I have been stuck on level sixty five within Candy Crush for
three weeks now, I have used at least two hundred lives on that one level,
playing every day a couple of times, at least five to ten times.
The point that has been shown to me, or the pattern here,
isn’t about the obvious pattern of playing Candy Crush every day and not making
it through this level, No it has shown me something I did not see of myself
within my general process that I am walking with Desteni.
Let me explain, within Candy crush, being stuck on this one
level, for weeks, trying every day, as bets as I can to make it through this
level, I have come to a point of acceptance, this point of acceptance is
interestingly created through becoming used to something.
Because I have made it through this lever for weeks and kept
on trying for weeks to make it though I have become used to NOT going anywhere,
I have come to accept that this level is what I will be on forever, and so I
have come to notice that I am playing everyday Candy crush, level sixty five
with the acceptance that this is it, I cannot go further, I cannot do more, I
will simply replay this lever every day for ever.
I have come to accept this level of myself, I have come to
accept that this level is all I can reach and all I can do, since I have been
trying so hard for weeks and haven’t reached any point of making it, I have
come to only play it every day for the sake of playing it, I have lost sight
that there is any possibility of moving further and going forwards, I have come
to believe that there is no forward for me.
Even though it is obvious that I can go further, I know
there is more levels and that I can go there, I have create the belief that
where I am now is my limit, it is the end for me, I will play and stay on level
sixty five forever, and somehow I have become so addicted to just playing this
level, that I Play it for the sake of playing it, not even to move forward.
Once I noticed this pattern that I have fallen into within
Candy Crush, I have realized how his has happened without me even knowing it,
because it was created through time, through repeating myself over and over
within the same actions, and then it simply became normal, when it isn’t
normal. It is that point of acceptance,
and allowance and then it becomes normal. And so I noticed how easy it is for
this to happen anywhere else within my world, within me within what I do and
live, without me even knowing it at all. Till I actually see such point
possible, and then questioning everything about me to see where I am doing
this.
I am looking here at my entire process, my entire life of
who I am, and how I have come to accept that who I am currently and what I do
as my actions from who I am as being all that I can ever be, a believe that I
have created and now I am simply living it, I am living this acceptance and
allowing it daily within each breathe, believing it is all I can be and thus
all I can do.
What I did in situations like this, was that I did it first thing when I woke up in the morning. Mind is still fresh. It worked for me to solve problems, not always thou.
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