Day 63 – designing my body to attract women Part 3

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that my body is designed to only attract women for sex.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to design my body in a certain specific way within movement and behavior to attract women.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be brainwashed as a kid through society/education/environment/parents that my body is a tool that must look good and attract women so that I can have a relationship partner and continue the design of family within the system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse my body through extensive sports and physical damage just to proof to females that my body is worth having.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dress my body up in uncomfortable cloths compromising my physical and my movement just to impress females with my body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dress my body up like a Christmas tree to present a false image of myself to females to attract them and to catch them with my looks.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use make up on my body such as styling gel within my hair to mislead women with a picture presentation of my body to hide the inner me as the opposite of what I present to be able to get a female for sex.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go to the gym to build muscles to impress the females within my body and how it looks.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try and hide who I am and to not have to face who I am through going to the gym to built muscles and to deceive females into liking me for my body and thus they do not focus on who I am as a dishonest being that requires to deceive females for sex through using the body for self interest desires.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that if I attempt to change kmy body from the outside for self interest point such as gaining sex, acceptance, love, specialness, good judgment etc then I am only deceiving myself as I am not actually facing the real issue as who I have accepted and allowed myself to be.

I forgive myself that I have not realized that when i attempt to attract something from the outside such as females to give me something within self interest that it requires of me to abuse the body to look and present itself as something else and thus I am only abusing myself and accepting and allowing limitations within me.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that when I abuse the body through putting the body under pressure in going to the gym and playing hard core sports and activities to attract things to me from the outside such as female to love and accept me that I am actually only abusing myself as accepting and allowing myself to not accept me and love me and causing actual harm to me as the body that will have future consequences that will not be worth it in the end.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that when I use the body within self interest to attract things from outside of me such as females for sex that I am actually being deceptive and manipulative and presenting a false image to others and that the true accepted and allowed self will eventually come out as I did not take self responsibility for who I am and instead tried to hide it and that It will come back and bite me in the ass as physical consequences to the body as me and in my world.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that the body is much more than what I use it for, thus realizing that as long as I use the body for limited self interest points I will never be able to achieve the actual physical potential as myself as the body within the principal of what is best for all life. 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that how the body looks has nothing to do with how the body actually functions and thus I realize I have not actually seen or used the bodies actual functions and full potential as life one and equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the body as something separate of me as if I can do with it what I want because I belief it isn’t me, realizing that I am my body and what I do to my body I do to myself in fact as I am my body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that I am a spirit within the body that can use and abuse the body as if it a toy to be used and thus not considering the actual purpose and function of the body as me and that the body is the key as the substance to birthing self as life one and equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse the body within self interest and keeping the body limited within a mind created idea picture I have of what the body is and thus never realizing myself as the body one and equal. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that my body is made to only attract women for sex and thus I have within such a belief already limited my body and its actual function to only doing that and never actually evolving as life one and equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a limited picture self that only have to impress and present myself as a picture every day, not realizing myself as life as the physical body one and equal. 

To be continued – Day 64 – body parts

Day 62 – My body is in a constant modelling show Part 2.

This is a continuation of day 61 – The Body isn’t a picture part 1

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare my body to other bodies, either in magazines/TV or in my environment and see/judge my body as less than other bodies due to physical appearances, realizing that even if the physical appearance is different the functionality of the body is EXACTLY the same and that is what matters and what the body is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my body as less than other bodies due to me comparing my body in how it “looks” to other bodies and how they look within the belief that how a physical body looks determines what it is able to do, realizing that this is just a belief and that all human physical bodies are the exact same within their functionality unless one suffers from a physical disease or any other physical point that actually makes the body not function or able to function as iti s intended.

I forgive myself that I have not realized that all bodies are the exact same in their functionality and how they look is but simply a picture, a look and has no relevance to LIFE or what actually matters within this world as LIFE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my body as less than other bodies due to certain physical parts that may look bigger, stronger, slimmer, smaller, and to within that compare my body to the other body and completely ignore/neglect the actual purpose of the physical body within the idea that the picture the body presents is real and that matters.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel less than other bodies if what I am comparing myself to isn’t equal or almost the same as another body and within this create self judgment and ideas and beliefs about self that is completely not necessary yet allowing it to consume me and to actually take over my world as my focus to either reach a different physical look/appearance and to change myself into the desired picture and within this completely miss out on the actual body functions and how to improve self with the body as how it functions and NOT how it looks.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my body as tiny.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my body as skinny regardless of the actual physical things I am capable of doing, clearly indicating I am after looks and not what works practically in and as this physical reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that how I look determines how capable I am, realizing that my four years at Desteni Farm and working on the farm building homes, and doing lots of other stuff have shown me that I am capable in and as my body and that how big I am and how I look has no value at all to what the body can do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want and desire to look good in my physical body only to attract females for sex, realizing that If I was all alone on earth with myself then how I look would not have mattered at all, showing and revealing the actual value of physical looks as Being NO VALUE AT ALL.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my body as big.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be angry at myself and my body for not being the picture I desire and thus living in separation of my body and actually reaching its full potential within its actual purpose/functions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare my body as if it is in a modelling competition every day.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put my body under severe stress through constantly comparing my body with everything and everyone all day as if it is in a modelling competition.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to constantly compare my body with other bodies as if it is in a meddling show and that there will be a prize to be won every day.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to tell my body it is ugly through constantly punishing my body as if it in a constant modelling show that must perform everyday or else!!

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse my body through acting/walking and behaving in certain ways during my day as if I am in a constant modelling show and that those moves will make me win the show and I might get a prize, realizing it is all a delusion of self.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put my body under constant pressure as if it is in a modelling show all day and to tell my body through my actions that I hate my body/myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my body as being something separate and that I can abuse and do with as I please as long as I as the mind consciousness systems are satisfied that I could suck all the energy I want out of the body not realizing I am actually sucking all the energy out of ME and thus killing myself faster and abusing myself at the same time just to maintain a certain idea/picture presentation of myself everyday in order to feel accepted and wanted and looked at.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel as if I am punished for the physical body I have within how it looks, not considering that my body fucking functions and this is something to be grateful for in Capitalism, as there are millions of kids that do not have full functioning bodies due to all the inconsiderate things capitalism do to life every second that has a influence on all LIFE and thus children of all races are born with new physical diseases every fucking day.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be ungrateful for me as my body one and equal to have a full functioning body that gives me the chance this life time to be as effective as I can be to move and direct me and to rebirth myself as life and to not take this for granted and to STOP the current money system as Capitalism that is destroying our world and the people within it that takes away children’s chances of having a dignified life that if fun to live due to consumerism and what the system has to do and the lengths the system has to go to keep on making money eve at the expense of our very own future.

To be continued on ... my body is designed to attract women as Self Abuse Part 3

day 61 –the body isn’t a picture Part 1

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that I have been abusing my body through trying to fit my body into a picture idea within my mind.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that I have been abusing my body through forcing my body into doing certain things to get my body to fit into a desired picture Idea I want my body to look like.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to consider that I am abusing my body when I am trying to fit my physical body into looking like a picture I have within my mind.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that when I try and fit my body into a looking like a picture idea/desire I have within my mind that I am actually telling the body that it isn’t good enough and must be abused/punished till it fits into looking like a certain picture I have within my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse my body through certain actions I took during my life within the desired outcome of my body changing and fitting the desired picture  have of how I want to look like within my head.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that when I try and fit how my body looks like into a picture idea/desire I have of how I want it to look like within my mind I am actually telling my body I do not want my body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to tell my body that I do not want my body through the actions I have taken and take to fit it into a certain picture idea within my mind.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to ask the body for forgiveness for what I have put it through an still put it through and to stop and change and to live as one as equals as me as my body as the same.

 Eye Twitching - The Body as Teacher

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to consider that when I act in certain ways where I present myself as my body as a picture I am disregarding the bodies actual functions as the physical one and equal and thus abusing the body for self interest and desires in separation, obviously the body will then want to get rid of me if I am constantly telling the body you are not good enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to through my actions and thoughts and back chat tell the body that the body as me isn’t good enough and through this actually giving the body permission to end me as death as the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my body as less than the pictures I desire my body must look like within my head.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare my body in how it looks with pictures within my mind, telling my body that its functions has no real purpose for me as I am only concerned about how it looks, thus giving the body permission to do as I do and so I form body problems.

 Life Review - The Mind, Body and Soul

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my body signals through the thoughts/back chat I have that the body should only be a picture and that the body functions is of no purpose to me, giving the body permission to do as I do and simply stop functioning properly as it now will only focus as I do to become a picture.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my body as inferior to the pictures within my mind, realizing that the body is in fact far more superior then any thought or picture as the body is required for such thing to exist in the first place.

To be continued

Day 60 – influence

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be influenced by other people.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be influenced by others within self interest points.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to be influenced by others that are living the principal of what is best for all life in all ways and to learn and expand myself as Life as who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that I am not allowed to be influenced as this is a sign of weakness, realizing it is only the ego trying to do everything on its own knowing it will never succeed as the ego only seeks self interest to survive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be influenced by self interest and fear and self judgment but when it comes to what Is best for all life I reject it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that if I am being influenced with what is best for all life that I am being brainwashed, not realizing that I have already been brainwashed all my life to only exist as a limited mind enslaved zombie that survives never living life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect being influenced as bad.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect being influenced as being good.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself when I am influenced by someone or something.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be influenced by certain people that I have created ideas about within my mind, realizing that as long as I define certain people in my world a certain way within my head I will be influenced by them as my definition of them gives them permission.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I am the creator and the cause and the effect of all influences happening within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not breathe and be here within and as the physical where there is no energy movement or mind that can be influenced by simple things that create a shift in energy within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compromise myself within participating within the mind as thoughts and energy and thus to be influenced by others/things within my world and that creates a cause for me to change within self interest in the fear for survival.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that if someone has influence over me that they have some sort of power, realizing that it is only me within my mind within myself that can give way to any influence as I have to first accept it and then allow it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that people with influence are special, realizing that I am only separating me as them and thus creating them as more than me in separation instead of standing one and equal in and as the physical as that which is best for all life in all ways in each breathe and to walk as one influences as LIFE.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be influenced by others.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that if I am influenced by others I am not breathing effectively and standing within each breathe as Who I am, thus as I do not know who I am I can be influenced.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I feel I am being influenced by others I am within the mind participating in back chat and thoughts that gives away my authority as the director of my life as who I am and giving permission to others to influence me through energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I give authority to someone else as being more than me that I am within that giving them permission to decide for me who I am and thus they have influence over me.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that as long as I exist as the mind as energy I can be influenced by anyone as all they have to do is change my energy through their actions and words.

Thus I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that as long as I participate within the mind as polarity as energy I have no real defectiveness or stability within myself or this world as breathe in an as the physical as the energy can simply be shifted by anyone at any time as I give it permission as long as I exit as it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame others for how I experience myself when I am being influenced by them, realizing that I am only influencing myself through accepting and allowing the influence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as bad and les than when I am influenced by someone else.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see it as bad to be influenced by someone else, realizing that if I am being influenced by someone it is a cool way of showing me where I am not yet standing stable as breathe and thus I can look at the point and self forgive.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realized that being influenced starts in the mind as back chat as self judgment and as comparison within the mind.

I commit myself to when I see I am giving permission for someone else to have influence over me to stop and breathe, to investigate why I am doing it and to take self responsibility as the influence of life, to life what is best for all life as the only influence that matters.

I commit myself to write and apply self forgiveness on all self interest influential points within my life where I allow the personality to influence my breathing here stable as the physical one and equal and to investigate why I give away my authority to other influences that only exist in self interest as the hell that the current world exist as.

I commit myself to life the principal of oneness and equality and to write daily and apply self forgiveness for the next seven years to be the influence in this world that is best for all life in all ways, and to bring about a equal money system that will only influence life all life in what is best for all life as a beneficial life for all equally here on planet earth.

I commit myself to check who I am as my influence and to see if how I am influencing people within my daily life is best for all life or in self interest to spread fear and all that is in self interest as the ego, and to stop and change myself as who I am to that which only influences people in WHO I AM as the living example as that which is best for all life in all ways.