Day 96 – Moving myself Moving the world. Part 2

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I start applying myself within moving myself moving the world as me one and equal such as picking up a book to read about economy, to have the though of seeing myself in the past starting to read a book and never finishing it or even getting to ten pages of the book and to then already have created a negative emotional experience towards reading a book, to then go into back chat in a reaction towards the thought of “ this book is thick, it has over 300 pages” – “I will only finish this book in a year”, “what is the use of doing this when I have to read so much to get informed to only be able to change the world after all the reading/studying is done in years... and to then connect reading a book with a negative energetic emotion in the present moment from my past experience and thus creating resistance to reading the book and thus reading the book with all of this back chat and resistance that will take me even longer and slower to read the book, I realize and understand how i Create the energetic emotional experience for myself through participating in the thought that comes up from memory as past experiences and to then have back chat about it and thus creating the consequences and so compromising myself, instead of breathing and remaining here in and as breathe stopping all thoughts/feeling/emotions and back  chat and have no connection to reading a book but simply reading it with breathe and no limitations or judgments, and thus giving to myself the complete and total freedom to learn and even enjoy myself while reading and learning. 
 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I start my day within moving myself within and as the physical reality within doing tasks and my responsibilities, to have the thoughts of rather doing something else that might have a more of an impact on the world in terms of changing the world, - and the then have the back chat of “here I go again, the same old stuff as yesterday, when will things move and change already” – and so create an energetic experience of feeling like nothing is moving, nothing is changing and to then go into a resistance of going about my day and feeling tired all day, as I created the experience through comparing my day today with yesterday as being the same, realizing that as long as I follow this pattern of thoughts and back chat everyday, I am creating everyday the same as yesterday and thus I am looping myself within that judgment and mind set, instead of seeing and realizing and understanding that everyday is new and I am doing new things every day just with consistency and discipline and thus I am moving myself and moving the world as myself through every step I take and every mouse click I make and every blog I write and every DIP lesson I do and every person I communicate with and that I am in fact doing the same thing everyday but with new things over and over again, and thus I am accumulating and changing the course of history with all those that is doing this with/as me. 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that everyday can only be the same as long as I judge it as that and thus I trap myself within everyday as my own judgment and to not see what the change is and that I am moving, and to take the simple movements for granted within the belief that it has no effect on world changing, not realizing and seeing that everyday is a new day with new things coming in and going out and thus everyday the clicks is getting more, the vlogs is getting more, the blogs is getting more, the message of world change with the Equal Money System and Desteni is moving wider and wider and deeper and deeper as we spread the message and the solutions and the common sense everyday with new yet the same information more and more and that this way the world can/will change for that which is best for all LIFE.

To be Continued.

Day 95 – Moving myself Moving the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when I see a problem within me or within the world that needs my attention to solve the problem, to go into thoughts of where I project myself in the future not solving the problems and where I am already not capable of solving the problems, and to then participate in back chat to support the thoughts such as “ I am to stupid to find a solution for this problem” “I am just one person what difference can I make” and to then go into an emotional energetic experience of depression/feeling down/in-capable/little.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the thoughts of where I see myself failing before I have even given it a try, realizing that within common sense and how the physical reality works I have no Idea of, if I will fail or not in the future even if I Do find the solutions, realizing that as I cannot predict the future from even now in a few seconds I cannot predict if I will fail within finding real solutions to the problems within me and the world, and thus I realize it is to stop the thoughts and to stop the Back chat that supports the mind illusions/thoughts that I give power and control over me to decide for me what I can and cannot do, realizing that I can decide and thus as i decide it is to start with myself to move myself in the direction of the solutions one step at a time till I have the solutions and to then actually apply the solutions within the principal of what is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I sit down and watch a documentary on what is happening in the world, to go into thoughts of where I see the past and what is here already created on earth and to then participate/go into back chat of “ the world is fucked and we fucked it up really bad” there is nothing we can do” the problem is to big to solve now” and to then go into a depression and a state of giving up within myself and what I am capable of doing, realizing that what is here is what we have created and so it is possible to fix it while we still have the chance, as everything moves in space and time and thus I have time to start IMMEDIATLY within applying myself to bring about real change to planet earth and what we have created as consequences for ourselves – equal money system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I see pictures of what we humans have done and IS doing to earth STILL, while everyone is well aware of what is happening and what WE ALL are doing and accepting and allowing daily to exist – to go into the thoughts of seeing people not changing where they will just shun away the solution that is presented to them and to then go into back chat that supports the thoughts to make them seem real of “ people are too dumb” people will never give up their fear and hope for a real solution” “ I am just one person and can not help all the people in the world to change” and to then go into a state of depression, giving up and feeling like just sending everything to shit as it is already going that way – realizing and understanding that this is all just in my mind and how all the other people out there that I am seeing as unable to change are experiencing themselves and that is why they are not changing, realizing that this is WHY I must start with myself, to be the example as the living example that it starts with one man/women and so each man/woman is one and thus if all the one’s come together we will truly have won and have a life that is best for all life in all ways, and thus I realize that I must move and direct myself in such specific detailed way and within consistency as an example of real change to move the world as me towards change.

To Be Continued.

Day 94 – The Fearful Character sits and waits P4

I commit myself to when and as I see a situation.scenario play out in front of me and/or somewhere else in the world, to take action in the moment to move and direct myself and to not give in to the thoughts of what I could be doing instead of take responsibility for the world and myself such as me instead watching TV or going out to the movies, or partying with friends or playing a PC game, and to not fall for my OWN trap within my back chat that of “ I do not need to do this, there are other people taking care of earth and me” or “I don't have to do anything, it is my choice” and to realize that this is the mind attempting to keep me enslaved and to not stand up, and to keep the fear/anxiety alive, just so that the mind can feel it is save and in control and okay, while the physical reality is clearly showing me that there is problems and needs attendance instantly and thus realizing that any form of postponement will only accumulate the problems/consequences that I will face equally with all life here on earth, and thus my fear/anxiety will in the end not at all be of any excuse in the face of life as I will be AWARE of every-time I deliberately made the decisions to rather go watch movies or party or TV and to not take self responsibility using fear/anxiety as an excuse and that I do not know how to do anything any ways – and thus realizing that I could/can use all the time I spend doing something else instead of taking responsibility to find out HOW in FACT I can change the world through starting with myself and investigating how the world and everything works so that I can change it as myself. 

I commit myself to when and as I see/find myself participating within back-chat of “ this is to much” I can not do this – to stop and realize that I am only talking to myself that way because of thoughts that I have of what else I could still be doing – such as seeing myself having a fun time laughing instead” or “playing video games all day long and not having a care in the world” – and to realize that it is in fact not to much, it is only through the mind participating in thoughts that is not HERE in the present moment and within back-chat that is internal Conversations CONning me with temptation and cunning words of deceptive reason and Justifications that is purely based on an energy feeling/emotion experience of the mind all based on SELF interest and NOT what is best for all LIFE and thus it is not real but an illusion that I desire to rather have, to not have to face the physical reality that is here in the present as the future I decide I create that includes all life all ways– realizing that the thoughts/feelings/emotions and back chat is but all pre-programmed in me of the past as experiences/memories and thus it is not real but the past, it is over, and if I want to relive the past over and over through not taking self responsibility for the future to come I will face great consequences that I created for myself, it is like driving for a cliff and you can see it but you enjoy driving fast to much to slow down And stop. Its all an energetic drive/experience and not what is real as LIFE as that which is currently being destroyed/mutilated/neglected/fucked up for consumerism and making money and thus I realize that it is this act of not taking self responsibility for myself but rather stay in fear/anxiety that all humans do with their own justifications and reasons that fucking up LIFE and thus I have to start with myself as I realize everyone has to start with themselves if we want to see any change before it is to late.

Day – 93 – The Fearful Character sits and waits P3

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when I am in a situation/scenario where I have to take responsibility, and the thought comes up of me rather being somewhere else where I do not have to face this situation, and to allow the back chat of “I can not do this, I have to much fear”- to not realize that I have to face the fear as what I have created myself as, as the character that plays out within the certain situations/scenarios through taking a stand through not giving into the thoughts/back chat that keeps the fear alive and validated, and to take responsibility in the moment, realizing that if it does not happen here and now I am giving the fear/anxiety power/permission to direct and control my life, where as I take self responsibility in the moment that is presented to me. I have the one opportunity to face myself as the character and to stop the fear and set myself free from the mind enslavement I have created for myself.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to when I am faced with certain events/scenarios in my life that I have judged as fearful/stressful in/as the past as memory, to decide to  direct me in/as my actions and ability to take self responsibility in the moment --  where I instead will bring up thoughts as pictures of the past as memories where I have preferred situations/scenarios and distract myself with a differentcharacter I can play instead as the fearful one, and then not take self responsibility and rather run and hide towards the memories/pictures/thoughts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when I have to take self responsibility for an event happening in my life to rather give into the thoughts of – I would rather be doing that followed by the back chat – “I do not like doing this, I do not have to do this, I have choice, this is my free will to not have to do this” and to realize that the moment that is here is also my free will/choice to take self responsibility and to not take self responsibility for the moment that is here and to rather give into the thoughts/back chat I am actually submitting myself to the past as the mind and to neglect the physical reality that is real and to instead give power to the illusion as the mind, proving that I do not yet have free will/choice as I could not make the free choice with my free will to take responsibility for the physical reality and what I/we have created and accepted and allowed to exist for all life. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when a situation is “here” in the moment to want/desire to give into the thoughts of escaping the situation/scenario where the thoughts would present a false image to me of/from the past as a preferred situation/scenario where I could rather be watching a movie or be laying on my bed, with Back-chat of false reason and justification in the attempt to manipulate me/myself why I do not have to take self responsibility for the scenario to not have to face the fear/anxiety as the character I exist as, and to rebirth myself in breath -- where the back chat will be that of leading me into temptation such as – “I could be outside sitting on the porch drinking coffee” – “I could rather be entertained with something/someone else rather than facing what is going on in reality” – and to realize that this pattern of thought/behavior is the behavior and thought pattern of the consumerism industry that exist today that is neglecting earth and all the inhabitants and only abusing life and why nothing is changing and only getting worse, and to stop and breathe and to face my reality in the moment of the scenario/event and to not postpone and take self responsibility and live the correction as that which is best for all life and to stop living as a character that only plays illusional roles in the mind and to instead breathe and face reality to fix what i/we have created as hell for all to a place that is best for all life – Equal Money for all.

To Be continued – Self commitment

Day 92 – The Fearful Character sits and waits P 2

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept and allow patterns in my life as normal and acceptable, realizing that it is to stop all patterns that isn’t best for all life as myself and to create new patterns in awareness that is best for all life in all ways, thus I am aware of the patterns and who I am within the patterns and thus I can direct and not be directed, and so manifest a world that is best for all life in all ways as myself.

I Forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the pattern of when I experience fear/anxiety as a negative energy built up as emotions within me, that was created/accepted/allowed from/through past experiences as memory to control and decide for me as the past as the emotional experience that I have connected to the certain events/scenarios how I will act and WHO I AM within such events situations and to not move/direct myself but to remain trapped within the emotional/negative energy charged experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trap myself within self created patterns of negative energetic emotional experiences of fear/anxiety through validating the experience through using past memories/experiences as the reasons/justifications to why I am trapped within my own fear/anxiety and not moving/directing myself and taking self responsibility.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use memory as past experiences as pictures within my mind trapped in time, as thoughts, to activate certain characters within me -  that I defined according to the past and created according to the events/scenarios and to take on the role of the characters and play out the character in the event/scenario as the past in the belief that the character is the only way of handling such events/scenarios, realizing that this is limited and part of the mind consciousness enslavement for me to not move and direct and take self responsibility for and as the physical and what I/we are creating on earth, realizing that as I accept and allow such patterns of when and as I see/am in events where I need to take action but instead play a character of being fearful/anxious as being overwhelmed by emotion within the justification of I do not know what to do as this is a “new” event/scenario happening, that I am giving permission to the rest of all human being to use such excuses/justification to not change the world with common sense as this acceptance and allowance is showing that we apparently need to be toughs/shows what common sense is, yet it is what is common to all life in all ways in the physical and thus the solution is the opposite of the problem, as the problem is not seeing/taking care of all life and the common interest of all life to live. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I give permission to characters such as the fearful/anxious character that I justify with/though saying that I did not know how to I did not have the knowledge and information to act and take self responsibility, that I am actually in fact saying to myself that with earth having more then half the planet with no education and even more then the half with no proper education that the earth and human race have no chance, I realize that I must stand as the solution as the living evidence that knowledge and information isn't needed to change self and or the world and that fear of changing the world is but a character we play to hide the fact that we can see with out having the “education” on the subject to change the world – what the problem is and if we can see the problem we obviously know the solution, and thus no education needed but people taking the steps of self responsibility and ending the character of fear/anxiety that only sits and waits, so we can get up and move and change ourselves and the world to that which is best for all life.

To Be Continued.

Day 91 – The fearful character sits and waits. P 1

I have this interesting pattern that I have accepted and allowed to exist within my world, and interestingly enough I have made this pattern justifiable, as if it makes common sense, yet it does not.

The pattern is  that when ever I experience fear or anxiety within me I tell myself, OK I am experiencing fear and thus I must not do this/that.

This came from previous past experiences where I would for instance have to do new things, like performing in a concert, as I perform in the concert I experience fear/anxiety, and so I feel that I fucked up, yes I dd make mistakes but I did not really fuck up as I made it sound in my head.

So I have connect this Idea/opinion/belief that when ever I experience fear towards something/doing something I must not/I can not take part because I have fear and the fear will only compromise and create fuck ups and me making mistakes, thus I can not be trusted because there is fear. 

So Now in my reality I have created this character as an illusion that when I see something needs to be said/done and I experience fear/anxiety I say to myself, ok I cant do anything I am in fear/anxiety and then I just sit there and wait till someone else do something because I am fearful/anxious and so if I had to help I would probably make it worse, I would only fuck things up.

And now today a situation came up where one of the dogs was experiencing some pain and weird behavior, I saw this happening and I just sat there, I did not move, I saw other people trying to help and do stuff But I could see even they needed help and support. And I just sat there.

I looked at the dog in pain and I saw within myself what I must do, but I experienced fear/anxiety – I had a thought coming up where I saw myself helping the dog and then only making it worse, either making the dog angry and I get bitten or I actually hurt the dog by accident trying to help – then the little character’s voice came in play in my mind talking and saying things, You are fearful, I am fearful and all my fears might come true if I help, it is best if I do not help because I have fear and my fear can come true. 

Then I realized this point I am writing about now, I stood up and I fucking moved myself, I was experiencing fear and anxiety still, but I did not allow it to direct me, I stood up in the fear and I walked through the fear through practically applying myself. 

The character that played out was pretty clear, the character used the point of not having knowledge and information on how to help a dog in the moment of need to submit me into - fear of helping, this is how this character plays its roles in all scenarios, using my own weakness against me to keep me weak, to not change, as I know myself and that I do not have a lot of knowledge and information on stuff in this world and as I accept and allow it as a weakness the character will continue to use it to get me to stay the same.

The Character is obviously me and I created the character for myself to protect my own self interest, staying save and not being the responsible one, not being the one fucking up, not being the one to blame, not being the one that made things worse, so I basically deliberately kept myself stupid all my life with all the opportunities in my world to read a book, to learn and to get informed, just so that I can always say, I did not know what to do so I did nothing.

and behind that there is a secret agenda, this is simply to protect self and self's own interests, and so we are all doing this daily and nothing is changing and just getting worse, because we fear making things worse that will have an influence on our own self interest - thus it is to realize we must move and direct ourselves to do what will benefit all self interest at the same time - and everyone's basic self interest is basic living needs, it is really simple so do not fear to take that step that will make you face fear, that will make you not wanting to do anything and just move and breathe. this is the equal money system as best for all life all self interest at the same time.

YET I am smart enough to see the problem and thus I am already equally responsible as everyone else on earth, because everyone can see the problems on earth, we all decide to not take responsibility for the points through educating ourselfs on all points so we can change it, but to choose to remain ignorant so that we can experience fear and use that as why we did not do anything. 

I am now faced with this character as me, as what I have created and accepted and allowed and I know it exist and why and how so I am not innocent and so no one else is innocent because as me everyone knows what they are doing. 

The problems are in our faces, just like with the dog situation, the dog was right in-front of me in pain and I sat and did nothing just because I experienced fear, and when I investigated the fear I realized I created it myself for a purpose – to not have to take responsibility because that will mean I admit I am responsible.

And I am responsible "even If I do not want to admit it", I am always responsible. And so are we ALL.

thus keeping ourselves in fear and paralyzed isn't going to help anyone or anything, it only makes it worse.  

To Be Continued..