Ok so today I am going
to look at The Barbie doll and the physical attractions I imprinted from the
doll as what I like, I am specifically using the Barbie doll as it is within my
first seven years of my life of my base programming – and the Barbie doll is
the earliest memory I currently can remember and recall where I have made such
decisions within myself in relation to physical attractions and a emotional
connection and sexual.
So let me look at Barbie,
I bring her here and as the memory, in her nakedness and I see what I decided I
like based on a picture, imagination – because I realize, no matter if someone is
fat skinny or how they look at all – Touch is the exact same on the skin for
everyone, thus anything else is a MIND fuck, my own imposed limitations that I place onto myself, thus self forgiveness on all parts that the mind has
made something out of it, where in fact it isn’t.
Face.
I forgive myself that
I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the Barbie doll face as the perfect
face.
I forgive myself that
I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the Barbie doll as having the
perfect face where everything fits together with each other.
I forgive myself that
I have accepted and allowed myself to create a feeling/emotional charge towards
how the Barbie doll’s face look like as a desire.
I forgive myself that
I have accepted and allowed myself to desire all girls having the same face as Barbie
within the belief that if all girls had the same face as Barbie they all will
always be happy like Barbie.
I forgive myself that
I have accepted and allowed myself to create a judgement of the Barbie doll’s face
as being the perfect face and to judge whomever else’s face to not be perfect
in polarity.
I forgive myself that
I have accepted and allowed myself to create a good feeling towards the Barbie
dolls face and thus to connect it as if I have a girlfriend with the same face
I will feel good.
I forgive myself that
I have accepted and allowed myself to see the Barbie dolls face a perfect,
realizing it is made up in a factory out of plastic and not real at all, and
only representing a picture of the mind.
I forgive myself that
I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that barbie must have the perfect
face as all the girls that played with the other barbies made it look like it
must be so in the way they played with it.
I forgive myself that
I have accepted and allowed myself to fall in love with Barbie’s face, thus
literally trapping myself within the energetic feeling/emotion towards such a facial
expression and to not “like” anything less than, thus realizing I set up all
relationships I have to fail as the girls will never match my ideal face I
desire for a partner.
I forgive myself that
I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I connected the
Barbie doll with emotions and feeling within my mind and imprinted the
picture within me as a desire that I
actually limited and enslaved myself to that one picture and to never live here
in each and every breath enjoying myself within and as the physical with all
the expressions of the physical as one as equal.
Boobs.
I forgive myself that
I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that the perfect partner must have
boobs that is a good size that is touchable and visible when wearing cloths
such as the barbie doll.
I forgive myself that
I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that a women must have round
perfect boobs to be a potential partner such as the Barbie, otherwise they are
not real women and not worth touching as I touched the Barbie doll.
I forgive myself that
I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the size of all women’s breasts according
to how I have experienced touching Barbie’s boobs and to within this belief
that if a women doesn’t have a reasonable size boobs such as barbie you cannot
have fun with them.
I forgive myself that
I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that different size boobs will
feel different, realizing that all boobs even of men, feel the exact same as
they are all the same as flesh/skin, and only the manner of how the boob size fits
in your hand will be different but touch will be the exact same, and if the
boob size makes you experience the touch any different than you know you are
brainwashed and mind controlled as that is a mind job and not real as the
physical one and equal.
I forgive myself that
I have accepted and allowed myself to belief all women must have perfect round
boobs or there must be something wrong with them, as Barbie had perfect boobs
as she was not real and made of plastic and but only a picture in my mind.
I forgive myself that
I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that boobs are important within a
relationship as there must have been a reason they made babies so big and perky.
I forgive myself that
I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that boobs are important in a
relationship, realizing that boobs are mere fat and for feeding babies and not
intended for a man at all, and thus any connection to boobs as a desire is
actually a result of mental disorder of inner voices and back chat that self
has with self.
Legs.
I forgive myself that
I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that Barbie has the perfect legs
and that all women’s legs must look like hers or there is something wrong with
them if it doesn’t, as Barbie must be perfect why else would they make a doll
like that with which all girls must play with.
I forgive myself that
I have accepted and allowed myself to judge all girls that does not have legs
like Barbie as not potential partners and thus shun them away and actually
become mean and ugly towards them as they are not fitting my mental picture of
limitation and mind enslavement.
I forgive myself that
I have accepted and allowed myself to create the belief through playing and
touching a Barbie doll that all girls must have smooth perfect feeling legs or
they are not real girls and not worth a women, realizing that Barbie was
actually created in the image and likeness of what a women in this life can
never achieve, even with plastic surgery as there will always be hair on a person’s
body.
Ass
I forgive myself that
I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that all girls asses are made in
china lol, see first Barbie blog to get the joke.
I forgive myself that
I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that all girls must have a ass
that is skinny and where the hips isn’t wide but just the right size as to
fitting the body posture.
I forgive myself that
I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that a girls ass must be skinny
for her to be worth considering in a relationship, realizing that it is not
about being skinny or fat, it is about self honesty and LIFE as the physical
one and equal, as we are all here living on earth, and thus anything that
compromises self to live in limitations and mind control is enslavement and for
the mind consciousness system that is enslavement, and thus it is to realize no
matter how a Being looks like, we are all make of flesh the exact same thing and
bone and skin and it all moves, touches/feels the exact same, thus if there is
anything more it is to realize that there is a mind fuck, a judgment of the
fruit of the tree of knowledge instead of the tree of LIFE where all is one and
equal.
To be continued..
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