Over Loaded – Keep Smiling Part 2

Over Loaded – Keep Smiling Part1

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to overload myself with information intake through not breathing and grounding myself within the moment of receiving new information, where I instead think and over think and let the information spin around in my mind instead of breathing and absorbing the information as me in the moment.

When and as I am receiving new information from someone else and I am overloading myself with the new information through attempting to store ALL the information I have ever received in one place, I stop, I breathe, I ground myself with what is here and what is here to deal with, to take in, and to direct and move myself accordingly.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to overwhelm myself with information intake when new information is received within the underlining fear of losing the information and to within this fear, rush all the information into my head and wanting to act on the information immediately before I can lose it.

When and as I see myself being in a state of fearing losing information that I am receiving, I stop, I breathe, I direct myself to NOT make this a point of the mind or ego, where I believe that I must be able to take in all this information at once, and I direct myself to after receiving all the information to slow down and to ask questions on the information I did not get/receive or understood and to physically integrate the information as a practical breathable phase, which is self-supporting and assisting myself in the moment to remain grounded and stable, to not make/create it into a mind point, and to write things down and not rely on the mind to be superior in theory, as it isn’t.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to overload myself with information intake through taking in all the information I can in a conversation in the fear of, not getting all the information and then missing a point and not being able to act on the new information and be effective.

When and as I see myself being in the point of fearing losing a point within receiving information, I stop/I breathe, I direct myself within common sense, there is no need to fear losing and information as I can simply ask again, or clarify, thus I direct myself to be direct and to take authority as myself to ask.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being effective due to having lack of information and to within this rush myself and attempt to take in ALL of the information in one moment and to then make myself anxious and stressed holding onto all the information and to then wanting to act on the new information as soon as possible before I might lose it.

When and as I see myself fear not being effective just because I do not have certain information within me or with me, I stop and I breathe and I direct myself to be effective in the moment, to move myself in stability in and as the physical where I take the directive point of making myself effective and not relying on any outside information, where I equip myself with effectiveness, where I give myself the tools of effectiveness, using myself as breathing and directing and moving accordingly.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing information and to then not be effective within my application, and to give up and feel overloaded and not like I am capable of doing a single thing when a part of the information is missing and to within this completely postpone or NOT move myself for a long time, in fear of moving myself without having all the information.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rely on information to decide how I will move myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear learning new information as I move, believing that learning new information as I move along makes me seem ineffective and not professional, seeing and realizing that this is the mind protecting its own self-created limitations through creating all these little tiny reasons and points that leads to one not moving directing self.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear letting go of information.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be limited to information only, and thus making a limited edition out of myself that can only be mobile once I have the information and useless when I have no information.

Over Loaded - Keep smiling Part 1

Who am I in this moment, I have noticed how I look at a point within myself from the perspective of seeing the point outside of myself. Instead of taking the point real time here as myself writing it out, so I asked myself, who am I in this moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be able to state for myself who I am in this moment and to within this question feel lost.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel lost as a way of avoiding not having to SEE direct what is here as me in this moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate myself within the feeling of being lost to not have to look at the points that is here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid looking within, in myself to be intimate with myself and to see what is here a me as all that I have been living in secret and not sharing this and not investigating this and to just let it linger and grow and to not come out, as I see and realize in this moment that my Ego do not want these points to come out, I do not want to expose the Me that IS here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the Ego must always be protected at all costs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my ego is protecting others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I let my guard down (my ego down) that I will expose my weaknesses and within this everyone else that has built confidence within me as my ego will now see the truth of me of who I am inside and lose the confidence they have within me and so fall within themselves as well.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that others are building themselves and who they are around who I am and who I give myself forth to be.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to build/create myself according to how others are and to within this make my character dependent on others characters.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide who I am behind a mask – my ego – in the believe that others are depending on me for keeping this mask/ego for them to be who they are and that if I drop this mask, that the other people will in that moment feel weak/unable to now stand as themselves as they have created themselves on this image I created around them.

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that the mask I carry/weak is only for my own self-interest and not for that of others, and for me having this fear that makes no sense is nonsense and thus a excuse/justification for why I am not looking into Who I am in this moment.

So I take a deep breathe, I relax, I keep breathing and I now stop the observation participation, I need to be in my body in my totality of who I am here, I need to literally be here to see who I am in this moment. I feel my eyes are heavy, I feel my hands are hungry to type, there is so much to write about, I haven’t written for myself in ages, I enjoy writing.

I am sitting on my right foot underneath my left upper leg folded onto the chair while I sit with a bend back leaning with my shoulders forward and typing with my hands while my bottom parts of my wrists are laying on the table with my hands/fingers dancing all over the keyboard.

While this is the Physical Image/pat of me as my expression – it is quite uncomfortable the way I am sitting, not supporting myself, I am having back pain now sitting this way and my back is stressing up as I write – this is self-support points related.

I am tired –this is who I am in the moment, the tiredness is me being tired in my eyes – the mind, I have been thinking all day, I have been arguing all day, I have been in many many different conversations all day, I have done so many things today that required me to direct and direct and direct and listen and listen and listen and speak and speak and speak and move and move and move, and then ALL this new information that comes in everyday all the time, from all different areas of my world, this person and then that person and then this person and then that person.

The information isn’t just a quick remember this or that kind of thing, NO it’s every time information coming from people that actually are Re directing my entire day three or four times a day and then my entire week three or four times a day, the information in my head is shaken and thrown around all the fucking time.

It’s never just simple my days, do this and get it done, its fucking new things every day, just as I think wow I have a system that works then BAM in your face – here is a new systems and implement it NOW and make it work now and then this new system effects all other systems and decisions and this effects my entire business for the day and the week and the movement of everything.

So who am I in this moment – I am over loaded – inside myself, I feel like there is NO more space for anything, I have tried many techniques but they all work only temporarily, I require a permanent solution – which is breathing consistently, but this I require to work on more - and taking in information at a consistent phase while changing information all the time – and not letting that build up.

Daily writing is definitely suggested.

To be continued with Self forgiveness.

Day 316 – Road To success – Comfort Zone Part 1

A couple of weeks ago I went to a Training course in being a salesman. At this training we discussed a couple of points that is Vital within being a excellent salesmen.

The guy that was training us wasn’t necessarily training us, he was just giving us all the information and within giving the information he gave expressions to express how it can be done, he talked very confident and he was very sure of himself and he did not have any comfort zone.

So what I am going to talk about the Comfort Zone point. Because this guy said the most important thing there is within being a excellent salesmen is to step beyond our own comfort zones.

This I already knew, I learned this from Desteni and within my process and walking my process points.

But hearing this from a Trainer and that it is the most important point was like getting the information from another point of view, so I now bring both sides together, the Desteni Side and the System Side.
First I would like to add why not many people aren’t successful, and this is also what the training guy said, Because NO one ever steps outside of their own comfort zones, this is because we are controlled by fear, and as Desteni has shown me through my own investigation of the material, Fear is a creation only possible when we participate within consciousness as the Mind.

Because as long as we have a mind we have what we call “personal” which is a Personality, and as we all know personalities are Only limitation because we have to have certain things that we LIKE and Dislike to define the personalities, thus we have limitations to what we can do.

Personalities are created through past experiences that then become memories and eventually our thought patterns and what we think about, and what we talk about and what we fear and not fear and like and dislike, so we are defined by experiences (by the past) and thus we accordingly create personalities.

And each and every personality as a consciousness has a comfort zone, this comfort zone keeps the personality in check, in place it constantly defines the personality and thus, when people are asked to step outside of their comfort zones it is usually excused by saying, its not in y personality to do that.
Well obviously it isn’t, because we are consciously thinking about the fears and the insecurities and all the things that we don’t like.

Back to the training day, on this training day the guy asked someone to volunteer, before he even told us what we are volunteering for, I placed my hand in the air as I knew I was resisting going there and thus fearing leaving the comfort zone, I was picked and I was asked to stand in front of the “class”. Everyone else was saying: how can you put your hand up without even knowing what’s happening, how can you volunteer if you don’t even know what you have to do. I said, this is stepping out of my comfort zone.

I did not know the people there, we were all strangers at the same table, I was given “thing” to sell, I did not know what the thing was yet I had to sell it, I was given one minute to sell it.

So here within this test I failed, because the trainer wanted to make a point, he said that we Must step outside of our comfort zone, but if we do not have confidence within ourselves then stepping out of the comfort zone is useless.

As it was proven, I may have stepped out of my comfort zone, but I did not know what I was selling at all, I had no knowledge or information to apply practically once I step out, so I instead was faced with doubt and uncertainly that creates insecurities.

So back to the Desteni message and how to step out of the comfort zone as I have found it through testing it for myself.

Stepping out of the comfort zone is and will always be stepping into the unknown, but then the unknown will become known obviously.

So it isn’t to look for zones that is comfortable, because then we will never find it, we must be comfortable with ourselves as who we are, this means that we as who we are can comfortable be in any zone, because there is peace of mind, peace of mind being no mind, no consciousness as Limitation, it is being with ourselves here as the physical breathing, moving and directing.

I can write the philosophy and the theory, but the question is always How do I practically Live this, how to I go about and practice it.

I use that day at the training as a reference to how I can do it, for instance if I want to sell something, I know that selling a product will be going into the unknown as I haven’t done it before, I know that I will be leaving my comfort zone, as my personality has never had to do that, go there, so I never had t push or face fears or insecurities.

So from the training day I have seen, that I know when I will enter a unknown zone, when I will have to leave my comfort zone, and then I know as I am selling a product I can only do one thing, Give to myself all the practical tools that is and will be required to Direct and move myself effectively within the unknown zone, not from a point of fear, fear cannot be the moving foundation.

So if I know I am going to sell a car, the I know the tools I can give myself is Knowledge and information on the cars, that is knowledge and information that I can PRACTICALLY apply, not useless bullshit knowledge and information that just hangs around, and then I am prepared.

Because the unknown zone will be talking to ALL kinds of customers that want to know what ever they want to know, they want to discuss weird things maybe or not, or they want to know details that I never considered to include within having to know.

So here I how I have applied leaving my comfort zone – when I see a customer, I go to them no matter what I things/belief/fear because I know that is my personality wanting to keep me in the comfort zone, so I step out, I have read about the cars I have informed me and I even take the pamphlets with sometimes.

And what do you know, I say hi and they say Hi and then they ask me questions, it isn’t included in what I red about the cars or in the pamphlets or anywhere I could have gotten hold of it, so here I can have a reflecting moment on what I need to know, what I need to change and get informed on.

And so the more and more I step out of my comfort zone the more and more I learn, and I get confidence, sometime I lose confidence because I can’t answer anything, I use that not as a negative or a positive, I use it as practical feedback.

And this I keep doing, if I never stepped out of the comfort zone I would have never learned, I would have never known what was required or what I need to do, I would have sit and waited in the office and waiting till it comes to me, which is quite impossible.

So the can be taken to all areas of life, in practical meaningful ways, not stupid Nonsensical ways, what we do must be common sense and practical and best for all life, don’t go jumping off a cliff just because you believe that is leaving the comfort zone, that is called stupidity.

To be continued.