Stop Fighting within. stop controlling, Trust here, breath Day 609

 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight myself within the process of change, instead of allowing the change to flow as me unconditionally, without restraining the change, without holding it back, without fighting it, and to rather embrace the change within me, to express me as the change without thought. 

 

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that thinking about doing something or expressing myself is in fact me fighting myself. 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight my thoughts.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight any experience that comes up within me.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight the Image I see in the mirror of my physical body.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight the posture my body has.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight my common sense and expressing it.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight my fearlessness and to rather hold onto fear.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight for my limitations.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight the heat when it is hot.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight the cold when it is cold.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight disease and sickness when I have it. 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight my breathing and how I am breathing. 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight my spelling and typing skills. 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight my reality and the people I have to interact with and how I experience any reactions that come up within me in those instances.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight TIME.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight aging.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight the food I eat as the thoughts and behaviors I have with the food I eat.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to FIGHT reality as the physical that is here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight moving within reality.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight physical reality as the earth, nature and all that is natural through the clothes I wear and the comforts I implement just not to be in contact with nature such as shoes, hats, glasses and everything that is fighting what is here and resisting what is here as the earth, as that which is real.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight exploding in expression and rather hold it all back in fear.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight me standing up as I fight the fear and to within this believe that because I am fighting fears and insecurities the battle must mean it is real, instead of simply stopping fighting and living here expressing and breathing and standing as myself as true expression as life.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight my money/financial situation within this world and who I have defined myself according to money and my personal financial situation.

Day 554 - Self-Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give attention to everything about me that is wrong and sinful except me that is LIFE one and equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be of SIN, even though I wasn’t born in sin, and to have given all my attention and focus throughout my life to the sins, and to within giving sin all of my attention I have limited and created myself according to sin, an imperfect human.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek out the positive within life, where I see and realize that the positive I seek out in life is only confirming the negative within me, the sinful me, so I see and I realize that if I am seeking anything positive as an energy then I am seeing to make up for something within me that I have judged myself as being bad/negative as sin.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself a stupid.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as physically inferior to others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as useless.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as immature.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as all my fears.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as my big good looking smile.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for my great personality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for being a good person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a person with good intentions.
 
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a person with courage.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself a s responsible person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a respectable person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a unique person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself a as good partner in relationships.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a good citizen.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a perfect son to my parents.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as a special human being in the eyes of others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a product of this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a stubborn person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as an egoistic person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as incompetent.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a personality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself according to this world I live in.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself according to my name and what has been attached to my name as “me”.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the flesh that I walk and breathe in.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as an animal activist and lover.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a world changer.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as lazy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a sex addict.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge sex.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as alcohol.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as drugs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as eating.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as people.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for enjoying food.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge food as enjoyment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge water.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as water as just being here
and that I do not need to drink it nessasarely, there are other things to drink.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as healthy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as unhealthy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge LIFE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place life in a judgment of my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the fear of LIFE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as separate from and of LIFE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge self-forgiveness in all possible ways, not positive or negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the LAW of nature.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as THE law of the system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Judge the legal system of the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge judgments.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as limitation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as not having limitations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a father.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a parent to a child.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a partner to another human being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a family guy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as family.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a good family guy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a bad family member.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a good father.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a bad father.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a bad member of the community.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a good member of the community.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as music.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as good music.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as good or bad music.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge bad music.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge music as me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as all that is here as the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the mind consciousness systems.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the conscious mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the sub-conscious mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the unconscious mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as not yet understanding the science of life one and equal as how the physical functions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the separation that I exist as still within this life from and of life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for not standing one and equal in fact with all life YET.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the bad or good decisions I have made in life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the decisions I make in life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as poverty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as starvation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as the cruel and evil shit that exist within this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as my breathing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as war.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as racism.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as crime.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as inhumane acts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as spirituality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as god.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than god/LIFE/universe.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as religion.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as love and light.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as peace.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as my penis.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as vaginas.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as separate from what is HERE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as better than others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as possessions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as my internal reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as my parents.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as my siblings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as my skin color.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as my nose.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as my hair.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as nature.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as gossiping.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as gangsters.

I Forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as corruption.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as insecurities.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as other peoples actions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as all forms upon the face of the earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as all the materialistic things that the mind has created within this world as distractions and entertainment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as all entertainment that exit.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as all the feelings and emotions and thoughts that come up within entertainment within this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as all desire that exist within all humans and within this world as materialistic designs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself AS a control freak.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a nagging person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a needy person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a restless person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a stable person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a person who can be trusted.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as someone that can be trusted.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a person that cannot be trusted.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as someone that must be respected

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as someone that respects others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as someone that has honour.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as someone that honors others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as someone that is reliable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as someone that can be relied on.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as someone that can rely on others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as inferior to others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as superior to others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as inferior to life and the creations of the world that exist here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as being superior to other life forms within this world.

To be Continued.

Day 550 - The deception within spirit science posts Part 1

This blog is to start showing the deception within spirit science posts and Guidepost of light posts and name them all, you have seen them going around the internet, being shared and liked and easily being agreed to, and what is being promoted, for today’s blog I will take this picture above which says ‘ Sometimes, it feels better not to talk. At all. About anything. To anyone – it uses just the right word, “sometimes” which is already a mind justification, which means a person that see this post on Facebook will probably now trust what Spirit science has posted as true, because they could agree with it according to how they feel/felt, and thus a person that has now agreed to it, will now subconsciously implement such behavior into their life, and it will be implemented in such a way where it fits the persons self-interest best, and not the best interest of all, because no one understand how the mind works, so it’s a big problem to promote “thinking” to the human race while not understanding how thinking works and how people respond to this. 

And then it uses the word “Feels” – to manipulate people to agree, because everyone “feels” and we are subject to words and how they make us feel in moments, so with sometimes and Feel, the post created a feeling within the viewer, and thus making the viewer believe it is their choice to agree to this post, avoiding common sense and self-honesty completely, the post give NO point of understanding, which shows it is literally feeding of the viewer’s emotional body as the mind consciousness systems – but what the person agrees to comes after the feeling has already been created, and that is – not to talk. At all. About anything. To anyone – thus a point of separation, distancing from others have been created, which is a good point in the minds of people, because we have such conflictual relationships with ourselves and thus communicating with others it isn’t the best thing most of the time, it is better to avoid and to remain the same, to not face reality and most of all the reality of ourselves, thus actually prolonging this process of changing the world, starting with ourselves.

And the fact that this post is so short and yet so effective is because it is running on opinions, believes and ideas, and not based on actual common sense, which again shows how easy it is to catch people in the web of CONsciousness and to keep them where they are, making something sound good is a bonus.

Why does such a simple and short saying with a picture get almost 7000 likes and about 21 500 shares?

Because it confirms one thing, it is in support of the mind, there is NO common sense presented and NO self-honesty within such a saying, it is feeding off how people are “feeling” and thus only confirming such feelings to be valid, thus leaving people to be slaves to how they feel, as a creation of the mind consciousness system. No self-movement, no principles that one stand by and that one base decisions and actions upon, just moods and feelings/emotions that is being validated and lived by.

Let me go a bit deeper – for those that are walking with Desteni you will understand what I am saying, for those that are not, here is a bit more perspective and common sense and to be Honest with oneself, which means, when we experience something and we express that experience, that feeling/emotion or thought, we are being honest. Self-honesty is to be aware of self as the Universe as LIFE here, considering all life, and thus within this point realize that one is in fact one and equal to all life and thus responsible in fact for what exist here as life currently as OUR creation, and that thoughts/feelings and emotions aren’t who we really are, because, where do they come from? And that the world as it exist now is a direct result of who we are right now, existing as consciousness, as thoughts, feelings and emotions – and thus the problem is what we each individually exist as right now, which is consciousness and thus the thoughts, feelings and emotions are the problem, because we are following these things inside of us with NO understanding or clue where they come from, how they are created and why, and we have NO clue what the consequences will be in the long run in all possible play outs through simply following what we experience within us as thoughts/feelings and emotions.

So if one gets that, then it should be clear why spirit science isn’t presenting any common sense or self-honesty, it is simply stimulating consciousness, it is propelling consciousness as thoughts/feelings and emotions, keeping people right where they are and not promoting actual change. And how do you know it isn’t promoting a solution, because it sounds dame good, in a world that is fucked up, in a world that is dying, it isn’t showing the truth, it isn’t revealing reality as it is right now for earth as a whole, it is targeting the elite of the world, those that can agree with them without having to do any effort, it is a convenient truth, which shows it’s a problem already.

The world needs a reality check, the world needs common sense, self-honesty and people that walk by principles that is best for all life, the world needs people that are putting effort into questioning everything and keeping what is Best for all LIFE and standing by that, people with integrity and determination to change themselves first and the world, people that are daily in each breath focusing on educating themselves and learning how the mind works, how is it that we are ticking the way we are, and to change that, to stop the organic robot and rebirth self as LIFE, the earth needs humans that put aside time every day to speak and write and to stand together with all those that is doing the same, with these people coming together as normal citizens and rising above and about for LIFE, creating a world that is best for all, not people just liking and sharing positive messages and sounding positive, how is that helping anyone when the reality of what is here is ignored through good sounding post/blogs/videos.

This group already exist, it is Detseni and I am a Destonian, Join us and walk the truth of what is HERE, that which has been denial for far too long and time is running out.

Day 549 – Mother

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto the Mother construct within me as me being a child that belongs to another person, seeing and realizing that this mother construct within me and wanting to hold onto the idea that I belong to another person is keeping me form being my own person. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my mother is more special than any other mothers in this world, and thus within this believe praise my mother and make me “special” and more than other children, creating and continuing the inequality within this world as ego and self-interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear letting go of the mother construct within me as I fear that I will lose something of myself, seeing and realizing that I cannot possibly lose my mother unless I have self-interest points invested within her that only serves me and my will as the ego.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that the love a mother and a child proclaim for one another ha got nothing to do with one another within this world as it is purely self-interest driven for survival and money in a world where fear drives everything, and as one can see within placing oneself within a perfect world where all is equally taken care of and has a guaranteed life of dignity on this planet that mothers and fathers and children will suddenly have no worries of fears of letting go of each other and living their own lives.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself within making myself believe that a mothers love for a child has to be an emotional one, where the mother and child can manipulate each other and make sure each one is surviving in this world by leaching off one another, through using a secret system of debt, where the mother gave everything and now later on the child owns the mother everything, seeing and realizing that such emotional relationships is a disease of the current world system that forces people to be leaches for the sake of survival.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not forgive my mother in her innocence in the sense that this world makes no sense and to within such a world create relationships of nonsense that isn’t best for all in common sense.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that for me to take on and stand within this world that I require to keep such relationships on the emotional level with my parents for the sake of a safety net, seeing and realizing that keeping such a safety net is simply holding me back as there is a back door, knowing that if I keep an emotional relationship with my mother that she will still benefit from me as being her son as I am feeding her some sort of energy and thus she will at any time catch me when I fall, thus already creating the fall, yet seeing and realizing that a clear physical communication relationship within common sense can be established and kept, as such a relationship will be equal and one to all other relationships that is best for all life, and to stop the mind games once and for all and for each one to face themselves sooner than later till it is too late and we have sucked the life out of life and no one stood up for life as reality was/is still being kept in a veil for survival.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize the facts/truth of what is here, we all die and after death no one is someone’s family or friends and that we are all one and equal and thus must already be walked this life and to not have to face the shame and regret in the afterlife for only protecting and keeping save one’s own “blood” and disregarding all other life as your entire family, on your home planet called earth, just for some emotional relationships that is kept in place for self-interest and to survive till death.

Day 537 – WTF is Usury?

Usury is today the practice of making unethical or immoral monetary loans that unfairly enrich the lender. Originally, usury meant interest of any kind. A loan may be considered usurious because of excessive or abusive interest rates or other factors. Basically a loan shark in slang, but understanding the word and the meaning of Usury is more relevant then “load Shark” – as Usury as the original word have a lot more to it and isn’t limited or defined by loans ONLY. As it states – interest of any kind, and this is the point I want to focus on.

what is more staggering; Usury is regulated currently by governments where limits are set, yet the corporations and companies find loop holes and deceive people and the government to take much more, yet making it seem like it is meeting the regulations, not that I agree with the regulated standards either as everything in this world is motivated by greed and self-interest. Why do we accept and allowed as a society for certain companies or organizations to charge massive interests, without any question. Like getting a mortgage to buy a home the interest is so high that some people end up losing their homes and sitting on the streets, this is but on example of Usury, Usury used to be condemned as sinful. And if we look at how Usury is playing out in society currently, it is sinful in terms of what it is doing to people’s lives and thus society, just for those that does the lending to make a shit load of profit.

We have to take the point back to ourselves and see where in our lives we are playing out any form of Usury “Interest of any kind” – to give more of a clear understanding of what I am talking about, let me give you an example.

Let us look at something personal that may occur in a person’s life at some point, like sharing or giving something to someone, we do so with the intent that now the other person own us something in return, let’s say you buy your friend a coffee because he didn’t have money on him at that moment, a couple of years down the line you suddenly need something, like 100 bucks, you will go to your friend and you will ask him for 100 bucks, he will say wow that’s a lot of money, and then you will suddenly say, HEY remember that time I bought you a coffee when you didn’t have money? And your friend will feel like he now just have to give you 100 bucks.

So now, is 100 bucks after a couple of years equal to a coffee you bought him way back? No it isn’t, but why did the friend give in and say OK, here, take the 100 bucks, because when you bought your friend coffee many years ago, it was in a moment of need, the friend might have been really tired and needed coffee to perform better at work, or just to make it through the day, it was all a emotionally charged moment, it was vulnerable, your friend was vulnerable and you had the strength at that time, so the money spend and what the money was spend on wasn’t a lot, but what was a lot was the emotional meaning, the intent and the gesture behind it all, which was more valuable is what counted, so after time this is what grew within YOU who stood as the strong point, that you had to sacrifice something in that moment for someone else, and thus within you the value became also more than the coffee and the money spend on it, thus over the years the USURY (interest of any kind) grew to such an extent within the lender (you) and the borrower, that the borrowed could now be forced to pay back ANYTHING that is requested of the Lender, because now there is a sense of “gratitude” that is at stake, and this emotional sense of gratitude fears that if it cannot repay or pay back the lender that the borrower is sinful or evil, and the Lender (you) know this, and usually if your friend would refuse to pay you back in any way possible for something you did for them in the past, what do you do? You become nasty and spiteful and will even condemn the friendship to hell and the person. LOOK what I did for you and now YOU aren’t willing to pay me back?? You will pay for this some way or another.

So you see through that example, which I hope brought the reader closer to understanding how Usury takes place in our daily lives within many other points besides the lending, for example, holding a grudge against someone for bumping you in the street, over the years this grudge becomes so much more within self, that if the opportunity arrives to bump the person back, we would instead bump the person and then beat the shit out of them, believing it to be fair.

so it is important that we see who we are INTERNALLY and within our personal lives, manifest into systems and other forms of programs that run this world at a larger/bigger scale, and for us to develop the ability to respond to these monstrous activities destroying and harming like and ending it, and changing it to be what supports LIFE, we must first take SELF – responsibility for what exist as the same systems and programs within us, to truly have the responsibility as the Authority as the co-creators that is here to stop it and change it.

Day 533 - lost touch with LIFE

losing touch with Life. What is the first thing most people do when they see a spider or a snake or any other animal bug that is unfamiliar to us personally. We react in fear, and the question must be why do we react in fear instead of a curiosity to be calm and to investigate and then respond. Why do we react in fear to Life and what is here as life as nature? I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in fear towards Life and what is here. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my nature to be that of and as fear instead of life. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that if my first respond to anything I do not know is fear, then I am not here as Life one and equal. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to respond with fear and emotion towards life as other parts of me in different forms and expressions. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blindly follow fear and to see fear as normal and to not question all fear existent within me to change fear into Here breathing

Day 501 - The all-powerful system

We look at the world and we see a system, a system that we all live in, it is massive, it is strong, it is unstoppable, we have no power to do anything about the system, we can simply live in it and hope for the best, Ignore everything and everyone and hope we have a good life, and start focusing ONLY on our life’s, we will do this deliberately, in the believe that we cannot do anything. 

Well, we cannot do anything, we are sitting ducks, we are simply going to have to die in this world and who knows how our deaths will come, perhaps in peace, maybe we are lucky, maybe we will not be murdered, or drown or burn to death, maybe we won’t have to die in a war or something terrible, like going through cruel evil things before death – you know like what millions of others are experiencing, like dying just because there isn’t water, or being raped and abused and left for death just because some soldiers took over your town, or watching the ones you love being tortured and abused and die and then you, like how millions of others are experiencing it. 

You see – we become so obsessed with the IDEAL situation in our minds, that everything will be okay, JUST FOR US, and forget reality, what happens to others in this world is a possibility for anyone at any time, you will never expect it, you will never know when it can happen or how, but as long as it exist in this world for just one person, such cruelty, such abuse, such a life, it will speak, it isnt a maybe, it is a WILL, just like a virus attacking a body, sure it is hurting only one part of the body for now, but once it is done with that part of the body, it moves to the next ONLY available parts left, till the whole body is dead.

This is common sense.

And the sad thing is, this will happen to all of humanity till we change, and the only reason change will not happen is literally just because of a believe – a believe that the system is so big and unchangeable.

Day 489 – inherently faulty

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for not processing information effectively.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the fault lies inherently within me for why I cannot process information effectively.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that I as LIFE with proper instruction have unlimited potential including effective information processing

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that with proper instruction was missing in my formative years leading to ineffective information processing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that within believing that I am inherently faulty that I have to redeem myself infinitely.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have tried and attempted to redeem myself with much pain and strain cause there is nothing to redeem, as I see and realize that I have been trying to fix something which was never broken.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make this point personal and thus to take this point personal, seeing and realizing that it could never have been personal and never will be as it isn’t a matter of who I am as LIFE but simply a point of what was put into me as my education in my formative years.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that those around me were fooled by the exact same perception and that they like me did not know any better as they to lacked proper instruction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try and disproof those around me about their perception of me but within this actually confirming and validating that there is something wrong with me, something faulty that needs to be fixed, because I am still working with the same frame work.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have created a negatively charged relationship towards myself and to have made it my purpose in life to make sure that others have a positively charged relationship towards me, to compensate the negatively charged relationship I have towards myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed this decision to be the starting point in everything I see and do where I forever see myself situation and environment in terms of how I can score positive relationships within this completely lose touch with reality and how things actually physically move.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to assume that the relationship I have towards myself is a relationship people have towards m, and that I thus have to take special action to flip the relationship into the positive and thus in all my relationships I have something to make up for.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize how in my faulty perception of reality I set myself up to achieve the impossible and only ever set myself up to fail and where after so many consecutive failures I start to believe that there is really no hope for me and that I will be forever faulty/not enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have focused on fixing the perception of others towards me without looking or focusing what about me needs to change where I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to assess the origin of my own self relationship and take the steps to correct what is causing the inefficiency within my life, and thus correct my distorted self-perception.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am inherently faulty and that this is absolute and unchangeable in every way.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to forgive myself for misinterpreting my distorted self-perception

I see and realize that I am inherently whole

I see and realize that I have wasted my life chasing self-redemption when there was nothing to be redeemed.

I see and realize that it is now up to me to correct my instructions and to ask for assistance and support when I see that I need it to correct and re configure my instructions to one that is best for me, that is best for all life.

I commit myself to when and as I see/feel/experience the urge to create a positive relation/moment to stop, breathe and re assess my starting point, am I trying to redeem myself and thus further ingraining the self-belief that something is wrong with me? So I stop, I let go, as I see and realize that this construct does not serve me and it will only further diminish myself and my relationship towards myself.

I commit myself to when and as I face a challenge and access an energy of giving up to stop and breath, I see and realize where this pattern comes from and that it is based on misinformation, I move myself out of the energy and assess what is physically here and what is physically necessary for me to do to walk through the challenge.

I see and realize that I have created a very strong self-belief around these energies and pattern where I belief them to be so me and so real that it might sometimes be hard to remind myself that this is not me and not who I am and thus I commit myself to give myself patience in correcting myself relationship within dropping the self-belief and remind myself that it is entirely possible for me to walk out and beyond this pattern as I have walked out and beyond other patterns before. I acknowledge myself potential and I do not accept and allow myself to give up on myself or to settle for anything less than what I know I can be and live.

Back-chat isn't a Game

Back-chat: any form of back chat is EVIL, it is poison against yourself and others, it is the chattering that is happening in the back of your mind, in a filthy secret hidden place, it is always nasty, even when its colored in, like a rainbow, we can see it but its only within or own mind and not really there in fact.

Desteni has BEEN around for many Years, since 2007 Desteni has been active in the public eye, Desteni has taught and shown over many years what it is that’s evil within this world.

Desteni has a Forum, Desteni has Courses for people to partake within and to change within so that things can change without, as we know what’s within us creates what is outside of us, the world is but a reflection of our inner realities.

It is a mess, the same way we can look at our own rooms and see the living expression of ourselves mirrored as our material possessions and how they are positioned, it comes from within and thus lived without, the way we move during our days is the way we think within our minds, it is clear that there is something wrong, the problems has been showed and the problems has been explained in detail, to the tiniest of details in interviews, videos and extensive writings, done by a man and women who has walked the path no one else dares to the fullest act.

I have come to realize that after many years of the information being available to anyone at any time at all times and not even hard to find, that the human is bound to the mind.

the mind is an interesting thing, yet it is simple to explain, yet for scientists it is the most beautiful thing, they can’t seem to explain it themselves, not to mention where it truly exist, yet Desteni has done this and many has done the research themselves and found that the mind is…… well find out by visiting the Desteni forum and see for yourself.

Now back-chat will come in and it will poison every breathe, it has a tendency of lurking in and seeing what’s within and bring it out to ring in your ears and make you do or not do the things that matter, the matter that is here that makes up all of us even the atmosphere.

Back chat is that little voice talking In the back of your head, it is the should have’s and the should not haves, it is the can I or can I not, it is the must I or must I not, it will obviously always choose limitation and fear, because within the atmosphere that is here as the humans existence on this sphere called planet earth, we only live and care about our own birth till our own death.

Thus when you have known and have seen and have investigated Desteni and what Desteni in fact stand for as the solution to life then you will know by now not one bit of Back chat is ever good for you or anyone else, as good redefined is that which is best for all life.

I have stopped my back chat to a degree where I can move without it interFEARing with me, it is but something that comes up and then I breathe it away, this is how I move every day, one layer at a time I remove the brainwashing conditioned by all that I ever called mine, the self-interested me is what I am setting free so that I that am here can live and truly see.

When I see the back chat coming up I stop, I do not give it one more moment of my blood, I move myself to the best I can be to live the utmost of me that is within the best interest of all life and me, it is the way forward and it the way for life.

I have seen through my own faults and failures that back chat is a devil, it is evil within me, it is what we used to call LIVE, to live out our back chat used to be the motto, I used to rather lay on the couch and do nothing, play a game till the morning or sit around and moaning about life being so dame unfair.

The unfairness I discovered was simply me as the back-chat playing a game of Russian roulette with myself in a bet, a bet that I thought I could win because I was playing with cards that looked fair, only to discover I was playing with the only pair and with no one else there, obviously always winning, waiting for the other to pull the trigger, the loser, only then to discover I was the only one with a turn. Back chat was the other, the winner and I actually always the loser in reality, as the back-chat basically made me argue myself, fight myself, limit myself, create delusions for myself, and to end up doing nothing, and so let the next invisible round begin, Because its all in my head.

Life moved on and time went by, I was still the same old me waiting for life to change me, or for me to change my life, the things Back-chat does, the things we chat to ourselves are the most dangerous, it is best we self-forgive and move forward otherwise we will find ourselves in a cycle, no different than a hamster in a wheel, it will only end once we die, as there is nowhere we are running to. or where we can hide.

I strongly suggest that the Desteni message is solid within self, investigate, research, apply and live, so that it is within the abstract mind where it is to be found, as long as we keep it within the concrete stage at the back of our mind lingering as the back chat we have we will never live the potential we possess as the living expressions we are of life, yet to realize in each moment and to move as each moment to do what’s needed to be done and to not falter within our own self-created trap called the back-chat.

Day 216 – Zombies, the Human Consumers P3

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be brainwashed by Zombie movies that the human can never be the cause of the world ending or being the cause of hell breaking out on earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that hell is already here and we as the human race are Zombies walking around everyday not even noticing the shit we accept and allow to exist within our world that we all share.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that even in this time and age where information is available to all who can hear and see what is going on no one is doing anything to stop or change this world to a better place even when a solution is given such as the Equal money system and Desteni – people do not give a shit, and that this is even worse than Zombies.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that the humans have been made Zombies through their own acceptances and allowances within the current world system to everyday just repeat the same shit over and over to make money which is consuming the flesh of the earth for it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that the humans are the dead and walking around as the proof is within what we as the human race accept and allow on this earth to exist within all parts of life as who we are and that through the physical evidence I can see that we are like Zombies not caring at all.

I commit myself to when and as I get distracted by Zombie movies as being evil and the only possible way that earth can be destroyed to stop and breathe and to realize that I am distracting myself from taking self responsibility for what I am accepting and allowing within and as me and so within this world that is already pure evil as the evidence is already and have been here as the bruises and scars on earth from the human.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself as more than or better than a Zombie to stop and breathe within the realization that I am doing so as a way to not look at myself and where In my life I am in fcat doing the same things within my patterns and behaviors that is that of a consumer, consuming LIFE as the physical to only feed the mind temporarily.

I commit myself to show that Zombies that is projected within movies is the part that all Humans play as the Consumers of earth destroying our only planet for the sake of consuming to stay alive in our minds instead of as our bodies that is always alive anyway and to sell ourselves short for this temporary energy experience just to feel alive for a moment as the mind as energy.

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