Day 307 – Not Being heard, Aggression and annoyance Part 2

Day 306 – Not Being heard, Aggression and annoyance Part1

I commit myself to when and as I react to others not hearing me to stop and to breathe and to wait a while till I see the person is focused more and here and then speak again.

I commit myself to when and as I get aggressive and loud within my communication towards others to be heard, to stop and to breathe within the realization that it is Not best for all life as i am starting to now treat others as I would Like to NOT be treated.

I commit myself to when and as I see that there is aggression coming up from within me to know myself in that moment and that I cannot trust myself to speak or act, thus I see and realize that I must commit myself to take a deep breath and to let go of the aggression and only speak once the aggression is stopped.

I commit myself to when and as I see back chat or thoughts coming up where I project what I am experiencing as aggression or annoyance from within me onto the other person to within the obvious common sense that it is within me to stop and to breathe and to take self responsibility for how I am experiencing myself and to check why and how I am creating these experiences and to change.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am making the other person the problem to stop and to breathe and and to make sure I am breathing and not giving attention to the experience within me.

I commit myself to when and as I experience anything in me that I am projecting towards another to make breathing my first priority within and as such a scenario.

I commit myself to when and as i see that I am in fear of who I am becoming when and as I am possessed by aggression and annoyance that I have already attached to another being as being the cause which is a dangerous scenario to sit down or to walk away or to direct my focus on touching something or anything physical while breathing to direct myself back to the physical out of the energy experience till I am stable and can walk to the other person and talk to them in clarity and have taken full self responsibility.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am a danger to others to take self responsibility through removing myself temporarily from the scenario if possible and to stabilize myself.

I commit myself to when and as I see a scenario that will and possibly can occur when I know I have to speak or ask questions to already place a foundation of prevention for myself where I give myself the breath that I may not be heard and that I will have to repeat myself and that I must be OKAY with it and not take it personal and simply do those actions over and over without any reactions or energy till I am heard and it is done.

Day 306 – Not being heard aggressive and annoyed. Part 1

Day 306 – Not being heard aggressive and annoyed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react when and as I find that others are not hearing me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that when someone else are not hearing me that I must react and become loud and aggressive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become aggressive when and as someone isn’t hearing me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take it personal when and as someone isn’t hearing me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Stop breathing and to go into the mind where I hear myself and then to within that get aggressive and annoyed with the other person not hearing me as I see that in my head I sound clear and loud enough and thus the other person must be the problem.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make the other person the problem for what I am experiencing within me as aggression and annoyance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I am getting aggressive with myself for not being patient and breathing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I get annoyed with myself fro getting angry instead of breathing and being patient and to wait till the person is here and I am here and we can talk clearly.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Get annoyed when and as I have to repeat myself three or more times with what I had to say.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I must be able to say something ten to a billion times without reacting or experiencing anything within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Fear who I become when and as I am aggressive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own behavior when and as I get aggressive and annoyed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what I can or might do when and as I am getting annoyed and the annoyance turns into aggression.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Fear myself, seeing and realizing that I know myself and thus it is myself responsibility to direct myself in ways that is that of prevention and not avoidance but prevention as that which is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what others will think of me if I lose my cool and show my aggression and annoyed side.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear putting fear in others when and as my aggression shows or comes out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what I can do to myself, as I have never gone there fully but see that the energy behind it is strong and my body hardens up and I become really intense.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget breathing when and as I see a situation coming up where I might have agr4ession or become annoyed and to prevent that from coming here through seeing the prediction and breathing and stop.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Hold it against the other person when and as I experience aggression and annoyance within me, seeing and realizing that is manipulation and me not taking self responsibility for myself but instead trying to have power over another so that they must change for me instead of me changing how I experience myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attempt to manipulate others through becoming aggressive and annoyed to induce fear with intensity and so NOT having to take self responsibility for who I have accepted and allowed myself to become.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize the consequences of what I am doing when and as I become aggressive and annoyed and to act on that, that i am creating fearful people around me. And fearful people usually will and want to get rid of the fear and thus I am opening myself for harm or whatever consequences, equal and one to what I am accepting and allowing within me.

To be Continued on Self commitments.

Day 204 – Self judgment and Aggression

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that it is necessary for me to judge myself as a way of punishing myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use self judgment as a way of making myself feel bad about myself so that I can feel good about myself again later.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize than when and as I judge myself for everything I do that I will get frustrated at myself and never change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I judge myself that I am actually ANGRY at myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within judging myself only create anger within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that judging myself does NOT help anything or anyone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I judge myself ro anything happening within my world or within me that I am only motivating anger and thus aggression.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I judge myself within doing something or learning something new that when I try it again I will try and do everything I can to avoid the self judgment, and when and as I point does not work out I judge myself again and thus built up anger towards myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that aggression is a byproduct of when I have judged myself within something over a long period of time and the judgment only kept coming and never saw any change – not seeing and realizing that judging myself in the first place is what isn’t allowing any change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that aggression/anger is always towards self and that when and as I want to take the aggression out on someone else that I am blaming them for ME not changing or judging myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that aggression is when I have JUDGED myself consistently over and over and as I judge myself I only make myself angry at myself within the belief that is justifies why I judge myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that aggression within me and within my behavior is a manifestation of feeling powerless to change – not seeing and realizing that every time I judge myself I tell myself I can’t change and thus the judgment is the point that creates the illusion that I am powerless.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself – not seeing and realizing that self judgment is always brainwashing self and only limiting self to self’s own judgment as if the judgments in my mind about myself is valid and real and must be true lol.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that all and any self judgment is only the mind limiting the physical from moving and change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that aggression/anger towards myself or others is always about myself as it is a experience within me that I created through placing and validating judgments from and as the mind as who I am, when it in fact isn’t who I am as the physical breathing here stable.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself being angry or within an aggressive mood to stop within the realization that somewhere I judged myself that it has come to a point of accumulating on a physical level where I feel powerless to change as I have confirmed within my own self judgment that I can’t change LOL. See and realizing the stupidity of this.

I commit myself to when and as I Judge myself for anything or anyone to stop and realize that I m placing limitation onto myself as knowledge and information that will make me feel like I am un able to change and thus turn into aggression. Seeing and realizing that the key to change is to investigate the judgment and to stop it.