Day 20 - Dirty Eyes filled with sex, blind to reality.
Have you ever noticed during your day how your mind is filled with sexual content such as pictures, ideas, believes, fantasies and then when you look around in your world all you see is sex, constantly comparing every women/men with each other and self and so within the comparison you decide what you apparently like or don't.
have you noticed how it fills up your eyes, all you can see is sex and nothing else, you do not notice the birds, the bugs, the trees or anything else like for instance how you are enslaved to sex and a robot to respond to sexual images and accordingly make decisions, and the worst part is, making live decisions according to sexual content in your mind.
It consumes all your time, even for some it consumes all their lives and will at their death bed probably regret only past sexual related things, the did and did not's, how can this be all that life is.
It is limited and mind control/brainwashing, it is UN-acceptable.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate with in thoughts, pictures, fantasies and desires of sex with in and as my mind fueling the mind consciousness systems that enslaves and limits me with in this world to see what is really going on.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give these pictures, fantasies, thoughts and desires authority with in my life to direct me and to determine what I see and don't.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself with in my mind as the EGO as back chat with in what I like and do not like with in sexuality through constant comparison and judgment towards others as I judge myself and to accept it as who I am.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as who I am as a sexual predator that can not change his nature, realizing that to be self honest with myself, I was not born with these sexual thoughts/fantasies/desires/pictures but that I have through time created them myself with in constantly participating within watching porn, masturbating to it and giving it my attention and creating it as my nature, and thus I realize that it in fact is not my nature but a self created thing I made up myself because I believed it to be the way it must because I accepted and allowed myself to be influenced by society and blinding myself from alternative ways of life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame society for who I am as a sexual predator that constantly scan and judge people sexually all the time with in my secret mind and with in this limit myself a to very tiny word stuck between my eyes and all that I can see with my eyes is sexual stuff all around, enabling myself to see all of LIFE as myself that is here.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare people sexually with in my mind to each other and myself so that I may feel better about myself and to fuel my mind consciousness system with in me of limitation and enslavement of the mind, trapping myself within my own mind of constantly only focusing on sexual content and what I like and do not like.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only see pictures with in my reality, creating a picture reality for myself and others that is a false image and likeness of life as life is here in the physical in the living flesh that does not rely or need pictures to exist.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that what I create and make up in my mind as pictures/fantasies/desires/thoughts are real and that they valid, realizing that they are all made up and that I am simply imposing it onto reality in the hope that it might become real, realizing that with in this I am setting myself up for a life that will be UN-fulfilled as what I create with in the mind will always be more than what is here in the physical reality,
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to occupy my mind with secret thoughts/desires/fantasies/pictures and to make my eye sight dirty, enabling myself to see reality and what is here in fact as LIFE as that which I am.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only see sexual content with in my mind projected onto reality with in a constant comparison towards people with in my secret mind that no one knows of or ever see, and through this enslaving myself to a limited reality as my mind bubble that I call life and in the end, end up believing that this is all that life is about, missing the bigger picture and remaining a slave to the corporate world where people depend on my sexual enslavement to make billions for themselves through selling their products to me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate with in the mind as pictures, thoughts, back chat and desires about and towards other human being with in my secret mind where I constantly compare myself and place judgment onto them as I judge myself, and with in this continue the cycle of enslavement with in myself and others through the way I make decisions and act on the thoughts/desires/fantasies/pictures as the false gods that I worship within my mind neglecting the actual god as the physical as me one and equal.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fill myself up with sexual pictures/fantasies/desires/ thoughts in such an extent that all I can see is that and miss reality completely as a whole as the earth that we all share, and so give away all authority I have with in the physical reality to the mind as a limited bubble/space that will end at death.
Life review - Death by sex.. (interview on Eqafe)
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the pictures/thoughts/desires/fantasies with in my mind is real and that I can achieve them all in this life time and live a fulfilled life with in my limited time here on earth, while I have to learn to understand life and how it works and that I am life and responsible for all that is here as myself, and to be consumed with only sexual content during my day to such an extent that I can not even consider LIFE and all other LIFE forms that is here with me equally and so neglect them and allow their suffering to happen/continue as I am to busy fuelling my sexual thoughts/desires/fantasies/pictures and enslaving myself to a limited bubble/space as the mind.
I commit myself to use the tools that I have as self forgiveness, self honesty, common sense and writing to stop all desires/fantasies/thoughts/pictures with in my mind so that I may stop the enslavement and accepted and allowed limitation of myself to a confined space in my head as the mind and to start birthing myself as life one and equal as the physical and to live and express myself in all ways that I can with in that which is best for all life.
I commit myself to expose the lie as the mind consciousness system so that my fellow beings here on earth can see and realize what I have that the mind as thoughts/pictures/desires/fantasies is not real but self create and that we have enslaved and limited ourselves in all ways within participating with in them as if it was normal, and that we all can realize it is all self created and not necessary to live with and occupy our lives till death with meaningless thoughts/desires/fantasies/pictures only to live a life of regret and shame as we did not do anything to bring about a world that is best for all Life in all ways, because we blinded ourselves to see reality to only see our own judgments/comparisons.
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