Day 239 – The voice in my head is me Part 3

Day 237 – The voice in my head is me –But it cant be!! Part 1
 Day 238 – The voice in my Head is me Part 2

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to never question why I speak to myself in my head.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blindly participate within speaking to myself in secret in my head and to not see and realize that this isn’t Normal, because if I am self honest with myself, I will never want to speak what goes on in my head to another person because I know I will be seen as a threat or be exposed for the evil within me, o why am I doing i to myself then.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that I need the voice in my head to exist and live.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that the voice in my head is normal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that speaking to myself isn’t healthy as it only creates hell for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that ninety percent of all my problems come from me talking to myself an making shit up in my head about anything and everything which is never based on facts but on assumptions/interpretations/perceptions/ideas/beliefs/opinions that is always only limited and defined within my own ways that always only fit me and thus can never be trusted and because I follow the shit I create shit.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as problems arise in my reality that I have to deal with, that me participating within the secret conversations with myself ONLY always make the problems worse and that if I had to stop the back chat and inner voices of myself, that the problem cannot grow from there and only be solved with practicality which is ALL it in fact requires.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that the voice in my head is a outflow from memory and experiences that I have accumulated over my life-time as knowledge and information as words and their definitions that was taught to me and shown to me how to be lived as my limitations/enslavement, and that this proof is revealed when I look back at when I was a baby and that there was no thoughts and no inner voices and other bullshit – showing me that the voice in my head isn’t real first of all and just ME and that it is not normal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge that which isn’t normal as something bad and wrong and that it must mean that I am bad and wrong and evil, seeing and realizing that it is not to judge it as good or evil, it is to see what is real and what is not and to stop the illusions and anything that isn’t best for all, because what isn’t best for all can obviously not be best for me as I am part of ALL.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that when and as I hear voices in my head, that it is simply memories of me or others playing out inside my mind that is ME playing it yet hearing it as separate, seeing and realizing that it isn’t anything to fear or to belief or make real, but to breathe and realize it isn’t real and thus I can simply stop it.

I commit myself to show that the voice in people’s heads is them and nothing more.

I commit myself to show that the voices people have in their heads can be stopped equal and one as they were created through writing and self forgiveness and living the corrections practically as that which is best for all life.

I commit myself to when and as the voice in my head comes us to stand firm and to not let it be normal as I realize it isn’t and that it is a side effect/outflow of something else, and to instead investigate why I talk to myself within the specifics of the inner conversations so that I can see who I have accepted and allowed myself to become so that I can stand one and equal as me as the voice and stop it, till there is no voice and only me here breathing as a self willed self directed being that stands as Life with no secrets and no hidden self’s (characters/personalities)

I commit myself to when and as I catch myself talking to myself to not finish the conversation in my head and to take a deep breath instead and STOP.

I commit myself to live these commitments as myself first to be the actual practical example of that it can be done and that we are in fact the creators of the voices and thus can un-create it and do not have to be subject to it or define ourselves as it.

Day 238 – The voice in my Head is me Part 2

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Day 237 – The voice in my head is me –But it cant be!! Part 1

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself within manipulating myself to make t seem that the voice in my head cannot be me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate myself within making myself belief that the voice in my head cannot be me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the voice in my head as a way to deceive and manipulate myself to belief that it isn’t me, seeing and realizing that I do this because then i do not feel responsible for what is existent within me and can always blame the voice as saying but I thought or I forgot or I assumed or I interpreted and as if the voice in the mind can be excused.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the voice in my head and all the it says, seeing and realizing that as long as I separate myself from the voice in my head I will fear it as I am not standing one and equal as the creator as the voice in fact and thus giving away all my power to as the creator as the direct participant to stop and breathe and give myself back to myself where there is no voice in my head.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to identify and call me speaking to myself in my head as “the voice” in my head, seeing and realizing that within saying the voice in my head I am claiming and making me speaking to myself as not being me when in fact it is MY VOICE and not the voice.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and as I voice myself to myself within my own head to not see the obvious, that I am the voice in my head and that I am the voices and what they say from and as thoughts or interaction in my reality as thoughts to what I react towards.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I am always the voice in my head.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate and deceive myself deliberately within saying that others create the voice in my head, or motivates me to say things I say in my head to myself as a way to blame and to not have to take self responsibility for what I say and have conversations about in my head that is always evil as it is in secret and hidden from the rest in a dark space called my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what is going on in my head towards other and about others and even myself where I have evil vile disgusting and brutal conversations with myself that is of abuse and to within knowing this try and hide it even from myself and separating myself from this voice making myself belief it cannot be me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realized that I am giving away ALL my power and the ability I have as the creator and direct participant of the voice in my head through saying and making myself belief that it isn’t me and that it cannot be me to STOP it and to stand one and equal as my own voice in my head.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that if I have to admit that the voice in my head is me in fact that I will within this go insane and not know who I am, thus I see and realize that I decide who I am and therefore I can within taking self responsibility for the voice in my head as being me doing it still be here breathing and not lose myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief that if I admit the fact that I am the voice in my head that I now have to live it out and become the voice to be honest with myself, seeing and realizing that it not being honest with myself as the voice in my head as me isn’t real and just me making shit up in my head that is always of self interest and thus I do not have to become it or belief I must live it, but that self honesty is that I must stop it as it isn’t real and only fucking up my actual life and life here on earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that as I am the direct creator and participant of the voice in my head that it is really not necessary to separate myself in fear from it as it is me thus I can simply as MYSELF stop it, one and equal as being the creator of it I can stop it.

To be continued.

Day 237 – The voice in my head is me –But it cant be!! Part 1

Evil –this is the first word that pops up when I see that admitting to myself that the voice in my head is only me, it is who I have accepted and allowed myself to become, and it is evil, when I say evil I am not saying bad as a negative experience or emotion, I am saying it from the point of what is best for all life and self honesty, and having a voice in my head in secret isnt best for all life or being self honest, we all know we fear what others thing of us and what they have going on in their heads about us all the time, so why do we not see we must stop our own voices as we would like to give as we would like to receive - NO judgment and a truly free world from secrets and inner realities that abuse others and themselves in their heads.

I have slowed down, and I have seen myself directly in the participation of the voices in my head, what I say, what I think and tell myself and how I talk about others and how I comment on things, it is pretty dame straight forward that it is me and it is evil because it isn’t within the best interest of all life, it is all abusive if one is self honest.

We all know what we say in our heads to ourselves about things/others in general, we will look at someone and then there will be a thought and a reaction and a emotions or feeling and then there will be accordingly a conversation one has with oneself, so let’s say I am in the parking lot and I see a man sleeping on the side of the street, I will say stuff to myself like – “fucking lazy shit” or “dammed this guy is making the street look bad” – or “how did this guy get here” or “he looks really badly dressed and he is dirty” – but then when I talk to the guy I am someone else, I will never say the things I just told myself in my head to the guy – we all do this every second of every day. It is a disease. It is a mental disease.

So now what happens is, this voice is kept secret from everyone, because we belief no one can see what we say to ourselves about others, so we feel save and not limited and free to tell ourselves w3hat we want and how we want and when we want and no one can do anything about that – well it is not so.

The fact that the world is the way it is today (hell on earth for most) is because that is what goes on in our heads, so now the question is, why is it that something we keep secret from everyone else is then creating and manifesting this world the way it is?

Because we might not speak it out loud but we have spoken it within, so it is who we are as acceptance and allowances and who we are determines what we do.

And we will accept and allow that which is within us within others one and equal, so people walk around daily with sickening thoughts and conversations about others and things in their heads that no one sees and that isnt done openly, but when and as someone do it for real, living out these thoughts and playing out the reactions of the conversations they had within their minds, the rest that still keep it all secret will accept and allow it as normal, because everyone knows they are having the thoughts and here is the one guy/girl that actually plays it out. So everyone knows they are guilty and just as able to play it out if the push is enough, therefore no one will really do anything but maybe try and make the guilt lighter by pointing fingers.

So back to the voice in my head.

this isn’t a bad thing, neither is it a good thing, however I have made the decision to take self responsibility for these voices within my head, oh wait I mean for myself talking to myself in my own head, being the voice itself. See how much easier that makes it, it gives oneself power back to actually stop it and to direct it instead of the other way around – so when I talk to myself I do not judge it, I breathe and I see what is here, this is how I can see for myself what I have accepted and allowed myself to become as who I am.

So I stop these voices through never ever following them or taking them as being real at all, I realize every time they come up, it is all a LIE every single time so I know I can look at the shit I say in my head and then I investigate the points, i will either dissolve it there and then with forgiving myself and breathing or I will sit down and write it out and do my self-forgiveness.

So to be clear – I never follow the voices because I understand that they are never real, it is me talking to myself in my head, how can that be real, it is delusion, it is like being in court but no one else is there to defend themselves or give perspective or anything, it is a major mind-fuck if one belief that what you tell yourself based on the limited knowledge and information you have in you head are ever true about anything or anyone. It is you agreeing with you LOL. No feedback that is real in any way what so ever. Just assumptions and fears and feelings and emotions guiding the voice of yourself to speak to yourself in your head, do you even understand where the thoughts/feelings/emotions come from that is starting up these internal conversations? NO – so don’t trust it at all ever.

Will you follow a voice that comes from a dark tunnel up ahead, and then there is this little creepy hand sticking out asking you to take its hand, well obviously not because you don’t know where it comes from and where it will take you and what the fuck is going on, so this is the same for self talking to self and what ewer is motivating the conversation if it is a thought/feeling/emotion you must know it is this creepy hand sticking out and telling you to follow it. We all know when we watch movies that the person always doing it should not have done it because we can see it is STUPIDITY.

Next up – self forgiveness

Day 28 - conversations with myself.

The never ending conversations we have with ourselves, it is really stupid and unnecessary, talking about stuff and making decisions about stuff while talking to yourself about it, how can anything be relevant then, you are giving yourself feedback in your own mind, it is like the devil asking the devil for help lol.

Self forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blindly believe and act as if talking to myself in my mind is "normal".

I forgive myself that I have not considered that as a child I did not have the conversations in my mind and that the conversations I have currently was/is created through me participating in my mind as past experiences and memories, as the conversations in my mind is actually the past playing out where I talk to myself scheming/planning/determining and gossiping about everything.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself  to entertain myself with having conversations with in my mind, realizing that with in this I am creating split personalities for myself that can with in space and time end up as some disease where I forget who I am and simply fade away.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the conversations in my head is good for me, as I have proven to myself over time that the conversations in my head only leads to postponements, justifications, reasons and limitations with in my world, instead of acting in the physical with in the principal of what is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the conversations in my head and that they are relevant, realizing that I am talking to myself and giving myself advice and feedback with no real physical feedback with different perspectives and actual common sense.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the conversations in my head is good for me, realizing that when I talk to myself in my head I can easily create mind traps for myself where I get lost and will have no way of getting out because I trapped myself with in a limited space of information and limited concepts/ideas/common sense and thus I can not really ever help myself but only go in circles and occupy my mind and never really move with in and as the physical in this reality effectively.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to indulge with in the mind as having conversations with myself where I am always right and where the ego thrive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feed the ego through having conversations with it in my mind where I can always win and be right.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate with in conversations with myself as the ego with in my mind where I can feel unchallenged.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to addicted to the conversations within my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not investigate what I have accepted and allowed with in my life that has created a voice in my mind with whom I have conversations with and to take self responsibility for it and forgive myself to end the separation and the limitation and enslavement of the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compromise myself through talking to myself in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself through having conversations with in my mind with myself where I end up judging myself, creating fear with in myself, creating expectations with in myself, postponing doing things in my world, justifying things, gossiping and blaming and hate speech and everything that basically exist in this world that is fucking up this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself  to have a secret world with in my mind where only I can talk to myself and have conversations, that no one else can see or hear, not realizing that this should have been a BIG indicator that there is something terribly wrong, that something such as this exists, as it creates a world where no trust can exist or actual real relationships with real communication as there is always secret conversations that gives direction in a physical world that is real.

I forgive myself that I have not realized that having secret conversations in my mind with myself as the mind is actually a big red light that must show me something isn't right as I am existing as two being while presenting only one tow others as this is deception and evil.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that with i having conversations in my mind with myself I am giving permission for my mind to create demons with in me that can take over through only my consent and harm others and myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a world where all humans have secret conversations with in their minds, and for not seeing and realizing that this is why the world is the way it is, everyone for themselves and a world full of demon possessed people, as they present themselves one way but have a secret someone inside of themselves that never reveals itself till it is to late.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give power and relevance to the conversations in my mind.

I commit myself to when ever I see I am talking to myself to look at what it is I am talking about and to look within myself why? And to question the conversation and to stop the pattern through applying the tools that I have such as writing, self forgiveness, self honesty and using common sense to stop and to birth myself in and as the physical where I am a living being and not a thinking being, one and equal as life in and as the physical as that which is real.

I commit myself to when I find myself thinking and having conversations with myself to stop and to bring myself back here to the physical, either through moving myself or doing something practical, playing with the dogs or walking, and to with in these actions birth myself here, to not exist as a thought that will fade away, but to be life one and equal as actual living being where I am one and not two separate being.

I commit myself to breathe and to stop the conversations with in my mind, and when I find I can not to use the tools I have and write it out so that I can see me in front of me, and to then self forgive myself to stop the pattern and rebirth myself, to be the child as I was where I ahd no thoughts, no conversations in my mind but to express myself in and as the physical one and equal in each breathe unconditional.