Blame Self-Forgiveness
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the design of blame.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is validity in blame.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT understand blame, the construct of blame, what blame really is, yet use it , spread it around like normal, as if it is simply a normal thing to do, to place everything outside of myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to FEED the mind consciousness system of BLAME through not only participating in it consciously, but to live it without question sub-consciously and unconsciously in my daily living in small and big situations as who I am.
I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to SEE and realize that when and as another person, thing or situation comes into my mind when I am looking at a point in my life, when I am looking at my life, my situation in life, my circumstances in life, that the very fact that something else came up first instead of me asking myself questions, looking at myself first, I am already blaming, deflecting, taking self-responsibility away from myself and making something/someone else a target to blame.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to FEAR owning myself, my actions, my words, my deeds, my thoughts, even when two or more is involved in a situation, my life or in this world, as all is connected, yet I am always responsible for me and who i am within me and thus can not be blamed onto someone else, as that resolves nothing but only creates cycles of blame and victims forevermore.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create MORALITY within what BLAME is or what is it NOT, where in my mind I go into the polarity of, OK so I must never confront, or stand up or take a stand for something to stop blaming, or I must keep blaming and can not stop blaming until that something else is sorted, where I am now again accessing a polarity, instead of seeing and realizing that ACTION does not require BLAME or a polarity, it does not require SIDES, it simply requires self to be silence within, and to stand within what is BEST for ALL as a principle of guidance, as I as self stopped blame, and so I do not see sides, I only see me, who I am and who I am standing as what is best for all life, no matter the situation, I must be clear to have a clear new direction.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to CREATE polarity out of everything.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself FEED off BLAME, to FEEL powerful within blaming, especially when my BLAME game is top stuff, where I can win and over power another with my blame, where my arguments are logical, it makes sense and forces the other person to change, but I get away with remaining the same.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ENJOY pointing fingers in all directions as BLAME, pointing out everything, all the details, all the points for the others to see, so that I point so much that in the end I point out the eyes of the other person and all they can see is their BAD evil sins, how they are responsible for everything and that I am such a victim, I do not have to do anything, they must now do everything and they have NO way of pointing anything back at me, as I have made sure, with all the POINTING of fingers they were blinded to see my shit, and eventually even not I can see my own shit anymore, and so can not see, they are overwhelmed with what was pointed out, so I am safe, I can get away, I am okay, I made it, I can now just again sit and do nothing.
I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to see and realize how and when I react to another person, I am BLAMING, and so not seeing and realizing how INSTANT blame is activated and how instantly we place ourselves/myself in a victim state, where someone else can MAKE me experience something, and so I get frustrated, hate, angry, irritated, name it all towards that person, and so in essence saying, YOU made me experience that, you are to blame, you made me do it, not taking full responsibility for the fact that what I experience and that comes up within ME is inherently mine/ours, as it came from within self/me and nowhere else, the other person, people simply showed me what exist within me already, which is the point I must deal with, stop and change.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the LIVING and acting of blame within myself, my environment and how I conduct myself daily within who I am.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize how LIVING blame isn’t a conscious decision, but rather a living action in my patterns and habits, where I live in a consistent state of blaming.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that to be in a MOOD is a living form of blame. Where I will live in a mood, how I feel, towards my environment as if I am saying/telling my environment YOU are the problem, LOOK how I am experiencing myself, and so within this living action dictate my day, my time, my environment to be that of being against me, attacking me, not working for me, nothing is right, placing myself in a consistent state of being a victim within myself.
I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that as long as I am moved/directed by my environment in ways that places me in a mood, a reaction, a friction within me, that I am within a BLAMING personality, where I am literally walking around, waiting for something to activate me to react towards, to go into a state of blaming, being angry at someone or something, feeling that I am not considered or taken into account, like whatever is happening has always happened and at this point I am not the problem anymore but everyone else is, and so access that mind set where I start attacking my environment, the people, the things, the circumstances and making everything a problem outside of me, not seeing and realizing that it all comes from within me and I am forcing what exist within me onto my environment as blame, instead of seeing, OK, this is a repeating pattern, or something that keeps happening, and what is the coincidence that it always happens with ME, I must obviously be the point of origin and need to look at what I must change and take responsibility for, take action for in a directive way that correct and aligns points to what is best for all, such as communicate, talk, find practical solutions and come to agreements.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use blame as a way to justify my actions, my responses, my movements as my habits and patterns that I am struggling with to change, instead of admitting what I am struggling with and changing that part.
I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to ASK for help due to feeling that I am all alone, that I have no one that can understand me or give me the right guidance, and so already go into BLAME, where I blame everyone else for not understanding me, not seeing me, not being able to support me if I need support in the right way, and so already enhance a cycle that will never end unless I end it, till i stand up from it and take self-responsibility, as I see and realize that within such a cycle, dis-empower EVERYONE and myself and so make nothing possible for myself or anyone, except to be LAME.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT see and realize how deep BLAME goes, where I will LIVE blame in such a way that I can not even see it, I am it, it is me as a living entity and I can reason and justify myself as blame to such an extent that I can make myself and other believe that what I am saying is TRUTH, as I will take common points of self-victimization that I know exist within myself and others and so use it to create a massive bubble of blame, where the problems in my life and their lives suddenly are external, it suddenly is outside of themselves and so it must be true, because look, we can all agree on it, and so within this, the self interest that I gain is simple, to not have to change who I am, I may remain the same and in my bubble of being victim, where I do not have to really do any work, self work, where I do not have to focus on WHO I AM, as I have now externalized the problem to such an extent that to even try and now move back inwards it will seem as if I am betraying everyone else, and even feel so for myself.
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