Day 490 - Personality as a point of view

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that I have through my acceptance and allowances of thought made myself less than my thoughts.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that the moment I accept or allow a thought to create any form of fear/anxiety/stress or any other movement within me, that I have made myself less than a thought.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make myself less than a thought through accepting and allowing thoughts to “mean” something within myself as the relationship that I have created within me towards/with thoughts.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that the moment a thought direct me as the physical being, that I have submitted to thoughts as having power over me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize, that thought/thoughts are but a point of view/opinion that is “separate from reality and not in fact reality as it is taking place inside MY mind and not real in reality, and thus it isn’t real.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that each and every thought I have is MY point of View and not reality in fact, as each and every thought that I have as my point of view exists as me as my acceptance and allowance to sustain a personality, so that I can say I exist as an individual who has MY own point of view of reality, coming from a point of fear of losing my “mental self” as the personality that I have as the thoughts I have as my points of view/opinions that I have – that is deliberately created within conflict to be able to sustain friction that creates Mental energy so that I can keep creating this mental friction just to sustain a limited existence as a mental individual as thoughts – my point of view on reality. Seeing and realizing that there HERE is only one reality and that MY point of view on reality will always differ from ALL other humans as long as I hold on to personality as the mental self, the projected self, not the living self.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take “thought” and having thoughts as something to be taken lightly, not seeing and realizing that each and every thought I accept and allow as my point of view on reality, as my mental projection that keeps my mental self as my personality alive, that I am in fact creating a personality of disharmony, of friction, that can never move to a point of living what is best for all LIFE as me, living as what is here in each and every breath as the real physical reality we all share equally, that does not require opinion, of points of views or ideas or personalities to be what it is, what is here as the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my point of view on reality is relevant, that my point of view of what I interpret of reality is important and bring big insights and realization, though having these points of views in my mind as thought, as idea, as opinion that is and will be by its design always be in conflict with all other mental selves as all mental selves require for their own existence to have different points of views on reality to have friction to keep creating mental energy that then can be used by each being to make the statement, I am individual, I am unique, this is my personality, because Look at my point of view on reality with all my believes/Ideas and opinions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that thought is the Veil in front of my physical eyes, that does not allow me to see common sense that is HERE existent as the physical, but rather to only see points of views as my opinions, beliefs, ideas and thus as my “personality”.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that common sense only exist within the physical, and not within the mind, as the mind is a mental self, not a physical self, and a mental self can only interpret and project, create illusions and delusions, not see reality and what is here, and thus as long as there is one thought in my mind I am living behind a veil and I will fail as the mind will prevail.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to train my body to submit to thoughts and the energy that thought as the mind as the mental self uses to numb or to paralyze the body to do as the mind wants for its own limited survival and to train my body to simply give in and trust the mind/thoughts as the minds point of view on reality.

Day 67 – The Personality Suit Part 2 - behavior 1

Ok so in part two I am going to go more into detail with my personality and certain traits that I have designed myself as the personality, these traits will be focused on the personality points that I have identified myself as, as the personality.

These are the traits that I will always make sure that when I meat people they must know me as these traits of my personality – you know the things you always do not matter with who you are as the main YOU (personality) that is imposed onto others as this is who I am, then all the small personality traits will always change and be different according to what is required in the situation environment. 

These personality traits is mostly in behaviors, you cannot help yourself but to live, be this personality because look it is in your behavior so it must be who you are, well it is to realize that it is who you have created yourself as. As the personality suit that you cannot even see you have a suit on anymore.

My first point will be on always being the “stable” guy in presentation. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to present myself as stable when I meet new people as the personality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to present myself as stable and quite when meeting new people in order to lurk them in, into feeling save around me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to present a image of myself as the personality of stability when around people or meeting new people to not “impose: on them in the fear of not being accepted.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive others and myself within giving forth the presentation that I am stable and quite while in fact I am talking and scanning and observing and creating all kinds of evil shit in my head towards them and the environment, realizing that I am only deceiving myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give forth a personality as energy that gives the impression that I am stable to get others to accept me and to trust me, realizing that I do not even trust myself as I have to wear a personality suite to give forth a false picture/idea/impression of myself to hide behind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put on the personality suit of looking and giving the impression I am stable instead of actually being stable, realizing that if I take self responsibility for what goes on within me through writing and self forgiveness I can birth myself as stability.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put on/wear the personality suite that gives a impression I am stable in the fear of that if others do not see me as stable that they will reject me, realizing that the image of stability I am presenting is but only a image that society have accepted and how stability looks like, reali9zing that stability is to have the ability to stand stand/stay still within any situation as breathe, as standing in the middle of a storm and to know Who I am as breath as life one and equal as that which is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to identify stability as a personality one must have that presents a certain picture to people.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize stability as breathe.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to split myself in to as me and as a personality just to not to have to face who I am with or without others.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to look at why I have created a personality trait that gives the impression to people that I am stable and that it is not acceptable as I still allow myself to not be stable in fact as breathe as Who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that I require a personality to hide what is going on within me to give the impression that I am stable, realizing that I do not have to hide it from myself and that I can actually take what goes on within me as the storm and still stand as breathe and to look and self forgive what is within me and to birth myself as breathe as stability.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the behavioral pattern as stability within my personality so that when I am around people I restrict myself from expressing myself and being here until I have found I am save and can let go of the stability trait and only then express myself.

I realize it isn’t to create a whole personality at all and that personality isn’t necessary, as the personality is actually that which allowed one to be unstable as the personality always changes, it is to breathe and be here within and as the physical moving, directing expressing self honesty and to live practically as that which is best for all life all ways, it is so much simpler and can be trusted by self and thus self stability. 

To Be Continued.