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Day 6 - What stops me from cheating?

Before reading this blog – please, if you find any point you judge yourself on or comparing with me, do not do so, but if it comes up, rather at the end leave a comment, ask and discuss. This is but a Blog, not 9 years of specific details.

I have been in a Desteni Agreement for nine years now. I have not once cheated on my wife, I have not once even tried, or spoken to another women with the intention or the attraction to do so, even after Marriage, even after having a child and sex was very little for a very long time, and still is. So what is the secret?

First, I have to inform you that it is in my programming to cheat, to have multiple girlfriends (women) in my life, this is what I did and used to do before I went into an agreement nine years ago.

The Sexual force was strong in me, and I followed it religiously. I enjoyed the game of getting girls, playing around, taking risks, and always being around lots of women, chatting up dozens of girls at a time, hook up with a few here and there and then see where I can score.

Now, I must first and foremost make something very clear, the Desire comes up within me for wanting to go back into this every now and then, it is actually always here, I desire having more or multiple women in my life, but then how do I do it to not even once follow it, to not be led into temptation, not even in my words by accident, or in my behaviors towards or with other women, even when it is in my design/programming to do it so easily, without effort.

I used to fall in love and be attracted to almost any women instantly after meeting them and I would have the same “love” feeling for all the women I ever met and came in contact with, I could never say to one I love you and not to the other as well, I always thought it was a disease that I was attracted to any women almost instantly, I could in a matter of minutes already see myself in a long term relationship with a girl I just met, and if this same girl brought a friend along, I would equally be the same towards her. I found it very annoying at times, especially that one has to choose and only go with one partner.

The answer is simple and yet at the same time very difficult. The process was difficult as well to get to this point, in fact the first two years of being in the agreement with my partner the habits and patterns wanted to kick in and I wanted out of the agreement a few times through how I behaved and spoke, my thoughts and mind was all over the place.

Yet, here I am.

First and foremost, It is all thanks to DESTENI and the message, the re-education of me with all the information that Desteni provides within understanding the MIND, what are thoughts, what are feelings and emotions, how do they work, and I must say the most important for me within all of this is that I understood that NO thought, feeling or emotion is EVER real unless we act on it, thus I always know that when a thought come sup, a feeling or emotion, it isn’t real unless I act on it, and thus I BREATHE and I let go of the thoughts, the feelings and emotions.

Then, the agreement was extremely important that I had to understand what is an agreement – it is really simple, TWO people walking together this life yet individual their process of re-birthing themselves as life and to within this be physical support for one another, not emotional and mind support.

Here is the catch, I had to actually have NO choice within this, as in do I want to do it or not, because once I understood why I am walking this process of Desteni for myself and thus with another being, there is no choice, there is no do I want to or not, there is simply BREATH and do this.

Here are a few key points that I ground myself with, with having this design/programming and how I stand within discipline absolutely within this specific point.

1. No matter with what women I am in an agreement with, I will always be me, so no OTHER women will change me or make me experience me any different, and thus if I follow my programming I will always end up where I simply follow my programming again and again, and thus never change and actually face myself effectively to change.

2. ALL humans are minds/programmes/designs – thus if I see a picture as the form of another women and I am attracted to that and go after that and base a relationship off of that, I will inevitably end up with again the programmes/design (thus nothing different) and they have to be faced, and thus cheating or dishonoring the agreement will only be me fucking myself up more and more and in the same process harm others and thus nothing will change.

3. This one is more personal and based on who I am within an agreement with right now, thus this one can change for others if for example one person is abusive, physically or emotionally – If I cannot walk with the person I am within an agreement with now, then I cannot walk with anyone else equal and one, it is as simple as that, thus leaving my partner for a design/program will only be me deceiving myself on many levels.

4. Understanding and walking as that understanding daily that NO person is actually different except the form/image and thus the form image can and will change at any time and thus I will always end up facing the same regardless, either sooner or later.

5. Live what is best for all life – basic Desteni principle – this includes stopping ones thoughts, feelings and emotions, ones fantasies, imagination that is NOT within this reality and practical and not bets for all life, within the understanding that all of this was literally programmed into us, as we are organic robots designed and created by the Reptilian race (annunaki, yes you probably do not want to hear that, but it damn supported) as shared in detail by and through the Portal.

Ok, that is what I have to share for now in relation t this point, as I have now walked it for many years and I have proven through space and time that I STAND and that the Desteni tools in fact work if applied effectively, this obviously includes LOTS of self-forgiveness and self-writing on all the points that open up.

Please feel free to ask questions, I have lots to share, don’t be shy. If you are married, if you have children, if you are having any issues – I can support within this, but consider, any advice is useless without application.

Day 486 - unexpected truth about Desteni and the Desteni Farm.

I have been wanting to write the truth about Desteni farm for many years, it has always been on my mind, I have never had a single day go by without having the vision of me writing out a blog post revealing the truth about Desteni Farm and what it is that’s going on here. I have been living on the Detseni farm for more than seven years, and I cannot hold this in anymore.

When I came to Desteni farm in 2008, I was strongly advised by my mother to not come, and that she does not allow me to come/go to the Desteni Farm, my father on the other hand was happy for the decision. (Since then my mother has visited me here on the Desteni Farm on many occasions and even wanted to move here at some point)

So I came, the words of my mother was stuck inside of me on the way to the Farm, it was a six hour drive, just me and my Father in the car, as we got closer and closer to the farm where I knew Bernard Poolman would be waiting for my arrival, and where the portal will be, I was really nervous and stressed out, as my mother’s words floated around in my mind – specifically these words: “in the name and blood of Jesus I do not give you permission to go” – and I decided to go anyway.

Once I was on the farm and I gave Bernard a hug and everyone else, the stress and nervousness was over, taking a quick look around the farm and just chilling, sitting around a big metal table outside talking and sharing, my father was also staying for a few days. The farm was at that time very dull and empty, not much was build yet and not much going on.

Then my Father left, and I was now on my own, no parent nearby, just me and other people on a farm and to be more specific – the DESTENI farm, not just any farm with family and friends living on it, a farm that was very very specific and why it exist, and the people on this farm with a very specific goal that is being lived/applied.

As time went by I got involved in ALL the Physical activities on the farm, which is farm maintenance and building. We were busy reshaping the farm, to bring life to the farm, taking out thousands of weeds and planting grass and cutting grass and building bathrooms and fixing a lot of things, such as fencing etc, and in this passing of time more and more people came to the farm, people from ALL over the world, from America and Europe and Australia and Canada and so many other places.

With these new strangers visiting the farm with this same specific goal at heart, it was really awesome to see everyone coming together and participating within all the practical farm activities and having chats around bond fires and making videos and interviews and writing blogs, just discussing LIFE and the systems we live in and changes and actually apply these changes to ourselves within the group, with a great amount of feedback from the supportive environment to help one achieve change in living application.

What I found the most interesting was all the different people from all around the world are actually not so different at all, in fact I would say I realized that everyone is the same.

Oh wait, everyone is waiting to hear the truth about Desteni farm, sorry I got lost in all the amazingness of the Desteni farm, the uniqueness of it all, the magnitude of such a happening such as the Desteni farm. specifically why is exists and how.

You are probably also waiting to hear about all the Bernard stories and the portal stories and all the weird things that is supposed to be going on at the Desteni Farm, well I am sorry the only weirdness is how the Desteni farm is the most harmonious place I have ever lived, where there is actually peace and community, because the people that visit or that stay here, are people that has developed themselves through actual self-change within taking self-responsibility, through extensive writing and applying self-forgiveness and developing self-honesty, living by common sense and agreements.

Oh wait, that is weird to most of humanity, which prefers war and harm and enjoying emotional abuse and mind games and blaming and all the “good” shit (sarcasm) all the normal stuff””

The portal is as real as real can be, I witnessed the portal multiple times at any time doing what the portal does, NEVER preparing anything beforehand, I mean the things the portal can do is beyond my comprehension, in terms of what’s coming through the portal. It is feaken amazing, I tried doing what the portal does through “pretending” and guess what, it is impossible to come up with even 1% of what the portal is doing and seven years later even with Bernard gone for two years already, the portal is still at it the same, making a part one video of a certain series today and then for the next several weeks make other interviews and then continues with part two perfectly in alignment with part one, I slept in the same house in my own room as where the portal was for two months, seeing the portal busy at any time with several other people also in the same house, the portal NEVER had any time to practice or to go rehearse anything. It is all real time HERE. I could at any time ask the portal for assistance or perspective and right there and then the portal would show me the points and give me insight or describe a system or program to me, and years later, still the same.

To talk about Bernard Poolman I would need to write a book, Bernard was simply HERE always breathing and directing points here, taking no shit, yet the gentlest person and the kindest person and you can’t hide anything from him, without saying a word he knows and brings it up. Yes developing abilities is possible, I used to see inter-dimensional at the age of 16, my entire family is aware of it and saw the proof for themselves in front of their eyes, but I lost my ability through abusing it. (I have never shared this before) this is why I know everything with Desteni is a fact, I lived it and I have been there (my own proof and evidence through time applying myself actually within the provided tools) trusting myself. One needs to stand as life and in breath to handle such an ability/gift – moving on.

The truth about Desteni Farm – it’s the one place on earth that I would like to manifest all across the earth, specifically the communal living part, not necessarily earth as one big farm lol.

The truth is Desteni is amazing if you really walk it to your utmost and apply the tools and learn to know thy self, develop yourself as what is best for all life, in other words, develop the vocabulary to stand one and equal as life to live the words of life and become the living word, as the word was in the beginning and A new reality, the actual reality that is here starts coming through and what’s possible for this reality that we have destroyed thus far, writing, self-forgiveness, develop self-honesty, common sense and living by the principles that is based on LIFE as what is best for all life.

If you want more truths about Desteni and the Desteni Farm then first let go of pre-conceived ideas and beliefs and opinions and really take a look without a veil in front of your eyes and we can move along faster this life to change this world and make a life that is worthy and best for all.

SA Pupils Terrified – Bullying - Day 275

One of the articles in the Mercury newspaper of January 28, 2012 is about Bullying in schools that is increasing.

The bullying is increasing – “MORE than Half the children interviewed in a recent survey on Bullying said hey Have experienced it at school and 40% wanted the police to protect them.” – The Mercury.

Where is the questions that isn’t asked or answered within the article, it is actually a very short article basically ONLY showing the bullying is increasing and how the research for this finding has been done, Yet such findings that is quite terrifying MUST get a lot more research and a whole page in the newspaper, as it is the children of our future that is now growing up as bullies or as the ones being bullied, and it is increasing.

Let’s keep it simple, ALL humans being start out as babies, babies does not come with any knowledge and information about the world they are entering, they do not have any concept of anything that is here.

So it is up to the people that they interact with the very first time and then for the next seven years of their lives to teach and show and educate the child “the way of Live’ this isn’t just done through telling the kid stuff, it is done through WHO we are and how we physically live and interact, because a child learns through everything they see/touch/smell/hear/taste.

There is a saying that it is never the advice you give your kids that will stick with them, it is how you applied the advice yourself that will.

It is like being a teenager and your father is having a chat with you – he says, Son don’t ever drink alcohol, it isn’t good for you and will make you do bad things, while the father has a beer in his hands – what will the child learn from that??

So here I gave some insight to what I am going to say.

Bullying always starts at how, it isn’t because the child is being abused physically at home, it isn’t just because of that reason to be more clear, it is daily living, it is everything involved within a child’s live, it is the environment, it is the people within the environment it is the outside forces such as Radio/Tv and all media, it is everything that is here that is influencing the child from the moment the child is born into this world, it is what we impulse the child with in every moment with everything that is here that the child will absorb and take on.

So Bullying is increasing and it is happening quite fast if I look at it, taking it from my school days. I did not consider having cops over yet, there was at least two fight a week, and there was the regular bully in school that everyone knew.

But now it is more than half of the pupils being interviewed that say they have experienced bullying.

This isn’t a coincidence when we look at the whole picture and what is going on in the world, the world in itself is negative, we have created a world of negativity while we constantly portray positivity and that love and hope is the answer to making things better, yet things are getting worse, kids are seeing this and they are experiencing a sense of powerlessness, they are experiencing poverty within themselves, because our kids are going to school in the hope and positive attitude of that they can have a positive future, while the reality around them is already giving them only negative feedback, the economy is falling, people are losing jobs left and right, new qualified students can’t find jobs, and maybe in the households of many of the bullies there is a parent with no job, or money is always low or there isn’t any money or even just the fake promise of a better tomorrow is creating children living in constant fear and anxiety of the truth they are faced with everyday of what is really around them. and this is all the things that will come out in forms of violence, in a form of re-gaining a sense of some control or some safety.

This is applicable to rich and poor and middle class children, because it does not matter which class you are in now, in terms of money, we all belong to the same economy, we are all bound and enslaved to the same money that buys us food and water and cloths and shelter and safety, and if this economy isn’t working or failing, it effects everyone.

This is one perspective on why bullying will and has been increasing; stress is a major form/cause of bullying.

So we can also look at family issues that cause bullying, where parents fight and divorce and where the children are shouted at or even beaten and slapped or just being used or even where children are spoiled can cause a sense of power to abuse/bully and this is also related to money, where there is in general inequality of money , it is also all outflows from something else, we can say something greater, and we call it money, why would parents be fighting? Most fight is usually about money – since more than 50 percent of South Africans are jobless and then the rest as just making it or have minimum wages or just in the middle class and then some rich, usually the rich has more then enough and this also creates a form of bullying as the rich feel entitled to do so by status, we can only see the obvious problem is money.

there is the occasional family that will have fights that is more personal towards each other then we can say they have enough money still to indulge in luxury fight/arguments as I call it.

The entire point I am bringing in here is that The whole and entire state of the world as a whole and where the world that is driven everywhere by the same thing called money is going to the exact same thing/point and that is a economic disaster leaving a fearful and bleak future for all the children, this is why it is showing in the children, because there isn’t really a future, those of us that still see a future we are fortunate to have some good money still, but it won’t last long.

As Long as we do not tackle the problem at a worldwide level where the we create a world that is best for ALL LIFE that will ensure a bright future for each and every child born into this world, where we can say to our children we love them with actual real proof that can be backed up through the world we give them to live in where we ensure their lives are secure from birth till death, Bullying and violence will constantly increase and we will have a generation of children that has no respect for anyone that has gone before them, because look at the world we bring and accept and allow them to grow up in.

So why do we “adults” deserve respect, we don’t currently, we are destroying our children’s forests, we are killing their only planet and yet we bring them here and tell them we love them and raise them and then we just throw them in and say swim and hope you don’t drown.

We are creating the bullies in every aspect of what we have accepted and allowed to be created/exist here as our world system for them to grow up in, we are creating generations that will not think twice of killing/fighting and living as the beings we are creating them as the world.

We are looking at the children being the problem, but we are not looking at who created the perfect environment for such a problem to exist, it is US the current adults that created this world through our direct and in direct participation the way it is, we are the bullies bullying the children into a world of evil, a world of disasters and murder and rape and poverty and WAR and misery and abuse and where it is possible to die of hunger or from the cold outside or from dehydration simple through where we are born, while we promote and lie to them about happiness and love and positivity to make it all seem okay.

Yet it isn’t okay at all, we need to take self responsibility for this problem, and the only way we can ever redeem ourselves and get self respect and honor - is through directly taking on the problem and admitting our failed responsibility of creating a heaven for our children BEFORE we ever brought them into this live/world as true love where all live is equal and in harmony and where there is no fear/survival, and to give up our pride and our desired and hopes and to take action through supporting a new way of live and to create it.

This is where I come in with the solution, it is to remove the problem of bullying at the root cause, removing the cause/effect as the roots as the current Monetary system, and replace it with a new monetary system that is best for all life and not based on profit and greed and self interest, but where all humans get a certified life from birth till death and remove fear/survival from the equation.

This is the Equal Money Capitalism System proposal.

I have given only a few dimensions to the entire point, further self investigation is required at the links to follow in this blog.

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