I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
Make how I look and how I present myself to always be for others, instead of
making it for myself and who I am.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
Dress according to what other people like and only what other people like, and
to disregard myself and what I can decide I like and what is comfortable with
my body, - (outside of the work place for practical purposes).
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
use cloths to create a mirage of myself, instead of using cloths for the
practical purposes only such as when I am at work, or when I am at home.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
only care about what I am wearing once I have gotten feedback from others on
what they accept and allow.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
only wear clothes or walk a certain way or to stand in a certain position once
I have gotten acceptance and allowance form others that it is all fitting an
image and likeness of the mind consciousness system.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
Believe that the way I am living currently where I have to dress myself only
according to what other people are accepting and allowing or where I can walk
and talk and act certain ways only when others are accepting and allowing it,
and that who I am is always less then, or that who I am naturally is always a
fuck up.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see that the way I dress and the way I walk and talk and how I behave
around certain people all comes from what I have been taught within my first
seven years of my life, through observing and through actually being forced
into certain scenarios and events where behaviors and manner and ways or walking
and talking and dressing is a custom so to say, and that through all these
events I have come to create multiple mirages to give forth to people what I want
them to believe/think of me, instead of who I am as the physical where I dress
and where I walk and talk and behave because I have self-respect/self/honor and
that the way I dress and walk and talk is always supporting the physical and practical
and supporting my body instead of an image and likeness.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself
that I must be a different person, or simply give forth a mirage of myself
depending on where I am and with who I am, seeing and realizing that this in
the long term will have schizophrenia effects on me as I am training my body
through my mind to split itself a lot into many mirages for many different
events and people etc.
To be continued.
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