Showing posts with label awareness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label awareness. Show all posts

Temptation, I can't resist - Day 585

Thou shall not lead me into temptation is something that I have been looking at within my life. This temptation point is something that we all must consider in our lives in a MUCH deeper dimension.
Most of us think of temptation as something sinful, like I am led into temptation by another women and then I have sex with her and cheated on my partner – or I am at a party and my friend are using drugs and so I am led into temptation and I also took some drugs.

YET – we are missing the biggest picture of where temptation actually fucks us all over on a daily basis, and this temptation isn’t coming from someone else influencing us, anything that can temp us is a inherent temptation and thus we must deal with it, but how we are LIVING temptation on a daily basis is something hidden in plain sight. Let me explain.

Who you are is a Temptation within all its dimensions – are your LIFE or are you SYSTEM, system is what is HERE currently, that which we see all the time, the advertisements on billboards or TV or on the Radio is the Small temptations compared to the LIVING temptation as what we do that stems from who we are. the real temptation is US and our personal living that is shined onto the world.

a small example:

So Coca Cola advertises a Soda, it is tempting you, it is there on a board, you see it, you might even just see it indirectly, but it looks so good, the colors on the board, the words that create a good feeling, a positive feeling, It might say something like, Thirst quenching in the Summer with Friends and a person is holding up a coke bottle in his hands and drinking it while somehow smiling – you now MAKE the decision to sometime during your day, or even in a week to go and buy a coke, you Buy this coke and you now have it in your hands, you as a Person, a human being that is the reflection of all other humans beings as example regardless of what you think or believe of yourself, you are a Model in every breathe, you walk with this coke, you have identified yourself as a coke drinker, you walk with Pride with this coke in the streets, or at your home you have this coke in your fridge where your friends see this coke, or family, and to you it is all “normal” – but one thing isn’t considered, this is YOU leading everyone else into temptation that YOU have a personal responsibility to that lives with you, that sees you, that identifies with you, so you are now a person leading other into temptation – Because people are weak minded (it is evident all around us), their minds are not their own, they are influenced JUST like how you were/are and ME, and so the cycle of temptation keep on going in circles. And this is what keeps the system alive, moving, going, people buying and becoming tempted all the time by everything, especially if you see your fellow "responsible" humans doing it, is by “referral” and what I simply call temptation.

Take another example – when someone shares a video on a social network that is of Kittens, you are tempted, you must click on it, then you feel you must share it, so now you are deliberately tempting everyone else to also spend their time on this video, you are a cause in the chain of what people start seeing and believing as being important, worth it, spending time on, doing. It seems innocent. But isn’t that were the greatest evil can take its cover? Unnoticed, blanketed in something that seem to not have any effect on life? The small things, the detail – there is literally a saying that says, the devil is in the detail.

Once we see and realize that we are Temples of temptation that advertise our religions of ourselves and thus tempting others to live and do the same, we can really start considering everything we do and checking ourselves. This is not to judge a point, this is not to be positive or negative about what is here in this world, it is to become aware of when we do something, what are the consequential outflows of our actions that we are not considering at all, how are we Tempting and LEADING others into temptation, yes we all must be self-responsible, but then we must start living that and rather lead others into the temptation of becoming self-responsible, not keep doing what we have always done and justify our actions with, but they are responsible for themselves, we are NOT yet self-responsible, not to mention even responsible human beings, we are pre-programmed humans, copies that simply do what we see, and specifically what we have been programmed to do as children, of which we have NO memory or idea what is there inside of us.

For example, those that do follow my blogs and what I write, see how you have created already an Image, idea, placed me as a temptation within your mind towards a certain point in life, a representation in your own life ( I know this because I know I do the same), now let’s say I stop everything I am doing right now as standing up for life, walking openly my process with Desteni as a Destonian, exposing myself and what I do and walk, Standing for Equality for all life, common sense, practicality, self-forgiveness, what temptation would that create within everyone that has known me for years, that has read my blogs, seen my vlogs, my hangouts, what I share and stand for?
That everyone else can do the same, perhaps not now immediately with me, but in a year or two, those that stand with will be like, well Gian did it, so why not me. This example goes for those that “know” me. But you can take this to your own life and see it for yourself. I use this extreme example to show, that it happens all the time, we are led into temptation and we are LEADING others into temptation through every single action, word, thing we do in this world all the time, is it best for all life or NOT, OR is it mind based habits, patterns that direct us as our thoughts and feelings and emotions that is done within absolute dishonor towards LIFE and of inequality and only self-indulgence, which is in short ignorance and thus tempting EVERYONE else to do the same.
Take a look at the word temptation and the implications it has in a literal sense on your direct and indirect reality, and we will see the cause of our problems much more. In everything you DO. Lets rather TEMPT the world to be that which is best for all life, for equality, for real change, and this must start with ourselves, we can tempt those around us to want to JOIN equality, self forgiveness, to want to remove brainwashing and mind-control, to become CO-Creators of life and to rebirth ourselves as LIFE. till we are all FREE and temptation can not effect anyone as we all will stand as Creators, equals, full self-responsibility in awareness of LIFE.

and just to clarify, this is about taking it BACK to SELF, not to BLAME anything or anyone, that's actually tempting others to then do the same and so no one ever stands up and we all just blame and become lame.

Drinking
Smoking
Drugs
Candy
Partying
buying plastic bags
supporting big corporations instead of local Markets/people
indulging in entertainment
Playing games a Lot
watching TV a lot
sitting and doing nothing a lot
gambling
only focusing on personal relationships
mind on sex all the time
stress about survival
nagging
complaining
throwing rubbish out the car window
neglecting pets
indulging in pets
painting
building
activism
being stupid
joking all the time
writing blogs on world problems and solutions
making vlogs on world problems and solutions
what you share on social networks
where you like things all over the internet,
where you spend most of your time
the cloths you wear
how you wear your cloths
the face you pull mostly
the words you speak
the behaviors you have
the patterns you live daily

I can write down everything in existence here, literally, the question must always be, is it best for all LIFE, is it practical, is it self-honest (to develop self-honesty one must apply a LOT of self-forgiveness on all points) can your LIFE style be lived by every single human being on earth and what will the outcome of earth be then?

Thou Shall not lead me into temptation = the MIND shall not lead me into temptation to LIVE out the mind and self-interest as the mind is MY tool and not ME, I will stand and BE the directive principle and the Authority of ME, thus I WILL myself to be AWARE of me and what is HERE within all dimensions to stand as the solution one and equal to the problem that is here, and live it in each breathe.

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Day 500 – world change – Donate your click/like/share a day




There is only one way to change this world and to bring about real change. This change has to be what is best for all life, literally in reverse of what we are living now, not the opposite – In reverse. There is a major difference.

And there is only ONE group in this world that is promoting this change, there is only a few, literally a very small amount of people on this planet that is actually actively in awareness walking a personal process of change within them to bring about and promote this change., through designing and developing many systems/programs/courses/support/education and do much more to do exactly that, bring real change that is best for all.

To see more about this group check out Desteni,org and all the platforms that are available and that has been researched and developed over a very long period of time.

Now this group, the people and what we are promoting and living is available for ALL to see and participate within.

The bare minimum that a person can do to help motivate this change in the world is – first itrequires a person in front of a computer/smart-phone/tablet or any similar gaged with a mouse or a finger that clicks LIKE and SHARE (in other words anyone almost anywhere with internet lol)– this is what brings about change in the modern world, this is how the humans mind work currently and how information is “voted” for and what gets to be promoted (pro means FOR).

To do a little bit more is to participate within the DIP (Desteni I process) LITE course – which is an absolutely free course of self-development and understanding the surface, basics of this reality and how each one of us create our own realities and thus the whole – with another person giving their time to walk this with you for FREE, and it requires your time for literally 10min a day to do a lesson, depends on your typing skills of course, but ten to twenty minutes is nothing.

Then to do more – one can start participating on the Desteni Forums, reading the countless documents and writings/information that are available there, self-educate and self-introspect into one’s LIFE and reality,. This is till on bare minimum efforts to bring about change in this world (for those that has limited time), believe it or not, this is how it is done, small steps, small things, such as just a click of a mouse – voting and PRO – moting (not muting).

Imagine every single famous singer or actor or TV show or every billionaires or any government or movement that is abuse of LIFE is currently here because those that do not promote what is best for all life, is promoting all the abuse that is here by simply clicking and liking what is accepted by society, not nessasarely though a PC or with a mouse, but by turning on your Radio or TV, or buying a magazine, or a product, and they get so many clicks and likes and shares that finding anything relevant or of substance, that is best for all life, is almost impossible.

Can you donate your click/like/share a day to what is best for all life? No matter how busy you are. The few that is doing the work, will handle the work. We need thousands to push it and to make it viral. Let’s make what is best for all life viral, even if you can only donate clicks a day – those that can do more, do so – we welcome what is best for all LIFE anytime.

Day 498 – slowing down – the way of the turtle




I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider slowing down during my day.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wake up in the morning with a rush inside of me, a rush in the fear of not getting to everything that I need to do, or believe I need to do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use energy to manipulate myself into movement to get to everything that I need to do, or believe that I need to do.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that I use energy to create a rush within me to manipulate me to move myself to get things done, seeing and realizing that this manipulation that is driven by fear is a form of resistance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT see and realize that when I am within energy that is of fear/anxiety/stress that I am using these energies to manipulate me into moving and doing what I need to do.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that the reason for this energy manipulation is because I have a resistance to what I need to do, and thus I use force such as fear to rush me to do it, NOT seeing and realizing that the rush within me to move me is showing me a point where I haven’t corrected my relationship towards something within my reality within me, the nature of the relationship.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rush myself within all the points in my reality where I have established a relationship within me of a “need to do it” – and thus the relationship is against me and what I want to do, and so create friction, where I have made it about what I do instead of who I am within what I do, thus using energy as a force to force me to do it, creating a rush, so that I can rush through it and just get it over with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Keep myself within this rush mode, never slowing down to actually have time, or a moment to check myself, who I am within the moment and why I am experiencing myself the way I am in each breath and to re align it, to change my relationships in my reality within me.

I thus forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that within slowing down I am able to actually see what is here within using breathing as a grounding tool/earthing myself, where I can slow everything down and catch the thoughts and energies that is directing me, and to take direction/authority of me and change my relationship within myself within/towards what I am doing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear slowing down will make me lose time and not get to everything.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect slowing down within and without in my reality that I will not be productive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect negative opinions/believes/ideas to slowing down and being slow within my reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I slow down I will be late for something,, seeing and realizing that this is an irrational fear as all fear is irrational, as slowing down within me can be present at all times, even if I am running, and that is the point of slowing down I need to focus on, and to not miss inform myself based on ideas/opinions/believes but to remain practical in a living manner, but to always check that I am quit within me and still like water.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Fear facing myself when moving slow as who I am within all relationships within me and thus my reality, as I know moving slow will give me time to see and to get real and make real changes that are being avoided within myself and outside of myself by moving fast within me and thus outside of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to run away from myself and my reality by living fast, I commit myself to always check myself and to slow down and take a breath and keep breathing, to take a slow phase within me and to stop the abusive patterns that isn’t best for me or for all, and to change these patterns by bringing my awareness to them and to be direct with myself.

Day 475 – Where is my Life Force?




Tonight I started writing this blog from a negative point of view, I did not slow down and I did not breathe to even notice what I was doing automatically. So I did slow down and I did breathe, I took that step after I did not take it, I deleted what I have already written and I really took a look at what am I doing right now, who am I within my mind at this moment? I noticed I was in a negative judgmental state about myself.

It is, as if every time I am assessing myself in the present moment I do so by taking my entire life, my entire past, but only all of that which is negative and bring it HERE and I place judgment onto myself, and then from within doing so I am actually placing this mountain on my shoulders, and then after I have done that I now feel I have enough to write about, I mean just LOOK at all the things wrong with me. Now I have good writing material.

I wanted to write about where is my life force – and tonight I want to write about where my life force is, I am going to write about me and my life force, instead of me and nagging about where is it, why do I not have it – because I am actually looking at it that way within my mind, so that is all that I can see, ignoring ALL my of me, denying myself as LIFE force here.

I am here, regardless of my form, I am here, in living or death, I am here, I am the life that surrounds me and that I am, I am not separate from anything here, the force of LIFE is who I am. I have not yet realized this or lived it at all, yet I am pushing myself within a process of rebirth, and as we know giving birth is a though and painful thing, taking acre of a baby can also be very hard. Yet in time, in breathe it is done eventually, we don’t know when – but I am making peach within the fact that it will be done I simply continue pushing till it’s done.

Pushing with the flow and directing the flow, not pushing as in forcing anything, to force something as I have been shown is to go against what is here and works at this moment and will only end up harming and breaking.

I have been pushing myself for the past few weeks beyond limited thinking patterns that has been conditioned onto me or by me, about how I must act or behave within or about certain topics or scenarios or events, and I have taken myself into the point of creation. Let me give an example.

Three nights ago I did not get much sleep at all, due to Cesar (my son) not sleeping well during the night due to teething and going through a lot of pain, my wife did not get much sleep either, even less than me, yet the next day I had to go to work – so in the morning I woke up very tired and a bit late, within this I felt stress coming up within me as I had to be at the office already for our usual morning meeting – this was me following my usual thinking pattern and how I must experience myself within it all.

As I go to the office I sat down and I had to wait for the others to arrive, so it turned out I wasn’t the latest – in that time I just sat there and breathed, in the moment of breathing I took my entire day within me and I could already see how it was playing out, me getting tired and feeling shitty all day, not being able to focus or take in all the required information and act upon it.

Within seeing this I decided that it isn’t necessary, because I can see it it means I can change it, I decided that I will instead experience myself differently, in fact I will decide for the rest of the day how I experience myself – thank you very much, and this did not mean that I now have to avoid or ignore or sidestep certain people, it meant that I took the responsibility of how I experience myself within me and I made it my own, as it is.

So during the day my situation changes, people change and where I am change and usually all these changes influence how I experience myself, in other words how much life force I have, because I have connected life force to how I experience myself. And every time thing change I would notice how I go into the reconditioned thinking patterns and experiences, but I made the decision to decide how I experience myself, so each time I took the moment and I decided for myself.

Eventually the day turned out okay and that night I was only able to go to bed at 12:30 pm, because I did not start my day off with a memory of the night before or let it influence my day or who I am, I stood in each moment new and breathing, even if the predetermined thinking took over for a while I eventually moved and directed myself out and stood as my own directive principle.

I am still doing this within all areas of my life, till I stand as the only thing moving me.

For instance – I make an agreement with myself – when I go home I do not turn up at home tired, I am alive and awake to participate with what is at home, and this agreement has been quite supportive and how I participate within/during my days, because it makes me re-evaluate what I am participating within as who I am, is it the mind or is it HERE as the life force that I am.

The Desteni of Living - My Declaration of Principle






1.       Realising and living my utmost potential

2.       Living by the principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all

3.       Living by the principle of self honesty – to ensure I am pure in thought, word and deed: that my within and without is equal and one. Who I am within is who I am without and vice-versa

4.       Self Purification through Writing, Self Forgiveness and Self Application – the action of realising I am responsible for my own thoughts, words and deeds, to forgive myself for transgressions and change myself to ensure I take responsibility for who, what and how I am and through this know that I can trust myself to always be honest with me and so others

5.       Living the principle of Self Responsibility – realising only I am responsible for what I accept and allow inside of me, my relationships and my outside world and so with this responsibility: only I have the power and ability to change that which I see is compromising who I am, what I live and how this affects others

6.       Realising that who I am in thought, word and deed affects not only myself – but others as well and so with Self Responsibility in thought, word and deed – I take responsibility for myself and so my relationships to be Self Aware in every moment  and live in such a way that is best for me and so others as well

7.       Living the Principle of Self Awareness – to be aware, to see, to recognize my own thoughts and Mind, to be self honest to the extent where I can take responsibility for when I see my thoughts / Mind is not what is best for me / others and commit to immediately take responsibility and change for myself and so for others

8.       With taking responsibility for myself, becoming aware of myself – take responsibility and become aware of others in my life, to assist and support them as I am assisting and supporting myself – to give as you would like to receive and do the extra bit every day to see where I can contribute to other’s lives and so my own

9.       Living the principle of self trust – as I commit myself to remain constant in my living of self honesty, self responsibility and self awareness, I stand as an unbending trust that I always in all ways know who I am no matter what I face and that in this I know, as proven in the constancy of my living that I will always honour and stand by what is best for all and so best for me

10.    Making Love Visible – through me not accepting/allowing anything less than my utmost potential, I support those in my life to reach their utmost potential, to love them as I have shown love to myself by gifting to me my utmost potential, the best life/living experience and show others as I have shown myself what it means to LIVE

11.    No one can save you, save yourself – the realisation that the tools and principles of Desteni is the guide, but I must walk the path myself. We are here to assist and support each other in this process from Consciousness to Awareness/LIFE and what it means to live – but the process itself, where you are alone with yourself in your own Mind: is walked alone

12.    Not waiting for anything or anyone to take responsibility for me and this world – but that I realise I have created who and how I am in this moment, therefore I have the responsibility to change who and how I am and so the realisation that we as a collective created how and what this world is today and so it is the responsibility of the collective to change how and what this world is today

13.    Honouring the life in each person, animal – everything from the great to the small of earth, that we expand our awareness and responsibility to creating the best possible life for everyone and everything and so ourselves

14.    Relationships as Agreements: individuals coming together using agreements as a platform to one-on-one expand, grow and develop as individuals in life and living to support/assist each other unconditionally to reach their utmost potential where the agreement is a coming together of individuals understanding what it means to stand as equals and to stand as one

15.    Sex as Self Expression – where sex is an united expression between individuals in honour, respect, consideration and regard of each other as equals, two physical bodies uniting in equality and oneness – a merging of two equals as one physically.

16.    Realising that by the virtue of me being in this world – my responsibility does not only extend to my own Mind / my own Life, but to the minds and lives of everything and everyone of this earth and so my commitment is to extend this awareness to all of humanity to work together and live together to make this world heaven on earth for ourselves and the generations to come

17.    I must in my thoughts, words and deeds – but most importantly in my living actions, become a living example for others in my world that is noticeable and visible when it comes to the potential of a person to change themselves and so change their world. So that more people can realise how we can change this world, by standing united in our self change within the principle of what is best for all to bring heaven to earth

18.    I am the change I want to see in me and my world – to bring heaven to earth is to bring into being, into living the LIVING PROOF of a PRACTICAL HEAVEN that can be seen and heard in our actions and words. We are the Living Heaven that must come into creation in this living world.

19.    Through purifying my thoughts, words and deeds – my inner becomes my outer, so I bring into creation me as heaven into earth, realising it is not enough to ‘see the change / be the change’ – for change to become REAL it must be a constant, consistent living of me through the words I speak and the actions I live visible and noticeable to all in every moment of breath

20.    Realising that my physical body is my temple – my physical body is the living flesh through which and in which I will bring into being and create / manifest heaven on earth as me in my thoughts, words and deeds and so I honour, respect and regard – nurture and support my physical body as I would nurture and support me as equals: my body is me

21.    We are the change in ourselves and this world we have been waiting for: and so I commit to dedicate myself and my life for each one as all to realise this, as nothing will change if we don’t change in all that we are, within and without

22.    The realisation that for me to be able to change myself in thought, word and deed to the most effective living being that I can be and become – I first have to ‘know thyself’ and so commit myself to investigate, introspect and understand how I became who I am today, to prepare the road before me into self creation of a responsible, aware, self honest and trustworthy person for myself and so for all

23.    The realisation that for me to be able to contribute to change in this world – I have to get to ‘know thyself’ as this world and so commit myself to research, investigate and introspect the inner and outer workings of this world and align the systems of today to present and give the best possible life for all on Earth - See more at: http://activistsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/05/day-532-desteni-of-living-my.html#sthash.j3m9GKsT.dpuf

Day 223 – Resistance to Learn from others.

I have had this Idea/Belief of myself that I must learn and discover and find things out for myself, I do this because I fear that if I learn it from someone I will only prove to myself that I can’t learn it myself, I am incapable of seeing what the other person is already seeing.

Thus I have created a resistance within me towards reading/ listening and learning from others, I have created a mental state of mind within myself where if I am learning form someone else through listening to them - and what they say makes complete sense (common sense) I only judge myself the whole time as being less than the other person.

When I do listen to someone through talking or reading their blogs, I feel that what I am reading cannot be taken serious because I did not get to those points all on my own, so I have learned to only use myself as cross reference within this world, which is pretty dangerous considering the implications of doing that.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist reading other peoples blogs within the belief that I cannot learn from them because I must and can only learn from myself or anything I do learn from others are completely useless.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear reading what others have to say and to learn from that within the fear of that I will not know what they are saying is correct or not as I haven’t walked all the points for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself as being more and different from others and so fear that when I read their blogs I will not understand it and if it is right or not and that the material can be trusted, seeing and realizing that this is indicating to me that I am not clear within points in my life which I have been postponing to learn from others as I have the belief that I must learn it myself or it will not be real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear learning from others as I fear that what I will learn from them will and cannot be real as I haven’t learned it myself, experienced it for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must experience something for it to be real, giving away my ability within using common sense and being self honest as I now rely on experience to teach me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wait for experience so that I can learn, seeing and realizing that waiting for experience is like waiting for a meteorite to fall on my head so that I can learn to always check what’s happening, seeing and realizing all it really takes is some common sense and self honesty and living in awareness in and as breathe and that experience isn’t required.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist reading and learning from others as I fear that if I learn or realize something from their blogs/vlogs that they will take away my opportunity to learn and experience it for myself. Seeing and realizing that this is me living in separation of others and not embracing others as me and thus walking the process together one and equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that I am one being/one human and for me to wait to learn from experience will take millions of lives as there are millions of ways to learn even just one point, and thus it is to keep it simple, breath and be aware as all life within oneness and equality – thus seeing and realizing since we are billions of people on earth we can all learn from each other and make the process quicker and more sufficient for all to not to have to suffer through each and every fucking experience there can be/imagined.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Limit myself within constricting myself within learning from others within equality and oneness as me within the idea of separation.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself resist reading a blog to stop and breathe and to read the blog and to see why I resisted and if it is real or not, obviously it is never real that is the point, the resistance isn’t towards anything real, it is a self created limitation that one accept and allowed within self according to ideas/opinions/beliefs of the mind as energy movement within what you like or dislike, it is like perfect brainwashing and mind control.

I commit myself to breathe and read others blogs when and as I have the time and to watch the vlogs, to see if I am clear and that I am standing one and equal as the other being and to stop all forms of limitation such as the beliefs/ideas of separation that only create fear and to walk the process as the other as myself one and usual to be able to stand within all points of Life as that which is best for all life in all ways.

Day 150 – Living Commitment – Day 21 of 21 – False Image Stability Final.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to focus so much on breathing that I started to focus on my breathing as the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make my breathing limited to a certain idea of breathing where I only breathe and do not live HERE in and as the physical where my breathe expands into al that is here as awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when I focus on my breathing within in me I compromise myself within interacting in my reality as the breathing becomes a Thought within me where I breathe in reaction to a thought.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I have made breathing an obsession where I breathe as the mind instead of breathing HERE as all that is here as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when I walk around in my day to focus so much on breathing that I am not aware as my breath as all that is here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that when and as I make breathing my only focus then I cannot interact or be aware of LIFE HERE as breath as the breathe becomes internal instead of expanding me as life in each breathe.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to breathe as a mind awareness instead of a physical one and equal breathe here.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that I have created a breathing character as the mind, where I play the role of "I am focusing on breathing now" and that this role becomes the main characters only role and thus I see and realize I have trapped myself/limited myself to only play this role of "breathing" instead of breathing in fact here as a living expression of life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make breathing role I must play, instead of breathing here as the physical naturally.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be so in fear of not breathing and having thoughts that I have become breath obsessed and within this literally only internalize my reality instead of expanding me in each breath as LIE here, where my in breathe is bring all LIFE here and my out breathe is me expanding myself into and as all LIFE one and equal.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that when I focus on my breath internally I am only validating the breathe as having to work on the internal reality and thus never truly expand as LIFE as what is here in and as the physical in awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to focus my breathe only on breathing through mind possessions and internal energies and thoughts and stopping them, and through only doing this I have programmed and patterned my breathe to only function for this reason and so I will only breathe to work on the internal reality and never become aware of what is here as all life as I train my breathe to not be expansive but only limited to working with the mind.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that I have for so long focused on breathing just WITHIN me that my breath has become a inner reality anticipating the next inner conflict, and thus I see and realize that I have only been breathing and literally trained my breathe to only anticipate the mind and the energetic experiences, instead of moving from the mind as the breathe expanding me here as life as the physical where the breath is not longer subject to only be a function of working through mind fucks, but to be here as LIFE where a mind fuck is simply a breathe to stop.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that as I walk everyday all day only breathing to get through points that I am only telling my body that I am breathing only to work through the same patterns every day, instead of training my breathe HERE out of the mind in and as the physical in actual awareness of life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compromise my breathe through being so focused on stopping my inner reality that I have not considered to actually breathe here as the physical reality, and thus the compromise is me breathing inward instead of outwards as all life only re-creating the inner reality as the breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect a negative energy experience to breathing as I have only used my breathe to work on stopping the mind and everything I have judged as the mind as negative and bad and wrong, and so I have also judged the breathing as a implication of I must be in the wrong now as I need to focus on breathing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect a judgment/experience to breathing that creates and generate fear and anxiety within me the whole time as I belief I am only now breathing because I am fucked or will be fucked or that I am bad, instead of breathing to actually in fact be here out of the mind and as the physical reality, where I am aware of everything here as me, that I can be aware of a fly on the wall.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself breathing only to generate inner experiences to stop and realize I am not breathing as breathing isn’t a focus on the mind as a mind focus and that breathing is breathing here as the physical.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself breathing to stop a thought and the thought does not stop here instantly, that I am not breathing but actually in breathe only focusing on the thought and thus keeping the thought here, as breathing is a physical act where a thought can come and simply in a single breath go, as the breathe is a breathe and not a focus on the thoughts/feeling/emotion.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself within a energetic experience of myself of emotion/feeling/thought and I am breathing to breathe through the experience and the experience isn’t stopping but continue, to see and realize for myself that my breathing is actually giving/participating in the experience as a mind breathing, and so to BREATH here as the physical where I breath all LIFE here and breathe myself our into life as life as to make that the actual focus of my breathing here.

Day 140 – Living Commitment – Day 12 of 21. Sit down and breathe.

When I sit down.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when I sit down immediately go into thoughts/thinking.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that when I sit down it is natural to go into thoughts and thinking.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect sitting down to “I must think”, instead of simply breathing, not realizing that as soon as I think or participate within thoughts I start creating things that isn’t here and that only fucks with my day.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Automatically go into thoughts and thinking when I sit down, within the belief that I must be thinking and having thoughts when I sit down just to show that I am “busy” and not simply relaxing and doing nothing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that when I sit down I must keep myself busy and distracted within the mind as thoughts/thinking otherwise I might seem like I am just relaxing and not doing anything but breathing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see “just breathing” as not being productive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that when I sit down I must have thoughts and think about shit in order to be/continue being productive, seeing and realizing that this is a creation or Consumerism where we are taught that we must always be productive and not simply live as breathing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that the only products” I get out of thinking and having thoughts are stress/fear/anxiety/tiredness/projections/desires and everything else that leads to me believing I must go do something after I sat down and spend money and be a good robot consumer as I was brainwashed to be as if it is the only way I can exist in this life.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that the thoughts I have in my mind and the typical thinking methods I have is exactly the same as a TV or Radio, and that it is constantly only motivating me to be a consumer in all parts of Capitalism, never realizing that I am here as Breathe always moving and talking and being busy as if that is the meaning of life.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that TV and Radio is inventions of the human as the mind as thoughts/thinking and that the TV and radio and all other media is but a manifestation of the mind, thus whenever I am sitting down or relaxing I am never really relaxing or stopping stress of fear I am simply creating it through the process of thinking and participating in thoughts as they are always from the past and projected into the future sending the body within the thinking/thought process back and forth in time putting the body under heaps of stress/anxiety causing all kinds of diseases and so create a world that is but on big disease for all.

I commit myself to when and as I sit down to breathe without any judgment of what is right or wrong but to simply breathe for myself here.

I commit myself to when and as I sit down to breathe and not be influenced by my environment to start thinking and back chatting and having thoughts, as I understand that it would simply proof to me I am a automatic robot if I do start thinking and having thought and back chat through environmental influences – thus confirming that I am simply a program that responds to input and thus being programmed by the environment.

I commit myself to when as and as I sit down to BREATH and not participate in thoughts/thinking as habit and as a automated thing, as I realize that only brainwashed and mind controlled people and machines have automated settings.

I commit myself to stop the TV and all forms of media within my head to stop the disease that the world has become and to rebirth myself as life as breathe as the physical so that I can be the cure that spreads as LIFE that is best for all LIFE.

Day 139 – Living Commitments – Day 11 of 21.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my own thoughts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I create each and every thought I have.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to victimize myself to the thoughts I have as if they are happening to me, seeing and realizing that within this I am giving away my power to stop the thoughts as me as the creator.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that all thoughts I have come from me.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that all thoughts is for the past, as they come from memories stored in the flesh in space and time and that I have accepted and allowed to consume my life and to keep me in the past and re-creating the past as I project them in my eyes in the present and the future, only ever seeing the past.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that every time I have a thought it is the past that I am projecting within me as a False image of reality and thus when I follow the thought I will end up only repeating the past, because my mind took the past and made it seem a bit better and thus I follow it only to find out it’s the same in reality and thus only always creating the past and thus Abusing myself and LIFE here on earth as I never learn and change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust thoughts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that thoughts are not real and cannot be trusted at all as they exist as an energetic experience within my mind and as a illusion re-presentation of reality and thus it cannot be trusted one bit as reality is obviously HERE and not in the MIND.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to FOOLISHLY belief that I can move and direct myself through using the mind that is energy based and that can change and will change every single second, where as the PHYSICAL is HERE and can be trusted with being here as it is stable and REAL and not energy based as the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust something such as the mind, not considering that within the mind anyone can make up ANYTHING they want anytime about anything, yet with this considered as being possible in the mind we still follow this same thing (the Mind) within making LIFE changing decisions, not seeing and realizing that it can and will change (the decision) anytime as the mind is energy based, based on how you feel and what information has been put into you, and because we belief that mind is who we are we accept and allow the energy to move and direct us like ROBOTS getting a quick upload on the mission, instead of being here Physically where no energy decides but breath and common sense always based on what is real as the physical that isn’t limited or enslaved to any form of energy such as thoughts/feelings/emotions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I have given all power to the mind as thoughts, as soon as I have a thought I immediately without question accept and allow it to decide for me how I will feel – either good or bad and then to actually direct my life according to that, how ridiculous it that – no free choice and no self will.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that as long as Humans give power to the mind as thoughts/feelings/emotions all abuse on earth will continue till life as we know it ends, as thoughts/feelings/emotions are the things that all EVIL has in common, as it does not matter if you are a lover or a rapist – both consist out of the same mixture of thoughts/feelings/emotions and thus as long as we accept and allow one though/feeling/emotion to exist we are accepting and allowing all of them to exist – RAPE/MURDER/CRUELTY name them all.

I commit myself to show that if all human being has to stop their mind and STOP thoughts and feeling and emotions – all abuse on earth will end, as everything we currently do is based on how we thing and feel – thus if people simple breathe and LIVE here in the physical as LIFE then there is no EVIL as evil only come from the mind where there is Secret.


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