Day 645 – The Mathematics of Evolution

Please listen to this recording, then you will find my writings below. I write in this blog in Self-Forgiveness what comes up within me while listening to this video. What comes up can be different for everyone, so I suggest you also write in self-forgiveness what came up for you – this can be reactions, insights, revelations, realizations, judgments – any thoughts, feelings and emotions. 

What I got at first was hearing Bernard saying – everyone is For ever losing – I then realized that when we go deep enough into the word Evolution within the sound of the word and letters, we get to the word actually expressing everyone for ever losing.

Self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see evolution as something great and magnificent, not seeing and realizing the implications of evolution as it is currently is that of the weak will perish and the strong will prevail, and so within that accepting and allowing abuse within MYSELF as always defining myself on the winning end of evolution and so justifying the abuse and death and destruction of all other life forms as simply being weak and so part of evolution – thus not seeing and realizing that within this Everyone is forever losing, as evolution will then never end and within the design and construct of evolution abuse is justified and even promoted. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to simply accept the theory of evolution as something natural and that cannot be directed, and so I am always a victim of evolution and must simply accept where the cookie crumbs fall as natural and part of evolution – NOT being real with myself within what is here as the HUMAN created systems that are unnatural and designed within a money construct of GREED and abuse of all life, and so Evolution running as a justification within that consideration is actually something the elite/rich and greedy like, as those that are suffering and being abused will accept the abuse and not stand up, as it will be justified in our own minds as simply us being weak and also being part of the evolution process – meantime it is a human system that is deliberately created to abuse for self-interest. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as HOW I am within my living/body within the construct of evolution, and accordingly classify myself as weak or strong, where I will justify my status within the theory of evolution through how much money I have, how good I look how much sex I get, how well I am doing in social groups, and so accordingly accept and allow abuse of myself and others. 

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to SEE and realize that evolution is ANYTHING that accumulates within the 1+1+1 mathematical equation and so what evolves on this planet has nothing to do with it being natural, but rather about what we accept and allow within ourselves and this world, and so we can direct and create a world that is best for all through stopping the mind/self-interest as ego, stand for and as ALL LIFE and to accumulate that instead to evolve.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed abuse in the name of evolution. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed justifications in the name of evolution.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to form self-limitations, judgements of myself and accordingly abuse myself in the name of evolution. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse others, to see and judge others as weak, as useless, as less, as inferior in the name of evolution. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create SEPARATION between all LIFE, humans, plants, animals and even the air I breath and so creating fear and abuse in the name of evolution. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to GIVE up on myself and others through giving into the theory of evolution as a way to escape self-responsibility and my response ability to al life as one as equals. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to to place myself and others in certain boxes of judgement of who is weak, who is strong, who deserves to survive and who does not – showing and revealing to me that this is what I am accepting and allowing as evolution to accumulate and thus not natural by an actual deliberate act of creation that is evil, as if evil is the solution. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to When I look in the mirror, when I see the gift as my body, as my physical, t judge my body as either weak or strong, and so accepting and allowing according to my judgements of my body a certain position within myself within this world as being part of evolution, either as someone that deserves to suffer and die and be weak, or to be strong and must survive, and so accepting and allowing not only consequences of abuse within my own life, but have the same approach to all life, and thus accepting ad allowing abuse of all life, from the small creatures and children to the big.

I commit myself to stop the nonsense as no sense of the accepted and allowed theory of evolution as something that is natural, and to instead live the accumulation as the direction of evolution of LIFE as equality and oneness of all life and to evolve life from survival and abuse to living and to be of expression in a practical realistic manner that is BEST FOR ALL.

Day 618 – My Journey to Life Update, My Desteni 2017

HI everyone,

I have decided to give an update in this blog today of how it is going with my journey to life, this isn’t referring to just my blog, it is referring to my daily every breath living, the journey HERE in each and every moment, and thus how am I doing?

I am a Destonian – this literally means one thing – rebirthing self as life and being a living example walking specifically with the Desteni Tools and principles that is best for all life in FACT.

I have been walking this journey for 9 years now, physically on the Desteni farm here with hundreds of Destoninas, with Bernard Poolman the Portal and everything else that is here as Desteni, the one and only Desteni for humanity, which is oneness and equality in fact.

I am not going to give a whole history lesson on my journey in this blog or compare anything. This is simply going to be an update.

Me personally

I am doing great, I am enjoying the daily challenges that I am currently facing internally and physically with my body and then externally (which doesn’t really exist) as all is one and equal, so me doing great does not mean I am saying life is good and easy, in fact it is me saying that there is a lot of shit, challenges and a lot of negativity, yet I am here, breathing ad I am standing, so I am doing great.

What are the challenges I am facing?

Currently I am facing quite a lot of challenges all at the same time, as I know this is how life is for most.

My challenges are as follow

1.       Me and my internal reality throwing random shit at me all the time to deal with, the thoughts, feelings and emotions that then takes my space and ability to response practically and within common sense. This I take on using the tools of Desteni as all ways, I breathe, I forgive, I write my forgiveness and then I change.

2.       I am facing who I am within my agreement – in relation to sex, communication and parenting – this I deal with the exact same tools and communicating.

3.       I am dealing with OLD long term addictions, which I am at the moment quitting and stopping, one at a time, with using the tools of Desteni and all the cool support on Eqafe from the Portal Sunette.

4.       I am challenged at the moment everyday with managing a farm/property on which a community lives ( the outside stuff) and making sure things outside gets done, general maintenance, and then attending to peoples requests for the things I can do but they cannot, like let’s say in a random moment someone needs to move something heavy, or get something fixed, I am the guy. This challenges Who I am within Flexibility and making sure that there are NO reactions, no fairness game playing out, but truly being at service within my ABILITIES to life to respond within my self-honesty. Plus all the projects that is on going, like building, setting things up, plants, nature etc.

5.       As all ways, I am still challenged by my Diet, what I eat and how I eat, and within this learning to know my body a lot more, this is a daily thing, and quit interesting to see how I eat and when and what and then the physical responses, I am within this also quitting a lot of things, like Breads as much as possible, I am now on day ten with NO coffee.

6.       Who am I within living in a community and when there are issues or conflicts or problems within the community and we have meetings and communications going on, who am I within this as a solutions all ways as what is best for all life.  So here I am challenged with never taking sides but standing with the group as a whole as principles and best for all life, not falling for what sounds right or wrong based on morality but always what is best for all and what’s in the words.

7.       I am challenged with Time, and this is specific with all my tasks that I have on the Detseni Farm, including the DIP courses where I am a buddy and have quit a few Trainees that I chat with weekly, and in that time I also have my house and my room and basic daily things I need to get too, not to mention sometime spending time with my son and Partner.

8.       This brings me to the other point, spending time with my son and partner, it is something that does not happen a lot, I do not get lots of time, unless it is late at night and my son is asleep and I can finally have time with my wife so to say lo, but then it is getting to late and I have to be in bed to wake up early to get the farm running in the mornings.

9.       I am always challenged with Money and finances, as I have NO control over finances or money, as we area  group and everything we do here depends on the message of Desteni and Eqafe and DIP and DIP lite moving and reaching people and thus that supports brings support back to us/me here equally so we can continue to be that support, but it hasn’t moved a lot in recent years, So I am always under a budget that is limited to really GROW and expand, which laces me under more pressure because that means less help on the farm and thus less time for me and things moving slower.

10.   I started a Project here on the Farm that is called Earth Haven and opened a Company called Earth Haven Foundation seven months ago, to create another branch for income – but this is much more than just income, as I am taking things to a whole other level with Earth Haven, and the challenge here is also reaching people and getting people to fund and support, because once again money is movement, and People are the foundation, so I want to reach a lot of people and then funding, create a cool group for pushing forward world change. Here my challenge is basically getting people to see the simplicity of this movement (Earth Haven) and how the impact of this will be great, basically creating hundreds of Desteni Farms across the world and even MORE and BETTER in terms of the physical practical functionality, because money can allow that and create that. her is a link if you are interested to see - https://www.patreon.com/earthhaven

11.   I run a couple of accounts for Desteni on Social Networks, and they haven’t been able to move a for a while, this is on my list daily to get a way to move them, for example the Desteni Universe I want to upload hundreds more of Bernard Pullmans Videos there but I do not have the time to go through all of them, recreate the videos and render them and upload them, as I KNOW they are awesome and most beneficial for all of humanity. Then there are still the twitter accounts, the Instagram accounts and and google accounts for Desteni and for Eqafe and Earth Haven that all needs to move daily and consistently. I am not finding time. - https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCb63lmCTvrWSy1-A2BO3fHg

12.   Another challenge is me blogging and vlogging a LOT more, and even doing my hangouts I used to do so much, as I truly enjoy it, but again time. So here I am doing a few a week and that’s what I can do currently, yet I know a lot more has to be done to reach more people, as that is crucial to change, to creating a world that is best for all life.

13.   Improving my reading and writing skills to become more effective within processing information and in general be able to be more clear within my words to live and express oneness and equality within myself and life.

Ok, I will stop here for today with the list of challenges I work with Daily for now, there are more, but I have to keep it more on the surface, otherwise the details of each and every challenge in each and every project or thing I do will be a book, which might not be a bad idea for the future, to write a book.

For reference, if you are interested in the DIP Pro course here and would like me to be your buddy, to walk this course with you, don’t be shy, people have to come first that are serious about helping themselves and this gets priority – so I definitely have time for  this – check it out here - http://desteniiprocess.com/ jus request me.

This is the update for now. Keep on writing, self – forgiveness and self-honesty, share and care, and no matter what stick to matter and stand within what is best for all life, this is only possible through focussing on who you are as LIFE.

Did you get distracted by the picture in the post?  check out this interview on distractions on Eqafe - https://eqafe.com/p/distractions-life-review

Day 600 – I am Capable of anything, am I? Day 3 of 21

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into my imagination of what I am capable of when and as I hear the words, or read the words – you are capable of anything, where I go into an alternate reality and totally disregard the reality that is here and who I am within and as this physical reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am capable of anything.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to believe that I am capable of anything to distract me from reality and what is here as who I am and the actual physical limitations, challenges that I deal with daily.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disbelieve that I am capable of anything.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to enjoy the disbelieve more than the belief, as the disbelief enforces my limitations, yet the belief takes me beyond my limitations and into imagination, and thus I see it isn’t a matter of believing but to live the words and to check it for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be in a struggle between what my mind shows me I am capable of and what I am actually capable of within the physical reality, where what my mind is showing me looks so easy and real and accomplish able, yet when I move and direct the physical reality there are so much more that I haven’t considered or looked at.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be effected by the words – you are capable of anything – and to within this effect take myself to a positive polarity within me where I end up only hitting negatives in friction with this polarity and so give up on myself. Instead of being real with myself, seeing how can I in fact live the words – I am capable of anything, and to first and foremost realize that I am capable of anything and everything and this includes first developing, teaching and practicing and training and integrating what is necessary for me to be capable of anything and everything which includes anything and everything I must walk and face to stand as those living words.

Thus I see and realize that I missed the words completely in practicality, as I was hearing them within energy as imagination, and so when I look and see the word as living word, I can see that – I am capable of anything – implies everything that is required and inclusive of the process to be walked to actually live and stand as the words – I am capable of anything, and to not give up following an imagination as a vision of what the words imply and means as an end result, completely missing the journey that is inclusive of ANYTHING, and only through walking the journey to I become capable in fact.