Day 430 - Is this Possible - Standing as all Characters Part 3

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.Day 428 - Is this Possible - Standing as all Characters Part 1
Day 429 - Is this Possible - Standing as all Characters Part 2

When and as I see myself separating myself from other characters that are here in this world as the humans through judgments, I stop I breathe and I stand stable within breathing and do not accept or allow any judgment within me that is of separation from another.

When and as I see myself accessing the “belief” or the automated pattern where I “belief” that I have to judge other people as their characters in a good/bad manner in order to feel save and to only protect my own self-interest – I STOP, I breathe, I see and realize that it is but only a Belief and a Pattern that I have automated to protect only my own self-interest, and that within this I am separating myself from the other being and thus creating “fear” within myself that is unnecessary and only sabotaging myself and the other person.

When and as I see that I am within the Pattern as the Behaviors and the thoughts/back-chat within me where I am attacking/judging another in a good or bad way just to protect my won fears/self-interest, I stop I breathe and I rather direct myself and what I give attention to, to myself and my breathing and me being here as the Physical in practicality and learning to know thyself as another.

When and as I see myself judging myself as the characters that I have accepted and allowed myself to become/exist as in a good/bad relationship just so that I can judge another characters/people to feel good/bad about myself as a way to fuel the energy that I am addicted to as the patterns that I have constructed for myself as endless cycles of doing the same thing over and over again just to have the same energy feelings/emotions just so that I can feel I am surviving and living and protecting myself as the patterns of separation that I have created for myself I stop and I breathe and I direct myself out of this endless cycle of self-abuse and “broken record” living, and to move myself to rather stop the separation within myself and to stand and walk in another’s shoes as my own and or walk my own shoes first to understand myself and how I created myself so that I can walk a solution and become the living example for myself as that which is best for all life in full understanding of all the mechanics that is here as creation as myself.

When and as I see myself being in judgment while helping or attempting to help another – I stop and I breathe, I realize the consequences of my actions as all actions and words I speak in the attempt of helping another person will be contaminated by my secret judgment and thus not be helping but rather creating problems, as I see and realize that I am helping another through seeing them and their situation as separate from myself and not standing in their shoes as them as myself in that moment and helping them as I would have helped myself in such a situation.

When and as I see that I am in fearsof another – thus fearsng standing in their shoes in fact in the moment in separation coming from a belief of that I am different and that I would not have done the same if I was that person – I stop and I breathe and I allow myself to really Talk or communicate with the other being or to be here in breathe listening unconditionally and to place myself in their shoes and to see for myself in fact if I were in their shoes what I would have done and how they have done what they are doing or did and to check myself the truth and to only then give an answer or direction to them as myself and not in separation as judgments that come from self-interested characters that’s only in it to protect themselves and their own energy sources from/as the mind.

Day 429 – Is this Possible – Standing as all Characters Part 2

Continuing from - Day 428 - Is this Possible, Standing as all Characters Part 1

Clarification – when I say walk in anothers shoes, I am not saying go and actually do things, like if you walk in the shoes of a murdered without judgment, it does not mean go and murder someone just to walk in their shoes, see we humans have this ability that isn’t about feelings or emotions or imagination or mind basically, this ability is where we are all in fact ONE, and thus we can as ourselves within ourselves place ourselves with and as another to see their life and creations as ourselves – because we are all in the end the exact same in how we function and create characters and live them, it is to walk each process of each character within self to see the creation process and to understand it and to stand one and equal to all characters – this is where one can stand as all characters and not be in fear of characters and then take it further – walk as each character the process of self-forgiveness and self-change to be that which is best for all life and to be life – and thus one find’s as yourself the solution and takes a position of authority – so there is no excuses and a clarity for all existing characters on how to change as you are the example, and this will lead to where one will find many characters require a System change to give them the opportunity to change. This understanding within self and all will be motivation enough to why Living Income Guaranteed is a Must.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from all other characters that are here in this world as the people.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as judgment as the point of separation of what is here as all characters that exist as the humans here on earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Belief that I as the Character that I exist as have to judge all other characters in a Good/bad relationship in order to feel save and to only protect my own self-interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge all other characters as Good/Bad just to protect my own self-interest as the character that I exist as.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Judge myself and my Character(s) that I exist as in a good/bad relationship and to within this judge all other characters to feel good/bad about myself as a way of keeping myself in check within my own self judgment and the judgment of others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT consider walking in another person’s shoes unconditionally in fact through taking off my shoes for a moment and to fully understand another as myself so that I can stand as the Problem and the solution in clarity in fact as that what is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when I am helping or attempting to help or support another being while being in judgment of that person and their character that I cannot help them but instead all I can/am doing is making decisions based on the judgments I have within my mind towards/about the other person instead of the actual problem and thus the solution.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be ignorant to the message of “walking in another’s shoes” as a point of judgment which reflects the ignorance of actually in fact understanding the implication and the practical application of such statement and to walk it practically in fact in each breathe/moment.

I forgive myself that have accepted and allowed myself to fear stepping out of my own shoes, out of the comfort of my own shoes and to step into another’s shoes in fact as myself and to walk, as the fear is of what I might find and what I have to admit and realize for myself and that what I have judged and believed was/is always just a lie and not real and the abuse that exist within that and all I have done thus far through the separation, thus seeing and realizing I must walk in the shoes of another to understand myself as them and to within this not place any judgment of good or bad, but to do so within the principle of what’s best for all life being my guide.
To be continued.

Day 428 – Is this Possible, Standing as all Characters Part 1

Why do I fear a murderer or a rapist or a gangster or a gym buff or a weird looking person standing on the corner of the street, or a homeless guy? Why do I fear these characters?

It is simple, to first realize that it is all only characters – as a character is someone that plays a certain role in a movie/film or a performance, and we are currently living in a show called capitalism, and capitalism requires characters to play certain roles so that capitalism can be capitalism.

If the People/Characters that exist today did not exist the show called capitalism could not have been possible, each and every role of each and every character is specific and simply a creation from the system/environment.

The characters are each unique and special within how they were created since birth, the character that is built and designed how to act/speak/move and then what to do is all formed and trained how to act accordingly to the input from the environment and thus the memory implants, the characters aren’t the being that was born, it is literally an actor playing its role, unaware that it’s a role and calling if Life, this is simply how life is.

So why do I fear these characters? I myself am a character, so as my character I must play the roles that I have learned since I was a child and then the roles I have assigned myself through what was taught to me as a child, so all other characters are obviously acting with me in this BIG play we call life, only the things we act out are REAL based on fictional creations in our minds, that’s one scary point, so the other point is, as my character I am not allowed to ever BREAK character, otherwise I will lose my job, I will get fired from my role and who knows where I will end up.

So standing in the shoes of others as their characters is breaking character, I am stepping out of my acting shoes and standing in someone else’s acting shoes. Which goes against the script I got from those that have gone before me!

So I always stay in my shoes and rather judge all the other characters and separate myself from all the other characters just so that I can keep my character, through judging all the other characters I am defining my character as everything I don’t want to be judged as as what I judged others as, because I see the evil within me through the act of judging and thus fear this act of evil to be done onto me, it’s like I fear judging myself the same way I judge others, how ridiculous, because apparently at the end of the show we call life, there will be a reward for the best character, this reward comes in many forms as many different parts of life assume it will be after death and claim it as truth.

So I am facing a few characters and will be facing a lot more coming, many I have never even met yet, because each character is circumstantial in a way.

Its like when I was sixteen and I went with a friend to a petrol station and he introduced me to this Nigerian guy that is his drug dealer, this was a mean motherfucker, I was shit scared of him, he was massive with BIG muscles and he had lots of chains and gold rings and tooth and a sidearm on him, in the open, this guy had the whole Character of gangster and that he has been in some shit I have never even thought of, who Knows, I feared this character and till today I fear anyone that might resemble such character, yet why do I fear him?

I never took the time to place myself in this characters shoe and to walk in his shoes and see for myself, I immediately went into first Judging and thus separating and thus creating fear.

Same with once I stopped drinking alcohol, everyone else drinking alcohol is scary, yes I was that character before, I played that role a few times, I fucked up badly with this character, yet Now I suddenly am faced with these characters in my life and I don’t know what to do, I still fear them, they are unpredictable and drunk/possessed.

This reveals to me that even when I was that character I never investigated myself as the character even, I even separated myself from the characters that I played, and now I have to revisit these characters and face myself as the character and stop the fear/separation within me, stopping the judgments.

Journey to be continued.

Day 33 - The control Bully.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to control my fear and reactions instead of dealing with who I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as contained fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to contain the fear with in me as a way of control, within the believe that as long as I am able to control my contained fear that I am in control, realizing that the fear is in control and thus have side effects such as bullying.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take all the fear that I allow within myself and to bottle it up within myself from the believe that fear is wrong and bad and that I am weak if I show fear - realizing that within the attempt to control the fear within me I am as Who I accept and allow myself to be and to try and control life outside of me within ever moment, realizing this causes me  to live within fear and anticipation and thus I live with in constant reactions and abusive behavioral patterns that is a side effect from holding in fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe i can control reality and all situations/scenarios - realizing that through time in the past it has been proven and shown to me that I can not control all of reality and that which is outside of me, but that I can only decide outcomes as who I am within situations/scenarios coming up/happening and to accordingly act with in the best interest of all life as that which is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as mind control over myself with in containing fear and play outs on reality - realizing that with in existing as a controlled self I am not allowing myself to deal with points such as fear effectively and thus suppress the point with in control and so create my own limitations and reactions in life as I project and anticipate the contained fear with in me manifesting with outside of me, which leads to external release points such as bullying.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the point of control with in me as a reason/justification for reacting and getting angry when I see other beings aren't controlling themselves as I do, as this is a jealousy point because I see that my fear that I am controlling isn't real and thus I fear the fear isn't real and so want to get angry and impose my fear onto others so that I may feel save and right and in control.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to impose my point of self contained fear of life within and as control onto other life forms/beings either through physical abuse or emotional abuse as to feel things are fair, giving reason for why other must fear and feel the same as me even if it isn't real and thus feeling in control, realizing this isn't best for all life or self at all - as what I am imposing onto life as my own control through my actions is creating fear with in other life forms/beings and thus more danger for myself and others and actually creating my own fear through my fear.

I commit myself to breath and to check myself and to see if I am in a manifested pattern of abuse such as imposing my control onto other life/beings though my own fears and insecurities, and to stop through writing and applying self forgiveness and to live the correction as to stop the mind created control and to remain here with in and as the physical with in what is practical and common sense as that which is best for all life in all ways.

I commit myself to take self responsibility for what I have accepted and allowed to exist within me as my own fears and to not suppress them or judge them, to walk the points with in writing, self forgiveness and to release myself from the bottled up fears and to stop manifesting a world in fear through control.

Day 32 part 1 - A Bully spawns from Family.

Hard to swallow and to admit, all bullies are created at home, from within the family, it should be quite obvious that bullies can only be created at home, all children spend most of their time learning in their first seven years of their lives at home from parents and older siblings if they have, as the first seven years are the most crucial time's of a child's life, because it is with in the first seven years that a child is decided who he/she will be.

Here is my example through my own experience with being the bully!, when I was 6 years old and still in kinder garden I used to bully certain kids, not all kids, only those that I could see through observation and physical behaviors that I could bully.

I remember there was this one kid that I "enjoyed" bullying, I loved making him cry, I felt a certain level of power. Like I was draining the other kid and taking his energy, I find it fascinating that I knew exactly what to do to this kid to make him cry, this specific kid was very emotional, I could always see it in his eyes and I loved teasing him on an emotional level, for example.

There was a slide on the school yard, all the kids would go on it during break time, I would get to the top and I would allow who ever I chose to go down and give them passage way, when this kid came to the top I would say, NO you can not go, and he would ask me why. Then I would say just because, he would feel shit about himself, then I said, Ok you can go, as he sits down to go down the slide, I start pushing him in the back with my foot, like I was going to push him down really hard and fast, I would say stop, the more he says stop the harder I push till I could feel and see he was feeling powerless, he would then get tears in his yes, not yet crying

Then as he goes down the slide I would jump on and slide with my feet  into his back, like I was being spiteful and nasty to him for going down the slide.

So this was one of my experiences as the bully, I made this kid cry at least a few times a week, it became a habit and I started enjoying it more and more, the bullying stopped when I went to primary school.

So now it is time to investigate the whole scenery here and see for myself what is here with in all of this, I was six years old, I did not have influential friends yet where I could have learned this from, I only had parents and siblings, so the obvious place to start the self honest investigation would be at Home, and how it all happened.

Here is a play out I see happened at home, I used to tease my siblings and my parents would say Gian stop it, I would then stop it and not continue out of the fear of getting punished.

So my next question would be why did I tease my brothers, I was actually daring them through being annoying to them and giving a random kick or irritating them and bothering them and saying stuff to them, and so I see I did that because I was Jealous at my siblings.

Why was I jealous of them?, as I was the middle child I saw my two siblings always as getting all the attention from the parents and they were heard and listened to, I had to be naughty to get attention, I had to do things that no one likes to get the attention, as my older sibling got a lot of attention first of all for being the older one and was there first, and then I was just the next one and my younger sibling was  the one that got everything because he was the parents chance to make things right, I was felt like a kid stuck in the middle being suffocated by the other two. (obviously this was all from my own perception at that age)

So now my next question would be how did all of this come out as me bullying some other kid.

The kid that I bullied was a older sibling to a  younger one, and this kid was a resemble of my older sibling and that I could now take out my jealousy on him, I always did it in secret, you know, the adults can not see what I am doing, it was okay for other kids to see it!! And so I would end up using the kid as a punching bag for all my bottled up emotions, and seeing the kid crying was like a empowerment of myself, to feel that I had power when at home I feel like I had none, no one heard me, no one believed me, no one gave me attention, I was screamed at, I was yelled at because I was nasty, I felt powerless at home, no one ever took me serious saying it is only another stage he is going through. Thus I seek the opposite in secret, this was me being a bully.

This is looking at all points, no blame, no judgment, seeing what evil the family as it exist as today is, any and all bullies are created through family, no matter how nice parents are or how nasty, both  are equally creating bullies to enter this world, I am a perfect example of how I child that comes from a "good" loving and caring family can still turn out to be a bully.

I also have been bullied in my life, by at least four different people directly and a couple indirectly to cause me harm, and where I have been harmed, I knew all the kids that bullied me in my primary school years and they all had good families, enough money, and some had bad, yet a bully is a bully.

We need to understand that we do not know how we are creating reality and how we are actually teaching our children, that is why what we teach them through words and actions isn't the only way they learn and will not be what they do/become only, as there are resonances to consider and pre-programming , as there are other influences at play yet to be understood by all - Desteni gives the tools/information/courses etc.

Self forgiveness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist looking at the current way that family exist as as not being the right way as that which is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have blindly accepted and allowed myself to believe that the current way family exist as as being the only true way.

I forgive myself that I have not seen and realize that the family construct/system as it exist today is the reason for why the world is the way it is currently.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to see and realize that because of the way family exist today is the reason the world is the way it is today.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that everything that exist in the world comes from a starting point first, and that starting point is currently the family, as all children are born and raised in a family first for the first seven years and only then are they exposed to outside where they have already been programmed an thus now they are only using what they have already learned from family and how to apply it practically in and as living it physically.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the way family exist now as it has been passed on from generation to generation as being the right way, realizing that what I am actually accepting and allowing is the sins of the fathers with and as me as being the right way, realizing that I have to stop walking in the footsteps of my father to end the sins of my fathers through actual change, change that is not the opposite but that is best for all life in all ways to actually stop and not to create a polarity in energy movement, but to stop both polarities as myself as the family construct with in me and to re-birth myself as life so that life can be what is born from all families and live one and equal here on earth as LIFE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself  to refuse to change for what is best for all life in all ways because of LOVE for my family and believing it is the ultimate things, realizing no matter how much I pretend to love my family putting all the hate aside and all the arguments and resentments and irritations etc, Family is where the humans are born from that run the world and that the current world is dying and not blooming and expressing, thus it is in my face that love for my family is actually killing the world and earth as the evidence is actual physical and can not be denied even if one has to poke their eyes out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the way I was raised was the right way, yet the proof that I am evil is who I am with in my secret mind and actions, showing to me constantly that I as the manifestation as my family is in fact not what is best for all life or the right way of raising a child, otherwise I would have been at peace with myself from the start of birth till death.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear disrespecting parents through not accepting and allowing what was thought to me as a child and to decide for myself with in common sense and self honesty what is best and practical and actually real as what is here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear looking at Family as the starting point of where all evil originate from as me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pain family with beautiful ideas and promises and believes while in reality I know as a fact that it isn't what I make it up to be and thus I am praying and holding on to false gods instead of trusting the one true god as the physical as me one and equal and what is in my face.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make the idea of family something so so so much more than what it is just so that I can cope with family and feel that I belong somewhere in a world where each family is for themselves.

I forgive myself that I have not realized that family is where I learned and trained myself to be who I am as all the evil that exist with in me as my mind as secret thoughts and behaviors.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react when I call myself evil, realizing that it is only the mind defending itself in the face of confrontation, as I know I am not evil as who I am as LIFE but only as me that I have accepted and allowed with in the mind as thoughts/feeling and emotions in secret.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to call a spade by its name and rather hide behind beautiful ideas and believes in my mind about family and to not have to face what I have created and accepted and allowed as myself, realizing that I will at death or here have to face who I am in each breath ad thus to take self responsibility here while I can still do something is much better and more practical and where I can stop and have feedback and cross-reference the results to see what is real and what is not and to do what is bets for all life in all ways.

I commit myself to investigate my first seven years of my live as thoroughly as I can so that I cna see and understand how I created myself as the family construct/system - so that I can in clarity expose the family construct/system as it exist currently for the evil it is and creating in this world as what the world is showing us everyday in clarity in all ways.

I commit myself to stop blame/judgment through self forgiveness and writing and to take self responsibility for what I have accepted and allowed to exist in this world as me as the manifestation of family input/output, and to change as that which is best for all life in all ways and to become the living example in each breathe by breathe.

I commit myself to take a stand and to end the sins of the fathers through educating myself and others about how we have create and manifested this world together with in common sense and to bring awareness to people as I give it to myself through self forgiveness as that is what is best for all life and to change the world as the family system as that which is best for all life.