Day 645 – The Mathematics of Evolution

Please listen to this recording, then you will find my writings below. I write in this blog in Self-Forgiveness what comes up within me while listening to this video. What comes up can be different for everyone, so I suggest you also write in self-forgiveness what came up for you – this can be reactions, insights, revelations, realizations, judgments – any thoughts, feelings and emotions. 

What I got at first was hearing Bernard saying – everyone is For ever losing – I then realized that when we go deep enough into the word Evolution within the sound of the word and letters, we get to the word actually expressing everyone for ever losing.

Self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see evolution as something great and magnificent, not seeing and realizing the implications of evolution as it is currently is that of the weak will perish and the strong will prevail, and so within that accepting and allowing abuse within MYSELF as always defining myself on the winning end of evolution and so justifying the abuse and death and destruction of all other life forms as simply being weak and so part of evolution – thus not seeing and realizing that within this Everyone is forever losing, as evolution will then never end and within the design and construct of evolution abuse is justified and even promoted. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to simply accept the theory of evolution as something natural and that cannot be directed, and so I am always a victim of evolution and must simply accept where the cookie crumbs fall as natural and part of evolution – NOT being real with myself within what is here as the HUMAN created systems that are unnatural and designed within a money construct of GREED and abuse of all life, and so Evolution running as a justification within that consideration is actually something the elite/rich and greedy like, as those that are suffering and being abused will accept the abuse and not stand up, as it will be justified in our own minds as simply us being weak and also being part of the evolution process – meantime it is a human system that is deliberately created to abuse for self-interest. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as HOW I am within my living/body within the construct of evolution, and accordingly classify myself as weak or strong, where I will justify my status within the theory of evolution through how much money I have, how good I look how much sex I get, how well I am doing in social groups, and so accordingly accept and allow abuse of myself and others. 

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to SEE and realize that evolution is ANYTHING that accumulates within the 1+1+1 mathematical equation and so what evolves on this planet has nothing to do with it being natural, but rather about what we accept and allow within ourselves and this world, and so we can direct and create a world that is best for all through stopping the mind/self-interest as ego, stand for and as ALL LIFE and to accumulate that instead to evolve.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed abuse in the name of evolution. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed justifications in the name of evolution.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to form self-limitations, judgements of myself and accordingly abuse myself in the name of evolution. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse others, to see and judge others as weak, as useless, as less, as inferior in the name of evolution. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create SEPARATION between all LIFE, humans, plants, animals and even the air I breath and so creating fear and abuse in the name of evolution. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to GIVE up on myself and others through giving into the theory of evolution as a way to escape self-responsibility and my response ability to al life as one as equals. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to to place myself and others in certain boxes of judgement of who is weak, who is strong, who deserves to survive and who does not – showing and revealing to me that this is what I am accepting and allowing as evolution to accumulate and thus not natural by an actual deliberate act of creation that is evil, as if evil is the solution. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to When I look in the mirror, when I see the gift as my body, as my physical, t judge my body as either weak or strong, and so accepting and allowing according to my judgements of my body a certain position within myself within this world as being part of evolution, either as someone that deserves to suffer and die and be weak, or to be strong and must survive, and so accepting and allowing not only consequences of abuse within my own life, but have the same approach to all life, and thus accepting ad allowing abuse of all life, from the small creatures and children to the big.

I commit myself to stop the nonsense as no sense of the accepted and allowed theory of evolution as something that is natural, and to instead live the accumulation as the direction of evolution of LIFE as equality and oneness of all life and to evolve life from survival and abuse to living and to be of expression in a practical realistic manner that is BEST FOR ALL.

Day 563 - Hating to be around People/humans

Ok, so I must admit, I do not enjoy being around other people, that’s just me being honest – OH wait, Honesty is actually me lying to myself, because when I really look at it, I do not hate being around other people, I must now really get to being self-honest with myself, to dig deeper than that feeling I am hiding behind and keep using as excuses and reasons and justification for why I am the way I am, OH yes, being self-honest is looking beyond those comforting points, if you dare you might have a moments scare, but I am telling you that if you push through to being self-honest, to look beyond the feelings and emotions and thoughts and to see what is really the issue here. It comes back to MYSELF always.

So I have an experience inside of MYSELF when I am around other people, that is the first indication, the feeling/emotions/experience is within me, my thoughts are keeping it there in place, and some random memory that I have no clue of is running in the back ground where I defined myself within a certain moment within around people/humans in the past that is now still playing out in the present. So what is it that I have created within me as not liking and thus hating about being around other human beings? Answering those questions for myself, I will find that it will reveal points within me that I have separated myself from and thus created friction within my reality, which started first within me. So let’s dig in with Self forgiveness to get to see creation being undone as what isn’t best for all including myself in action and re-birthing self as LIFE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed This HATE to just exist within me when and as I am around other people, seeing it as normal and just as who I am naturally.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to question this “natural me” that I have been living for a long time as not liking and thus hating being around other human beings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make this “not liking” and thus hating being around other human being about other human beings instead of taking the point back to myself and to see who I am within being around other human beings that create this hate within me of being around them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from other human beings within myself as being so different and not the same, that when I am around other human being I am in a constant state of denial and separation, which I know is me not standing one and equal as others and to face myself as others and thus I create a friction within me of hating other human beings for what they are showing of me to myself that exist within this world that I must equally take self-responsibility for within myself as all life, to truly be able to stand.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that me hating being around other human beings is me hating myself as who I am around other human beings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project my inner conflicts and mind bullshit onto other human beings, no matter how bad or shit other humans may be, what I am experiencing within myself as judgment and gossip is what is making human beings shit and bad.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I am around other people to not want to hear them gossip and talk about other people as it tires me out and becomes a burden within me to have to listen to this. Not seeing and realizing that when and as I am listening to other human gossiping or talking about other people that I am in my mind doing exactly the same thing as what I am judging them for, thus I am not liking who I am within such a situation.

I commit myself to when and as I am around other people that gossip and talk about other people To stop any form of judgment within me toward them and what they are doing and to breathe an focus on being here as the correction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to how people talk about other people in the open or in secret towards me or with others and to within this reaction that I have not like myself and thus not like giving away my authority as Breath to stand as the solution and thus to not like myself being around other human beings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I am around other people and their behavior is that of the mind, which is sexual, degrading, or very blunt with what is going on in their mind within their behavior, to feel intimidated as I have judged them within my mind as less than me and as not ‘decent” human beings – where I gossip in my mind and placing myself above them, where their behavior is attempting to bring me down within my mind, seeing and realizing that this is me separating myself from the accepted and allowed nature of the human within myself where I have sunned away those parts within myself and thus have not yet dealt with myself as who I am as that behavior to effectively direct and deal with others within such a behavior and thus create the idea/belief that I hate being around other people/humans as a way to hide from that part of myself that I must still stand one and equal to as myself.

I commit myself to when and as I am within a situation where people are within behaviors that I have judged as not decent and that isn’t nice, to take such a moment and to stop the point within me as separation, to now not participate but to take the points of reactions I see and to see why I react, to realize that they are showing me a part of me that I can now challenge within myself to forgive and to stand from within and to live as the correction where I enable myself to also help others to correct themselves as I live it for myself, to stop all judgment and to actually take on myself as all life that is here one and equal.

Day 500 – world change – Donate your click/like/share a day

There is only one way to change this world and to bring about real change. This change has to be what is best for all life, literally in reverse of what we are living now, not the opposite – In reverse. There is a major difference.

And there is only ONE group in this world that is promoting this change, there is only a few, literally a very small amount of people on this planet that is actually actively in awareness walking a personal process of change within them to bring about and promote this change., through designing and developing many systems/programs/courses/support/education and do much more to do exactly that, bring real change that is best for all.

To see more about this group check out Desteni,org and all the platforms that are available and that has been researched and developed over a very long period of time.

Now this group, the people and what we are promoting and living is available for ALL to see and participate within.

The bare minimum that a person can do to help motivate this change in the world is – first itrequires a person in front of a computer/smart-phone/tablet or any similar gaged with a mouse or a finger that clicks LIKE and SHARE (in other words anyone almost anywhere with internet lol)– this is what brings about change in the modern world, this is how the humans mind work currently and how information is “voted” for and what gets to be promoted (pro means FOR).

To do a little bit more is to participate within the DIP (Desteni I process) LITE course – which is an absolutely free course of self-development and understanding the surface, basics of this reality and how each one of us create our own realities and thus the whole – with another person giving their time to walk this with you for FREE, and it requires your time for literally 10min a day to do a lesson, depends on your typing skills of course, but ten to twenty minutes is nothing.

Then to do more – one can start participating on the Desteni Forums, reading the countless documents and writings/information that are available there, self-educate and self-introspect into one’s LIFE and reality,. This is till on bare minimum efforts to bring about change in this world (for those that has limited time), believe it or not, this is how it is done, small steps, small things, such as just a click of a mouse – voting and PRO – moting (not muting).

Imagine every single famous singer or actor or TV show or every billionaires or any government or movement that is abuse of LIFE is currently here because those that do not promote what is best for all life, is promoting all the abuse that is here by simply clicking and liking what is accepted by society, not nessasarely though a PC or with a mouse, but by turning on your Radio or TV, or buying a magazine, or a product, and they get so many clicks and likes and shares that finding anything relevant or of substance, that is best for all life, is almost impossible.

Can you donate your click/like/share a day to what is best for all life? No matter how busy you are. The few that is doing the work, will handle the work. We need thousands to push it and to make it viral. Let’s make what is best for all life viral, even if you can only donate clicks a day – those that can do more, do so – we welcome what is best for all LIFE anytime.

Back-chat isn't a Game

Back-chat: any form of back chat is EVIL, it is poison against yourself and others, it is the chattering that is happening in the back of your mind, in a filthy secret hidden place, it is always nasty, even when its colored in, like a rainbow, we can see it but its only within or own mind and not really there in fact.

Desteni has BEEN around for many Years, since 2007 Desteni has been active in the public eye, Desteni has taught and shown over many years what it is that’s evil within this world.

Desteni has a Forum, Desteni has Courses for people to partake within and to change within so that things can change without, as we know what’s within us creates what is outside of us, the world is but a reflection of our inner realities.

It is a mess, the same way we can look at our own rooms and see the living expression of ourselves mirrored as our material possessions and how they are positioned, it comes from within and thus lived without, the way we move during our days is the way we think within our minds, it is clear that there is something wrong, the problems has been showed and the problems has been explained in detail, to the tiniest of details in interviews, videos and extensive writings, done by a man and women who has walked the path no one else dares to the fullest act.

I have come to realize that after many years of the information being available to anyone at any time at all times and not even hard to find, that the human is bound to the mind.

the mind is an interesting thing, yet it is simple to explain, yet for scientists it is the most beautiful thing, they can’t seem to explain it themselves, not to mention where it truly exist, yet Desteni has done this and many has done the research themselves and found that the mind is…… well find out by visiting the Desteni forum and see for yourself.

Now back-chat will come in and it will poison every breathe, it has a tendency of lurking in and seeing what’s within and bring it out to ring in your ears and make you do or not do the things that matter, the matter that is here that makes up all of us even the atmosphere.

Back chat is that little voice talking In the back of your head, it is the should have’s and the should not haves, it is the can I or can I not, it is the must I or must I not, it will obviously always choose limitation and fear, because within the atmosphere that is here as the humans existence on this sphere called planet earth, we only live and care about our own birth till our own death.

Thus when you have known and have seen and have investigated Desteni and what Desteni in fact stand for as the solution to life then you will know by now not one bit of Back chat is ever good for you or anyone else, as good redefined is that which is best for all life.

I have stopped my back chat to a degree where I can move without it interFEARing with me, it is but something that comes up and then I breathe it away, this is how I move every day, one layer at a time I remove the brainwashing conditioned by all that I ever called mine, the self-interested me is what I am setting free so that I that am here can live and truly see.

When I see the back chat coming up I stop, I do not give it one more moment of my blood, I move myself to the best I can be to live the utmost of me that is within the best interest of all life and me, it is the way forward and it the way for life.

I have seen through my own faults and failures that back chat is a devil, it is evil within me, it is what we used to call LIVE, to live out our back chat used to be the motto, I used to rather lay on the couch and do nothing, play a game till the morning or sit around and moaning about life being so dame unfair.

The unfairness I discovered was simply me as the back-chat playing a game of Russian roulette with myself in a bet, a bet that I thought I could win because I was playing with cards that looked fair, only to discover I was playing with the only pair and with no one else there, obviously always winning, waiting for the other to pull the trigger, the loser, only then to discover I was the only one with a turn. Back chat was the other, the winner and I actually always the loser in reality, as the back-chat basically made me argue myself, fight myself, limit myself, create delusions for myself, and to end up doing nothing, and so let the next invisible round begin, Because its all in my head.

Life moved on and time went by, I was still the same old me waiting for life to change me, or for me to change my life, the things Back-chat does, the things we chat to ourselves are the most dangerous, it is best we self-forgive and move forward otherwise we will find ourselves in a cycle, no different than a hamster in a wheel, it will only end once we die, as there is nowhere we are running to. or where we can hide.

I strongly suggest that the Desteni message is solid within self, investigate, research, apply and live, so that it is within the abstract mind where it is to be found, as long as we keep it within the concrete stage at the back of our mind lingering as the back chat we have we will never live the potential we possess as the living expressions we are of life, yet to realize in each moment and to move as each moment to do what’s needed to be done and to not falter within our own self-created trap called the back-chat.

Day 456 – Being comfortable with myself Part 2.

Day 456 – Being comfortable with myself Part 1

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be comfortable with myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that I can and am allowed to be comfortable with myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that to be comfortable with myself I must wear clothes that are accepted by everyone else, instead of wearing clothes that are practical and comfortable for my body/me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that what I wear will make me comfortable with myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that the cloths I wear will change how I experience myself inside, seeing and realizing that the inside experience I must change from within by breathing in air instead of judgment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that how big my physical body is and how muscular it looks will make me comfortable with myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the more manly I look the more comfortable I will feel with myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the more LOUD I am the more comfortable I will be with myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the more silent I am the more comfortable I will be with myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that when other people look at me that I must become self-aware of myself to be aware of what other people might think about me so that I can start defending myself already within my head and within this then become uncomfortable within myself, seeing that it is the thought and the back chat that is making me uncomfortable and not that other people are looking at me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame and judge others for looking at me as if they have the power to make me feel a certain way within myself, when I am in fact the only one who decides what is happening within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must feel/experience something within myself when other people are looking at me, within the believe that I must be self-aware to prove that I am aware of myself and how I look and all that to the other person, as in judging myself before they can judge me so that if something happens like they confront me I can already have an excuse or a justification for why the back chat and thoughts were accepted and allowed to compromise me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT see that comfortablility comes from within, from breathing and that any thought or back chat will compromise the point of being comfortable and thus go into reactions and the mind, seeing and realizing that if there is back chat or thoughts about myself as judgements that I have that can and will come up in sudden moments to compromise me, I must investigate my physical participation as what I live and my inner and align them within self-honesty and practicality and thus live within that starting point instead of making it about a self-conscious point of being in others heads as my own judgments out of fear.

To be continued.

Day 455 – being comfortable with myself Part 1

What is it to be comfortable with myself? I have been working on this point for years, and yet it is still within me, no matter how small or how big the point is within me, it is still here.

Today I was in a new neighborhood; I faced two specific points that showed me that the point was still within me of not being completely comfortable with myself. 

I was walking across a soccer field to go to the bathrooms at one point, within this there were kids playing soccer and a couple of dozens sitting on the side-line watching, but not really watching, as they were simply talking among each other and playing.

As I was walking I had to cross the field with the kids playing, and as I was crossing all the kids were watching me, the kids were between the age of 10 to 13, so I am seen as the adult within their eyes being there, yet within myself I do not feel like the adult, I feel just like one of the kids.

So within me this created a conflict within me that started making me feel uncomfortable within myself, and thus I started walking weird and I I kept on looking downwards to the ground, also within this I noticed how I suddenly became very self-aware of the cloths I am wearing and the way I am walking and each part of my body became a point of self-awareness in this long walk, it was like a 200m walk to the toilet.

I weren’t comfortable with myself feeling uncomfortable in a sense of being self-aware in a states of self-judgement. 

Another scenario was now at night, in a new town for the first time with different people and areas and malls and so forth, within this we went to get food me and two other people on a road trip, within this we were standing outside of the restaurant waiting for our food to be prepared.

As we were standing outside by the tables, there were a group of men standing across from us on the other side of the road, they were laughing and talking and they stood around their cars in the parking lot, they looked our way a few times and as they looked they then started talking and laughing.

Within this I assumed it was about us, so I looked at the guys for a while and within this I saw them as being men, they have cars and they have money and they look like MEN, this definition is a contaminated one as it has nothing to do with being a man, where they were big, they had bellies and big arms and they were tall, everything I am not, so I started feeling like the kid. 

This then became uncomfortable within myself, not the scenario, because it is all about what went on within me, the judgements I made and placed, and this all obviously comes from how I have defined myself and the value I have placed within certain points.

Self-forgiveness in next blog, stay tuned.