I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see and realize that the images and Ideas and Fears I have within my mind
about and towards my body and here to a specific part of my body such as the
metabolism, that it will have an effect as the thoughts/ideas/images I have
will give signals to my body and the certain parts I have it about, and that my
body will act and accordingly do things dependent on the signals I am giving
it, seeing and realizing that it is best I do not give any signals and just Breathe
and give breathe to my body so that my body can do what it does best as it
knows best what to do, before it is too late and I might destroy or make a part
of my body malfunction.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see and realize that the signals I am giving my body isn’t just within
having the thoughts/ideas/images, but that it is within following them and
creating them within living actions, such as for example when and as I eat when
I don’t want to, or fill up my plate of food with a shit load of food I will
never finish, yet I do so because I was confirming the fear, validating the
idea.
I commit myself to when and as I see that I am participating
within any of the Ideas/Beliefs/images that I have created towards my
metabolism, to stop and to breathe and to realize that this is me as the mind
seeking a way to blame and to have an excuse for why I am not gaining weight,
or why I am skinny and lose weight quickly.
I commit myself to when and as I see that I am seeking to
eat food from the starting point of fear, where my fear is for example that of me
not getting enough food in for my metabolism to burn out of the fear that my
metabolism will start eating my muscles and make me starve, to stop and to
breathe and to realize that it is all literally just in my head and that if I follow
up on that fear, then I will validate the fear and through the believe actually
make my metabolism do what I fear it will do.
I commit myself to when and as I am hungry to only take the
food I know I will eat, and to stop the Image Idea/projection in my head that
is from/of fear that is showing me as a thought how much food I think I must
take, and to simply breathe and take what I can see with my real eyes that is
required.
I commit myself to stop over loading my plate full of food,
as I see and realize that doing this and acting/behaving in such a way is only strengthening
the fear of starvation and thus the Ideas and beliefs as well.
I commit myself to make peace with my body and to from here
on support and assist my body within only physical activities that is required
within each moment and to not force my body into anything more that is of the
mind.
I commit myself to when and as I see that I am within the
fear of starvation, to stop and to breathe and to look at what is the
Idea/believe behind the fear within that moment that I am entertaining that is
also making my body experience what it is experiencing such as starvation,
seeing and realizing that I have no Idea what starvation is, as I have more than
5 meals a day and always have food at my disposal, yet I am experiencing such a
fear, showing me the truth between reality and the mind, what is real and what
is not, as real starvation takes days before one can say one is starving in
fact.
I commit myself to when and as I see that I am eating out of
the fear of not gaining weight and only losing weight as well as starvation, to
stop and to breathe and to realize that I am now telling my body I am eating
only because I am starving and losing weight and not gaining weight, and thus
my body will do just that, eat the food and still feel hungry and never gain
weight and sustain it, as I see and realize after years of doing this I have
trained my body to have this weird reasoning that it must follow.
I commit myself to when and as I see that I am blaming and
abusing my metabolism within my head within my secret thoughts to stop and to
breathe and to realize my metabolism is just fine and that I am the only one
messing up it functionality through giving it all these mixed signals as my
Ideas/opinions/believes just to blame and diver attention all because of
experiences from a long time ago in my developing years when my body just could
not gain muscles yet that looked good, and now I have carried out over with me
for many more years just because I felt insecure and not confident back then
and wanted to blame something for it. Instead of taking self-responsibility for
myself and not placing security and confidence in looks, but instead within who
I am as a living physical being, as Life one and equal.
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