continuation of Day 242 - The Death of my Horse Titan Part 1
and – Day 243 and 244 – The Death of my horse Titan Part 2 The Journey to Life
and – Day 245 – The Death of My Horse Part 3 the Journey to Life
and – Day 243 and 244 – The Death of my horse Titan Part 2 The Journey to Life
and – Day 245 – The Death of My Horse Part 3 the Journey to Life
and – Day 249 – The Death of My Horse Part 7 – The Journey to Life
and - Day250 – The Death Of My Horse Part 8 – The Journey to Life
and - Day250 – The Death Of My Horse Part 8 – The Journey to Life
Leila wrote a cool blog on the events of the day here that Titan was put
down – Day 146: Death of a Horse (Titan)
and continuation on her point here - Day 147 and 148 - Aftermath Death of a Horse
Also to see the process of horses here with us and their process stuff in general, check out the interviews from Eqafe, really cool.
Birthing a new Life through the Eyes of a Horse - Part 1
Birthing a new Life through the Eyes of a Horse - Part 2
Birthing a new Life through the Eyes of a Horse - Part 3
and continuation on her point here - Day 147 and 148 - Aftermath Death of a Horse
Also to see the process of horses here with us and their process stuff in general, check out the interviews from Eqafe, really cool.
Birthing a new Life through the Eyes of a Horse - Part 1
Birthing a new Life through the Eyes of a Horse - Part 2
Birthing a new Life through the Eyes of a Horse - Part 3
Continuing from this part – “Seeing and realizing that as I live
as Fear as who I am that all I will and can do as Fear and self interest is
create and manifest my own fears, through constantly trying to dominate and
control life in fear of Life being alive lol, because that has been judged as
being bad and out of control.”
Ok so I am
going to apply self forgiveness on all the fear points I faced daily with
Titan.
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear Losing control.
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Fear losing control of other
Beings and that they might hurt me then.
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear getting hurt if and when
I lose control.
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that I ever had
control, seeing and realizing that the control I thought I had was always only
a attempt and not in fact control as it is impossible to control another being
as it always require their agreement first to seem like control.
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I do not control
things outside of me that they will always be a threat to me.
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear other beings as always
being a threat to me, seeing and realizing that within this I act out in my
behavior to control and dominate which is abusive and not best for all.
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Fear being dominated and
controlled by other beings, as being their bitch and having to do whatever they
ask/want, thus seeing and realizing how I always attempt to do this first to
other beings.
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being another beings
bitch.
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being seen as another
beings bitch.
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to work
with another being and to within this fear first control and dominate the other
being to force the being into working with me, never considering to simply
communicate and create equal agreements to walk together, and to within this
destroy relationships through always first built the foundations of the relationships
on fear through control and dominance.
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I do not have
control over another being that the other being will take advantage of me.
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I do not have
control that I will be abused and misused by other beings, seeing and realizing how
Titan showed me that within this fear all I did was create my fear onto other
beings and abuse them.
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to to fear something Bigger than
me such as a horse.
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that I have to fear something
when and as it is bigger than me, seeing and realizing that it is to understand
and work with and not to control and dominate as that will lead to abuse and consequences
and in the end in fact manifest the fears.
To be
continued.
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