Day 491 - Identity

Who am I, for as long as I can remember, I have been identifying myself with the system, with society and all the constructs that is here. I have identified myself with everything my eyes can see that is seen as acceptable within society, within the system, I have live many identities, I have changed my identities year after year to fit in with society, to become a part of society that is accepted within the majority of society. I have been Identifying myself with emotions and feelings, with the thoughts I have that I had to create to fit in with society, I have over time come to believe that I am this Identity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself establish my identity based on things that are outside of me, such as images.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an Identity for myself that limits me to this identity and thus what I can do and cannot do according to my identity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an identity for myself based on the idea that I was born without one.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that the Identity I was born with was that of LIFE, and not a personality, as I can clearly state that I do not know or remember who I was when I was born, and thus my evidence that the Identity of who I am isn’t based on life experience or memories, as I already existed at birth as someone, as LIFE.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that who I am now as an Identity isn’t me, isn’t who I am but simply accumulated experiences/memories that I have accepted and allowed to define me, where I have given it value, and thus devalue myself from LIFE to something less, to a personality that is imperfect, and to within this imperfect personality as my identity walk in self-judgement consistently, never reaching my utmost potential as LIFE, as who I am in fact but has forgotten, that lies underneath all the memories (me more lies) and entangled within thoughts that occupies my mind consistently.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that who I am now as a MIND as a personality as the identity that I have given myself is who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that who I have become since birth is the real me, not seeing and realizing that who I have become is actually the suppression of the real me from birth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to to hold onto the Identity that I have become in fear that I will lose myself, seeing and realizing that I will lose the identity but in return I will realize myself, layer by layer back to LIFE as the real identity.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see the consequences of Identifying myself as the personality/mind that I am now , as a state of self-judgement and limitation, where this state is in fact De-manning myself, as a demon, where I do not see myself worthy as LIFE anymore and thus within this mind set abuse life and do not care for life, but now only to sustain this false identity.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize holding onto this false Identity that isn’t me from birth and thus will not be me at death, holds everything that isn’t real and thus I live in a way within this identity that is sustain a world/system that isn’t real, which is thus abusing all life that is real to create a world that uses what is real to create the false.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize HOW damaging it is towards myself and all LIFE to hold on to a Identity, as an Identity has a certain mind set, and if this identity’s mind set is that of NOT change, of not caring, of only being interested about itself and its existence then the possibility for change and for ending all abuse of life is nil.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that Identity is and ID ENTITY – a Entity that has an ID, a license to live in me, where I have given this entity permission to exist for me, to decide for me, to take direction for me, while I sit paralyzed not able t do anything, as the entity has been given full control of my LIFE by my permission in the believe that this is the way things are and supposed to be, this entity is the MIND.

Day 360 – Daily writing Part 5

 Day 359 – Daily writing Part4

I commit myself to write everyday within my journey to Life blog and to breathe and slow down and to see each and every letter I type, so that I can stop programming myself within spelling wrong and correct myself the first time, and to slow down and not just write any word that pops up or passes me by but to actually expand myself within my vocabulary through looking at what words to place next.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am within the experience of rushing my writing to stop and to slow down and to breathe, to start typing slow and to get the first words out and to bring myself HERE and out of the paranoia of writing.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am not focused on my writing to see what it is that I am accepting and allowing within myself as the thoughts/feelings/emotions and back chat to exist within and as me, and to see why I have them and what will be the result of accepting and allowing myself to be directed by them, as I see and realize that following the experience within me will result in the same time loop that I have created many years ago, and that change cannot come, as change is something I must actually live and not just intent.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am typing without being aware of what I am typing, to stop and to breathe and to slow down, to not go into the hope of changing, and to actually focus on my changing as I am doing it at the moment.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am judging myself on making mistakes when and as I am focused and working on change and correction, to stop and to breathe and to not judge myself as I realize that I have for many years lived NO correction and that the automation within mistakes has become accepted as my physical and thus I must and will still make mistakes only now I will see them as I am slowing down and thus I will be able to correct them.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am getting angry or making myself angry with myself for making a mistake to stop and to breathe, as I see and realize that making myself angry or getting angry is me attempting to use the anger as saying, it’s okay I got angry which means I do care but don’t really care about it as a way to justify my actions that I haven’t taken self-responsibility for, and thus it is simply a point of self-compromise and self-sabotage and not working for me or anyone else and thus anger is really useless when it is for self-interest. 

I commit myself to focus on myself and my writing when and as I am writing and to stop the excuses and justification that I use as reasons to not to have to take self-responsibility for myself and the actual physical steps that is required. 

I commit myself to take the actual physical steps that is required of me to correct myself and to take self-responsibility for myself and what I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as and to change to create myself and to reach self-perfection within what is best for all life.

Day 360 – Daily writing Part 5

 Day 359 – Daily writing Part4

I commit myself to write everyday within my journey to Life blog and to breathe and slow down and to see each and every letter I type, so that I can stop programming myself within spelling wrong and correct myself the first time, and to slow down and not just write any word that pops up or passes me by but to actually expand myself within my vocabulary through looking at what words to place next.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am within the experience of rushing my writing to stop and to slow down and to breathe, to start typing slow and to get the first words out and to bring myself HERE and out of the paranoia of writing.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am not focused on my writing to see what it is that I am accepting and allowing within myself as the thoughts/feelings/emotions and back chat to exist within and as me, and to see why I have them and what will be the result of accepting and allowing myself to be directed by them, as I see and realize that following the experience within me will result in the same time loop that I have created many years ago, and that change cannot come, as change is something I must actually live and not just intent.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am typing without being aware of what I am typing, to stop and to breathe and to slow down, to not go into the hope of changing, and to actually focus on my changing as I am doing it at the moment.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am judging myself on making mistakes when and as I am focused and working on change and correction, to stop and to breathe and to not judge myself as I realize that I have for many years lived NO correction and that the automation within mistakes has become accepted as my physical and thus I must and will still make mistakes only now I will see them as I am slowing down and thus I will be able to correct them.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am getting angry or making myself angry with myself for making a mistake to stop and to breathe, as I see and realize that making myself angry or getting angry is me attempting to use the anger as saying, it’s okay I got angry which means I do care but don’t really care about it as a way to justify my actions that I haven’t taken self-responsibility for, and thus it is simply a point of self-compromise and self-sabotage and not working for me or anyone else and thus anger is really useless when it is for self-interest. 

I commit myself to focus on myself and my writing when and as I am writing and to stop the excuses and justification that I use as reasons to not to have to take self-responsibility for myself and the actual physical steps that is required. 

I commit myself to take the actual physical steps that is required of me to correct myself and to take self-responsibility for myself and what I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as and to change to create myself and to reach self-perfection within what is best for all life.

Day 360 – Daily writing Part 5

 Day 359 – Daily writing Part4

I commit myself to write everyday within my journey to Life blog and to breathe and slow down and to see each and every letter I type, so that I can stop programming myself within spelling wrong and correct myself the first time, and to slow down and not just write any word that pops up or passes me by but to actually expand myself within my vocabulary through looking at what words to place next.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am within the experience of rushing my writing to stop and to slow down and to breathe, to start typing slow and to get the first words out and to bring myself HERE and out of the paranoia of writing.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am not focused on my writing to see what it is that I am accepting and allowing within myself as the thoughts/feelings/emotions and back chat to exist within and as me, and to see why I have them and what will be the result of accepting and allowing myself to be directed by them, as I see and realize that following the experience within me will result in the same time loop that I have created many years ago, and that change cannot come, as change is something I must actually live and not just intent.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am typing without being aware of what I am typing, to stop and to breathe and to slow down, to not go into the hope of changing, and to actually focus on my changing as I am doing it at the moment.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am judging myself on making mistakes when and as I am focused and working on change and correction, to stop and to breathe and to not judge myself as I realize that I have for many years lived NO correction and that the automation within mistakes has become accepted as my physical and thus I must and will still make mistakes only now I will see them as I am slowing down and thus I will be able to correct them.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am getting angry or making myself angry with myself for making a mistake to stop and to breathe, as I see and realize that making myself angry or getting angry is me attempting to use the anger as saying, it’s okay I got angry which means I do care but don’t really care about it as a way to justify my actions that I haven’t taken self-responsibility for, and thus it is simply a point of self-compromise and self-sabotage and not working for me or anyone else and thus anger is really useless when it is for self-interest. 

I commit myself to focus on myself and my writing when and as I am writing and to stop the excuses and justification that I use as reasons to not to have to take self-responsibility for myself and the actual physical steps that is required. 

I commit myself to take the actual physical steps that is required of me to correct myself and to take self-responsibility for myself and what I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as and to change to create myself and to reach self-perfection within what is best for all life.

Day 360 – Daily writing Part 5

 Day 359 – Daily writing Part4

I commit myself to write everyday within my journey to Life blog and to breathe and slow down and to see each and every letter I type, so that I can stop programming myself within spelling wrong and correct myself the first time, and to slow down and not just write any word that pops up or passes me by but to actually expand myself within my vocabulary through looking at what words to place next.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am within the experience of rushing my writing to stop and to slow down and to breathe, to start typing slow and to get the first words out and to bring myself HERE and out of the paranoia of writing.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am not focused on my writing to see what it is that I am accepting and allowing within myself as the thoughts/feelings/emotions and back chat to exist within and as me, and to see why I have them and what will be the result of accepting and allowing myself to be directed by them, as I see and realize that following the experience within me will result in the same time loop that I have created many years ago, and that change cannot come, as change is something I must actually live and not just intent.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am typing without being aware of what I am typing, to stop and to breathe and to slow down, to not go into the hope of changing, and to actually focus on my changing as I am doing it at the moment.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am judging myself on making mistakes when and as I am focused and working on change and correction, to stop and to breathe and to not judge myself as I realize that I have for many years lived NO correction and that the automation within mistakes has become accepted as my physical and thus I must and will still make mistakes only now I will see them as I am slowing down and thus I will be able to correct them.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am getting angry or making myself angry with myself for making a mistake to stop and to breathe, as I see and realize that making myself angry or getting angry is me attempting to use the anger as saying, it’s okay I got angry which means I do care but don’t really care about it as a way to justify my actions that I haven’t taken self-responsibility for, and thus it is simply a point of self-compromise and self-sabotage and not working for me or anyone else and thus anger is really useless when it is for self-interest. 

I commit myself to focus on myself and my writing when and as I am writing and to stop the excuses and justification that I use as reasons to not to have to take self-responsibility for myself and the actual physical steps that is required. 

I commit myself to take the actual physical steps that is required of me to correct myself and to take self-responsibility for myself and what I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as and to change to create myself and to reach self-perfection within what is best for all life.

Day 360 – Daily writing Part 5

 Day 359 – Daily writing Part4

I commit myself to write everyday within my journey to Life blog and to breathe and slow down and to see each and every letter I type, so that I can stop programming myself within spelling wrong and correct myself the first time, and to slow down and not just write any word that pops up or passes me by but to actually expand myself within my vocabulary through looking at what words to place next.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am within the experience of rushing my writing to stop and to slow down and to breathe, to start typing slow and to get the first words out and to bring myself HERE and out of the paranoia of writing.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am not focused on my writing to see what it is that I am accepting and allowing within myself as the thoughts/feelings/emotions and back chat to exist within and as me, and to see why I have them and what will be the result of accepting and allowing myself to be directed by them, as I see and realize that following the experience within me will result in the same time loop that I have created many years ago, and that change cannot come, as change is something I must actually live and not just intent.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am typing without being aware of what I am typing, to stop and to breathe and to slow down, to not go into the hope of changing, and to actually focus on my changing as I am doing it at the moment.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am judging myself on making mistakes when and as I am focused and working on change and correction, to stop and to breathe and to not judge myself as I realize that I have for many years lived NO correction and that the automation within mistakes has become accepted as my physical and thus I must and will still make mistakes only now I will see them as I am slowing down and thus I will be able to correct them.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am getting angry or making myself angry with myself for making a mistake to stop and to breathe, as I see and realize that making myself angry or getting angry is me attempting to use the anger as saying, it’s okay I got angry which means I do care but don’t really care about it as a way to justify my actions that I haven’t taken self-responsibility for, and thus it is simply a point of self-compromise and self-sabotage and not working for me or anyone else and thus anger is really useless when it is for self-interest. 

I commit myself to focus on myself and my writing when and as I am writing and to stop the excuses and justification that I use as reasons to not to have to take self-responsibility for myself and the actual physical steps that is required. 

I commit myself to take the actual physical steps that is required of me to correct myself and to take self-responsibility for myself and what I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as and to change to create myself and to reach self-perfection within what is best for all life.