITHIN, so that we can end the Abuse and Suffering without. 

For this I use a lot of writing, and I apply Certain tools to support and assist myself every single day. These tools are simple, Breathing is number one, to focus on my Breathing and not on my thoughts/feelings/emotions, which is then where writing comes in, when I find I can not focus on breathing I write, I write what is inside of me to get it out, then when I find that the writing is quit specific I write more, I apply Self forgiveness Writing for what I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as, to become, as who I am currently, through this I develop Self Honesty, to really be Honest with myself about everything still I do all this within the Principle of what is Bets for all LIFE, not for personal gain, thus I let go, I breathe, I forgive, I focus on LIVING in the physical, to not be in my mind as much as possible, as the mind is that which enslaves us, traps us, and we all can see this.

I Learned all of this from Desteni and have walked this for 8 years now. I will share more in my coming posts.

Day 562 - Going to/into the City

 when I am at home, I am more "myself" so to say, I can be relaxed and move myself accordingly. I can be aware of my breathing and my thoughts and I can stop them quite well and direct myself in moments where I am facing conflict with my internal reality and my external to equalize myself. yet when I am scheduled to go into the City and the time has arrived for me to go, there is a change within all of me, not any specific energy that I can pinpoint, but I do know it is a character that is in a way an entity takeover, so besides me changing my cloths and what I wear to go to the city, there is also a change of myself. this is obviously not trust worthy. as this is unpredictable and not me directing me in clarity within principles of Desteni/Life.

so it must be questioned and Self forgiveness must take place to change this pattern and to remove this character that is NOT for me but against me, not for LIFE or even a seed/creation of Life, but of and as the mind, the life sucking virus.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a polarity from and of survival where I make it a positive experience within myself to go to the city, to suppress the negative/fear of who I am when I am in the city.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a negative experience within myself of being in the city and who I am within the city and to within this seek out only the positive when I am in the city, thus consuming and finding entertainment and distractions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a bipolar character within who I am when and as I go to the city, as a love hate relationship and thus having both polarities as my experience towards the system that is deceptive and abuse yet have all these fun things that money only can afford and only some, and thus deceive myself within experiencing one thing and living out another. I see and realize that I can live and be in a city and at the same time be absolutely real with myself and do not need to hide anything form myself and that this will in fact empower me to take authority and be the directive principle of who I am and how I direct myself within this system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an Idea that the city is a great place to just get away from myself to lose myself in all the distractions that the system has placed so nicely for the humans to be distracted even if abuse and harm is happening all around everyone all the time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being brutally self-honest with myself and my participation as who I am within being in the city and to see everything for what is actually is, a mind created system to feed off of everyone. Imagine here the human batteries in the Matrix movie all stacked like in a city formation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel saver to just deceive myself within looking at a city and being in a city that there is "good" within it, because it looks beautiful and gives me good feelings and comfort.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not just go into the city but to also go into a character of the city.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take on a character without notice when and as I am going into the city.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lose my breathe awareness when and as I go into the city, as if the city is making me lose my breath, seeing and realizing that I am losing my focus, my awareness within going into the IDEA of the city within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into Survival mode when and as I go into the city, within the IDEA that when one is within the city that it is an all-out survival game that one must participate within to survive as an energetic experience and within ones behaviors of the body.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to “feel” as if the City is pressuring me to go into a character that fits into the city within the Idea of the City and that the city is an all-out survival game that I must take part in to survive in the city.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create this Idea within my mind due to how I observe the City and what is happening within the city and to within this observation act out on what IDEA I have created and thus create a City Idea Character that takes over as I go into the City and to lose focus on my breath awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust my breath and to within this give trust over to an entity that I have created to take me over through my authority of acceptance and allowance within energy as the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I focus on breathing instead of on living a character of the City, that I will lose, that I will not survive and that I will be abused and harmed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the City and everything within the City as against me as Breath, as all the people, distractions and the general energy of fear and survival and to within this rather give into the distractions, energies through letting the character as the City entity take me over where Breath is shallow and barely living, taking on the zombie mode of survival.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear standing within and as breath where ever I am, in the City or not, and to move myself as breathe as life, as the correction that is sorely needed in this world, and that I must live this change, because who else will If I simply accept and allow a city character/entity to take over and live for me just like everyone else.

I commit myself to when and as I go to the city to go as breath, as me here and to remain within awareness, and to through walking this correction prove to myself first that me here as breath is in fact best and practical.

I commit myself to when and as I see any form of energy come over me as I go to the city, as I climb into a car to drive towards the city, or even when I have the thought of I am going to the city. To stop such energy, IDEA of what it means to go to the city and everything implicated, and to breathe and remain here.

I commit myself to when and as I am in the City, to not fall for the fears that come up to drag me back into character to play the game of the mind and to not stand up for me, for life as a living example that change is possible in each breath.

Day 531 - My Son is my example

 

my son is my example. He is so amazing in giving his everything in all the things he do. The way he focus the way he is here completely present with the task at hand. Something as simple as him sitting by himself independently away from me by his own table. Climbing on and off and sitting as I do. I am not allowed to help yet I must be available. He tests this out over and over. Where "I", sit down.... without EVER!! considering how I got to sit at a table. But this is just one instance. While I might be thinking and wondering in the mind, my son is showing me that only through real time physical application and testing can development happen. And to be consistent till there is a result that is best and stick with it.

Day 452 – One Year later since Bernard Poolman’s Death

Wow, a year flies by like it was nothing, yet so much has happened in the past year since Bernard Poolman’s death. 

I am writing this blog tonight because this is the night a year ago that we all at the farm found out that Bernard just passed, and what a massive change this brought to the lives of all Destonians, all those that has been walking with Desteni and the principles of LIFE, as the example that Bernard stood as for us all to see that it is in fact possible for each one to do the same, in the most simplest ways.

Bernard Poolman stood as the point of evidence that change is possible, a change that is best for all life, a change that does not change once it is in place, a change that only moves to change what isn’t best for all life YET. 

and Bernard influenced Thousands of people, only a few came forth to walk this process openly and to change to be that living example, and I can say we are all still in this process of change, where we apply daily the simple tools of writing and self-forgiveness and living the change that is best for all life practically and moving ourselves to stand as the pillars of life, till all stand as life.

I lived with Bernard Poolman for just over five years and I have known him all my life, and through knowing Bernard Poolman not as a man but as a being walking a principle absolute in each and every breathe, I can say one thing. The example that I saw every day for five years in any sudden moment was so absolute I have never seen it anywhere else.

In the past year since Bernard’s Death I have faced challenges within myself, and in my life, where I used to get a simple common sense answer that is standing within what’s best for all life to help me and to support me through the points I am faced with from Bernard, I now had to do this all by myself, I had to take self-responsibility for myself in fact and live the example, become the example. 

I have fallen and I have stood and standing, I have seen that the way forward isn’t difficult but only one breathe at a time, it is to let go of all mind and to be here physically moving, it is to be that absolute point in each moment that is always here, which is the physical and to not falter within the mind.

After one year living without Bernard on the Farm I have greatly missed him and his presence, I am realizing that I only miss Bernard as I haven’t yet embraced all that he stood as, as myself in fact.

YET after one full year without Bernard the points that he shared with me and the understanding he showed me and the directions he gave me STILL stands the same, and these are the simple points I use to push myself to change myself to move forward.

I haven’t lost sight of what I am doing and why I am doing it as it is impossible to do so having had an example such as Bernard Poolman and to have seen him daily in any circumstances and within any sudden moment remaining the same and standing solid as the example of LIFE.

We as a group are still here after one year without Bernard Poolman, because we have seen the example, it is unchangeable, many got shit scared and their application within walking the journey to life has slowed down, many had gone, and many has come, many will never know Bernard or who he was and what he in fact did/started – there will only be a few who has known him directly and who has experienced and seen the example as life walking and moving as it. 

It is a responsibility to have had this opportunity to have lived and known Bernard and it is a responsibility not to praise or promote Bernard, but to stand as that living example in fact, because we had a taste of the cake we must now keep on changing our selves till we are the same cake, till we stand in fact and be the example for others to have the same opportunity, to have a taste of the cake and live to stand equal and one with and as it. Nothing less or more.

I am eternally grateful for Bernard Poolman and for myself that I have stood and walked, and I will not stop till what is best for all life exists within and as me as who I am as a living example and within the world. This is my life style, and I cannot accept anything less than what’s best for all life.

Thank you, we are dame okay.