I walk alone - this
is not referring to actual walking but a walk with in LIFE.
Today the point
opened up, No matter what I do, where I am, with who I ma or how I am, I am
always alone with myself and Who I am.
Through out my life
I have tried surrounding myself with what ever I could just not be alone, yet I
always felt alone, the nights or days where I would be by myself in my room in
front of the PC or where I am at party's, at school or in any public place or
with any person in my life, I always had a experience of myself being alone, no matter how much I made
someone love me or loved someone else or no matter how much I tried keeping
things close to me, I was always alone, because I realized that when the time
comes - this time will be death - I will be all alone with myself as WHO I AM.
So Tonight I was
standing outside to stretch my legs and as I was standing there I realized I
was thinking, and not here at all, I was in my mind, I looked at a rock on the
ground and I stopped thinking, I could see the rock, I noticed the rock, I then
looked around me and I saw reality here, the physical, I then realized I am
alone, no matter how many thoughts or feelings or emotions I fill myself up with to
hide the fact that I am alone with myself - it is inevitable that I will at
death, the same as everyone else face myself alone, I realized in that moment that all thoughts,
all emotions, all memories will simply be gone, and who will I be by myself
with out all the thoughts, emotions and feeling and memories that I used to hide and keep
the truth from myself.
Self forgiveness.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being alone with in my walk as
Life.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear walking alone as myself as who
I am this life within re-birthing myself as LIFE.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to give the word "alone" a
negative energy charge through what I have seen in movies, magazines and that I
have heard from others as their opinions believes and judgments.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge "alone" as being a
bad thing.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect being "alone" with
a negative energy, realizing that as Life being alone or being with people must
not change who I am as who I am as one and equal as all life, thus being
one with all that is here alone as who I am.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a personality separate from
me when I am alone that determines who I am, instead of being here in each
breath equal and one with all that exist as life, with in this I am never alone
but here as all life as myself as Who I am.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to entertain myself with thoughts and
the mind to hide from the fact that I am
alone no matter what I do or where I am, because I will always be with me as one
being facing myself in all ways with in what I accept and allow to exist as
LIFE.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to entertain myself with feeling and
emotions as a way to run and hide from being alone with myself as Who I am, and
to face myself as who i am within all self honesty and to correct myself with
in re-birthing myself as life, so that when I am alone that I do not change but
remain equal and one as all that is here in each breathe.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to create multiple personalities for
myself with in my mind to talk to by myself where ever I am, just so that I
should not be alone with myself here in the physical, as I have attached a
negative emotional feeling with in being alone, realizing that no matter how
much I try and hide that I am alone as all that is here one and equal as me,
that I will face myself as all that is here one and equal at death for what I
have accepted and allowed to exist with in the world as consequences as WHO I
AM, either as life or not.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to manifest and create a world of
entertainment and abuse with in all relationships through the fear of loss through the fear of being alone, realizing that all I have ever done with in
all relationships was only out of fear and not actual care for LIFE as myself,
as I only wanted to hold on to everything just so that I should not be alone
and facing myself as WHO I AM!!
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to act on the fear of being alone, and
with in this enslave and manifest a world of slavery where I believe I can hold
on to things as long as I can just so that I should not be alone, realizing that
through these actions I have separated myself from all LIFE as that which is
here and neglected life instead through becoming greedy with in holding onto
things and exploiting things for my own self interest.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress and hide my oneness with
all life though the fear of being alone with myself as who I am as all life as one in fact and to with in
this fear act out and create the world that exist today with all other beings
here, as I have accepted and allowed them as myself to continue living and
acting out in fear of being alone, fear of death.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear taking self responsibility for
who I am as being alone, being one as all in fact and to stand up and take
responsibility for what is here, as I realize that who I am all alone with
myself is what is creating this world/reality and so as I change who I am with
in each breathe, I change what is here as me as one as equals.
Commitments.
I commit myself to
be with myself where ever I am as I rebirth myself, so that I will be certain
and clear on WHO I AM alone with myself so that no one else may determine it
but only me, and to write and apply self forgiveness and using the tools that
is here to birth myself as life, as that which is best for all life in all
ways.
I commit myself to
stand alone, with in standing alone as me I take complete self responsibility
for myself as WHO I AM, stopping all blame and projection and all judgments,
thus I commit myself to when I see I go into blame, judgment, projection to
write it out and to apply self forgiveness as I realize that in those moments I am not standing alone
as myself but instead of placing it on others as blame, judgment, projection in
fear of being alone with myself stopping the lie that I have created myself as
in the fear of being alone.
I commit myself to
when ever I see I attach myself to someone/something to stop and to bring
everything back to self where I can stand alone with myself in self honesty and
to rebirth myself as life one and equal as all that is here, to stop all fear
and separation and to stand as one as all (alone) as equals in each breath.
I commit myself to
expose and stop all abuse with in myself where I have separated myself from
life in fear of loss, being alone and where I have abused and manipulated to attache people/things to be to hide the fear, but to instead expose the fear,
the lie and to face myself as WHO I AM alone and to re-birth myself as life one
and equal as all that is here as Life as that which is best for all life as
myself.
Understand walking
alone, does not mean alone physically like leave everything and everyone and be
alone, it is with in self, taking self responsibility for self and WHO I AM
with in self to be able to stand alone at all times as LIFE as all is one, to end
fear and separation that is manifesting this world the way it is in abuse and
deception and suffering as the consequences.
identify brainwashing/viruses with - Bernard Poolman -Virus Free Mind
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