Day 489 – inherently faulty



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for not processing information effectively.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the fault lies inherently within me for why I cannot process information effectively.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that I as LIFE with proper instruction have unlimited potential including effective information processing

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that with proper instruction was missing in my formative years leading to ineffective information processing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that within believing that I am inherently faulty that I have to redeem myself infinitely.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have tried and attempted to redeem myself with much pain and strain cause there is nothing to redeem, as I see and realize that I have been trying to fix something which was never broken.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make this point personal and thus to take this point personal, seeing and realizing that it could never have been personal and never will be as it isn’t a matter of who I am as LIFE but simply a point of what was put into me as my education in my formative years.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that those around me were fooled by the exact same perception and that they like me did not know any better as they to lacked proper instruction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try and disproof those around me about their perception of me but within this actually confirming and validating that there is something wrong with me, something faulty that needs to be fixed, because I am still working with the same frame work.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have created a negatively charged relationship towards myself and to have made it my purpose in life to make sure that others have a positively charged relationship towards me, to compensate the negatively charged relationship I have towards myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed this decision to be the starting point in everything I see and do where I forever see myself situation and environment in terms of how I can score positive relationships within this completely lose touch with reality and how things actually physically move.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to assume that the relationship I have towards myself is a relationship people have towards m, and that I thus have to take special action to flip the relationship into the positive and thus in all my relationships I have something to make up for.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize how in my faulty perception of reality I set myself up to achieve the impossible and only ever set myself up to fail and where after so many consecutive failures I start to believe that there is really no hope for me and that I will be forever faulty/not enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have focused on fixing the perception of others towards me without looking or focusing what about me needs to change where I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to assess the origin of my own self relationship and take the steps to correct what is causing the inefficiency within my life, and thus correct my distorted self-perception.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am inherently faulty and that this is absolute and unchangeable in every way.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to forgive myself for misinterpreting my distorted self-perception

I see and realize that I am inherently whole

I see and realize that I have wasted my life chasing self-redemption when there was nothing to be redeemed.

I see and realize that it is now up to me to correct my instructions and to ask for assistance and support when I see that I need it to correct and re configure my instructions to one that is best for me, that is best for all life.

I commit myself to when and as I see/feel/experience the urge to create a positive relation/moment to stop, breathe and re assess my starting point, am I trying to redeem myself and thus further ingraining the self-belief that something is wrong with me? So I stop, I let go, as I see and realize that this construct does not serve me and it will only further diminish myself and my relationship towards myself.

I commit myself to when and as I face a challenge and access an energy of giving up to stop and breath, I see and realize where this pattern comes from and that it is based on misinformation, I move myself out of the energy and assess what is physically here and what is physically necessary for me to do to walk through the challenge.

I see and realize that I have created a very strong self-belief around these energies and pattern where I belief them to be so me and so real that it might sometimes be hard to remind myself that this is not me and not who I am and thus I commit myself to give myself patience in correcting myself relationship within dropping the self-belief and remind myself that it is entirely possible for me to walk out and beyond this pattern as I have walked out and beyond other patterns before. I acknowledge myself potential and I do not accept and allow myself to give up on myself or to settle for anything less than what I know I can be and live.

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