Day 213 – The Final frown Part 8.

I always have a frown Part 1
I always have a frown Part 2
I always have a frown Part 3
I always have a frown Part 4
I always have a frown Part 5
I always have a frown Part 6
I always have a frown Part 7

 I commit myself to when and as I see myself frowning to not judge the frown and to attach a positive or negative energy to it, but to instead question myself and why I am frowning.

I commit myself to when I question myself to why I am frowning to within self-honesty look at the point within common sense and to walk myself out of the mind pattern within and as breathing and to see what is here without judgment as the physical and to stop the mind from moving and directing my world.

I commit myself to when and as I frown to check myself if I am breathing or am I following brainwashing and mind control.

I commit myself to when and as I notice that I am frowning and was un successful of stopping the from in the first place to not judge myself and to instead breathe and forgive myself and correct myself.

I commit myself to when and as I frown and I cannot stop or breathe through the continues frown coming up to sit down and to write it out and see how I have created myself and why and what does this frown hold within it as the past and to through self-forgiveness set the past free so that I can life every breathe as a new life.

I commit myself to when and as I frown to check myself that I am aware of the frown in every moment as me and that the frown isn’t simply happening to me.

I commit myself to show that what I/people accept and allow as normal isn’t always normal as who we are currently is but a creation of brainwashing and mind control where the physical has been used to store the brainwashing and the mind control within out behaviours and patterns that we live as, as energy as the mind.

I commit myself to show through my own self investigation of all my physical behaviours and patterns that the human is indeed programmed and conditioned to the mind as energy and that we are enslaved by these behaviour’s and patterns that is so easily justified and given reasons as being natural and part of human nature when in fact it isn’t and simply how we are programmed by those that has gone before us.

I commit myself to educate myself through using the tools given to my by Desteni and the Desteni I process to remove all patterns and physical behavior that is mind enslavement as energy that keeps the human limited in self -interest and destroying all life for it and to set myself free as breath as life and to equally support and assist others as myself so that we can bring about a world that is Best for all life and end the consequences of self-interest as the mind and stop all abuse for all life one and equal through establishing the Equal Money System.

Day 212 – I always have a frown and Tiredness Part 7

Frowning at night – when it is late and I am tired I frown, the frown is when I “feel” tired, yet I have now discovered through my writing that the frown is most of the time “mind” – this mean that if the frown isn’t for any practical reason such as the sun or reflections into the eyes or from rain or anything physical having a physical cross-reference, I can see that the frown I have at night is surely from the mind as a believe/idea/opinion I have within my mind that is forcing the condition of frowning onto my face which then triggers the body into the believe/opinion/idea of that is must be tired due to the time and the day as being night.

And that I am not breathing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I access the believes/ideas/opinions within my mind about what time it is in relation to being night that that I access the physical condition of frowning which then makes my eyes tired and tells my body I must be tired, seeing and realizing that this is not real but simply a belief/idea opinion playing out as being real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I frown I get more tired but when I open my eyes I am here and breathing as I can only keep my eyes open through breathing and thus showing me that I wasn’t breathing and rather giving into the mind as limitation and conditioning.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I give permission ot the mind to fuck around with me through believes/ideas/opinions I have constructed and created within my past according to how I was raised to how life should be through not breathing and being here within and as the physical in real time as reality as breathe.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate myself to be tired through frowning.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself into making myself believe that I must be tired as I am frowning, using the frown as a reason as a self created evidence to use to excuse the excuse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blindly accept and allow conditions within and as the physical such as frowning as being valid reasons to why I am tired without questioning it and investigating it for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not breathe and rather give into the physical condition of frowning as being to attempting to not follow.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want/need/desire to give into the temptation of frowning and making myself tired.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want/need/desire to give into the temptation of frowning to have a reason a look a physical evidence that I must be tired as an excuse to go sleep.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want/need/desire to give into the temptation of frowning and forcing myself into the condition of being tired so that I can have physical evidence that is self created that I must sleep as a way to get away from reality and to just forget what is here and what requires my attention.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that me as the mind as energy want/need and desire for me as the physical as that which is real to be limited and to remain within limitation and social engineering as the believes/ideas/opinions to stop me from self realization and to stop the enslavement of energy and limitation as me as the mind and will always want to only achieve energy results as limitation for the sake of experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that all it takes is me breathing here in awareness and suddenly the frown lifts and the tiredness is also gone and thus it proves that the frown wasn’t real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be tempted to give into the frown and to activate the tiredness as it is the easy way to go, rather then breathing and disciplining myself as life one and equal here as the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see ways of having to frown upon such as the time and the belief that it is late and that I muse be tired.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give the mind more power then the physical as life, seeing and realizing that it is only with the physical that I can give power to the mind, which implies that the mind actually have no real power as the physical is always required, either me breathing and standing as the physical or me suppressing and diminishing myself as the physical through allowing the mind to take control in the persuite of energy

to be continued. 

Day 211 – I always have a frown part 6

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my frown as a character defense system towards other human being to dominate or intimidate them, seeing and realizing that this is a character in fear creating more fear and so only create a world of fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I have a frown for any other purpose then a physical point that I am within the mind participating within secret thoughts that has physical intension onto others that is part of a delusional game based on my own fears/insecurities.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Judge every frown I have.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my frown as something being wrong with me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my frown as a weakness I have.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my frown as being to much.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I frown to much that I will get wrinkles on my forehead.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I fear the wrinkles I will get on my forehead from frowning so much because it will reveal what is going on within me, as wrinkles on the forehead will reveal a grumpy old man that is always reacting and defending himself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist becoming an old grumpy man with wrinkles on my forehead that will always seem like I repelling people away from me, seeing and realizing that this is the physical manifestation of my fear of others hurting me and harming me and thus as the frown character I will manifest in the flesh such characteristics where the mind solidify in the flesh as that which I constant repeat over and over within my mind that has effects on the body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my body as a weapon to be used by the mind and to create consequences within and as my body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that what I participate within my mind as secret thoughts/feelings/emotions will one and equal manifest as the flesh and so within my reality as manifestations of my actions and what I give attention to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to immediately judge my frown as being something of the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attach a negative energetic emotion to frowning.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attach the emotion of being bad to when I frown.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a belief out of the idea of frowning and that i am now never allowed to frown, seeing and realizing that this is limitation as the physical body within also expressing myself with physical communication as that which is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the frown as a way to prevent others from being intimate with me as I fear being vulnerable and open with them about the real issue and what is going on within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the frown as a way to hide from what is truly here as me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I frown that I decide what the frown is about within awareness in and as breathe and so I can see when it is me frowning or the mind as secret and fighting for my fears.

To be continued.

Day 210 - I always have a frown Part 5

I am now looking at another dimension of the frown, this is the judgment point I noticed when I look at something, I actually just now noticed it as I was watching a series on the TV.

As I was watching the people and how they are and what they say and all of it, I notice the frown, why am I frowning when it there is no physical reason for frowning, the light isn’t that bright, there is no sun out, the TV screen is far away so why the frown, what is behind the frown.

I see this frown is Judgment, when I look at others/things in separation of myself as where I have placed myself as more or that for some reason I would have done everything different then the characters in the story, I am better, so the frown within judgment is of self-righteousness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize the automatic physical actions and what I have imprinted within them as the mind as thoughts/feelings/emotions and when I participate within the physical action of frowning I activate a entire character that plays out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I frown without me being the direct movement of the frown as me in awareness that I am instead moving as a pre=programmed robot, and thus I need to investigate what I programmed within myself as my body within and as the physical and why and how to remove all brainwashing and mind control and to return myself to life as breathe.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I frown while watching TV to frown at what I am seeing in separation of myself as being more than the characters in the movie, seeing and realizing that this is how I am supporting my own character instead and attempting to strengthen my character as being better and more through judging others, as the frown is like frowning down onto others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept and allow the automation of the frown which activates the automation of the thoughts/backchat that I have programmed into the frown not seeing and realizing that I am creating separation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when I frown that there is an actual change within me and that I have to question this change and why it is happening.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an angry character out of frowning, seeing and realizing that every time I frown I have a set judgment within me towards everything as being angry or grumpy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that my automatic frown of judgment is a implication of attacking others and making things personal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that I have to make things personal within this reality to be able to get a response from others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place a frown on my face with all it entails as the content behind it within the belief that this is the only way I can make an impact on others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realise that I am a tyrant when and as I frown upon others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others as less then myself and to within this judgment motivate and generate anger within me that I have given physical characteristics such as frowning, so that when I frown I can show I am angry at someone according to my own self-proclaimed judgments within my head of illusions and separation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider the physical as what Is actually physically happening to my body when I frown, as frowning uses energy from and as the body to have the expression which the mind can use to generate itself within thoughts/feelings/emotions and harvest the body for energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that the automatic frowning is part of who I am and that it can never change, seeing and realizing that I have proven to myself that I can stop a frown and that whatever justification I had rendered irrelevant and was exposed as a lie through simply breathing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I watch TV or other people or anything within my reality to be self-righteous within my mind as separating myself for all others where I place myself as better and more and to within this judgment in my mind make myself angry at others for how I judge them to be and to within this have a constant frown as I see and realize that once I go into that set of mind or the mind in general and frown that from there on it is a roller-coaster unless I pull the plug as the energy supply to the mind and STOP the mind and breathe and to not participate within this bullshit as it only creates separation which is Fear based and thus more fear nd more anxiety and more stress and more shit I am not even yet aware of for myself.

To be continued

Day 209 – I always have a frown Part 4.

Day – 206 – I always have a frown Part  1
 Day – 207 – I always have a frown Part 2
 Day - 208 I always have a frown Part 3

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I frown go into a state of dominance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect dominance to a frown on my forehead, looking though.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect looking though as having a frown on my forehead as being dominating.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attempt to dominate others in the fear of them dominating me through placing a frown on my face that seems as if I am though and intimidating.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to frown when and as I feel threatened and insecure within my reality and other beings, believing that the frown will intimidate others and so repel them, not seeing and realizing that the frown could also start conflict and even lead to harmful situations as I do not know what exist within others in that moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make myself a threat to others through frowning as a way to dominate to hide my insecurities and fears and to impose an idea of myself as being though and that I will fight for my insecurities, seeing and realizing that I only manifest my insecurities as to come to life through participating within the from that influences others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the frown to hide what I actually experience inside as a mask showing the exact opposite, making it obvious what I am hiding and thus only validating it and making it real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I frown and there is not physical reason to frown such as the sun blinding my eyes or reflections that I am within the mind participating within thoughts/feelings/emotions and back chat (internal conversations).

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I eyes are sensitive to light and thus causes me to frown more that it is the physical reality calling me to be here breathing out of the mind, as my eyes and what I see is focused in the true darkness as the mind as seeing only my thoughts feelings and emotions instead of what is here in fact as the physical where the mind is even less than a fart.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to provoke anger/fear within others through what I am imposing onto others within my frown, not seeing and realizing that consequences of my actions real time and what it in fact is as I am within the mind where I always win and always get to the top, seeing and realizing that the other person is the same within his mind and thus I am only setting myself up for abuse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to stimulate abuse within my reality through imposing fear and discomfort and stress onto others in my reality through always having a frown at them and towards them which is implying it is personal = showing the other being that there is back chat conversations going on in my mind about them which is deceptive and abuse and thus can only lead to harm of myself and others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I am not breathing when and as I am frowning with no physical reason.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the excuse and justification of my eyes are sensitive to light as to why I am frowning as a means to not to have to look at myself and what is actually causing the frowning as the darkness within me in my mind as all thoughts/feelings/emotions which is always in separation of the physical and delusional and about others.

To be continued.

Day 42 - Male Ego and dominance

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that as a male it is my right to dominate other beings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that as a male I have the right to dominate other life forms.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be brainwashed through society and the education system that the male has the right to dominate.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to practice the believe that the male has the right to dominate and to do whatever it takes to dominate, realizing that within this believe and applying myself within it I am the direct cause of why the world is fucked up as all the suffering and harm that has been done onto life as the male ego as dominance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to enjoy the believe/idea that the male has the right to be dominant and to practice dominance within my life through dominating others and other life forms so that I may feel all powerful as the male ego of dominance, realizing that within accepting and allowing dominance as normal and part of the male ego's right I am giving permission to all other males to do the same, realizing that through this accepted and allowed behavior/nature I am accepting and allowing and being the direct cause of all abuse and destruction and harm that has been and is done onto life through other males as myself that seek dominance such as within wars for land, killing animals for fun as to practice dominance, abusing women and children to be dominant and to fuck up life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be dominant within my life within certain areas just so that I may feel secure and save, and through seeking this dominance to do whatever it takes such as child abuse, women abuse, animal abuse, nature abuse and simply abuse of life to gain self interest and to feed the ego as energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I am not dominant within my life over others that they will dominate me and abuse me for their self interest, and to within this go into competition with life to see who is most dominant and to achieve dominance so that I do not have to fear, realizing that within me within competing with others for dominance to do onto them before it is done onto me, that I am in fact actually trying to first abuse them and harm them before they can harm me, as I am then the only abuser that harms in the name of my fear and self interest, realizing that this behavior and nature of man has been accepted and allowed to exist within the current system of the world where some can have and some not and thus gives way for all males to seek dominance to protect themselves from not having anything as many others do through any means necessary such as abusing life and bringing the destruction of mother earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that If I am not dominant within my life over others that I will be seen as weak and not a real male that is capable of using his gifted right from the sins of the fathers to dominate in sin as abusing life just to not look weak.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being dominated and been seen less than.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that dominance is part of the normal human nature, realizing it is only accepted and allowed as normal nature as it was taught within ignorance to children from the sins of the fathers based on fear/religion and believe, realizing that the nature can be changed through simply changing the system and how life works to a world that is best for all where all are taken care of from birth till death, and thus no fear for survival and no need for dominance at all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear giving up the physical addiction of power as the male ego within dominance within certain parts within my life where I have practiced dominance over other life forms so that I may feel in control of my irrational fear of the future based on my own back chat within the mind where I constantly talk about others and other life forms as if they are out to get me, and that if I stop the physical addiction that I will be abused and seen as weak and that advantage will be taken of me, realizing that I have been the only one abusing and taking advantage of others as the male ego as dominance, thus I actually fear that what I have done to others will be done onto me. 

I forgive myself that I have not realized that as long as I practice the male ego as dominance onto life that I am the only keeper and creator of my own fear of what will be done onto me as I am doing onto others as it was never real till I created it so within my mind through thoughts and back chat that I formed within my own observation within my mind within a limited range of knowledge and information that limits my own perspective on all thins and thus as I keep brewing the thoughts/back chat within my limited mind I create my own fears and insecurities that I then try and prevent through dominating other life and abusing life within the idea that I would have gotten abused first, as this was never real and only in the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dominate life as abuse as the male ego just because I had a feeling that I was being abused or taken advantage of and thus through the dominating ego try and control theother being either through physical or mental dominance as control through fear and self interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to as the male ego try and dominate other life through feeling that I was being abused or taken advantage of, realizing it was only a feeling that I experienced within me as my own thoughts and back chat that I projected onto another to not have to take self responsibility for who i am and to instead blame and control to avoid the real issue being me.

I commit myself to expose the male ego as dominance as brainwashing and that it is what children are thought through education and religion and that it is not part of human nature as it can be changed through a new educational system.

I commit myself to show that dominance within the human is what has been taught to children from birth through parents and religion and society as it is not part of human nature and that only we have accepted and allowed it to be so as there was no real supportive system for children where they can express themselves as equals without ego and without fear.

I commit myself to the research or investigating myself through self forgiveness to expose that male ego as dominance is not human nature but that it is taught through the actions of the sins of the fathers before and that it can change as we decide to change the educational system and the world system to a place where life is honored and not the male ego as to having the right to dominate and bring about abuse and destruction to earth and life and that the equalmoney system is a system that will reveal that all current human nature is taught and accepted by the human and not what it actually is and thus a new world is possible and that we are not bound to human nature as a excuse to not change.