Day 538 – The believe that what I know is always inferior to what others know

I have done hundreds of presentation in the past two years of my life, from one on one presentation to family presentations to doing presentations for dozens of people at a time. I have found within doing all of my presentations that I am confident, I know what I am talking about, my presentations are always mind blowing. But, this is because the information I am sharing with the people is something they are kind of familiar about, it is about education and learning and developing a child to reach their utmost potential within education and the education system that is here. This is easy, because it is accepted by everyone and within their vocabulary, thus their current accepted and allowed believes and ideas and opinions and the brainwashing of the system as the “normal”. So what happens when I go beyond that, outside of that? I have tested this many times, the results aren’t what one would think or believe. 

To give more context where I am coming from, I have to mention the following – I am part of a group/movement called Desteni, and I have been walking with this group/movement for the past seven years a fascinating journey, one that is most unexpected, many that read this will already know about all of this, many will not, so this is for those that doesn’t know, and to put it short, within this journey I have changed drastically in many ways. The person I used to be cannot be compared to who I am now. I have walked this journey within self-forgiveness and practically applying the corrections, developing self-honesty and common sense, where I do all of this within the principle of oneness and equality, as this is the principle of the universe and we are HERE as everything that exist, thus co-creators of LIFE in fact, we are responsible for what was, is and will come, by walking this Journey we remove all separation within ourselves and to stand one and equal as life to be able to take on FULL self-responsibility for what is here in all parts of life and to enable ourselves to in fact move and direct our realities and thus reality to change what is here to be what is best for all life, stopping abuse of life and creating heaven on earth – this is all written in a very short context – so please do not assume anything, to continue.

So basically walking this process with Desteni, it is my life, the process and re-birthing self as life and taking responsibility for myself as LIFE – and this means no matter where I go or what I do, I am always busy practicing what I learned and implementing what I have realized and testing out everything for myself and keeping what is best for all life, this does NOT mean I go around preaching to people about Desteni or what I have learned from Desteni, this does not mean I go around and make noise about a group or movement, this means WHO I AM is a living expression of what I have walked with the group/movement, this means over the years many things has become natural to me, it has become who I am, so I cannot suppress or just deny it, and thus I speak about it, I share my story naturally, when people ask me or tell me things that they see, I respond from my expression, within self-honesty and common sense, speaking from what is best for all life, this means taking all life into consideration and responding in equality to where each person is at, and always only what I have walked and realized for myself.

So obviously, EVERYONE I meet in this world belongs to a group or movement, may it be religious, and may it be just something “spiritual” or not, every person belongs to some group/movement, everyone has their Idea/believes/opinions coming from somewhere, so this sometimes create conflict and resistance within conversations.

What I have found as a reason is because what people are saying from religious groups, or from spiritual groups or other movements, comes from a very long line of history, so no matter how ridiculous or insane or non-sensical it may sound, it always is “right” – because it has been taken and seen as right for so long, and what I say or share or give perspective on coming from what I have learned and realized through walking my process with Desteni is so NEW, it is seen as just not acceptable, because it is so different – YET makes so much sense, and no one ever denied the common sense, it is always just a resistance or reaction.

In the past, I have given into these resistances and reactions, and actually for a while didn’t share or open up about me and what I stand by, just like how everyone else stand by something, no difference, just different in the message and the application, but I somehow gave power to the other peoples movements/groups and what they preach and say, as if it is more powerful and has more value and that it is more right, just because it is accepted by everyone with ease and comfort.

SO I realized an interesting point, why do people that is within other movements/groups as religion and spiritualism or just causes, so easily accepted each other being here and what they believe in and not resisted within what they say or preach? A side note, YES everyone has haters and people that goes against them, that’s kind of natural, but in general society, if a Christian and a Muslim or Atheist walk together in the same store, they are fine and KNOWING that what each one believe in is different and not the same, yet are okay, feeling some security, and that they are simply 100% okay with what they have as their group/movement within them, and they will preach and wear different cloths to show and display their groups/movements and they will with honor and pride share their principles and believes and everything that goes with it if asked. So the point that I had to investigate is why I am making what I am walking and living as weird and different within ME as and from my group Desteni, and thus creating the response from the outside world exactly what I am experiencing and expecting. And I came the one simple answer – FEAR, Fear of being different and not making it OKAY within me just like how ALL the other groups are doing it, and thus each group just respect each others believes so to say, sure there are global wars in the name of religion, but here in SA, everyone and every religion works together and live together, so I am coming from my reality/perspective as a cross-reference.

So I am applying what I live within what I am living to investigate my actions, where I feel I must keep myself secret and what I do, fear that what I have to say is less valuable or inferior to what others are saying and preaching, just because what they are saying or preaching has been here for thousands of years and so done within confidence.

I will write more on this point to come.

Day 96 – Moving myself Moving the world. Part 2

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I start applying myself within moving myself moving the world as me one and equal such as picking up a book to read about economy, to have the though of seeing myself in the past starting to read a book and never finishing it or even getting to ten pages of the book and to then already have created a negative emotional experience towards reading a book, to then go into back chat in a reaction towards the thought of “ this book is thick, it has over 300 pages” – “I will only finish this book in a year”, “what is the use of doing this when I have to read so much to get informed to only be able to change the world after all the reading/studying is done in years... and to then connect reading a book with a negative energetic emotion in the present moment from my past experience and thus creating resistance to reading the book and thus reading the book with all of this back chat and resistance that will take me even longer and slower to read the book, I realize and understand how i Create the energetic emotional experience for myself through participating in the thought that comes up from memory as past experiences and to then have back chat about it and thus creating the consequences and so compromising myself, instead of breathing and remaining here in and as breathe stopping all thoughts/feeling/emotions and back  chat and have no connection to reading a book but simply reading it with breathe and no limitations or judgments, and thus giving to myself the complete and total freedom to learn and even enjoy myself while reading and learning. 
 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I start my day within moving myself within and as the physical reality within doing tasks and my responsibilities, to have the thoughts of rather doing something else that might have a more of an impact on the world in terms of changing the world, - and the then have the back chat of “here I go again, the same old stuff as yesterday, when will things move and change already” – and so create an energetic experience of feeling like nothing is moving, nothing is changing and to then go into a resistance of going about my day and feeling tired all day, as I created the experience through comparing my day today with yesterday as being the same, realizing that as long as I follow this pattern of thoughts and back chat everyday, I am creating everyday the same as yesterday and thus I am looping myself within that judgment and mind set, instead of seeing and realizing and understanding that everyday is new and I am doing new things every day just with consistency and discipline and thus I am moving myself and moving the world as myself through every step I take and every mouse click I make and every blog I write and every DIP lesson I do and every person I communicate with and that I am in fact doing the same thing everyday but with new things over and over again, and thus I am accumulating and changing the course of history with all those that is doing this with/as me. 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that everyday can only be the same as long as I judge it as that and thus I trap myself within everyday as my own judgment and to not see what the change is and that I am moving, and to take the simple movements for granted within the belief that it has no effect on world changing, not realizing and seeing that everyday is a new day with new things coming in and going out and thus everyday the clicks is getting more, the vlogs is getting more, the blogs is getting more, the message of world change with the Equal Money System and Desteni is moving wider and wider and deeper and deeper as we spread the message and the solutions and the common sense everyday with new yet the same information more and more and that this way the world can/will change for that which is best for all LIFE.

To be Continued.