Day 481 – From Relationship to Agreement Part 2



Read Part 1 of this Blog Day 480 to get a full perspective and what I am sharing.

Where I left off “This is where I am now going to start explaining my character that I had and how I took on this point within the types of relationships I built and created for the one purpose.
To be continued.”

Also, to get a perspective on some of the points I am talking about, watch the movie LOVE ROSIE 2014, showing how it starts as a lifelong friendship and ends literally with sex and bow after years of fucking around finally committing, because there was simply no more options, to have a stable sex life and money.

So it is really no secret, it is really nothing new, we are self-interested human beings, we enjoy using other humans for our own purposes. We color it up in all kinds of ways, it always looks so genuine and real when others are with us, yet underneath it all, it is about sex and/or money.

This is what I realized at a young age, when I was sixteen, I saw the games the older kids were playing, and what adults were playing, I saw how all the games work people play with each other.

I knew at that age and within that stage of my life I was really curious about what is real sex? I have seen porn already, I have seen others relationships and my friends telling me all their stories, and I really got curious.

I started investigating what is it that makes people tic, what is it that gets girls to have sex with guys, and what guys want and expect from girls.

Since I had a nice big group of friends, we were about 7 guys and 7 girls always hanging together in high school. I got really comfortable with all the girls in the group. We always joked and laughed and we always enjoyed each other’s company.

But I knew that the girls was there to get the acceptance of the guys and the guys allowed it to get something sexual from the girls, perhaps not directly, sometimes yes, and other times girls attract more girls.

So Money at this stage wasn’t an issue, we had parents, so all we did all the time was looking for sexual things, through the people we socialize with and the friends we bond with the best.

Let me also just mention how I am using the word friend within these blog posts – anyone you meet becomes a friend first and then from there on it is decided something else of the same, see why friends after school disappear! Because either you already scored, or nothing happened and possibly never will (sexual). So what’s the use of the person after a few years after school. Money wise you are still secure, so no need to look at those friends, unless they still benefit you in some way such as money, and your money gives you sex.

I started asking weird question to the girls, no one else in my group or the other groups has even thought about simply asking girl’s questions and getting answers, we always believed we have to play a game, keep it secret and expose it in a polite way that doesn’t seem so evil and self-interested, make it look like caring and LOVE (coming to the love point later, it’s a home run point, score with that card!!)

I started asking girl’s what is it that turns them on about guys, I got really strange answers back, always a giggle and a weird look and then I kept on pressing the question, I manipulated through looking and sounding innocent to get them to want to teach me, so first lesson learned, girls like to teach boys things. Always sound innocent and like you have no clue, even if the truth is you have no clue, use that to manipulate to get something.

I got my answers, girls are attracted to HOT guys from magazines, which you will not find in your current environment, girls are attracted to older men, who has money and is well dressed, because it shows security, girls are attracted to men who LOOKS like men lol, and so many more other answers, these are but example.

I asked question like, do girls masturbate? This was a though one, but at least two girl’s in the entire group admitted it, when the rest was denying it, and I asked if it is a regular thing or just a once in a while, turns out they masturbate to every guy that they find handsome, like in a fantasy, in other words porn.

I had two close female friends (of which both relationships ended with something sexual (not sex though)) – as it was my intention and that’s why I kept them so close and had such a strong “friendship” bond with them, it always turns out weird as it started out with manipulating. And just a fantasy, those friendships are now lost. Because they have no more purpose.

I used my friends in the group to decipher women and sex , I used my female friends to see what it is that makes them go all crazy, and what is the motivations behind it, this led to a great deal of research for me for myself, I have knowledge and information now to play the game. Most men probably learn this through doing it, I prepared beforehand. Because I was insecure and afraid.

So the character I took on was the Romantic player/bad boy – this is the character that girl’s seemed to be most attractive to, a mysterious guy that does bad boy things yet when you meet him it is as if he is this gentle friendly caring guy, always something mysterious, missing, and the only way to find out what that is, well to get involved in my life.

Now I am specifically saying character, because it isn’t real, it is pretending for the purpose of sex, but this pretending has to be made real, so I actually became a bad boy, doing all the things good students don’t do, smoke, drink, dress tough but in style, hang out at all the cool places, and have a shit load of friends to look popular, which was hard work but it pays off.

So my key in getting sex was to befriend girl’s quickly, become a friend first, and then from there on take it further, the most easiest was long term friends but not the most frequent (those you got at parties and all kinds of hanging out places), friends from the past, but they were usually used for practice purposes, and the one real friend that you liked since kinder garden, that one you save for last, once you have already done all your testing and destroying of other people’s lives. Because at an older age you have to now consider a permanent sexual life and stability with money, with one partner, and this is where old friends can always be a good option once all the other ones don’t work out.

And in modern days it was so much easier, we had cellphones and computers, we had chat sites and we had/have cameras everywhere, so you can meet someone once and learn to know them more through the new technology, how much better to deceive and to pretend, and then meet in person where the real stuff happens. it isn’t real because it is basically two Idea/opinions coming together and now the energy has to be released that was created in suspense over a period of time just chatting and promising and selling each other to each other.

This is where I played my game the best.. With technology. And in real life even better, chats sites became like practicing grounds, the messages the pictures and all kinds of things to deliberately create energy within each other to have an outcome of sex.

There were a few simple things that gets a girl hooked on a guy. I took these things into consideration daily all the time.

1. Come forth as mysterious, it works like a bomb.

2. Pretend to be a bad boy but at the same time a good guy, girl’s just like excitement. And you must be both, stability and excitement, what a deal.

3. Be different than the other guys, I deliberately always made my hair black (it works) and I always made it stand crazy, like I got out of bed but somehow made it perfect, I was the only guy making a lot of jokes, good jokes, get a girl to laugh and feel like she is enjoying herself with you all the time, even though you know it is pretending, but I pretended all the way till there was something coming from it and then the pretense wear off and you have two real people sitting with each other, what now? now things are getting real and this si where relationships then go side ways in comparison of how it started.

4. And then the other one, always Listen, no matter what, listen, girls love it when a guy listens.

5. Make really good remarks on the girl that makes her stand out above all other girls, even though it’s all lies, and even if they are true, it is being said for the purpose of getting sex, either way.

6. Make sure you have a story to tell the girls, like you kissed them in your dreams, it means you as the guy are dreaming about them, thus the girl feels special and wanted and like its magical, having such stories and telling them as real or even if they were real is a killer, girls will jump a guy just for that.

7. Promise… a lot of promises, good future promises, make the future bright and how it revolves around the girl and how your future already includes her no matter what, or how it has been including her, since you were young you have done everything for her she just never knew. Tell these lie and be this dishonest and manipulative and you will get far with your one goal. But the consequences are far greater.

8. And here is the killer game, pretend or ignore a girl, but always be a friend to her, always be there for her, always make it seem like you are just a friend, she will start falling in love with you secretly and develop this over a period of time, while you as the guy just sit by and wait. It will come out one day and whala. Goal achieved.( it takes two to tango)

These are but mentioning a few still, there are many ways form a guy’s side, and hopefully showing girls something too.

Girls are not innocent in any of this, take that into consideration, they know it and they know it’s easier for them, because girls know a guy just wants sex, so before they give sex they want to hear a lot of things, or get a lot of things, then they give sex, unless it’s a secure women, a confident women, they can jump any guy and satisfy the moment – one night stands, yet that’s not real confidence, it is a form of hiding and suppressing, releasing self-judgments and energy by going to extremes, fear of commitment and so forth, which then is just the opposite of confidence actually.

To be continued, next blog I will share more on how all of this led to the greatest shame and regrets I have ever experienced and how facing myself and what I have done within playing the games revealed a different side to life, as an agreement with myself and another

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