Day 376 – Power Games Part 2

Day 375 - Power Games Part 1

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having power over everyone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire having power over everyone because then I believe I have the right to be secure with myself and thus have confidence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be secure with myself within myself as who i am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be confident within myself within who I am and thus seeking it through alternative ways such as seeing power over others to control them and to have control and to only then feel secure and then only be confident.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that seeking power over others is a clear indication that I am feeling powerless somewhere within my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not question the actions of myself within seeking power over others.

I forgive myself that have accepted and allowed myself to not investigate my past to see where this game originated from and why/how.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek power over others because of past experiences/memories where others have played power over me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define what power is through past experiences where I felt powerless, and to within this give the definition of power what I have experienced from others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that, in past events where I was over powered by others either through mental points such as knowledge and information or physically such in sports or in fight/bullying to have through those events create fears/insecurities that now led up to me seeking power over others in the event of not having to experience those past experiences again.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear other people having power over me due to their status in society.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear other people over powering me simply because of their Ego resonance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give permission within myself for others to overpower me within almost anything simply because I have secret thoughts/back-chat within me about myself all the time, that is dis-empowering towards myself giving anyone the upper hand over me at any time. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that being over powered by others starts first within myself, with my relationship that I have towards myself, within how much self-respect and honor I have, and when and as I am participating within back chat and secret thoughts, I am giving away my self-respect and my honor as I am living in deceit and thus dis honor and dis-respect, and through this behavior I am creating myself as less then within my mind only, and so I actually live as if I am less than others, and through this I am giving others permission to want to overpower me.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am attempting to play the game of power, to stop and to breathe and to not participate, within the realization that there is no power game unless I participate within such a game, as it takes two to make a game a game and to have meaning and value.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make the starting point of not wanting to play in the power game to have power, seeing and realizing that this wanting of power isn’t over others, but instead self-empowerment, where I stand stable as my breathing and not within fear as the back chat and secret mind.

I commit myself to clear my starting point of any secret mind starting point that is within self-interest and self-gain, and to change my starting point to that of common sense and self-honesty to what is best for all life. Seeing and realizing that a self-empowered person that has self-respect and honor is a person that is stable and that is best for all life. 

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am in fear of others over powering me, to stop and to breathe and to look at what is it within that moment within me within my secret mind and back chat that is going on that is triggering this fear, and to clear myself through exposing myself to myself and to be self-honest within myself and to then take a deep breath and stop, to then focus on breathing and building my self-discipline as breathe. 

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am seeking confidence or security through dis-empowering someone else only to empower myself, to stop and to realize that this is not what power is as it required abuse and ego, as both or those are indications of actual weakness, and that self-empowerment is to breathe and to NOT have any secret thoughts or back chat but to stick to the physical and what is real, to prevent nay abuse, as that is real power, to not go there where abuse exist, but to stand by oneself as breath as the physical and to trust self, to honor self and respect self.

Day 375 - Power Games Part 1

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make life a game of power, to see who's got the most power and who is the weakest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being seen as weak, or the weakest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear others having power over me and that I have lost the game, and thus as I am a loser I must obey or submit to the winner, or become their friend and be in their good books, in order to make up for the loss. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make life about gaining power over others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I do not have power over others that I am weak.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel insecure and less than others if I do not have some form of power over them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I do not have power over others that they have power over me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if someone has power over me, that I must fear them. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the idea of someone having power over me and that they can somehow mind control me or make me feel bad about myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the idea that someone has power over me from having certain abilities that I don’t and that they can use it against me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compete with everyone in my world to see who’s got power over who, and within this establish a self-definition of myself, that is either of superiority or inferiority.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize how I am creating all my fear within my world through competing with everyone to see who’s got power over who, as I see and realize that when and as I do this, that I am creating points of fear that isn’t really there, and can only exist because I am playing this game.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek power over others to feel secure, seeing and realizing that I only do this because I feel insecure about myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I seek power over others, in any form that I can find power within, if it is physical or mental or metaphysical, I am creating points of fear within myself and my reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I play the game of seeking power over others, that I will find people that I can over power and that this will create a point of submission within me and my world and thus give complete fear/power towards the other persona and thus imprison myself within what this other person thinks about me or see in me or have towards me as I will become self-conscious within this persons presence because I believe now that this person really has power over me simply because my game did not work out, which is all bullshit and only mental delusion.

Day 348 – Ignoring the obvious point in the Moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I am busy with work and something happens and I have for instance the thought of calling someone to get input on the situation to Ignore such a moment within the believe that it isn’t necessary and that I don’t have to do it if I don’t want to, seeing and realizing such a moment is me as the quantum physical assessing everything at once and that already a common sense solution for me was made and presented to me to follow thought, and I can asses the solution presented to me and make a decision.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Ignore the obvious points presented to me in the moment that is of common sense and a solution to the problem just because I do not feel like making the extra effort.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not make the extra effort within the moment no matter if it is necessary or not, as long as I check all options and solutions and that I can always know I wasn’t limited and did not limit myself within my capabilities and that I stand clear and at peace with myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make myself stupid to the obvious points to follow in moments that they are here and to then when and as I am questioned or taken on about the problem and questioned on what I did to solve it to now have to create and make up all these stories and lies and excuses to why I did not follow the obvious point in the moment that was here, and get shit for that and make myself feel stupid and be made stupid.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as my limitations of not following all points through that is here to make sure there is not come backs on the points I am working with through ignoring the obvious moments of correction/solutions I see here and to continue forth within deliberate ignorance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to keep on living as excuses instead of solutions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as the excuses I create for myself through not following through on the points that present themselves within moments as possible solutions to a problem/scenario to me and rather create them as regrets/could haves and thus excuses.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be dishonest towards myself within moments of clarity within what needs to be done through not doing it within excuses and fears and all kinds of bullfrogs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I create my own anger within myself towards myself for keep on making myself seem stupid because of those moments I did not trust myself when and as the points of possible solutions present themselves here and I do not follow through on it and just let it go and then face the stupidity of me doing that when and as someone else is throwing it in my face, seeing and realizing that I am creating distrust within myself f myself through my own actions instead of building confidence and self-respect and honor.

I commit myself to when and as I am in a situation and there is a problem that arise and I can see the problem and when and s that instant moment is HEE where I see the possible solution, to Stop and to breathe and to follow through on it, to trust myself and to also check that what I see does make sense and that it is a common sense solution and not just a quick fix, as the quick fix usually leaves out the fixing part. And to follow through even if it is for nothing, I know I will be clear and standing at peace and self-respect and honor within myself. And that NO excuses and no justifications and no dishonesty is crawling and lurking within me which creates consciousness and feeds it and thus only have limitations instead of expansions as myself to self-perfection.