Porn and Masturbation - A POOR nature

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A Perspective on Porn and Masturbation

It all starts with self-judgement, the path to watching porn and masturbating to it. Then it leads into addiction, possibly. There is nothing wrong with masturbation, if it is pure and clear, NO images, no thoughts. Yet, to get to that, and to end the abuse of porn I am going to share some perspective and insights.

Porn isn’t about you just sitting down, or standing, or laying and watching images and videos or others having intercourse. Porn is how you SEE yourself within yourself, within your mind, as the self-judgements you have of yourself, of your physical FORM, your body and how you define and value yourself based on IMAGES as the FORM of your body.

You see, when you watch porn you are doing something strange, you are taking YOU as who you believe yourself to be and placing yourself in your mind in the scenario of the porn you are watching, this self that you are projecting can either be a negative or positive self, it does not matter, the self you are placing of yourself in the scenario of watching porn is thus self-judgement.

The point of watching porn becomes about generating energy, a feeling or emotion, a HIGH within your mind, again it does not matter if it is positive or negative, the mind thrives off energy and mining the body of it’s resources (the physical substance of self) to create an experience, this experience is always about integrating and confirming ones own self-judgments, does not matter if it is positive or negative, as long as there is a confirmation of THIS IS WHO I AM.

Now, playing with the sounding and word PORN, we can see it comes already from when we were BORN, and the quality of this world/life is that of POOR(N), this poor life quality isn’t referring to actual poverty of which 3,5 billion people suffer from in this world, this poor quality is that of the human, which is JUDGEMENT, we are born into a world that ensured and enhances judgement towards one another on a consistent bases daily.

The judgements we have towards ourselves and one another is PICTURE based. It starts with our parents who was influenced and judged by their parents, and so on, where PARENTS will define and judge their children based on their physical form (their genetics).

We all know for a fact that our parents judged us, they would say things like you have a pretty face, you are beautiful, you are unique, you are fat, you are overweight, you need to lose some weight, you need to eat more, you need to do something better with your hair, the men are going to love you, the girls are going to fall at your feet, you are such a sweet person. You must dress better, you must get a tan – I mean, the comments and input on our physical appearances and our physical FORM from our parents/family members, then society since we were born is NON-STOP.

Later on in life, we find ourselves with a voice of immense self-judgment running rampant in our heads, this voice blabbers as our parents, our family members and society on and on inside ourselves, constantly judging ourselves and others, always VALUING the FORMS/BODIES we see around us, who is sexy and who is ugly, always using ourselves as a reference of self-judgement.  

Thus we become walking PORN producers.

Why do I say that? Why do we become walking porn producers? Why did our parents care about our looks? Why did our parents and family members and society JUDGE us and still do based on our physical forms/bodies? Because when you are born, you have no clue what this world is about. Yet our parents already knew, it is all about SEX and MONEY, you need to be sexy/hot to get a partner, or make money to get sex/children/family, to be secure and you need to be able to get a JOB, so our parents start early on preparing us by making sure we KNOW our place, based on how we LOOK, do we have pretty eyes? A sexy jawline? A good-looking ass? Big boobs or small boobs? Our parents made sure we know our strengths and weaknesses of our genetic bodies given to us by them (for which we had no choice of), through constantly judging us and defining us, dressing us up, placing images onto us and making our physical FORM given to us by genetic, VERY personal, as if it defines who we are.

NOW. Here is the dark side of how it is all done in MOST cases, hidden, secretively, very manipulatively, our parents and society will not come up to us as children and tell us straight up, this world is fucked up, you MUST succeed in SEX and MONEY, because that is what rules this world, because that is admitting to your children that this world is not as great, it is ruled by sex and money, what a wonderful world. So it will be done through parents/family and society HINTING, commenting, and SHOWING you images over and over, mom will say, you look so pretty in that dress, or ugg that is an ugly dress, or wow you look amazing in that shirt, or you need to lose some weight, or the guys will see you as a slut – I am going to leave this part to you to look at your life and all the comments your dad or mom or uncle or aunt or other people have ever thrown at you, then go further, LOOK at the magazines, TV, movies, I mean it is a consistent impulsing system of creating and valuing the FORM/BODY of the human as an IMAGE/sexual object, and all of this mostly happens to you and is impulsed to you by the age of 7, most of it. Thus, it is all in the sub-conscious mind, and forgotten as thoughts, by the time it is in the sub-conscious, it is you now living it, thus by the time you turn thirteen, the teenager stage, you start really bringing it all out in many different ways.

 

So, this POOR that PORN is exposing is a form of LACKING – thus why do you watch PORN? Why go there? Because you believe you are LACKING!! That is what this system impulses and also actually exist as, as it is always survival for 90% of humanity, no abundance, and thus the need to make everyone a sex object for money, or money objects for sex, either way, that is the symbolism for the porn industry, absolute abuse, which we are living as ourselves in our own minds towards ourselves and others, by simply walking in the park, or walking around a mall. We are constantly porn producers in our minds towards each other.

We abuse each other every day through walking around and JUDGING ourselves first and foremost as either pretty or ugly and all the other ways we do this to ourselves, in all our own manners (this part is again for you to look at), or in-between, and thus doing so onto others consistently, and we do it through the cause of SEX, because we want to find a partner, and thus money and security, why else would anyone judge their own appearance? It always leads to sex, or money. Just what the porn industry all about in a very direct way, and thus also exposes the abuse we all do to ourselves and each other.

So, each time you are about to abuse yourself through watching porn (because now you know it is from a form of LACKING) and thus by watching and masturbating to porn, all you are doing is confirming and compounding and impulsing, I AM LACKING, and thus telling yourself I can not change, I am doomed to this life, I am doomed to my situation, I am too ugly, or I am too sexy, I can not do this, I want to keep doing this, either way, no matter if positive or negative, it is feeding the same system of lacking, THIS WORLD and how we define and value and place ourselves within ourselves and thus this world. And when we feel and keep this believe of I am lacking alive in ourselves, we are much more likely to accept and allow abuse in our lives and this world, because a person with a value system constantly validating the LACK of self, will not care too much about others. Because you do not care for yourself.

Why do you think child pornography is so extensive? Why is abusive porn so extensive? Why is there porn of all kinds of abusive things existent in this world? It is because people will watch porn, search for that specific porn they FEEL they can connect to, just to confirm to themselves, YES I am lacking, I am missing something, and all you have to do to stop this abuse is, forgive yourself and change your own self-definition to that of LIFE, your own value not based on images/looks and money, stop child sex trafficking, stop the abuse inside yourself that you have accepted and allowed as JUDGEMENT towards yourself and others, and end sexual abuse n this world starting with yourself, once we all value ourselves as LIFE, not as images, we can stand together for a new system that values LIFE.

You might think you are GAINING something watching and masturbating to porn, a release maybe? But this is not the case.

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Day 647 – Debates are for those that want to MASTURBATE!

 Debates are the BAIT for those that want to masturbate – Take a listen to this recording of Bernard Poolman on the topic of debates, what are the simple and direct design of debates – and the see in my writings of self-forgiveness the points I am now taking on in relation to this topic. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fall for the trap of debates with other people, where an argument around a certain topic simply goes round and round, where opinions keep on playing out, where each person is seeking to win, to get ON TOP (dominate like in sex) the other person as to have a money shot to feel good about themselves, even if it was only an opinion in play, nothing real, nothing based on common sense, on what is best for all life, on how actual reality functions. 

I forgive myself that I have NOT seen and realized that the same way self can start with watching porn, then within self, start an internal debate about what one is watching, and somehow the debate will always follow the energy, where it feels good, and not actually what is good, and so one will start masturbating to the porn, as the debate has now been concluded, there was a winner, and it was/is the mind for energy, for feelings, for experiences, even when one know one is doing something that isn’t best for self, that is an addiction, that isn’t healthy in the sense of watching porn and in one’s mind playing out dark and secret thoughts while masturbating to porn that then becomes ones character in life, the same way debates in “normal” conversations start and follow through – till the mind has won, taken the conversation in the direction of energy and not what is real, practical. 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to SEE and REALIZE that the energy underlying in masturbating and within any other interactions within this reality that is within the form of debates as opinions/ideas/beliefs are literally jerking off session between people and the one that win will have a similar experience as if they just ejaculated and so dominated and over powered others, and thus feel like a MASTER and so a masturbater. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react and get angry when and as I find someone is arguing or attempting to argue with me over common sense, principles of life and to start a debate on the subject of Equal Money System, or all life is equal as life, or all humans need a living income, or animals and plants are equal to us, or that the earth is literally our mother, points that are common sense, such as those examples, and so want to simply blast such a person away or put them out like a fly, not feeling like spending my time in this debate of mental masturbation of energy through words. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as someone starts a debate with me, may it be in a comment section somewhere, or in real life, to get angry and to lose all morality and time for such a person and so become harsh and shot with them, as to not masturbate them, jerk them off with energy and words, to not give them the satisfaction of friction that can lead to a certain ejaculation of release, as this irritates me and gets me annoyed. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the energy of annoyance to come up within me when and a someone starts or attempts to debate with me, and so to a degree give into the debate and to make myself part f the masturbating session, where I truly do not want to be or be part of, seeing and realizing that I must stop the energy of annoyance and so stop me from falling into the trap of participating in the debate at all, to give it energy, attention, friction, because that’s all that is needed to get someone started, to get them excited and hyped, a little rub. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge debaters as annoying and time wasting and so create a certain judgement within me that creates and automated response to people I judge as debaters/ attention seekers, and so my response is to be short and mean with such people almost immediately, even before giving someone a proper chance to possibly move from a debater stance to someone that stops the masturbating game of debates and to actually see and level with reality. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within reacting to debaters, miss the point of why they are actually debating, why they are seeking attention, and so missing the point within myself to SEE direct and beyond the debate and debater, and to actually see the being/person and to move directly with the being to the direct point that is actually bothering them, steering them, the same reason as to why porn and masturbation is an outflow of some other misalignment's within the being, that can be supported to be corrected and bring a being back to life and out of the realm of illusion/ego and some find fuck place. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the reactions within me to direct and steer me within and when I am faced with a debater/debate through my reactions, where I react to where I see the debating as the BAIT to get me isn’t truly the real season as the debate, but that the person is actually placing a BAIT like a signal for - help me, I need a reality check, I need something real, I need support and assistance within something else, and this debate, debating is a distraction, a defense mechanism to hide the real issues that requires support and assistance within me/the person debating me, and so I see that I must stop my reaction, and be true to what I see and direct and move with that direct here as I see it and not let the reaction cloud my seeing. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to build a wall of resistance and pre-determined responses towards people that SEEM like they are only out to debate, and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to FALL for debates based on being nice. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deny my direct seeing of a point, a person or what is truly here within a debate even if it seems way off topic and so participate within the debate instead of getting to the points I see directly either with the person as an underlying point playing out or a resonant pint playing out, or as a back chat point playing out, and so linger in the debate and masturbating with words and not really getting to anything substantial that matters as matter. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT see and realize that debates takes two to tango, and so I must also make sure that y words are not within friction/energy as to cause a temptation for those that seek to debate and become masters of others to then come at me to get themselves off. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the IDEA construct of if I do not participate in a debate then I am weak, the same as when I stopped masturbating I believed that I am now not a man, yet what I have learned is that I am defined by who I am as who I stand as and not as the actions/words that I live to define myself through – and so I am defined by who I am as LIFE not as my debates of empty words and seeking dominance to define myself through outside forces as a fear/separation design. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that to participate in a debate even when it is clearly NOT common sense being presented or any self-honesty that I do not have integrity, yet it take s REAL INNERtegrity to NOT give INTO the reactions/temptations and to keep breathing and standing and to let the desire and want flow through me to participate, the same way one faces actual moments of wanting to give into porn and masturbation. Breathe and do not follow the thoughts feelings or emotions and back chat. 

I commit myself to stop debates, within and without, to stop following the design of debates in my actions and words, to specify myself to Direct myself within my direct seeing, moving directly to the point if it is here, or to be still and to not be led into temptations. 

I commit myself to when and as I see someone commenting, making remarks to start a debate to stop all movement within me, to see direct, to move with what is here directly and not the energy temptation, and so not take part in a debate, but rather in self-movement as what is best for all as the physical.