Day 565 – Personal Persona Person Prison

On the word Personal

Word Play
Person – all
Persona – l

Here I am taking on the word Personal – where it is currently existing within and as me from and as a system definition. Where Personal has become personal to ME.

So when we take a look at the current definition that we are all living as Personal, here is a dictionary definition for you and me.

- of, affecting, or belonging to a particular person rather than to anyone else.

- of or concerning one's private life, relationships, and emotions rather than matters connected with one's public or professional career.

So when I look at those definition I can say within self-honesty that I exist mostly within and as that definition(s) – I have defined my life around the “personal” and completely missed LIFE. So by breaking up the word I came to see two more hidden meanings/revelations
In the word personal we have Persona, and Persona is the following from the good old Dictionary:
- the aspect of someone's character that is presented to or perceived by others.

It is quite fascinating because here I can see how I have lived a certain personal lifestyle where everything is about me and my personal – and within that I have created a Persona, which others are perceiving me with, and I also have come to LIKE this persona, in fact throughout my life I have lived to actively advertise my personal life as to create a certain persona as to feed the EGO.

The part that I have never lived, which is also in the word Personal, is once again hidden in breaking up the word and playing with the sounds.

Personal should be “Person ALL” – a person that lives for ALL – where one moves from the personal to the ALL/LIFE – it is fascinating to see how this one word hold the system/mind living of the word in the word and yet also have the reverse process/correction within the same word, the key to live the word in the correct way that is best for all life.

So now how to take this word and to physically integrate this word into and as me, to become a LIVING word as who I am, where I stop the personal and start living as a person that lives for ALL, this one words takes on all og me, every aspect of me – as I have defined myself and all of me throughout my life as Personal to ME, I never considered to live and consider things for ALL as who I am as my actions, my words my life.

So the first question I am asking myself now is, should there be something that is personal?
Well to investigate this point for myself right here and now, I must consider all, everything – and looking at my body, looking at what is here, NOTHING belongs to me, nothing is personal to me, not even a single cell in my body is mine, not the air I breathe Is mine, not even the food I eat is mine, everything return to substance/life, so what is personal? How have I lived this personal as such an absolute within myself, within my life, yet the physical is always showing me that nothing is personal, nothing is just for ME as mine. Everything belongs to LIFE.

How come all my life have I made everything about me and my emotions, my feelings, my thoughts, my experience, my life, everything was about me personally. When someone says something to me that I don’t like, I take it personal, how do I take it personal, where does this personal GO? Do I have a little bank somewhere in another dimension where I collect everything that is personal to me, what I have as belongings, what I experience, what I react to or take personal? So that I can do what with it? What is the point of taking things personally? To take things personally my ego gets hurt? Thus my self-value is hurt? What I personally have on this earth as material things determine how my ego feels? How I define myself? What is the point of personal?

Did I just realize that I wasted my life on something that makes no sense yet I lived it as an absolute thing? I mean it makes way more sense be a person for ALL/Life this is living in a way where what I do is “giving” instead of collecting or hording, may it be material things or mind/emotional/feelings/thoughts that results in nothing as who I am as a being/life– and instead live to give, as my giving will be to life.

So that’s all good in theory and to really set up the word new for myself – person-ALL – so now every time I see myself focusing on “personal” I can identify that I am within a persona, I am within EGO, I am within self-interest, I am in the Prison/person that can only focus on itself and have limited capabilities to look at LIFE and to act and direct myself, the thinking of focus of “personal” is very limited – but when I expand myself in those moments from persona to person for All I remove the inner and I expand as the outer to include all that is HERE, in breathe.

Day 203 – believing is must be personal and fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that everything must be personal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that when I talk to another being that I must talk to them from the starting point of being personal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take everything personal that is happening to me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I feel and make everything something that is happening to me that I am taking and making it personal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that the statement “happening to me” is a statement of taking it personal and making it personal not seeing and realizing that I create what happens to me in my life and thus it isn’t personal it is to take self responsibility and correct self.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that when someone speaks to me no matter what it is about that it must be personal because the person is speaking to me, seeing and realizing that the me I am referring to is thus a character and that when someone is speaking to “me” as who I have defined myself as that it isn’t me but a character that is always in defense of itself to ensure its existence as energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that as a baby there was no personal till I had a name and everything I was taught or that was done was attached to my name and I labeled myself as all of it and made it all personal, seeing and realizing that it isn’t necessary as it only created survival and fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that when and as I am within a conflict situation where I am a participant that I must make it personal, instead of seeing and realizing that when I make it personal I lose sight of reality as the physical and what the real point is as I then tend to only defend to attack and keep the energy going never getting to a resolve that is one and equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that if I want to make a point that it has to be personal or the person will not see the point, seeing and realizing that this only creates energy and thus a battle of Ego’s that will never be humble to stop and stand one and equal as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that making and taking thing personal is the only way to resolve them and take them on.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that personal is not within the best interest of all life and only exist to serve self interest and the word “personal” indicates clearly.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself making a point within my day that comes up personal to, stop and breathe and to focus on the physical and the universe and to within the certain situation deal with it as it is in actual reality, within the realization that when things are taken personal everything narrows down to making it personal and not the real issue at hand anymore.

I commit myself to stop living as a personal being and to rebirth myself as life one and equal as all life that is not personal but life and thus live what is best for all life in all ways and to end the living of the consumerism product of personal.

I commit myself to stop the pattern of always first making it personal and to instead focus on breathing and remaining here as the physical to deal with the physical in one dimension and not as personal as beliefs opinions back chat mind that is many many dimensions to deal with while attempting to deal with the actual physical situation, seeing and realizing it is only self compromise ad that this creates fear and anxiety as self always only fear losing the personal or getting attacked personally and being hurt personally as everything is made personal instead of what is best for all life in all ways.