Life - the reason for living - digging through it all.

After reading this blog, I have a suggested interview from Eqafe.com that you must get and listen to.

Is there more to life? this is a question to investigate, perhaps less is the way to more as LIFE?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make money LIFE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make life about the material things I can have to entertain me within my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make and Belief and thus live in a make belief life, which life is all about relationships, sex and finding a partner and literally things.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make belief that life is about everything that I have been taught.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make and belief that life is about finding the next best job or advancement in my career.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make life about what my parents made life about as all the values they have passed onto me as their meanings of life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make believe that Life is about how awesome my country is, how awesome the people are that I live with, and that are around me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make life about friends and people who will benefit me personally within the system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make and belief that life is about seeing with how many people I can connect and interact with to financially advance my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make and belief that life is about getting education, a job, a family and to then retire and die.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make life about religion, about gods, about life after this life, and to only live this life in accordance with what might come after this life based on what others have sold me as possibilities.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make and to believe that life is about my image, how I look, how well I dress, how well I smell, how good my personality is and to within this have no real value within, as who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek value and life in the things that everyone else is doing and how they are doing, within the idea and belief that everyone else has it covered, that everyone else somehow has a secret answer to life and thus they are probably right as a mind assumption and interpretation, and so follow others and what they make and believe life to be just to fit in, in fear of standing and finding out what is real here as breath as me, as Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make life about how much money I make.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make life about how much sex I have.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make life about how happy I can look and present myself in how my facial expressions are, how I dress, how I walk.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make life about the country, the language, the race of people I am within and surrounded by as MY life and who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make life about how my partner looks as an apparent definition of who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make life about how my house looks, what I have in my house, how others will see my house, how others will experience my house.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make life about taste, about food, about what I eat, how much I eat, when I eat and to define myself according to my foods.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define and live life as a meaning of life through fitting in with groups just because of money and system advancement possibilities for me in the future as my life, and so sell myself out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define life according to my sex, my age and everything to do with my period and time frame that I am within, within this world, as if I am defined by a generation and to regardless of common sense and self-honesty want to be part of a thing called “my generation” and to define and live my life accordingly.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define life by the style and look of my hair.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define life and myself as life according to my facial structure.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my life according to my physical body shape and image.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make and belief that life is all about family and the people that “care” for me and whom I believe and make myself “care” for and thus disregard any and everyone else in life, all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make and belief that life can be valued and defined through material things, the things that owe me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that life is about the “few” indulgence that I have and so make and create my life around the few points I can indulge within everyday even if it means giving up all life, the other parts of life, as long as the few points of indulgences are worth it.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that I have without awareness or consciousness taken on the meaning of life from others and their believes, their ideas, their opinions and so like a zombie followed it and regardless of all evidence of what is within this world continue to walk and sell myself to the system as a prostitute, labour, my body, for money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think it is possible to blame the system that is here for the values and ideas and believe and opinions I have created about the meaning of life and to never even step one step out of it to see if there is more, something else besides my daily routine that defines LIFE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create habits and patterns and routines that I follow religiously every single day as to avoid the fear and to live in denial of what we know we are living and doing, just to have comfort in the routines, patterns and habits, and to never take a first step to check, what the fuck is really here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not question everything and to challenge myself within everything, to see how did I and how am I still keeping this meaning of life that is currently here in place through who I a, but to rather hide in routines, in stresses, in fears as denials of what is here and to keep on living as the stress and fear instead of hearing what is here, calling life, saying, there is more HERE, breath, stand up.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consume myself with my life to such an extent that I am so comfortable, that I cannot even question myself, as the fear of facing dishonesty is so great, I know it, and thus deny it consistently to avoid having to look at my life and who I am thus for real and see what I have become and made of life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make and to believe that I have lived a life of dishonesty for so long that it is pointless to at my age and time question myself, my life, and so rather completely sell myself for money, for a system, for the systems THUS within me first and foremost and to become completely obsessed with keeping the system the way it is for myself as I have already accepted and allowed myself to simply sink into the unforgivable and made it normal and me and thus cannot afford to be expose at any cost.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make and to believe that life is about LOVE and marriage.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that marriage and love is real, when I was taught what it is and thus made life and based the definition and meaning of life on something completely unreal and untrue and to a certain degree, I know this, yet refuse to look at the LIE I have defined as LIE(F).

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make and belief that life is all about figuring our conspiracy theories and that it defines me and life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make and belief that life is all about waiting for aliens to show up and change life even if it means I am entertaining myself and wasting my life in this, and yet do it because I have become possessed and obsessed with it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make and belief that life is all about getting a certain degree in studies.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make and belief that life is about politics, about religions, about economics and that is what defines life itself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make and to belief that life is about how much I know, how intelligent I am, how smart I am and so within this lose myself completely as life as I focus and define myself according to words in books that will not be as life at death.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make and to believe that life is all about having a baby, a child, and so within this about how great of a parent I am or can be and thus make the focus of life a child, someone else outside of self, thus self isn’t the first point of change and being the change and what requires the change, as the child will naturally learn from the adult, and thus it isn’t about parenting, it is about being myself, yet if I dislike myself I will raise my child within such a polarity that will cause a polarized relationship that thus teaches my child bullshit, such as how the child look, how intelligent they are, how physically early and shit they advance, which is again the focus on intelligence and not the being as LIFE, as who they are as that will come from self as self must first be that change and thus having a child must be natural, and parenting is thus an illusion,  deception, a mislead idea.  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make and to belief that life is a make – believe game, where I can pick and choose what I want to believe and thus make and so life my life according to that, and thus disregard all common sense, all self-honesty and rather following a point of self-enslavement to systems, work, material things, images and so fuck the world, thus when I live a make-belief life where I use opinions, ideas and beliefs to live BY it proof that I have not actually matured or grown up at all as I am still disregarding LIFE itself, and what all of us walk one and equal in and as the physical, and thus everyone that mature in fact will walk the same in fact one and equal.

Check out thi interview by the Interdimensional Portal from Eqafe - Your Reason for Living